A few weeks ago I was contacted by a bottom here in NY… Basically he’s in a sexless relationship and hasn’t barebacked since college – except that he took his first load a month ago (see the story below)… He’s neg and simultaneously wanting to stay that way and craving cum in his ass now that he’s had a taste, so to speak… Since I love neg bottoms who are getting loads behind their boyfriends backs I was definitely interested (and he’s skinny too!)

He then signs up for BarebackRT.com and we chat a bit on there. (He said it was OK that I mention his profile name is ‘NYCNewbie’.) He switches things up a bit – tells me he likes to go to a “video store” and suck guys off and have them fuck him. Up until now it’s always been with rubbers, but he had just let a guy fuck him raw (he asked the guy if he was neg and the guy didn’t cum). He was totally horny for more and then tells me he’s going again (same day). I tell him to get a load in his ass this time – and later that night he tells me he went back and let a guy fuck him raw and before he could say anything the guy came in his ass (that’s what happens when you get fucked raw).

We had a hookup scheduled, but he had to go out of town. When he got back he sent me the story you see below of when he took a load a month ago and asked me to put it in the stories section…

Tops, if you’re in NYC and can host downtown – contact him on BarebackRT (his profile is ‘NYCNewbie’) and give him your load. If you want me to join you, let me know and I we’ll try to set up something where we both can tag his ass (my profile is ‘rawTOP’ – or you can e-mail me – rawtop@yahoo.com). This guy is really hungry for cum and needs to start taking loads on a regular basis…

So here’s the story of the load he took a month ago… I want to see this guy get bred, so since the stories section is a bit sleepy – I’m putting the story here so it gets more exposure…

As you know, I have a boyfriend at home, but we’re not monogamous – we hook up with other guys together, and once in a while on our own. We’re both neg, and even though we’ve both been tested, he’s paranoid and insists on fucking me with a rubber. Anyway, I travel occasionally for work. In December, I was in a really small town in the midwest for a few days. I’ve been thinking about raw sex for a while now, watching videos on Xtube, checking out websites, etc. but haven’t really done much about it. Since I was in this small town without my boyfriend, I figured that was the time and the place.

I contacted a few guys in the area who were on Manhunt.net on my first night there. Basically only one of them got back to me, but not until the next morning. He seemed pretty eager and sent me his phone number in his first email. I was working most of the day, but managed to call him at lunch. He seemed pretty normal and very eager to get together, but he lived about 45 min away. He asked if I was a top or a bottom. I said bottom, and he said he was a top. I asked if he was negative or positive, and he said negative, “so we don’t have to use a condom, if you don’t want.” I knew he wanted it bareback, but I wanted to keep my options open, so I just said, “we’ll see.” If he was old or fat, I’d probably let him fuck me still, but I wasn’t that into taking a load from a troll. Anyway, I told him I’d call him when I was done with work.

I had to work late, then went out to dinner with the client there. It was pretty late when we finished and I got back to my hotel. The top had called me a couple times at dinner, but I couldn’t answer my phone. When I finally got back to him, he said he thought I was blowing him off. I told him I was really horny, but tired because I had been drinking (which was true). I was going to go to bed, but I would leave my hotel room door unlocked if he wanted to drive over. He knew where my hotel was, as it’s the only nice one in the area, so I told him the room number and got ready for bed. The door wouldn’t open without a key from the outside, so propped the door open with my shoe before I went to bed. I knew it was possible that the top would never show, but it made me hard as hell to sleep with the door propped open for anyone to let themselves in and fuck me. I lubed up my hole and put a bottle of poppers on the side table. Before I knew it, I was asleep.

At some point, I woke up, as some tripped over my shoe coming through the door. The room was a suite, so I was in the bedroom, and I heard someone walking around in the front, sitting area. I instantly got rock hard again and threw off the covers. I was laying on my stomach, ass-up. I then pretended to be completely asleep and didn’t move. I heard the guy fumbling around a bit in the other room until his eye adjusted, I guess. Then I heard him walk into the bedroom. He came over to the bed and softly rubbed my bare ass. I just adjusted my pillow and spread my legs a bit. I heard him take his jacket and pants off and throw them on the floor.

He then started rubbing my ass more. I pushed it up a little. He started fingering my wet hole and jerking off a little, to get hard. I then reached over and grabbed the poppers and took a long breath. I wanted to let him know that i was ready to get fucked, but poppers also make me way less inhibited, so I knew it would let me get fucked raw by someone I’ve never even seen before.

He got in the bed on top of me and shoved his dick in my ass. He was uncut (he was latin), and his raw cock felt so good and warm in my ass. I mostly just laid there without moving, but occasionally I pushed back against him, driving it deeper. He moaned as he was about to cum and I felt a warm load inside me, a few drops dribbled out, and I could hear the difference when he was fucking a juicy hole.

He fucked me for a minute more, then lay on top of me with his dick inside for another few minutes. I didn’t move. He then got up, got dressed and walked out the door. I rolled over, played with my cum-filled hole and jerked off. It didn’t take long before I shot a huge load on my stomach. I wiped it off with my hand and fed it into my hole with his load. I was so horny, I stayed hard most of the night, jerking off. I tried to look for more guys to seed me online, but no one was awake nearby.

That’s how I got seeded the first time, and I never even really saw the guys face. I flew back to NYC the next day, but stayed hard, with his load in me, for the next 3 days. I gotta find more guys in my area to do it again.

UPDATE: Take a look at the video he sent me a link to… How much do you wanna bet it won’t be long until he’s be backing his hole onto raw dick that’s sticking through glory holes?

Load 2008-7

Went to the dentist this afternoon since the dentist was near the Latino guy who I first fucked 4 years ago, and he was online right before I left, I arranged to swing by his place to give him a load.

Got there, and as usual he was on all fours on his bed just inside the door. Since I had just had some serious dental work done I wasn’t going to rim him, so I felt up his hole and when I was hard enough I just started in fucking him (still fully clothed). It felt good, but I wanted to make it quick, so I put him on his belly pounded away for a little bit and when he took a hit of poppers his hole loosened, felt really good, and I came right afterwards.

Didn’t know if I could cum less than 24 hours after fucking the guy yesterday, but it didn’t seem to be a problem…

After I came he wanted me to lay on top of him, which I did for a little bit, then I got up, washed off my dick in the bathroom and left…

I gotta say – I’m doing pretty well on hookups and giving loads this year (my “failure rate” is way down as well). Way ahead of my goals of 3 loads a month… Probably won’t hook up again until this weekend when I’m in Montréal – hopefully my bf will want to go out to a bathhouse while we’re there and I’ll get myself some good anonymous Québécois ass…

Load 2008-6

Meant to go to the gym over the weekend, but since I haven’t gone regularly for years now every time I work out it’s followed by days and days of pain. But tonight I A) wasn’t too sore, B) had some energy, and C) was pretty horny. (Not jacking off is really helping)…

My idea of hooking up with someone every time I go to the gym is turning out to be a good motivator… It’s exactly what I did tonight and in general there three regulars that are right on my way to the gym – the tattooed Latin guy, the Brazilian, and the Latin guy who lives up the steep hill. So tonight I stopped by the Latin guy up the steep hill. There’s an easier way to the gym that doesn’t have such steep the hills – but hey, the point is to get a workout, right?

I show up at his place, he needed to finish something on the computer so I took off my clothes. He just had a t-shirt and jock strap on – I was hoping he’d leave the jock strap on, but he stripped down completely – and then I saw why – he had his dick tied off with rawhide or something. On the one hand it looked a bit painful, but on the other hand his dick was rock hard (and pretty big, BTW)…

He sucks me a bit, I play with his hole, then I go and rim him. He loved getting rimmed – especially when I sucked on his ass… We’re both hot and bothered, so I spit on my dick and shoved it in. He was pretty sensitive to getting fucked, so I had to slow down at first, but then started fucking him properly.

As I’m fucking him the funny part (that I noticed last time as well), is it’s more of a workout for him than for me – and he’s just laying there with his legs in the air. Thing is, this bottom is really hungry – like completely ravenous. There’s no other way to describe it. He just can’t get enough – he loves it so much he’s literally panting. I remember last time after we got done he was still breathing heavily long after I gotten back to normal – and I had climbed a hill that was about 8 stories tall, plus two flights of stairs in his building and then been the active one sexually. It was the same thing this time – he was so completely into it he was getting a workout – somehow – I still don’t understand it (maybe some bottom will chime in with an explanation)…

Needless to say it’s fun to fuck a bottom who’s so completely into it. That, and the fact that I needed to get to the gym, meant I didn’t hold back when I felt the orgasm coming… Gave him a nice big 4 day load…

As I was working out at the gym later (legs – hopefully I’ll be able to walk tomorrow) I could smell his ass on my beard… That, and all the incredibly hot, ripped, muscular Dominican guys at the gym made for a very good workout…

Load 2008-5

On my way to the gym last night I did a stop over to fuck the latin guy I first fucked 10 years ago. The door was ajar so I let myself in. I figured he’d be in the bedroom ass up or something. When I got to the bedroom I found him legs up, getting nailed by this beefy white guy. I love sluts, so the fact that this guy wanted me to see him getting fucked by someone else was hot.

I took off my clothes and joined them. Didn’t want to bother the other top so climbed on the bed and offered my dick to the bottom. He sucked it a little, but was being a good bottom and paying attention to the top who was fucking him. Incidentally the top was using a condom, which was too bad, but whatever…

Now I gotta tell you what the bottom looked like. I’ve known him for a long time and even though we haven’t fucked as often as we should have, I’ve seen him around the neighborhood a fair amount. Last night he was all tanned and dark with a nice tan line. He’s got a hot little body, a huge dick for a guy his size, and has always had a lot of tattoos, but he seemed to have more last night and I think it was because he had had full back wings put on… Given that we haven’t taken off our clothes and fucked in a bed for a long time (mostly parks and bathrooms), it has been a while since I’d seen him naked and I definitely liked what I saw…

The other top had to leave or something but hadn’t cum, which was too bad ’cause I was at least hoping to use the cum from the condom for lube… As he pulled out his dick I saw his dick was pretty small – the condom was like a loose bag on it… The bottom made a little small talk with him and then the guy left. The bottom then told me the other top was a “kid” from his building and this was the first time the kid had been there when someone else was around.

He then proceeded to sit on my dick, then we swapped positions with him on his stomach (my favorite position with little guys). You gotta realize – I’m a bit smitten with this guy – always have been – so fucking was really easy – he’s totally my type…

We switched again – this time with his legs in the air… His eyes were shut most of the time and he seemed to just want to concentrate on the sensation of getting fucked. The nice part for me was he was small enough that I was hitting bottom when I fucked him. I love this with little guys… With some I even get into the “2nd sphincter” – feels really good to me and incredibly intense for the bottom, but bottoms often don’t clean that far so it can be messy…

Then all of a sudden he says “you’re going to make me cum”… I look down and his big 8 1/2 inch uncut dick is spurting cum all over his belly… I stop for a second – pull out 1/2 way, scoop up his cum, wipe it on my dick and continue… Felt really good having cum for lube…

He was having a hard time taking it after he came, so while I had just been enjoying the fuck, I concentrated a little more on getting things done and cumming in his ass – which I did a minute or two later…

We chatted a little, I got dressed and then I was off to the gym…

[If only I could keep this pace up all year… 7 fucks, 5 loads in 17 days – spread over a year would be about 140 fucks and 100 loads… Something will get in the way and slow me down, but it would be nice. I know those numbers would seem high to some people, but they really aren’t all that high. A guy I’ve fucked before is going to Mid-Atlantic Leather (MAL) today. Last year he says he got 110 loads in his ass over the weekend at MAL – those are high numbers though I don’t really believe the guy (another friend says MAL is 99% bottoms and getting loads isn’t all that easy) – I’m pretty tame by comparison… I am seriously considering going to IML this year (made hotel reservations just in case) – so that might kick the numbers up a bit and help make up for slow times… Hopefully this will be a really good year for me sexually…]

Load 2008-4

This guy hit me up on Manhunt a week or so ago said he had a bf and could only hookup on Sundays – except this week – his boyfriend would be out of town or something. He was really short (something I like), latino (another thing I like), had some great ass shots (bingo!), but he was older and his face pics made him look like a nice guy, but sort of average (in street clothes).

Long story short we decide to hookup and before he leaves to come over tonight he asks me if I have condoms and lube or whether he should bring them. I reiterate what I thought we went over before – that I was looking to bareback… He’s OK with it so he leaves.

Now, given my recent on again, off again problems with erections a few days ago I had seen a post on bnskin saying how this guy had taken some stuff and it really worked. So I google the product, find the site and see that they have a trial pack for free (just pay like $2.50 in shipping). I figure what the hell, and pay the $2.50 (via PayPal so they can’t hijack the credit card number) and a couple days later I get in in the mail. Only thing I was expecting a packet of power and instead there’s two boxes of 3 pills each and a letter saying there were some sort of manufacturing problems with the powder – they don’t know when, if ever, they’ll have the product again and please accept a double trial of some other product they had. OK, whatever…

So what I didn’t write up was how on Sunday I tried to hookup with this beefy masculine guy (the type you might be afraid of on a dark street) and just couldn’t get it up… My dick’s been pretty weird lately and even though there are moments when I have to stop myself from cumming, I wasn’t quite sure I’d be into the guy tonight, so before he arrived I took a packet of pills.

I had bought some “generic Cialis” a few years back – it made me feel a bit tingly, but didn’t really do anything. So there I am tonight feeling the tingle and noticing I can’t get an erection to save my life. I know they said to take it an hour before sex, but things didn’t look good… The guy was on his way and my dick was all shriveled up and I felt a bit weird…

Then he arrived, and wasn’t anything like his pics… His pics looked like they were maybe 5 years old and he was heavier and a lot less toned than he was in his pics. Whatever… I figured my dick wasn’t going to cooperate anyway, so I figured I’d start and see how things went. I mean if it did work with this guy – it would work whenever… And what do you know – we start taking off our clothes, I pull down my pants and my dick isn’t all shriveled and tiny… After a little kissing, he goes to give me a blow job and I go to full mast immediately.

Long story short. We fucked for a while – I gave him a big 5 day load – we cuddled for what seemed like a really long time and then he left. The funny part was how he told me right at the end that I looked younger than in my pics – that I looked like I could be in my 20s… I don’t look like I’m in my 20s, but it’s ironic he (of all people) would say that…

I was telling my bf about it afterwards and he was a little shocked that I’d taken some pills I ordered off the Internet without really knowing what was in them. In all honesty, I do have high blood pressure and need to be careful and they did make me feel a bit weird – even after the fact. I need to figure out what the ingredients are and see if there’s a problem and maybe talk to my doctor about it when I see him in a couple weeks. My bf wants me to go to one of the stores in Chinatown and get stuff there – says they’re more scientific about it and the ingredients are more likely to be quality ingredients…

All I know is it worked pretty well, but I don’t think I’ll take all three capsules next time – can probably do just fine on one or two…

Still, I don’t really like the fact of needing to take chemicals (or herbs) to have sex. But I guess that’s just part of being 40, and people have been doing it for centuries…

Yesterday I had the idea of possibly going to IML this year – never been before and sounds like a blast. My mind was racing all night about the possibilities – seeing a lot of pluses and a few negatives…

Anyway, that made me think about a lot of things including the fact that I really need to get back to the gym. Not that cubs and bears aren’t a big part of the leather community, but just that I’d really be happier with a different body composition (maybe more like a muscle bear or something)… Plus, when I mentioned it to my bf he said I should lose weight and fit into my old leather from 10 years ago – but that would mean I’d need to drop 55-60 lbs – not sure that’s going to happen before Memorial Day…

Either way – I didn’t sleep well – just got a few hours of sleep but when I got up I was in the mood to go to the gym (hadn’t been in over a year – or is it two years – can’t remember). Thinking about it I realized there’s like 5 different guys I could hookup with between my place and the gym. So I texted one of them – a black guy I’d been corresponding with on bnskin and manhunt. I didn’t hear back from him until I was already at the gym so I told him I’d go after I finished up there.

So after working out, I’m functioning on like 3 hours of sleep, no food, and just had an exhausting workout. I grab a Tropicana orange juice at a bodega so I’d have some energy, and head over to his place a few blocks away. His place is surprisingly nice – he did an incredible job turning a so-so apartment into a really warm, well-designed place. But more than that, he seemed like a really sweet guy – and his ass – OMG – it was fucking hot… He had this little waist and a perky little butt that made me definitely want to fuck him.

We go into the bedroom and he’s got a frame up for a sling. He pulls out the sling and some sheets and towels to put under it. Once he’s got it up we take off our clothes. I’m dripping wet with sweat (like literally dripping wet). I was hoping he’d take the hint and want to smell my pits and get off on how sweaty I was, but he didn’t…

When he took off his underwear his balls were huge. I asked if he did saline injection or something (I knew he hooked up with someone last night), but he said ‘no’. I touched them and they were hard and lumpy. Something was seriously going on down there and I was really wishing he’d offer an explanation, but he didn’t. Everything else about him was so good, so I kept going…

He gave me a little blow job and then climbed into the sling. It had been a long time since I’d fucked someone in sling (I own one, but never put it up – yeah, I know, I know…) I’m mostly hard and shove in and start fucking. The sling was a link or two too high for me and I had to get on my tip toes to get things lined up just right, but the bigger problem was that I just wasn’t “feeling it” (if you read the blog enough, you know what I mean)…

After a while I feel myself getting soft so I just pull out. I wanted to try another position (him bent over the bed), but my dick just wasn’t cooperating. Not sure if it was ’cause I was tired, or the chemistry was off, or the fact that I kept thinking about his balls, but one way or the other it just wasn’t happening. I had him give me a blow job, but nothing came of it.

So finally I wrapped things up and left…

Things may not have worked out with that guy, but maybe fucking guys on my way to or from the gym is a way to stay motivated and get to the gym. But probably should fuck on the way there – so I have some energy to fuck…

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