Load 2007-21

So there’s this latin guy on the Upper West Side who I fucked a couple of times over 3 years ago. He was a good bottom who liked it anonymous and simple. I’d show up at his place, he’d be on his knees, ass up. I’d fuck him, cum in him, and leave.

Since then I’ve seen him online a lot – he has a lot of ads on Craigslist for anonymous, “no questions asked”, pump and dump encounters. I kept meaning to hookup with him, but things always fell through. I’m sure he thought I was a complete flake… But one thing that really made me want to hook up with him was that he got fucked enough that half the time we’d talk he had a load or two in his ass already and I’ve been wanting “sloppy seconds” lately…

Anyway… Today was a bit frustrating. There was a blog reader who wanted to hookup – he’s been talking about it for a while, but things always fell through. Finally I think it came down to him not being ready to get cum in his ass. Then there was a 21 y.o. kid who logged off Adam4Adam as soon as things got serious (again the issue was probably taking loads). And the top who I tagged the bottom with (the guy who said the bottom was neg when he was actually poz) keeps saying he wants to hook up with me and my bf and get fucked, but I can never get him to actually come over. Then there was a willing black guy, but he wasn’t online when I actually wanted to hookup…

So I contacted the latin guy I fucked before. He got back to me pretty quickly and I went over. When I got there not much had changed. He lives in an SRO, which for those of you who aren’t New Yorkers, is a “Single Room Occupancy” building (technically a hotel). Basically they were low end hotels that the poor moved into and they became residential – decades later they’re still low end, one room apartments that don’t have kitchens – they’re just a room and a bathroom.

Not only does he live in a little room, but it’s one that’s low down in the building and the only light he has is a dingy light well… It’s always dark in his apartment – no matter what time of day it is. And from what I can tell he spends a lot of time in his apartment watching TV and online looking for guys to fuck him… It’s a little depressing when I think about it.

Like before, he left the door to his apartment ajar, and when I opened the door he was there like 3 feet inside the door on his bed, head down, ass up. I unzipped, got on my knees and started eating out his ass. He was a little guy, really smooth, and had a great ass and a nice hole. This was the kind of hookup I like, so I took my time and just ate his ass for a while. He had greased it up a little, but not so much that it was unpleasant to eat out.

I then took my hard raw cock that I’d been jacking a bit and shoved it in his ass (I’m still fully clothed, BTW). Like when I rimmed him, I took my time fucking him. He kept moving around a bit – adjusting himself to make things more comfortable but the whole time he was basically head down ass up. He never once turned around to look at me, and neither one of us said anything. He was just a piece of meat – and a good one at that…

I was actually a bit surprised with myself. Usually I get to the point and cum pretty quickly, but I just kept fucking him and fucking him… It felt good. Finally I could feel it building and I could tell I was sorta “leaking” in his ass. Finally I came in his ass. I wouldn’t say it was a long fuck, but it wasn’t a quick fuck either…

When I was done I kept my dick in him and he finally looked back at me and asked me to lay down with him. I went forward on the bed and laid on top of him – still keeping my dick in him. I wasn’t sure how things were going to go at this point. I figured he wanted to feel me on him, covering him, dominating him (in a tender way). I started kissing his neck and he started responding. He turned his head and I saw his face and he was actually pretty cute (which is more or less what I remembered).

We started cuddling and talking a little bit. He had this big grin on his face. I think he was enjoying himself – I know I was… Here was a short, inshape, latin bottom who loves getting cum in his ass, who was simultaneously a cumhole and a really sweet guy… Other than the fact that I find his life a little depressing, there was a lot I liked about the guy…

It was pretty surprising that an anonymous, “no questions asked” bottom who doesn’t even bother to look at who’s fucking him would be so affectionate and personable. But it was nice at the same time…

He finally suggested he get me a towel and we both sorta got up, but then I went back to eating his ass. I was hoping to taste my cum, but I guess I came pretty deep in him, and I didn’t have him sit on my face or anything that would made it come out… Then he cleaned off my cock with a blow job. I think he was hoping for round two, but I didn’t get hard enough for that. Finally I tucked my dick in, zipped up, and left…

I gotta say, it was one of the most satisfying fucks I’ve had in a really long time… Ah, the irony of having a really good bareback fuck on World AIDS Day…

The new bareback.com sucks, and on top of it, the webmaster seems to be either stupid, rude or both…

I tried to cancel my silver membership which I had ’cause I liked to look at the pics (which is now frustrating since most of the interesting thumbnails just show up as XXX), and this is what I got in response…

Dear Member,

You need to call CCbill or Segpay whoever you signed up with and have them cancel your membership.

Thanks,

Webmaster

What the hell? “Whoever you signed up with”? Don’t they know?

So guess what I’m going to do? I’m going to just contest the last month or two of membership. I can’t be the only one out there who thinks the new site sucks and I can’t be the only one having a problem canceling my membership, so I can’t be the only one who’s going to contest the charges on my credit card. They’re going to have a huge rash of chargebacks, their credit card processor won’t like them, and will drop them and they’ll have a cash flow problem.

Plus, that level of customer service is just horrid.

Oh yeah… The my account section was showing that I had 60,000 plus profile views but I wasn’t showing showing up in their most popular profiles section like I used to. I could tell they had migrated the data, but it looked like they may not have migrated it for everyone and even those of us who did get migrated weren’t working right because we weren’t showing up in the most popular list. So I asked about it and they responded…

Dear Member,

According to our records your profile has been searched for 73 times.

Thanks,

Webmaster

The webmaster must be clueless. My account was showing 60,000 plus when I wrote it, then a few days later it looked like they must have set everyone back to zero and then instead of saying something like “yeah, we had a problem with migrating that data – we had to dump it and start over, sorry…” I get what sounds like a form letter with no recognition of the issue…

God knows what’s up with them, but the site sucks and I’m done with it. My money is better spent on Manhunt where I actually get guys to fuck…

Load 2007-20

There’s been this bottom sorta chasing me online. One time we made plans and he never showed up, so my bf and I had things to do and went out and then I get a message from him asking why I didn’t answer the door when get got there…

Anyway, he was really eager to hookup with me, but at the same time he was a total high-maintenance bottom. He’d get all mad if I didn’t get back to him right away or if I had to cancel plans to hookup…

So yesterday I was aching to hookup and breed some ass. I hadn’t cum while I was away for Thanksgiving and then when I got back my attempts to hookup weren’t all that successful. A week had passed and I hadn’t cum. At that point I knew I had a huge load built up and I was determined to get it someone’s ass…

So after some hysterics on his part, the guy agrees to come over. I give him the address and ask him to confirm that he’s definitely coming over. There are a few more messages from him, but he never actually confirms. I send him a message asking for him to confirm, see he’s online, but never hear from him…

I wasn’t going to have him prevent me from busting my load. I mean I had to cum so badly that for like a day and a half I felt like I had to piss all the time – I didn’t need to piss – I needed to cum (don’t know how priests do it).

So I start looking for another cumhole – guys that loved to get fucked and take loads – not anything tender or romatic – just a cumhole. But the weird part is a few were online, but none of them were responding to their messages. Then just as I get a message from one of them, the doorbell rings.

This was actually a really awkward moment. Our (straight) neighbor from down the hall was over having a drink and a cigarette with my boyfriend. I hate the smell of smoke, so I make them go into the second bedroom, put a powerful fan in the window and stand next to the fan, but still here he was and I had a trick arriving…

My bf came out of the bedroom and asked if the bell was a trick and I say it was (he knew I was trying to hookup). He said it was OK that the neighbor knew we had an open relationship ’cause he had told him he had thrown a guy out while I was away at a conference for being fat and having a small dick. Apparently the neighbor (who we think is sorta gay, but in a relationship with a woman) was really titillated by the whole idea of me having sex in the next room and wanted to watch (but that’s another story – and thank god it didn’t happen)…

This story is getting pretty long and it hasn’t even started yet… Oh well…

So the guy shows up and I hurry him into the master bedroom before the neighbor sees him. He’s a bit femmy, but not a complete girl (in other words, fuckable). We start stripping, he sucks my dick, but it doesn’t get hard – just chubby… He asks me if I’m really neg and I say ‘yeah’. He then asks how I stay neg and I say it helps being a top and I don’t hookup all that much…

I turn him around and start eating his ass (which he really likes). It didn’t smell clean enough down there for me to really go to town on it, but it was clean enough… The weird part was how soft his ass was. Nice shape, but totally soft.

We then get in bed, he gets on his back and throws his legs in the air. It’s not my favorite way to fuck, but he had already started jacking his dick – again, not something I really like bottoms to do, but I just needed a hole and didn’t want complications. So I lube up my dick and start to fuck him. He has a hard time taking my dick, so we pause, he takes a hit of poppers, and I try again. This time he’s OK.

He keeps wanting me to talk dirty to him… I try, but mostly just want to fuck him, cum and be done with it. His hole did feel pretty good… Then I say something about wanting to cum in his ass and he says to hold on ’cause he wants to cum at the same time I do. I slow down a little and the next time I say I want to cum in his ass a moment later he cums. UGH! I didn’t say I was coming in his ass, just that I wanted to cum in his ass… I try to keep fucking him, but he can’t take it…

At this point I’m seriously pissed. I start thinking about who else I can hookup with who’d be an easy fuck and regret having sent a quick message to the cumhole who’s message I got right when the guy got to my place…

The guy suggests he eat my load, or that I cum on him. I make it crystal clear that the only way I’ll cum is in his ass. He gets this weird expression on his face and says “Really? Oh wow… It’s so real…” At that point I knew he never intended to get my cum in his ass and his cumming before me was a way to make sure he didn’t get cum in his ass. I feel used and just want him to leave. I even say something like, “well, so that’s it, eh?” He asks if he can come back (!), and then he puts two and two together and realizes that if he doesn’t take my cum now, he’s not going to get to come back.

Anyway, for some reason I didn’t kick him out right then and there and we spend a little time cuddling so he can recuperate and I can finish fucking him. I’m still not sure he’s going to let me cum in him, but whatever… We talk a bit and he tells me that he’s only ever done bareback with a boyfriend and then only after 2 or 3 months of dating. I asked if the guy came in his ass and he said he wasn’t sure – he just never saw the guy cum… (Weird). But he said lately whenever he gets fucked (with a condom) he’s jacking off to what it would be like raw – and what it would be like to take the load…

So after a while we start fucking again. This time I didn’t say much – didn’t want to tell him I was about to cum and give him the opportunity to fuck things up. He keeps telling me to talk to him and I do a little bit, but after a while I just shut up and fuck him.

Finally, I can feel my orgasm coming… Wasn’t quite sure how a 7 day load would go. First it just felt like cum was leaking out of me – that went on and on… I knew at that point he was getting my cum in his ass. And finally the I came in earnest – and that went on for a while too. It felt like I put a gallon of cum in his ass! The guy who didn’t want cum in his ass got a shit load of cum – planted deep too…

I knew he wanted to cum again, so I tried to keep fucking him, but eventually pulled out. He then started farting – but it was a really wet sloppy sorta fart. It was sorta cool and to me showed just how much cum I’d gotten up there. He was a bit embarrassed and then reached down and realized he was farting cum out of his ass…

While I sorta wanted things to be over at that point, he still wanted to cum, so we tried to get him off. I played for a while with his cummy ass, but after a while it was clear he wasn’t going to be able to cum.

I half expected him to go into the bathroom and shit the cum out, but he didn’t. He took a leak, got dressed and left. He left with a completely juicy ass and probably had a huge wet spot in the seat of his pants when he finally got to the end of his subway ride and stood up…

But more importantly – he’s now a cumhole. He’s gone from fantasizing about it to taking a load from a complete stranger – and a big load at that… I’m glad I could be the one to get him over the hump and started down the slippery slope…

So I’m thinking of not jacking off for the rest of the year – so none of my cum goes to waste – have it all get deposited properly in some guy’s ass… If nothing else it will keep me properly focused on sex. If I had done that at the beginning of the year I probably would have made my initial goal of 100 loads up guys’s asses this year. As it stands, if I’m lucky I’ll do 1/4 of that…

One of the blogs I read for my day job had this on it… Too funny…

Got home yesterday and wanted to hookup since I hadn’t cum in a few days. Didn’t manage to hookup with anyone, so this morning I get online. When nothing happens on Adam4Adam I pull out my credit card and cough up the money for Manhunt. Since bareback.com sucks now, and I’m stopping my paid membership there, I figure I’ll spend the money on Manhunt instead…

There were a couple of options, but one guy had contacted me before – looked like a small muscular latino and said he liked stocky guys. (Sounded like a pefect match). [I now know he’s light skinned black or mixed race, but whatever…]

So I go over to his place – full floor in a renovated brownstone in one of the best parts of Harlem. The name on his buzzer was Dr. John Doe (named changed of course) – a little pretentious, but maybe it meant he wasn’t a skanky cum dump…

He comes down to meet me – just like his pics – cute, lean, muscular… He was wearing a tank top and jeans that were riding low and showing his ass… Things were looking good.

We get into the apartment and start to kiss and feel each other up. Long story short, I get his pants off, and start eating his ass. Now the problems start. He just stands there. He obviously likes me eating his ass, but he doesn’t bend over or make it easy for me in any way… As a result, I have to keep ‘coming up for air’ since the way he’s standing I can’t breathe at the same time I’m rimming him.

He asks me if I like his ass and I say it’s pretty incredible. I play at poking my dick at his hole and then suggest we find somewhere more comfortable (since we were still standing next to the door). We go over to the bed and he sits on the bed, I raise up his legs and go to eat him out again. When I stop for a moment he tells me to keep rimming him. Demanding, but whatever… The whole time he’s jacking his dick.

I then go to fuck him. I don’t usually like missionary position when I’m fucking someone I just met, but whatever… The problem is, he won’t let his legs go back towards his chest – he keeps them straight up. I push, and he pushes back. This makes fucking him difficult. And he keeps repeatedly asking me to tell him how much I like his ass.

I try to flip him over and fuck him on all fours (since he never stopped stroking his dick) – but he’s still a bit rigid.

I’m losing it pretty quickly. He then says he wants to suck my dick, but won’t get up from laying flat on his back to do it – he makes me get in this weird position.

I try a little more to get hard, but it’s just not going to happen. I figure I’d suck his dick, but when I go down to do it, he doesn’t move his hand.

He starts asking what’s wrong. He obviously thinks I’m not into him, which is true, but it’s not a physical thing – it’s a chemistry thing. When you start talking about what’s going wrong in a hookup – it’s time to leave. So I say as much. On top of everything else I hadn’t gotten enough sleep, didn’t feel 100%, and the apartment was pretty warm (which always puts me off my game).

He keeps asking what’s wrong – if it was him… I keep deflecting the question… Oh well. I really wanted him to be a good cumhole, but that about sums it up – he doesn’t see himself as a cumhole. If I had to guess – he wants stocky guys who go gaga over him and keep telling him how wonderful he and his body is. He did have a great body – but to me it was just the perfect piece of meat…

Oh yeah, as I was leaving I noticed he had a painting of himself in the living room… It was one of the only pieces of art…

I googled his name when I got home. Let’s just say he’s doing well… Head of something at a pretty important institution…

So now I’ve got a 3+ day load in my balls and need to cum, but don’t want to waste it by jacking off. I’ll rest a little and look for a good bottom in a few hours…

My boyfriend and I have decided we want to try our hand at a producing amateur porn. Basically it’s something fun to do on the weekend…

So, if you’re in NYC and interested in doing porn, shoot me an e-mail at rawtop@yahoo.com. You do not have to show your face to participate, and we are paying (though not a huge amount)…

We’re looking for guys of all types, but if your type is not all that marketable, then you need to be good for your type. So, an average twink is fine, but an average 50 year old with a gut probably isn’t OK. If your older or heavier you should still be hot – at least to a portion of the guys out there…

We’re especially interested in finding real tops. So we’re being a lot less picky when it comes to tops than when it comes to bottoms… And if you’re willing to “take all loads” or get into bondage or S/M that helps a lot too…

If you’re a neg bottom and only want to get fucked by neg guys – you need to provide your own tops. If you’re a neg top you need to be OK with fucking poz bottoms (or provide your own bottom). We’re not taking any responsibility for making sure guys are HIV-.

The way it will work is that you’ll send me pics of yourself, a description of what you’re willing to do, how much you’re looking to get paid, whether you have a fuck buddy who will join you (makes it a lot more likely that it will happen), etc. For most bottoms and some tops we’ll then set up a “screen test” where you come in and do a solo shoot for a minimal amount of money. After we know what you look like on film, then we’ll set up something more serious.

So, if you’re interested, send me an e-mail at rawtop@yahoo.com and include:

• Good pictures of yourself
• Your stats
• What you’re willing to do
• What you’re not willing to do
• How much you’re looking to get paid
• Whether you have any buddies who’d be willing to join you

I’ll then get back to you and set things up…