Load 2018-1

I know I’ve been really really horrible about maintaining this blog. My New Years Resolution is to breed more asses and when I’m breeding regularly it’s fun to talk about it. So you should see more blog posts…

Last year I did a bunch of sex parties, but rarely cum when I’m standing up with the bottom bent over, so I did fuck 95 holes last year, but only managed to cum 18 of those times. If I put my mind to it I should be able to double that number this year pretty easily (hopefully get closer to tripling the number).

The first hole of the year was this hot, 30ish guy. I’ve always heard guys look best they ever look around the age of 30, so it’s a fun age to fuck. He first hit me up in July saying he’d gone off PrEP and wanted me to fuck him with my PA. There are a lot of guys who fantasize about being bugchasers – they’ll talk the talk, but then get cold feet. Off PrEP and wanting a rough fuck sure sounded like he was in bug chaser mode to me. And on top of everything else he said he had a boyfriend who didn’t know he was getting fucked and could only host during the day. Things didn’t work out in the summer, but then I heard from him again in November, and then yesterday he gives me the room number at a hotel near where he said he lived.

I’ve started cycling a lot, which means I’m FINALLY losing weight. [More on that in another blog post, maybe. Bottom line I’m not the bear I used to be.] Anyway, my plan that evening was to cycle to my gym in Midtown, then go to a meeting nearby, and the guy’s hotel was right on the way. So I left 20 minutes early to give me enough time to fuck him. I hadn’t actually got a response from him saying the time was good when I left, but by the time I got to midtown and checked he’d said the timing was perfect.

And I hadn’t really taken the time to study his profile and my notes on him before I left. All I knew was he seemed like he’d be a good fuck. I get to the (rather nice) hotel, go upstairs, and found his door ajar (as I’d suggested he do). I pushed the door open and there he was naked on the bed. He was actually much hotter than I was expecting. Quite smooth, lightly muscled, and very fit.

He flipped over and got on all fours as soon as I opened the door. At the time I didn’t know what to think of the look on his face. He didn’t really smile, so I was thinking maybe he wasn’t into me. I wondered if he was expecting me to be hotter or something.  His smooth perky ass looked absolutely perfect, and he presenting it for me to fuck, so I really didn’t care if he was into me or not. I just wanted to give him my load.

I unbuckled my belt, and unzipped my pants and then fumbled around in my bag to find my cockring. Then I started rimming him. His ass was perfectly smooth and muscled enough to make it perky. And best yet, not a hint of mustiness. I wondered if there were other loads in there, but couldn’t taste any.

Then when I was hard enough to fuck I stood up and pushed my dick in (still fully clothed). His hole felt really great. I almost thought I might be able to cum in that position (doggy), but didn’t want to take any chances so after a bit I had him get on his belly. It actually didn’t feel quite as good as it did with him on all fours, but I just stuck with it and it wasn’t long before I gave him a nice big load.

My dick seemed clean, but just in case I wiped it off with his sheets 😉 He flipped over and again I couldn’t tell what he thought of the fuck. He seemed a bit indifferent.

Then I gathered up my stuff and left. The total encounter was maybe 5 minutes. Definitely less than 10 minutes. I then stopped at a table in the hallway to put my coat on and get ready to do the next leg of the bike ride to the gym.

When I got home there was a message from him saying it was hot and the first time he’d knowingly taken a poz load. It was at that point when I understood his indifference. It wasn’t indifference – it was ambivalence. He was probably numb from the idea that with that fuck he was committing himself to possibly getting pozzed. It’s a big step and I can totally see a bottom seeming ambivalent the first time they actually go through with it.

I just hope the desire for poz toxic cum grows in him and he keeps seeking it out. And if he wasn’t actually off PrEP I hope he takes that step too. Clearly at least part of him wants to be poz, otherwise he wouldn’t have hit me up and said the things he did. And he wouldn’t have knowingly sought out his first poz load. (My dick is hard thinking about him getting pozzed 😈 ).

[And for the record, IMHO, some – probably most – people should stay neg and with PrEP they can. But when poz becomes your fetish – the thing you think about when you’re jacking off – then, for those people, yeah, I totally think they should get off PrEP and get their asses pozzed. It suits them.]

Load 2017-5

Gotta say I LOVE it when bug chasers hit me up to take my load. Fucked another one almost two weeks ago now. He was literally desperate to get pozzed. You could just see it in his eyes.

He was actually sorta cute. Short, nice body, mixed race. I refused to confirm whether I was poz or neg, off meds or on them. He had to take my load to find out. When he got here he was sorta withdrawn and quiet. It was like he was just going through the motions, but with intense desire.

There was some “poz talk” while we were fucking, but honestly it didn’t’ take long for me to blow my load. Just the idea of him wanting me to infect him was a huge turn on.

Afterwards I came I stayed pretty hard and kept fucking him. Finally I rolled him on his side and spooned him while still pumping in and out of his ass. I asked him when when he started chasing and he said he went off PrEP two months before. In other words, his Christmas present to himself was going off PrEP and his New Year’s resolution was to get pozzed.  Something tells me that’s one New Year’s resolution that might actually get fulfilled 😉

Now I’ve got this other bug chaser hitting me up. Cute, fairly young, hot lean body. Hopefully I’ll get my load in him this weekend.

Load 2017-2

So middle of December I changed gyms from the rather boring (and sometimes hostile) YMCA in Harlem to a much friendlier chain of gyms. I wasn’t really thinking about sex at the time I made the change, but damn it became clear to me what I’d been missing the first time I worked out at the new gym.

At the Y about the most that ever went on was there was this skinny black twink who liked to lay ass up in the steam room. But that literally was about as erotic as it ever got. I can’t even remember seeing a hardon there. I did see some hardons at the 14th Street location. And occasionally there would be stuff to see at the UWS location, but that location was also pretty hostile. You’d get yelled at if you didn’t sit on a towel, etc.

So the first time I went to the new gym there was this horny black “kid” (18+) with a hardon under a wet towel that came into the sauna. As other guys cleared out it was me, the kid and this (white) poz daddy. The poz daddy started feeling the kid’s ass and then sorta forced the kid onto his dick and he wound up giving the kids a small cum facial. It was sorta weird because the kid was clearly horny, but also sorta reluctant. On the one hand it looked like the poz daddy was raping him. On the other hand all the kid had to do was get up and walk out of the sauna. Anyway, a very hot first day at the new gym.

Anyway, in the past nearly two months now I’ve been to a bunch of the locations of the new gym. Some have been boring, but others are quite active. Usually it’s just guys jacking, occasionally there’s some quick oral action. But a week ago I was at one of the locations where there always seems to be at least a little bit going on and the crowd thinned out in the steam room so it was just me, this rather sexually aggressive guy I first pegged as a bottom, and this poz daddy with a big unkept beard. First the bottom guy started sucking my dick, then he had the poz daddy suck my dick and he got behind the poz daddy and started fucking him. (Guess he wasn’t just a bottom after all).

My dick was rock hard ’cause I’d taken a Levitra recently and I hadn’t cum in a while, so I wanted to fuck… So I freed my dick of the poz daddy’s mouth and got up. I’m not sure they got my intention, but “the bottom” stopped fucked the poz daddy and I slid my dick in. I was really nervous about someone walking in, so I kept my towel around my waist and kept looking at the door for shadows of people who might be coming in.

I tend to cum pretty quickly which was a good thing in a situation like a public steam room, and it wasn’t long before I dumped a load in his ass. I did it pretty quietly, so the poz daddy didn’t really know I’d cum. He sat down and started sucking my dick, probably hoping for an oral load. Then he looked up and smiled. I’m guessing he tasted the cum and figured out I’d already given him a load in his ass.

I wrapped my towel around my waist and went and took a shower. Thanks to the Levitra my boner just wouldn’t go down. Finally I just wrapped things up and walked out into the locker room. By the time I’d gotten to my locker it was still pretty big, but not a full hardon. It as at that point that I saw a brown spot on my towel. The poz daddy apparently hadn’t been completely clean. But his smile afterwards meant he must have been mostly clean. It was a bit confusing, but whatever.

I threw the dirty towel in the bin and went and did my workout and then hit the steam room again afterwards, but that time around there was only just a few hardons.

One thing I have learned is that I get better hardons before I workout. I work out hard enough that afterwards I’m sorta drained. So when I’m going to a “good location” I make sure to hit the steam room before I workout (and again after).

Actually, I may be over-training. My shoulder has started giving me problems and so I’ve gone to see a doctor and now a physical therapist. The PT wants me to keep going to the gym – just make some modifications to what I do. Which is good because I was really making progress – losing fat and gaining muscle. I mean I could do a month or two of just cardio, legs and abs if I had to, but I’d rather not lose my momentum.

But even if I could only do cardio, I think the sauna and steam rooms would keep me going 😉

[And no, I won’t publicly say which gym I’m going to now. Let’s just say the police arrested 3 guys for doing stuff in the steam room at one of the locations last month, so there needs to be a certain amount of discretion about where stuff is going on. I wish we lived in a world where fucking in a steam room was no big deal, but we don’t. Even progressives can be Nazis in the name of things like “public health”. It’s why I just identify as left-of-center / liberal, and not a progressive.]

Loads 2017-1 & 2017-3

There’s this one hot little muscular Latino that I’ve been fucking for over 4 years now. Over that time I’ve given him 15 loads. He’s, by far, one of my favorite fucks and late last year he told me that he always tries to come over when I text him because I’m his favorite top.

It’s actually really sweet that I’m his favorite top because when I started fucking him I was “pretty bearish” (to put it nicely). He’s sorta my ideal type – Latino, really short, really muscular, completely masculine, and best yet he’s a total slut. He likes getting multiple loads in his ass. I’ve seen him post on Squirt saying he’s cruising the parks uptown looking for loads. I’ve seen him out at sex parties taking loads.

Oh, and he seems to really like quickies. The first time he came over this year my husband was in the other room and afterwards he remarked “that was less than 15 minutes!” I just shrugged and said “yeah, we both sorta like it quick”.

Anyway, when he came over a couple weeks ago I had taken a Levitra and I laid on the couch jacking off to some bug chaser blogs on Tumblr for a few minutes before he got there. I was rock hard when I answered the door and still hard when we got to the bedroom to strip down. He sucked a little on my dick and then got on the bed and I fucked him. One of the reasons why I like fucking little guys is because I can get deep enough to hit their “2nd sphincter” (the “transverse folds in the rectum” that your dick hits that make it feel like you’re going through another sphincter).

Then when he came over a couple days ago I was really rushed. I had to leave at 3:15 for a physical therapy appointment and he showed up at 3:00 – he was later than we’d originally planned because he stopped to get a load from another top 😉 Anyway, we had plenty of time. Once again I was hard from jacking my dick when he got there, we stripped down. There was a few seconds of kissing and oral and then I put him on the bed. Despite the fact that I almost always fuck him the same way he never seems to remember that I like him on his belly. It’s sorta funny – you’d think after all those fucks he’d remember. I mean usually on his knees is appropriate ’cause I  like to rim him, but there wasn’t time. Anyway, I came really quickly, he dressed and was on his way with his second load of the day, and I had time to gather my stuff and get on my way all by my 3:15 deadline.

Bottom line. I love fucking him. I probably even have a bit of a crush on him, but I wouldn’t say I love him ’cause I barely know him – it’s not like there’s much conversation. But I’m really glad I’ve got a hot bottom on-call and plan on fucking him pretty regularly this year…

2016-12

I’ve been really bad about blogging for while now. I’ve gone to a lot of sex parties this year, but haven’t actually bred that many holes. Sex parties are a good venue to fuck a lot of ass – I’ve fucked like 90 guys this year, BUT (for me) they’re horrible for actually cumming. I usually need the bottom on his belly to cum and most of the sex clubs around here don’t have proper beds.

Anyway… Last night I bred this bug chaser. God, I love bug chasers. There’s just something really hot about a guy begging you to give him a toxic load and convert him. This particular bug chaser was in town from the UK where (AFAIK) they’re still fighting about who’s gonna pay for PrEP. So many of the neg guys in NYC are on PrEP – I sorta miss the days when bottoms put their future health in the hands of the tops who fucked them raw. There were consequences to sex back then that made it edgier and more exciting than it is these days…

Anyway the bug chaser wanted me to fuck him with my big PA to rough up his hole. My PA has been a bit sensitive lately – especially when I wear my big ring for too long. But before I left the house I popped half a Levitra and put in the big ring. It’s not every day I get bottoms begging me to poz them, so didn’t mind giving him what he wanted – even if it was a bit painful for me.

I was sorta hoping I could watch him take other loads, but when I got to his hotel I was the only top.  He was on all fours on the bed with his face looking the other direction. The only light was the light from the bathroom with the bathroom door slightly ajar. I stripped down to just socks and my shirt and started rimming him. I asked how many loads he had in him and he said three. I wasn’t able to felch any of the loads. He just seemed “well lubed”.

Didn’t take me too long to get rock hard at which point I stood up and gently guided my PA into his hole and had him get on his belly. I could definitely feel the loads in him. His hole was nice and silky. But the problem was that my dick kept bottoming out in his ass, which meant my ring was twisting and causing me pain. I tried to see if I could just bear the pain, but finally I realized if I wanted to breed him the ring needed to come out. So I pulled out quickly, and used the pillowcase to get the ball off and the ring out of my dick.

Even before I took the ring out we started with the poz talk… “So you wanna get pozzed?” That started him begging me to poz him and asking if I was toxic, and begging for a toxic load up his ass. He wanted it pretty bad. I was telling him things like “All slutty bottoms should be poz. You know you want this…” It was really hot. Honestly it’s the sorta stuff that goes through my head most of the time when I’m fucking guys – I was just verbalizing it this time.

Needless to say it didn’t take all that long to blow a load, and the load felt really big. All that poz talk got me going.

As I washed up and got dressed he never looked back. I love the fact that he has no clue what I look like, yet he was begging me to give him a toxic load and convert him.

Of course, I have no clue if he’s actually neg. And he has no clue what my HIV status really is. It could have been all fantasy. Or it could have been real. No one really knows. But it was real in that each of our desires were out there and both of us were getting off on the risk. I feel like ARVs are like training wheels for sex these days. At least for a moment we pretended there were no training wheels…

If you’re a bug chaser (real or fantasy) and in NYC, definitely hit me up. I wanna breed you while you beg me to poz you. But offer is off the table if you’re PNPing… Real pigs don’t need drugs to have good sex.

Loads 2016-1 & 2

I went to the CumUnion party in Queens last week and after a slow start there were tons of bottoms who I managed to fuck. Over the course of the night I think I fucked a dozen different bottoms. Honestly though, when it’s dark it’s sorta hard to keep track of who’s who and whether you’ve fucked the the guy before. I don’t remember them all, but here’s a rundown of the more memorable ones…

The first guy I fucked was this hot, tallish, early-30s (?), athletic, somewhat muscular guy. His hole felt really great. Sorta gripped my dick perfectly. He was clearly there for the loads – didn’t really care what guys looked like – he just wanted to get fucked and take loads. And I did manage to give him a nice big load. Lucky bottom – made his hole nice and cummy early in the evening (always helps bottoms get more loads).

There was this other bottom who was often ass up on the bed. Slid into him and he was all greasy and loose. He seemed ambivalent about getting fucked, so I didn’t fuck him for very long.

Then there was this hot maybe mid-20s blond guy with a slim body and one of those haircuts that’s long on the top and really short on the sides. When I felt his hole it was leaking with cum. I had to have my dick in there so I pushed in. He seemed non-committal about getting fucked by me, but didn’t say to stop either. He just sorta stood there. Didn’t bend over or anything to make it easier so the fuck didn’t last long. But it was hot seeing him the rest of the night bent over taking raw cock. He was sorta the hot twinkish guy who’s figured out he’s a hole…

Speaking of guys who didn’t really help the situation there was this one hot bottom who would chase me and want me to fuck him, but then refuse to get into a good position. I’d push on his back to get him bent over and he’d completely resist and just stay in the position he was in. I felt like telling him to go take Bottoming 101. I mean it’s not just about you – it’s gotta work for the top too. What’s the point of chasing tops if you’re not going to let them enjoy it?

Then there was this slim, short, older guy who was a good reliable bottom. Whenever I had a hardon and couldn’t find a bottom he always seemed to be around and would bend over for me.

I’m pretty sure I managed to cum a second time. There was this Asian (?) guy who was on all fours on the bed (the question mark is because the room was dark and I couldn’t get a good look at him – he might have been Latino). I pushed him down onto his belly and pounded him hard enough that it was sorta painful for him as I’d hit bottom in his hole. All of a sudden his hole was really wet and when I pulled out my dick sorta stopped cooperating. So I’m guessing I came in him and just didn’t feel the orgasm (it happens sometimes).

But it was a fun night of topping. Maybe I’ll do it again soon. If you’re a top and like having a lot of choices of bottoms to fuck, check out the party. Not that I want to tell bottoms to not show up (’cause it’s less hole for me to fuck), but if you’re a total bottom there might not be enough tops for you to be really happy. So best for vers guys and tops.