Load 2008-12

My boyfriend has been really unsuccessful hooking up lately. So yesterday I suggested we hook up with the eager/submissive bottom I’d fucked over a year ago. He was pretty close to the type of guys my bf gets into and would do anything I asked him to do – including taking my bf’s load… So I shot him an e-mail, but didn’t hear anything from him. He had posted ads on Craigslist looking for a group of guys to gangbang him saying “no request will be denied”. The guy is seriously submissive.

So I sent him an e-mail to see if he’d be up for getting tagged, but I didn’t hear anything back until after 11pm – after my bf had left to “hang out” with a guy we knew in the neighborhood. I figured what the hell – and told him to come over, but it had to be quick ’cause I wanted to get to bed… I was tired and wasn’t sure my dick would cooperate, so I took a couple pills. But the problem was he left immediately and he got here in like 30 minutes when it takes at least 45 minutes for the pills to take effect, and before it takes effect the results are just the opposite – a small little dick…

He gets here and seems like he’s in a rush and is practically pulling off his clothes. We both get naked and he goes to give me a blow job, but I’m totally small and soft. I told him to get on the bed ’cause I wanted to rim him. For starters it would give me some time to get hard – I knew it would kick in eventually, and it would also not have him focusing on my being soft.

So he gets on the bed on his hands and knees presenting his ass to me. There was something about how he did it which was curious – he’s like a slave who’s trying to please and gives you exactly what you ask for. There was very little emotion in how he did it other than obedience – it was like he was carrying out a command the way a sci-fi virtual sex slave would…

Luckily, as soon as I started rimming him, I started getting hard and it wasn’t long before I had a decent hardon. I stood up, put some lube on my dick and pushed in. His hole feelt pretty good. He mentions that he wishes he could see my face while I fuck him, so I tell him to flip over. As soon as I’m back in I start regretting my decision ’cause his hole felt better when he was on all fours. But I keep going and notice his hole feels really wet.

Since he had had an ad up earlier looking for someone to gang bang him, I ask if he’d been fucked already tonight. He said ‘no’ – that he just hadn’t checked his e-mail and so he didn’t know I had e-mailed him. He said he wished I had called him so he could have come by earlier.

I wasn’t so sure he hadn’t gotten gangbanged – the more I fucked him the more his hole felt like it had a few loads up it… It was a great feeling – he was loose and silky wet… Needless to say that got me going and after a while felt even better than when he was on all fours. Not long after I gave him a nice sized load up his ass…

As soon as I was done and pulled out, he was up and getting his clothes on as quickly as he could. Pretty soon he was out the door… It must have been the quickest hookup I had ever hosted. I had traveled for quicker ones, but never hosted one that quick. I didn’t time it, but it was probably 10 to 15 minutes.

Thinking about it afterwards I thought he might have double parked outside my building, or parked in a bus stop or something like that… It’s hard to find parking late at night. There was one place he could have parked, but he said he “found a spot right outside” – that’s pretty much impossible, and when I went out to walk the dogs right after he left there were no empty spaces…

Either way, much better hookup than last time – not nearly as freaky. It’s curious to see how he’s changed. He was so neurotic about my being neg last time. This time he just bent over and took my load and was outta there – and I wonder if he didn’t have loads in him already… He’s come a long way…

Oh yeah, my bf came home later – he’d fucked the friend he went to hang out with. Hopefully they’ll turn into regular fuck buddies – my bf needs it…

Load 2008-11

Wasn’t sure I was up for hooking up today after the hotel pump-and-dump last night, but more of the pills I tried the other day came in the mail today – they actually screwed up the order. They didn’t have the bottle of 30 pills I ordered, so they gave me 30 packets of 3 pills each – 3 times what I was expecting.

So when this beefy latin muscle head who lived a few blocks away messaged me on Adam4Adam I popped a couple pills hoping something would happen (need 45+ minutes for them to kick in), but then he backed out pretty quickly. Think the prospect of taking a load got a little too real for him as soon as he knew I was local and wanting to hookup right then.

So since I was ready to fuck, I went looking for someone else. I had seen the Brazilian guy on all day, so I contacted him since I wanted something easy. After a little bit he came over. I had only taken two pills (instead of the full dose of three) – it was a good amount – no weird effects, just a nice chubby dick…

He started by kneeling on the floor and blowing me, then we moved to the bed where he continued to blow me. I wasn’t in any rush to hurry things along – just wanted a nice, relaxing time with a familiar bottom…

Eventually he moved on to sitting on my dick. It had been a while since I’d really had someone site on my dick for more than a few seconds. I used to go soft in that position, but that wasn’t really a problem. When he was bending over kissing me the sensation on my dick was unremarkable, but as soon as he sat back and ground my dick nice and deep into his ass it felt pretty great…

Then I flipped him over and fucked him missionary style (legs in the air). It felt really good. I pounded him, but not too hard… It didn’t take long before I was flooding his ass with cum. I stayed in him and bent over him and held him for a while. Thanks to the pills my dick wasn’t going soft…

After a while of that I pulled out and we laid next to each other and talked. He’s going through sexual issues with his boyfriend. They’re trying 3-ways and having a lot of the issues my bf and I have gone through. And they’re also finding it necessary to be honest with friends about the fact that they have an open relationship to stop them from thinking something bad is happening in their relationship (been there too). When we moved onto discussing movies I started playing with my dick and got another chubby.

So I rolled him over onto his belly and pounded away at his ass. This time I could tell I wasn’t going to cum, but it just felt good to fuck. After a bit of that we spooned, and then fucked some more before the dogs started whining at the door of the bedroom telling me they needed to go out… I walked with him (and the dogs) most of the way back to his apartment before turning around.

It was just what I needed – a relaxed, easy-going fuck…

Later that night I logged into Manhunt to find this message from him…

I have enjoyed our fucks but this last one has been my favorite, you must have cum alot to make my legs drip with cum as I walked down back to my place

And he was looking for more guys to fuck him – even posted an ad on Craigslist. He didn’t mention they would be getting sloppy seconds…

Load 2008-10

Was out last night at a birthday get together at a restaurant. Midway through dinner I checked my e-mail on my phone and remembered the guy from Craigslist who said he was going to be in town at a hotel taking loads. I sent him an e-mail and it turned out he was at a hotel that my subway went right past. I asked him his room number and the address of the hotel. As I was leaving the restaurant I mentioned it to my boyfriend who was OK with it, so I got off the subway early and went to hook up with the guy.

I was a little worried about how much I had had to drink. It was only three (big) glasses of wine, but I was sorta feeling it and was worried about ‘performance’ (I’ve got some pills on order…)

After hotel security asked who I’m there to see and they called up, I get to the room. I test the door and find it’s slightly ajar. When I close the door and the light from the hall isn’t shining in any more the room is pretty much completely dark. I had seen the bottom going from standing to bent over the bed so I go over to him, get on my knees and start rimming him. He had lubed himself with a greasy lube that tasted a little weird, but it wasn’t horrible…

Before I had gotten there his message had said he had six loads in him already, but just like when I fucked Dawson I couldn’t taste any of them even though I was sucking a bit on his hole… That was really too bad, but whatever… I still managed to get hard enough to fuck despite being a bit drunk.

Long story short we tried a few positions and whenever I got a bit soft I’d just rim him a little more until I’d get hard and then I’d fuck him some more. (It all happened pretty fast.)

Finally I got him on his belly with his legs together (the position that felt the best) and went for the load. I talked dirty to him until I could feel my orgasm coming. In our dirty talk he mentioned there was another top (load 8) who was on his way over and would be there in 5 or 10 minutes. If I waited I could eat his load out as well…

Normally when I cum there’s a little bit followed by a huge load. This time, since I was a bit drunk, he just got the little bit. Oh well, guess it’s still a load…

I kept my dick in him and laid on top of him for a bit and then want into the bathroom to piss (but couldn’t). I washed off my dick, put on my clothes and left. On my way out he complimented me on my dick and made sure I knew he was there for another two nights…

Not bad for a quickie on the way home from dinner… And it was an excellent night for him as well – this morning he told me he got “at least 8 loads”… No wonder guys like to be hotel sluts when they come to NY. Here I am at just 10 loads given so far this year and he got 8 in his hole just last night…

So this latin guy who lives across the GW Bridge in NJ contacted me the other day on Manhunt. Hot guy – a little heavy, but not in a bad way (beefy)… So he says he wants to come over this morning, which is fine with me. He sends a message saying he’s leaving and he’ll be here in 25 minutes even before he gets my address – all he had was my phone number. I’m thinking he’s not really coming, but I tell my bf there might be someone coming over.

Then he calls and he’s over the bridge a few blocks away. I give him directions and after a few minutes he arrives while my bf is out jogging. He’s incredibly hot and seems like a genuinely nice guy. He might be a bit ‘beefy’ but he wears his clothes really well… I’m really looking forward to it…

We undress, and he almost immediately jumps on the bed on his back and wants me to give him a blow job. OK, whatever… He doesn’t have the biggest dick, but I’ll suck sometimes. Don’t pretend to be a good cock sucker, but I can still suck dick… Then he tries to be all rough with me forcing my head down on his dick. I keep pushing his hands away from my head eventually he sorta gets the message.

Meanwhile his legs are clamped together like a vice. That alone told me this wasn’t going anywhere… I’m still going between “pretty hard” and “a nice chubby” hoping things will improve. I mean after all, what part of “Looking for a good submissive bottom who likes to get fucked raw” did he not understand in my profile?

I finally manage to get him to put his legs in the air so I could rim him, but he keeps wanting me to suck his cock. We go back and forth a few times and every time I pause in rimming him his legs clamp together. At one point he gets on all fours and lets me really eat out his ass, but that was about the most of it.

Finally he figures out I’m not going to “cum with him”, so he jacks off and cums on his belly. I lick a bit of it up (it’s a bit bitter)… Then he wants to clean up. So he goes into the bathroom and washes his ass…

As he’s getting dressed we talk a little more. He tries out my scale – he’s 158.8 lbs and 32.2% body fat – which is higher than I expected him to be looking at him. He says he’s 13% bodyfat, I don’t correct him – but that would make him really lean, which he isn’t. He asks if I’m single – I say “no” I have a boyfriend (my profile says as much), he asks where my boyfriend is and I say out running. Then he tells me he has a boyfriend and they got “married” a few months ago (actually a NJ civil union). Then almost on queue my boyfriend gets back from running. The guy looks horrified – I tell him it’s OK, and he winds up meeting my boyfriend as he leaves.

Now, I just don’t get it… Why in the hell did he choose me to hookup with? I’m wondering if he’s not very good at reading or something (he was a 1st generation immigrant)? I mean if he had actually read my profile he’d know what I was looking for and it’s nothing like what he was looking for.

Oh well… It was a let down, but not a horrible experience…

Load 2008-9

After an unsuccessful hookup the other day when I wasn’t feeling all that well and couldn’t even get hard, the little tattooed Latin guy who I first fucked 10 years ago and I hooked up tonight when I had a little time to myself. Got to the building at 10:30, was going out the front door at 10:42 – and that included taking off most of my clothes, and chatting about his straight twin brother (who has more tattoos than he does and wants one more)…

It was a pretty simple hookup. He got on the bed, ass in the air, I rimmed him, got myself hard (which I was a little worried about after a couple pints of beer), I fucked him pretty hard, and came in his ass. Like the last time he came without touching himself… Must be his “thing” or something – I gotta say, it’s pretty cool…

I’m glad he’s close by – totally my type and a great, enthusiastic fuck…

Load 2008-8

So this weekend my bf and I went for a quick trip to Montréal. We did our general bar hopping (there’s a strip of maybe 10 blocks that are chocked full of gay bars, gay restaurants, strip clubs, sex shops, etc.) It was the dead of winter and there are fewer U.S. tourists these days since the Canadian dollar is so strong, so the bars were far from full, but it was still pretty fun. The hustlers at Campus were really aggressive, but it wasn’t like I was going to pay to feel up a hustler when I could bareback someone later that night.

We finally wound up at “Tunnel” where I had heard there was a good backroom. The place was pretty incredible. It’s beneath a dance club – huge ceilings – lots of different levels (not wheelchair friendly) – interesting sorta industrial decor… In general, probably the best bar (visually) in Montréal – even without the backroom. And the crowd was good too – lots of tough guys in leather (nice to see a city that still has a leather scene), plus a bunch of regular, masculine guys. All in all an above average crowd.

To get into the backroom area you either had to buy a drink which gave you one time admission, or you had to pay $2 for unlimited “in and out”. My bf and I paid the $2. It was arranged on 3 levels (like a split level house – two levels on top of each other and one in the middle). The bottom level was tiny and had 3 open cubicles with gloryholes between them. The middle level was the largest. It had a bed, three “private” cubicles and some other relatively open areas. From the top level you could look down into the “private” cubicles and watch the guys having sex. There was also a puppy cage up on a stand, a bathtub, a sling, and a really small mostly dark area – maybe 4 or 5 feet by about 7 feet that you had to duck to get into.

Most of the guys weren’t doing all that much. There was a lot of jacking going on, a few blow jobs… So all in all relatively tame… until you got into the little dark area on the top level. At first it seemed pretty much like the other areas – mostly jacking, but the guys would go down on you faster than they would elsewhere.

The first time I went into the little dark area things had just started getting going in the backroom area. I had seen a guy – buzzed hair, fairly tall, lanky, cute who had his pants down outside the dark room part – he seemed pretty tweeked and eager. We went into the little dark room area about the same time. He went down on my dick and I played with is ass a bit. Feeling his ass in the dark it didn’t feel quite “right”. Then he backed himself up against me, but didn’t try to get my dick in his ass. Just sorta was encouraging me to do frottage or something. Meanwhile I was feeling up the asses on either side of me and moved on to another guy – but he also just seemed to be wanting a dick rubbed on his ass, and when I felt around the rest of him, I wasn’t all that much into him.

So I kept feeling up the asses on either side of me. I saw what looked like a hot guy in the dim light – really short hair – almost completely shaved on the sides – sorta a military haircut. I moved over near him, felt his ass and bingo! – it was either really well lubed or dripping with cum. It was pretty early (action-wise) so I wasn’t sure how he’d have gotten a few loads in him already, so I assumed it was lube, but at the same time it was perfectly viscous – like cum would be. Body-wise, he seemed to have a nice body – he had a darkish tank top on – maybe red, but couldn’t tell since there wasn’t enough light to distinguish color.

Knowing he was either lubed to get fucked or already had a few loads in him, I just pointed my dick at his hole and shoved it in. It felt great… Like it was perfect hole… Loose, cummy, and on a hot guy… Couldn’t ask for more. I started pounding away. Eventually he got himself bent over and started sucking another guy (remember, the area is small and can get really crowded). I had taken the 2nd pack of “supplements” from the other day, so I knew once I came I’d still stay hard and could continue to play after I came. Since I wanted to give a couple loads that night, when I felt my orgasm coming on, I just let him have it and flooded him with a 4 day load. When I was done he just moved on trying to find the next guy to breed him… There had been no interaction with him other than my pounding him and giving him a load.

I took a breather and walked around the bar. My bf and I had agreed to text each other if one of us left early. There was a text from him saying “I’m outta here”. He’s used that phrase before – and it’s never good when he does. It means he’s pissed. I thought about what I should do for a few minutes and then texted him back asking if he was upset and if I should leave. A while later I got a text that just said “no”. That was sorta killing my excitement – worrying that I was going to go back to the B&B and get an earful, but at the same time I was there to play… So I took the text literally and stayed…

It took a little while to recover from the orgasm and be able to get hard again. So I spent the time looking at the other parts of the backroom area – the gloryhole area, looking down on guys having sex in the the “private” cubicles… Stuff like that. It all seemed pretty tame – I don’t think I saw anyone who was clearly getting fucked out in open, and there were surprisingly few blowjobs. So it would seem this is an oral bottom’s paradise. For $2 you could give constant blowjobs and presumably swallow a fair amount of cum. The guys I watched in the private cubicles did seem to be fucking – but they’d fuck for 10 seconds, then change to a blow job for 15 seconds, then back to fucking, then kissing, then more sucking, etc… It wasn’t a serious fuck. There was one cute twink with long blond hair who I saw a few times – and he was getting it on with other hot guys each time. But one time a little later I felt up his ass and it was completely dry – so presumably he wasn’t getting fucked (at least not much).

I went back into the little dark area – and found this really short, lean guy just inside the door. He had his pants up and it wasn’t easy to get my hand down them to feel his ass. I didn’t want to be a jerk, so I just felt up his ass through his jeans. He got the message I wanted to fuck and eventually pulled down his pants. His hole seemed dry – so I assumed he hadn’t gotten fucked. I put some spit on his hole and some on my dick and shoved in. He was so short it was hard to actually fuck him (since we were standing up). I sorta had to squat to get low enough to get into his ass. Once I was in him he seemed not-so-dry… It was either natural moisture from his ass or more likely, he had a load deep in him already. As I felt up his body I got more and more into him. He must have had a 28″ waist and he was so little. I just wished we were fucking on a bed, ’cause it was anything but easy to be squatting to fuck. Eventually I found a weird position that was relatively comfortable. I had my shoulders against a wall, my legs at least 2 feet out from the wall and enough room so my hips could move to fuck. Once we got this position down and there was a little space in front of us, he leaned over and started sucking the guy in front of us. Since I had already cum, getting another orgasm was difficult, and in this position, just about impossible. So after a pretty long fuck (by backroom standards), I think we’d both had enough and called it quits. I pull out and went to feel my dick and I thought I felt shit on the head of my dick. I was grossed out and didn’t want to shove the dick into my boxers and get shit all over them (they were white with red stripes), so I thought quick and then rubbed the head of my dick on the wall. Yeah, someone else might get shit on their clothes that way, but what was I going to do? As soon as I had done that the guy I had fucked leaned over and started sucking me again – basically cleaning off my dick. He didn’t act like there was anything wrong, so maybe there hadn’t been shit on my dick – but either way my dick was clean, so I stuffed it back in my pants and then tried to get out so I could wash my hands… But getting out took a while since the little dark room was completely packed.

After washing my hands, I walked around the main bar for a while catching my breath (having to be in a weird position for that last fuck was tiring). Then I looked around the backroom area again – saw pretty much what I saw before… Then I ducked into the small dark room again… I see the little guy again, and when he goes to get out I follow him. He doesn’t know it’s me, but he’s cute… Looks pretty much like a regular, respectable gay guy… I love it when someone like that is taking raw anonymous dick in the dark…

I walk around a little more hear these three guys commenting on how each of them is wearing a wedding ring and having partners out in the main bar… Eventually go back to the little dark room. The little guy is in there again. This time he’s not playing so hard to get. His pants are down, he feels my cock and backs up to me and lets me fuck him some more, but I’d already given him a good fuck (if not a load) and didn’t have the energy to fuck him properly so I pull out. I did feel up his dick and was surprised to find that it was big and thick – probably at least as long as mine and thicker – all on a guy who was maybe 5’3″ – his dick must look huge on such a little guy with such a little waist.

I then feel up the ass of this other guy and find it’s dripping with cum. The funny part is none of the bottoms are all that aggressive. You’d think someone who’s taking loads would feel someone interested in their ass, feel up the guy’s dick and push themselves onto the dick. This guy took forever to get the hint. He finally turned around and I shoved my dick in. Thing was, his legs were a lot longer than mine and I had to stand on my toes to fuck him properly, and by this time I was getting tired. I really wanted to seed another hole, but knew this wouldn’t last long with me having to stand on my toes to fuck. I fucked him a bit and then pulled out. It was nice fucking a cummy hole, but I wasn’t going to be able to cum…

By this time it was after 2am and I was ready to go home and go to bed. I had been sick with food poisoning the day before as well as that morning (bad Chinese food), I had woken up early that morning, and then driven for hours. It had been fun, but I was wiped… As I exited the little dark area there was this hot 20-something positioning himself in the sling just outside the little dark area – looking to get fucked. It was tempting, but I just didn’t have it in me – so I passed it up and left…

By the way… I should mention that there were condoms readily available in the backroom area, but I didn’t see anyone take them. I was looking for opened condom wrappers, but never saw any. Towards the end I did step on what felt like a used condom on the floor of the little dark area, but all in all I’d say the majority of the guys at Tunnel don’t fuck and those who do fuck don’t bother with condoms.

Going there I had hoped to felch some loads out of cummy asses. But in the moment I just didn’t feel motivated to do it. If there hadn’t been the shit scare with the little guy and if his hole had been cummier, I would have done it with him. Guess I should have done it with the last guy or maybe the first guy, but it just felt weird to get down on my knees in a crowded dark room…

I just really wish New York had a bar with a good backroom. I’d be there once or twice a week… But with all the hysteria lately, that’s not going to happen any time soon. Still, every city needs a bar like Tunnel…

When I got back to the hotel I was expecting fireworks from the boyfriend. But he just rolled over with his back to me and fell back asleep. I had a hard time sleeping. The B&B was just a block and a half from Tunnel, but it was above a bar and I could hear music (faintly), the bed sagged into the middle, and when I tried to sleep like I usually do my arm fell asleep. All in all I got just about no sleep that night. Just before dawn I could tell my bf was awake and I cuddled up with him. After a while we started talking. He said he was mad for about 5 minutes then he got over it. He realized I had gone out for a crappy dinner that night just because he was jonesing for rotisserie chicken – in other words, I put up with stuff he liked to do that I didn’t enjoy – so he should do the same (weird comparison, but it worked for him). Laying there not able to sleep, I had prepared this whole argument about how nothing had really changed since he met me. The night we met it had been in a bathhouse and I had barebacked 2 or 3 guys who were just laying there on their stomachs – it’s just what I like sexually and it’s not going to change. But I didn’t have to say any of that… He had resolved it all in his own mind just fine…

Now I want to go back to up to Montréal. This time I just want to get a 24-hour room in a bathhouse instead of paying $150 for a B&B with an uncomfortable bed. That way when I wake up with a hardon in the morning (like I did), I can find a hole to fuck and seed. There’s one bathhouse we went to a few years ago that has a big dark playroom in the basement with lots of good sleazy guys getting fucked raw… I could spend a whole weekend between that place and Tunnel (plus going out to eat and bar hopping)…