So between fucking the little muscular Latino those two times there were two weeks when I either couldn’t have sex or just wasn’t really in the mood to have sex. NYC got hit with  hurricane and we had a bunch of people from “SoPo” (South of Power) staying with us. Between that and the subways not running most of that time, hooking up was pretty much impossible. Then there was a week where I didn’t really feel like fucking.

Anyway, about a week ago I did a hookup. First one guy wanted to come over – someone I’ve seen online for years and thought would be a good fuck. But then this vers guy from the neighborhood wanted to come over too. The guy from the neighborhood was beefy and I wasn’t sure whether I was really in the mood for beefy… Actually, I hadn’t taken a pill of any sort, and was only sorta in the mood to hookup. But it had been 10 days since I’d fucked anyone and I felt like that was too long and I should fuck someone. Long story short I told both of them to come over. I figured me and the beefy guy would fuck the other guy.

The beefy guy arrived first. We started playing around, and one thing lead to another and then I was rimming him, and then fucking him… He was actually a pretty good fuck – much better than I had anticipated. Then the other guy texted saying he was off the subway and close by, so I stopped fucking the beefy guy and prepared for the other guy.

The second guy wanted an anonymous scene where he was blindfolded. So I put a leather “sleeping mask” sort of thing on the door knob just inside the front door. When he rang I buzzed him in and then watched him discreetly as he put on the blindfold. When he had it on I guided him (carefully) to the bedroom.

I should mention that the blindfolded bottom didn’t exactly look like his pictures. I should have expected as much – the pics he was using were the ones he used years ago. Honestly, he just wasn’t what I was hoping for / expecting. I fucked the blindfolded bottom, the beefy guy fucked him. But the chemistry was lacking. It wound up with me wanting to fuck the beefy guy but there was another bottom laying there expecting attention. The beefy guy was having “performance issues”. I could tell from the look in his eyes he didn’t really want the blindfolded bottom there – he (also) wanted a 1-on-1 with me.

After a while I just sorta lost it and couldn’t get hard enough to fuck, and the beefy guy got the same way. We tried, but it just wasn’t working. Even with his blindfold on, the other bottom got the picture, so he took the blindfold off and we wrapped things up, got dressed and they went on their way.

As they were leaving I started feeling weird. I felt “foggy” – like I couldn’t remember everything I should be able to remember and just a little disoriented. If I focused on something (like the situation at hand), I could get through it, but I just didn’t feel “sharp” and alert – at all. There are a few possibilities… Maybe one of them gave themselves a booty bump and I ingested some of what they had up their butt. When I googled the symptoms I came up with a “Transient Ischemic Attack”. I have high blood pressure and heart-related things are an issue (long term), but that didn’t quite seem right either. Then I realized I hadn’t eaten much of anything. After eating some food I felt better an hour or two later. So who knows what the issue was – but it was a very weird and memorable ending to a not-so-great hookup.

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I had sort of a weird hookup today… It had been 4 weeks since I’d seeded a new hole, so this guy hit me up on Adam4Adam and said he was cleaned out and ready to travel. He seemed hot enough, so I said come over. When he got here he was pretty femmy – I can deal with that (if they don’t talk too much), but the bigger problem was the cloud of cologne that followed him everywhere he went. I was hoping it would come off with his clothes, but…

So anyway, after I closed the blinds he got on his knees and started sucking me. I started pulling off his clothes – first his shirt… Then he sucked me some more. I was getting about half hard with the blowjob – which is good for me since they’re not really my thing. Finally I get him to take off this shorts and underwear and I tell him I want to rim him. He gets on all fours on the bed and he’s got a decent hole…

I get hard enough to fuck from the rimming so I get up, get some lube and shove in his hole. I push him down on his belly pretty quickly and that’s when the problems started. Every time I do an upstroke he’d lift his ass. Bottoms – let’s have a physics lesson… The point of fucking is for the top to pull his dick in and out of your hole. When you push back his dick doesn’t move in your hole – that’s not fucking – that’s two bodies moving around with a dick up one of the guy’s ass.

I tried putting my legs on his legs to basically pin him to the bed and he still managed to push up when I was on an upstroke. I told him to stop squirming. I tried a few more variations to keep him still, then I told him to stop moving. Then I kept trying to physically prevent him from moving. Finally I just blew up at him. I barked pretty loudly “Would you stop moving and just lay there? God, how many times do I have to tell you.” It completely changed the tone of the fuck. Fems typically like to have pretty “romantic” fucks with “their man” (of the moment). But after I barked at him, it was clear – he was just my hole of the moment. The romance was gone.

Meanwhile I managed to overheat. My dick was pretty quickly losing it’s steam and I was sweating up a storm. If he had just been a good bottom he would have had my load by that point, but no… I have him suck my dick a bit (which amounted to ATM where he cleaned it off – not that it was dirty, but…) I tried to fuck him, but things were just not working…

So I did what I always do in situations like that – I rimmed him some more… This time I rimmed him legs up and it was actually much better than on all fours. Made me think I should do it that way more often. It was just easier to get to his hole and his hole was more open – all in all a pretty good experience.

A few minutes of that and I was cooler and harder, so we went back to fucking. This time he was a compliant piece of meat. I put him on his belly, with his legs together – the position that had the most promise in my previous experiments. It was a little difficult to get things “just right” but eventually I got my groove and was able to give him a load.

We laid there a little bit and I caressed him while he jacked off. I think it gave him a little bit of the tenderness and romance he wanted, but as soon as he had cum he clearly wanted out of there. Since I was sweaty I rinsed off with a shower quickly and by the time I was out he was dressed and ready to go. I threw on my boxers and jeans and put on my shirt as I walked him to the front door.

Honestly, I don’t think either of us want a repeat, but at least I was able to seed a new hole.

UPDATE:

Later that night the bottom texted me telling me I was “amazing”. LOL. Guess the moral of the story is even pushy controlling bottoms like to be dominated.

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I had one of those nights tonight that would be funny if so much didn’t go wrong…

First I had this hot young bottom who’s been texting me a fair amount wanting to get fucked. I really want to fuck him, but he lives in Brooklyn or Queens or something and it’s not terribly convenient to hookup. So today he was running errands in Manhattan so he thought he’d come over. But then he told me he hadn’t cleaned out… I really didn’t feel like dealing with that, so I said “another time”.

So I get online and there’s a guy on the Lower East Side that wants to come over. He just had to do a little cleaning out and he said he’ll be right over. Last I heard from him he was going to do a little more cleaning and then leave. I didn’t know if he actually left or not. I didn’t know if he’d show up, so I waited. After an hour and 15 min I give up.

Meanwhile there’s this hot black guy who wants to come over and isn’t far away. Great. But then as we’re confirming he also goes missing.

Then there’s this 23 year old neg guy who’s a bit new to barebacking who wants to come over. But he wants to clean out here – he doesn’t have any equipment to clean out. I’m a top, I’m not exactly set up for it either so I just blow him off…

Then there’s a guy in a hotel on Times Square who’s in from San Francisco who goes round and round. He sorta says he could host or travel, but then he starts saying “well, I just got in and have an early flight tomorrow”. What’s that have to do with anything other than you don’t want a long hookup. Bottom line he didn’t have equipment to clean out either. Again? Seriously? I was even willing to deal with that and let him clean out here. Then he said he wanted assurances he’d get fucked rough and I’d cum multiple times. That just was too much (I almost never cum more than once, and I’ll fuck however I feel like it) so I blew him off.

There were actually a few more in there. Guys who on a normal day I would have hooked up with, but as the saga was going on and on I just didn’t have the patience for.

So I tell myself I’ll hookup with the guy on the Upper West Side who I’ve been fucking for years now. He’s a dependable bottom. Not a whole lot of excitement – I’d rather try out new hole, but at this point dependable was looking good. He said he had three loads in him. Then on the way over he said the first top probably didn’t cum – still 2 loads should be better than none.

I get over there and I’m rimming him and he goes to push out some of the cum in his ass and it’s dirty and I get some in my mouth. YUCK! I run to the bathroom and wash my mouth out as best I could. Luckily I didn’t swallow.

I go back and barely get hard enough to fuck him (I wasn’t rimming him again). But then my dick gets hard and I’m able to fuck. But I can smell a little shit. That’s usually a huge turn off, but I just want to cum so I push through it. It was far from my best fuck – sorta a lame fuck actually. But I do manage to cum and give him a proper 3rd load.

The chemistry was all off, so I wound up washing off my dick, getting dressed and leaving pretty quickly.

It actually gets worse… As I was riding the subway home I realize my shirt is inside out. It was one of those shirts where they print the inside and it bleeds through to the outside to give it a faded look. So I had this bold lettering that was completely backwards. I didn’t want to be seen by someone I knew with my shirt on backwards, so when we got to 125 I waited as people left the platform and then when there weren’t too many people around I took off my shirt and put it on properly.

What a miserable evening… Oh well… Win some, lose some, right? I mean it’s just a law of averages. If you’re not having bad sex you probably aren’t having good sex either. Still, I could do without nights like tonight.

I wasn’t really planning on hooking up today. I knew I wasn’t at a 100%. When I got on BBRT & A4A I set my status to “Not Looking”. Despite that a Latino who’s been hitting me up a lot lately convinced me he should come over. I told him I might not be 100%, but he wanted to come.

He got here a bit late, ’cause he had sent a confirmation e-mail and I didn’t see it until just before he was supposed to be here and he didn’t leave until I responded. [That’s the sort of think I gave him the cell number for – but whatever…]

He gets here and he’s come from work and needed to clean out. I jacked my dick a bit and was a little concerned – “junior” wasn’t really responding.

He came out and wanted to suck my dick, and he did for a moment, but I knew the only way to get hard was to rim him. He wanted legs up, which was fine, but the problem was he didn’t seem 100% clean. I was rather “delicate” in my rimming. On any other day he would have been just fine, but today he wasn’t quite enough to get me going.

Well, he did get me just hard enough that I could fuck him, but I wasn’t completely hard. I wanted him to roll over on his belly, but when he pulled off my dick to do so I just wasn’t hard enough to go back in.

He sucked on my dick – which considering that I didn’t think his hole was perfectly clean was a bit daring – nothing like a little ATM where the dick isn’t quite clean… (yuck!)

Bottom line, we never really got back in the swing of things. At one point he was hard and I could see he was thinking of jacking off – but I think he was bugged by my not being hard. For god’s sake – I told him it was day #7 of being sick…

Another part of it was I haven’t taken Cialis in forever. When I feel better I’ll take one and fuck like a bunny for a few days 🙂

So my 9 day load is still in my balls. Tomorrow it’ll be a 10 day load. Maybe I’ll feel good enough to hookup tomorrow…

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This morning started pretty well, I had nice morning wood (see pic to the left), but the last few days my sex drive has been low. I’ve been spending a lot of time on Tumblr – I feel like I’m almost oversexed – looking at porn literally all day. Bottom line is I haven’t getting getting good stiff hardons the last few days – just lazy semi-chubby ones. Case and point yesterday I was laying out tanning – the bulge in my underwear was nice, but it would have been a lot nicer if I had been at least semi-hard, but my dick wasn’t cooperating.

Anyway, this morning I was encouraged by my morning wood, so when a fuckbud from the neighborhood (the one I videotaped a few weeks ago) hit me up I asked how quickly he could be over for a pump-n-dump. About 40 minutes later he was at my place…

He wanted to be abused, degraded and fucked roughly, slapped around, etc. I took him down to the cellar in my building. There’s a dark storage room – it’s filthy dirty.

I had told him to wear shorts and no underwear. He had complied. I pulled down his shorts, bent him over and rimmed his hole. Usually that gets me hard pretty quickly. I got a bit of a chubby, but wasn’t getting fully hard. His hole tasted good – tasted like ass, but clean ass…

Long story short on the next bit – I keep trying to fuck the guy, but my dick just didn’t cooperate. I wasn’t getting hard enough to fuck properly. It was really frustrating. I’d pull out and finger his hole. He’s so loose I think he could get fisted. I’d shove two, sometimes three fingers in his hole and he could take it no problem. Thing was, there was just something about that day/environment/whatever that my dick wasn’t fully cooperating.

The only time things went sorta well was when I had him on all fours and I was fucking him doggy style. I wouldn’t say it was a good fuck – far from it, but it was a fuck. At one point I was jacking trying to get myself hard enough and I started feeling my orgasm building. Weird… Seemed like it was going to be one of those days when I cum without being fully hard… So I get him on all fours and fuck him semi-hard and managed to blow my load without a problem. Go figure. It was a decent, 5 day load.

We got up, cleaned off a bit, and left.

All in all it was a bad fuck, but totally my fault. The bottom was wonderful – he did his part and was even nice about it afterwards saying he enjoyed it (believe it or not) – that being put flat on his belly on a dark dirty cellar was hot and while it wasn’t the best fuck, he did get my load which tweakers (who can fuck for hours) often can’t achieve. That’s looking on the bright side of things I guess, but hey at least I gave him a load…

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A couple days ago I fucked this black guy who I’ve fucked a couple times before. The first time we fucked it was a little awkward – we started fucking on his couch and I couldn’t get the position right (eventually we moved to his bed and it was all good). The next time I fucked him I videotaped it actually. It was in my place while it was under construction. Problem was I just couldn’t cum.

This time he got here – hot as ever – tall, skinny & young – even already had a load in him. Problem was when I fucked him I never felt like I was completely hard. Usually I can start before I’m fully hard and the sensation of fucking gets me the rest of the way. This time the position never quite felt right and there were times I felt like I was about to slip out. At one point I pulled out and thought I saw shit on my PA, but I didn’t smell anything and wasn’t completely sure (I wasn’t wearing glasses) – so I just continued on. For a while I didn’t think I could even cum, but then, somehow, the feeling came and I was able to cum in his ass. And when I pulled out he did seem clean – so that was a false alarm.

Next time we fuck I owe him a good fuck. I’ll take a Cialis ahead of time, etc. And since he’s up for video – I’ll see if I can videotape it.