Hooked up last night with the Italian daddy I fuck sometimes. Just before he came over I had been running around the neighborhood and at one point had to go pick something up at a friend’s place (down one huge hill, up another, then up 4 flights of stairs, then back down the hill, up the other big hill)… It was a celebration of sorts for him. That day he started a new job after being unemployed for a over a year…

He started by giving me a blowjob but his teeth were hitting my dick, so I switched to fucking him. Problem was I was tired and I sorta gave out before I was able to cum. Plus the room got hot (which is always bad in my case), and his hole just didn’t feel the same as it had in the past (looser – not sure why)…

Anyway, I tried, but it just didn’t happen. He wasn’t going to accept failure, so he had me lay down. I was such a sweaty mess I had to make sure there was a towel under me – everything I touched got wet. He went to work, and cleaned off my dick with a blowjob (much better this time). He worked and worked and worked and tried everything in the book. I got hard for a bit and fucked him some more, but then it was just clear it wasn’t going to happen. He tried a little more, but finally I just put an end to it.

Too bad, would have been nice to give him a special reward for finding a job…

Load 2010-8

Damn! Today’s a pretty good day. I fucked the tweaked guy with the messy ass around 10:30a and then a couple hours later got back on line ’cause I was horny and wanted to jack off. This guy who lives fairly close by hit me up and wanted to come over. I told him I had just cum a few hours before and wasn’t sure I could come again, but that I was up for it if he was…

Well, he came over – it was about 3 hours after I had gotten done with the first guy. He came in and was on the attractive side of average… When I started feeling up his body he just froze, and went into sorta this submissive mode, and let me do the rest. I took off his pants and accidentally pulled down the jockstrap he was wearing. After putting the jockstrap back where it where it belonged I bent him over the bed and started rimming his ass. He was a little musky and he had a bit of a meaty ass (nice though) so I didn’t try to rim too deeply.

I then just stood up, lubed my dick (more oil-based Wet), and shoved my cock in him. He hadn’t even sucked my dick… That just lasted for a few seconds and I pushed him onto the bed face down. He was still half dressed – we were both still wearing t-shirts – hadn’t gotten around to taking them off.

It was pretty anonymous sex. I had sorta forgotten what his face looked like as I was fucking him (it wasn’t until after we were done and he turned his head that I thought “oh yeah, he’s got a beard – forgot that…”) But his hole felt really good. It was sorta soft and silky. If any ass was going to get me to cum again it was one like his. His body wasn’t as good as the guy earlier, but he definitely had the better ass – and that’s what counts most when you’re a bottom…

It took a while of fucking him pretty hard before I felt my orgasm coming, and then it took forever to actually cum, but I did manage to cum. That’s hard for me, so I was pretty happy with how it went…

I then rolled him on his side, spooned him and cuddled for a while. He seemed to like that. We didn’t talk much initially, but then did finally exchange a few personal details (though I still don’t know his name).

I need to have more days like today… 😉

Load 2010-7

I’m not doing too well with giving loads this year… It’s the middle April and I’ve only given 7 loads and the last one was 25 days ago… Oh well…

There were actually two hookups since my last post. One of them was with a 6’5″ XXL chub – not sure what in the hell I was thinking but the “neg, safe sex only, versatile top” part of his profile turned me on…

Last night I was looking initially, but didn’t find anything other that stuff downtown and I didn’t want to travel. This morning I got online and wasn’t expecting to find anything, but this guy hit me up on BBRT and was up for coming over. We set a time but he was late getting here, but he did finally arrive – with all these shopping bags. It was 10am in the morning – so it’s not like he’d just come from shopping. When we got to the bedroom he explained that he’d been up all night “partying”… He didn’t seem too messy, but he was a bit messy – sorta a bit hyper.

He kept asking for permission for everything which was a bit cute. He even asked permission to suck my cock, which of course I let him do… When I started feeling his butt it felt either cummy or lubed, couldn’t tell which. I asked him if he had any loads in there and he said “yeah, as many as I can get, until I can’t get fucked anymore.” OK, so he was so tweaked he didn’t understand the question… I gave up and got him on the bed had him suck me a little more and then turned him over and fucked him.

He was so tweaked there was no real connection with him – he was just a hole. He actually had a really nice body – it looked especially good when he was face down on my bed. Wet lube had sent me this huge variety pack of lubes, shaving creams, etc. and so I was trying out some of the old style oil-based lube (I like the fact that it’s not condom compatible)… I was fucking him pretty hard but my dick wasn’t quite getting the stimulation it needed… Not hitting the right places or something. I finally sorta just wore out and stopped for a bit (kept my dick in though)…

After a couple minute breather I dumped a bunch of lube on his ass crack above his hole and went back to fucking him. As I was fucking him I thought that t-shirt you see some guys wearing “Fuck me like you hate me”. I really felt zero emotional connection to the bottom – he was just some messy, tweaked out poz guy who seemed like his life was sorta out of control. Sure he had a nice body, but that just made him a decent piece of meat. Good thing I’m not the type of top who likes to have intimate, romantic sex… This time around I got myself at an angle so my dick had more stimulation and that did the trick – a few minutes later I blew what felt like a huge load in his ass.

I stayed in his ass for a couple minutes as I caught my breath. Usually I cuddle bottoms, but didn’t really feel like it with him so much. I did it a little, but it was sorta half-hearted. Then I pulled my dick out and even with my glasses off I could see that it was literally covered in shit. I hate that. The good part was it happened after I came and somehow none of it got on the sheets or on the towel I had down under his ass.

We went to the bathroom and cleaned up (he asked for permission to take a shower), then we chatted a little as he was leaving… All in all an OK fuck, but if I had pulled my dick out any sooner it wouldn’t have gone so well…

I was about to apologize for not posting more here, but it wouldn’t be right to apologize. My life is crazy right now – good things are in the works, but they’re just not related to sex. When I was a kid there was one and only one thing I wanted to be when I grew up – then I realized that the day-to-day business of it wasn’t really what I thought it would be so I gave up on that dream. Well, I’m getting to work on a project related to it right now and I’m having a blast doing it. However, I’m stretched really thin and feel like I’m beyond burning the candle at both ends, but it’s good stress and a lot of fun.

Thing is, the project keeps me so busy sex really isn’t on my mind. At the end of the day I sorta just collapse in exhaustion. I get horny sometimes, but only have enough energy to jack off. I guess the lesson in all of this is that there are times when life just isn’t about sex – and that’s not a bad thing…

The project is going to go on until at least the end of the year, but I’ll still try now and then to hookup and post things here – it’s just going to be a lot less frequent than normal. If you’re hitting me up on the hookup sites – don’t take it personally if I don’t get back to you or I’m never available…

Two weeks ago I had to go downtown for a meeting (related to the project). I hadn’t fucked in a while and felt like I should try to hookup. I looked during the day for someone to hookup with, but by the time when I needed to leave none of the people I was chatting with could hookup. Then this guy hit me up and he was available and could host. He wasn’t my usual type, but he was sexy and I had always wanted to hookup with him. In his pics he looked a bit severe. He was muscular, heavily tattooed and looked like he could beat you up if he got in the mood. He listed himself as a versatile top, but wanted to bottom for me.

So I headed down to his place. I had 45 minutes which should have been plenty of time and really I was mostly in the mood for a pump and dump. I got there and there was another guy who was leaving (putting on his shoes). My trick introduced him as his ex-boyfriend. We went into the next room, his bedroom, and closed the door. I started taking off my clothes and he wanted to take off my boots. It was a nice, submissive gesture. Then we felt each other up, and I sucked his dick a bit. But then he started directing the scene. He wanted me to lay back on the bed and let him do the work.

Back almost 20 years ago when I was versatile I remember one guy I hooked up with who was what I’d call a “do me” top. He just laid there and wanted me to do all the work. I didn’t enjoy it. In this situation the roles were reversed and I was being asked to be a “do me” top. I figured I’d give it a try, but it was clear this wasn’t going to be a quick pump-and-dump and I was little worried about the time.

It was nice just laying there being serviced, but oddly he didn’t suck my dick. It was all about me, but I wasn’t really in control of the situation. The guy was bigger than me and he got on top of me and I felt a bit trapped – it wasn’t a bad experience – not at all, but he was in control. Then he got a bottle of lube and put some on my crotch and started rubbing his dick in it. Again, a 20 year-old memory came to mind… I used to really be into frottage and that’s exactly what I used to do back in the day. Then, like I used to do, he put his dick between my legs and started sorta play fucking me. I knew where it was leading and asked him “You wanna fuck me, don’t you?” That sorta weirded him out and he kept saying he didn’t want to fuck me, while he was basically play fucking me. Thing is, he could have taken it further and I would have been fine with it, but it was just awkward since he clearly wanted to fuck me, but wouldn’t own up to it.

I wasn’t sure what he really wanted. I was there to fuck him, but he was basically overpowering me and not even sitting on my dick. If you’re playing power games with a top and in control – at least make it clear to the top you want to get fucked by putting his dick up your ass… On the other hand I was wondering whether he wanted me to turn the tables on him and overpower him… It was all pretty unclear.

I should probably stop for a second and describe him a bit. He had even more tattoos than I thought he would – he was almost covered in them. And when you felt his body there were scars you couldn’t see ’cause they were covered with tattoos. He was very masculine, but with me it was an odd mix of him being in control but still being very submissive toward me. It was all very interesting, but it was throwing me off my game a bit.

Finally, I decided I want to fuck, said as much, got up and fucked him. He wasn’t adverse to it (at all)… The problem was – like a lot of guys with his body type, his hole just wasn’t grabbing my dick the way I like. I still fucked him, but it was sorta clear to me I probably wasn’t going to cum. Every now and then I get a second wind and can cum, but eventually I just started going soft.

At this point he started getting self-conscious about the situation and that I wasn’t staying hard and wasn’t able to cum. He finally sucks my dick and tries to get it fully hard. Then he takes off my leather cockring and puts on one of his soft rubber cock rings on me. I used to like those things, but they now sorta scare the shit out of me. With those things my veins burst and I get ugly bloody spots on my dick. Hell, because of one of those I didn’t get into a Treasure Island video. I was worried, but let it go. He really put it on tight – twisted it a 2nd time around my balls. That got my dick hard, purple and veiny and I did finally get hard enough to fuck again. The 2nd time I got closer to cumming, but the worry of the cockring doing weird things to my dick set in, and I lost it.

At this point time was a factor and it was clear I wasn’t going to cum, I checked the time and it was a couple minutes after I was supposed to leave, so I wrapped things up as quickly as I could and left. He took it all pretty hard. It was like my not cumming was a personal failure and he just couldn’t understand why it happened. Here was this big butch guy completely devastated by a hookup that wasn’t all that bad. I mean it was different and generally pretty fun – it’s not like it was bad sex – it just didn’t quite work. Oh well… His issue, not mine…

Given a different bottom and more time I could totally get into just laying back and being a “do me” sorta top and let the bottom dote on me… Maybe another time…

Load 2010-6

Well, I finally got back in the saddle tonight… I was hoping to fuck this 24 y.o. but when I had to push back the time he said he couldn’t make it ’cause he was starting to crash from partying last night. (Guys – I may sound like Barbara Bush, but keep those drugs under control…)

So then I went on the hunt for another hole to fuck. I sorta wanted a hole I hadn’t fucked before, but when I e-mailed all the ones who were prospects and none of them panned out I saw the Brazilian come back online so I e-mailed him. It’s been 6 months since we last fucked (153 days to be exact). I like fucking him, but don’t always cum with him, so I was just hoping my horniness and the fact that I took a pill would be sufficient (it was).

He came over and we undressed and he started sucking my cock. Blowjobs often don’t do anything for me and this one was no exception. There was nothing wrong with it and he was enjoying it, so it wasn’t like I wanted it to stop. It was sorta cool actually how he’d keep pushing my dick as far back as possible and getting it into his throat. But let’s just say there was no risk of me cumming from his blowjob – but again, that’s just me, not him.

I know from past experience that he doesn’t like to be rimmed, so after the blowjob we went straight to fucking. I couldn’t find the Gun Oil so I grabbed my Wet Original (BTW, Wet has promised to send me some of their old-style oil based lube as well as their new silicone based Wet Platinum, but the package hasn’t arrived yet). I put a little on but after fucking him for a few minutes his hole still felt pretty dry even though he had prelubed before coming over and I had lubed my dick. I put some more lube on and that helped a bit.

We’ve fucked so many times he sorta knows what positions I like and he was on his belly. But lately I’ve been doing this thing where I turn myself at a 45 or 60 degree angle to give more friction to my dick. I think the reason I don’t always cum with him is ’cause my usual position doesn’t feel quite as good with his hole. But after turning a bit sideways and then turning back and being lined up with him I finally felt my load boiling up.

After nearly a month of not fucking anyone it felt good to give him my load. We then laid there and spooned a bit and talked with my dick up his ass. Eventually my dick got soft and came out. I knew he had moved but had a few of the detailed mixed up. Bottom line was that he’s been single for a while now. He mentioned how he had hooked up with the hardcore piss bottom I’ve fucked a few times before. And his observation was the same as mine – arriving for a hookup reeking of stale, musky piss isn’t a good thing… He also casually mentioned that he’d gotten fucked by someone in the neighborhood I know, which surprised me ’cause I didn’t think that guy was someone he’d have fucked with in the past, but he said since he’s been single he’s getting fucked by a broader range of guys.

I was starting to get my second wind and his hole was feeling mighty nice and wet. That combined with what he told me about being less selective about who fucked him gave me a hardon, so I started fucking him again. This time his hole felt SO much better. It was wet and cummy. I almost thought I could come a second time which is extremely rare for me. But alas I had jacked off the day before and there just wasn’t a second load in me. I stopped and we talked a little more while we spooned and I kept pumping his ass with my hard cock.

He left a little while later (we both had things we had to do). All in all a really nice hookup.

This teen contacted me a few weeks ago…

hi, sir. i dont know if you got my message on xtube. im the 18 yo bottom from san diego who sees himself as a total cumhole but doesnt really know where to begin. your blog is so fucking hot to me and i would be honored to take your load. if you want some pics for your own viewing pleasure just email me. i’m very slim and very cute and i know what kind of boys you like. i think im a good match for you 🙂

I got back to him with a few pointers on how to get loads – things like looking for sex parties, going to a bathhouses (and laying face down), and how to be assertive about getting dick but not aggressive. He then got back to me and (among other things) told me a little more about himself…

a little about me. hmm. well i’m a senior in hs, 18 years old, into some sports, movies, just having fun i guess. but i also have this other side of me which seems to be an insatiable cum whore haha. which is why i respect you so much and love your blog. i feel the need to be used in every sense of the word and have my hole stuffed and filled with sperm. the sheer idea of having a man’s sperm inside me drives me crazy because, in a way, it makes him a part of me and it makes me his subordinate because i’m taking his load. it’s like an act of submission. i’m saying all this because i think you understand…

At this point I wasn’t sure if he was actually taking loads or not. It sorta sounded like he was just fantasizing about it. So I sent him a message and asked how he was thinking about getting started…

well i’m already on adam4adam but i’m getting dozens of messages every 20 minutes. it’s kind of difficult for me to figure out how to go about setting things up with tops because i can’t possibly take all of their loads…not enough hours in the day haha. the thing is, i don’t want to be picky. i just want to be a cumdump. and i feel like part of being a sub cumhole is to not tell guys “no” because one looks better than the other. am i right or is that just a misconception?

I STILL wasn’t sure if he was taking loads so I asked directly and suggested that he try hosting so he could schedule a bunch of tops and get one load after another.

yeah, i have been taking loads from this guy who lives one freeway exit away from me. it’s convenient so i havent branched out yet really. that’s why i wanted to talk on IM. i’ve got some questions that you might be able to answer. is there such thing as a sub bottom who loves taking loads but just prefers the neg ones? i’m not looking to be pozzed by any means so i feel like i’m sort of a walking paradox.

At this point I figured he needed me to be pretty direct, so I told him…

basically, cumdump bottom = poz bottom… you’ll be really conflicted until you accept that… you can try serosorting, but it will fail eventually. serosorting sounds like a nice idea, but it just doesn’t work long term unless you’re the relationship type who really gets to know his tops and even then i can say from personal experience that you don’t really know what risks your tops are taking…

He got back to me and told me that “made sense” and that was sorta the last thing we discussed on the poz issue other than the fact that he mentioned he’s never been tested for HIV and doesn’t plan to get tested for a while.

A few days had gone past and I had been busy and hadn’t gotten back to him. So then he tell me how “his top” took him to a bathhouse that had a lot of older guys and took him into the sauna and fucked him raw in front of the guys who were there. He pulled out and let two anonymous tops fuck him no questions asked one after the other. They both unloaded in his ass and then “his top” gave him a 3rd load. So he got 3 loads in 20 minutes and two of those loads were from complete strangers. Pretty hot, eh?

At this point I knew the guy was pretty serious so I asked him if he’d be interested in doing a blog to record his journey. He’s at this critical stage where he’s making major decisions and experimenting. Luckily he was up for it. I checked and TeenCumhole.com was available so I bought it for him and set it up a few days later. One of the things I was thinking as I bought the domain for him was that when you give someone a label, they usually live up to it. Call someone smart or stupid or “hot” or ugly and that’s how they see themselves and they tend to live up to the labels other people give them. In this case I was giving him a label – Teen Cumhole – and I fully expect he’ll adopt it and become a full-fledged cumhole.

In the past week he’s branching out, going to the bathhouse on his own, finding other tops to hookup with. I get the sense that this is the beginning of his sex life and he’s not doing it timidly – he’s learning to swim by jumping in the deep end. Not bad for a guy who only turned 18 a few months ago…

Needless to say, make sure you check out his blog – TeenCumhole.com. Give him encouragement and if you’re in the San Diego area and want to give him a load, contact him and make it happen. Or better yet, organize a gangbang for him…