If you’ve been reading this blog for a while, you’ll know I don’t think much of the new bareback.com. The interface sucks and their customer service is awful…

A while back I signed up for BarebackRT.com, nothing much was happening on it, so I pretty much ignored it. Then I kept getting e-mail alerts saying I had e-mail, so I took a closer look at it – and I gotta say, I like it a lot. While it’s not perfect, it’s well executed technically and in terms of features, and most importantly, it’s now got a critical mass of guys using it. In fact, in terms of registered users, it’s busier than bareback.com. I can actually imagine hooking up off this site – which I never could with bareback.com. In other words, Bareback.com is dead – long live BarebackRT.com.

Take a look at the following two pages and you’ll see how BarebackRT.com is better than Bareback.com – they’re the pages of online users… First BarebackRT.com (notice there are 268 registered users online.)…

Now here’s the same screen shot from Bareback.com taken at the same time as the one above (notice there are 229 registered users online)…

What few profiles you can see “above the fold” the images often aren’t available or are blocked (even if you’re a premium member). That’s not the case with BarebackRT.com…

It’s also clear that bareback.com is dominated by ads. I expect they’ll show up on BarebackRT.com in the not-too-distant future as they’ll need income to keep the site going, but so far it’s ad-free, which is nice…

BarebackRT.com also lists whether the guy takes or gives loads – the new bareback.com got rid of that feature.

So give BarbackRT.com a shot. You’ll like it a lot more than Bareback.com…. And when they ask who referred you, say ‘rawTOP’.

I was looking over the spreadsheet of my fucks for 2006 + 2007… As of this week I’ve gotten more of my cum where it belongs than last year. Last year it was 21 loads in guy’s asses, this year it’s 23 (so far). I’m a little behind on new guys. Last year it was 26 guys I’d never hooked up with before, this year it’s 22 new guys. But in terms of new guys I came inside – it was 14 last year and 13 this year…

So the goal for the rest of the year is to get up to 26 total loads (3 more), and at least get my cum in one more new guy this year (to tie last year). That would mean I got my cum in someone’s ass at least once every two weeks (on average), and over half those were on guys I hadn’t bred before…

You know the whole not cumming thing that I started around Thanksgiving has really helped get my cum where it belongs. Yeah, there was a week or so where I took a breather recently, but when I’m in the mood I just don’t cum when I’m jacking off – I wait until I can get it in someone’s ass… If I keep it up next year I’ll get a lot more ass…

Load 2007-23

Tonight a guy in the neighborhood sent me a message on Manhunt saying “seed me”. I first fucked him 10 years ago this month – a few times, and then a few years later – once in the bathroom of a school he was going to. He was wearing sweat pants and no underwear. He took my load and then went to class where my load seeped out… But I digress…

So we arrange a quick pump-and-dump in the park next to where we live, while I’m out walking the dogs. We meet up, go down to the end of a dead-end trail, tie up the dogs, he sucks my dick a little, then pulls down his pants and I start fucking him. It’s freezing out with icy snow on the ground, but I don’t care… I had put one of those soft rubber cock rings on so I had a nice chubby.

I was fucking a bit like a jack rabbit – quick and hard. He asked me to slow down and do long strokes. Normally I don’t like bottoms calling the shots, but I’ve always had a thing for this guy… I slow down, it feels good. I had been on the edge of cumming earlier that night and knew it wouldn’t take much for me to cum, and sure enough after a little bit I let loose in his ass – nice big load too.

I put my dick back into my pants, he wipes his butt with a paper towel, mentions how much I cam and we split. (I saw him walking off deeper into the park – probably looking for more loads – the park here is pretty cruisy)…

I get home and when I got to the bathroom and notice my boxers are a bit “dirty”, which means he must have been as well. So I decide to take a shower before bed. That breaks my routine of going directly to bed when I get back from the dog walk. I then lay down on the couch and channel surf. There’s a 24 hour news channel here in NY (local news, not CNN). I flip to it at the top of the hour and do something I almost never do – watch the 11:00 news. One of the top stories was about a big high profile accident downtown. I recognized some of the details of the accident and got online to verify that our friend wasn’t hurt…

But he was hurt, and after a lot of phone calls we found out that it looks like he’ll be paralyzed from the waist down. While that’s horrible news, if I hadn’t hooked up tonight we wouldn’t have known about it – it would have been another normal night where I went right to bed after walking the dogs.

It also points out the fragility and unpredictability of life… But that’s a whole other topic…

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Load 2007-22

Been chatting with a guy I’ve known casually for a while now who lives really close to me. He’s not really my type, but did a quickie pump and dump with him last night – kept it pretty impersonal, even though we knew each other and it only took a few minutes… Hadn’t cum in days and really needed to seed some ass. It’s sorta funny. He probably wouldn’t have taken me for a pump-and-dump top, and I wouldn’t have thought of him as a cumhole…

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Got an e-mail the other day…

Perhaps you’re not the best person to go to for advice in this, considering I have the feeling you’d have bias for one side, but…

I’m a sexually insatiable individual. I’m gay, and I think I lean towards the submissive bottom side. I would love nothing more than to take a big, warm load inside of my ass. The problem comes in when I mention that I’m in a monogamous relationship (with someone I do indeed care about a lot) that absolutely would not work if I went for an “open” agreement.

But I feel so overcome with sexual desire I feel like a complete perv. I need sex, lots of it, and I’m just not getting it (and due to time constraints, not able to get it with the current BF). I feel like a depraved horn-dog who needs a top to just pound my ass out hard and long till he leaves me dripping with his cum. Or even safely, I don’t care at this point. But I feel like I just can’t go through with it. Advice? Suggestions? Frequent masturbation isn’t helping…

In a later e-mail he said he’s 19, the bf is 20, they were virgins when they met, and they’re both neg (obviously)…

Let me start with Rule #1 – when you’re young you need to experiment. That’s the point of being young and gay… Settling into a monogamous relationship with the first guy you sleep with is so…. lesbian… (only they fight and break up)… I know it feels like true love, but how do you know what you like if you’ve only tried one thing?

The closest thing a twink should have to a relationship is a fuck buddy… Even if it’s another bottom he goes out to sex parties with…

I remember when I first moved to NYC. I went out with this older Cuban guy who was really sweet. I still think about him… But it just didn’t feel right – so I broke it off with him. He would have been a great boyfriend – bent over backwards to please me, and he was a really great guy… But I knew I needed more…

And looking back on it even though I knew I shouldn’t get in a long-term relationship I was pretty inhibited and didn’t get nearly enough sex. If I had it to do all over again I would do things very differently… I grew up in a conservative Christian family. My exposure to out gay people was in the form of them picketing the church services I went to (it literally happened – my parents were fond of one of the major teleevangelists of the ’70s/80s). When I came out I remember trying to figure out how much risk I was taking having sex. It was the late 80s and I figured as soon as you had much of any gay sex you’d get HIV and die.

The fear of HIV played a big part in my sex life. Perhaps it was a healthy fear since back then things were pretty primitive and if you became poz things looked pretty bad – a lot worse than they do now… When I came to NY I knew there were some j/o clubs where the floor was slick with cum. It was a scene I just didn’t want to get into – and I should have gotten into it. Most of the guys were pretty safe back then. Later when the Limelight reopened (a gay club in an old Episcopalian church) it was the first club to bring back the dark room. I used to spend hours in there. Guys would blow me for ages (I pretty much can’t cum from a blow job), and I’d get myself covered in other guys’ cum. It was hot and sweaty and when I guy would cum on me I’d wipe it all over my body… It was a wonderful thing.

So I had some of it, but there was so much more to be had. I went home most nights having done absolutely nothing. I was pretty shy and didn’t take risks socially when I went out. Big mistake. And if I wasn’t taking risks socially, I wasn’t taking much of any sexually either. Yeah, I did escorting, and a few other things, but I really regret not diving into things full force. Not being more assertive in picking guys up – I mean it was NYC – I probably wouldn’t ever see the guys again if I made an ass of myself, but I never took the risks. Never even went to the really raunchy sex club (wish I could remember the name of it)…

So the kid who contacted me (and others like him)… Get into the scene… Not so deeply that you become a meth addict or anything, but get out there, take risks and try things. Get past your inhibitions and really enjoy your sex life. You describe yourself as a “complete perv” who needs lots of sex… You know what you need – so go out and get it…

And don’t do what I did – I’d have a little fun and then find someone and wind up in a monogamous relationship. One became sexless, another was anything but sexless, but looking back I need more than one guy to fuck, and the latest one became sexless pretty quick and took a while to work it into the open relationship is is now… All those relationships really got in the way of the sex life I should have had – and I shouldn’t have let that happen… Very frankly, I wasted a lot of prime sexual years not having sex… I’m pretty happy with my current relationship, but I should have been honest about things and gotten it to be open a lot sooner…

If you get in a relationship do it with a top who likes to see you get fucked by other guys – someone who will pimp out your ass and keep things interesting for you. But one way or the other your current boyfriend isn’t good for anything but a platonic friend… He’s not what you should have right now. Trust me, been there, done that…

Well, I turned 40 today… Guess it’s a big milestone… I’m not all that freaked out about it, but I do wish I could fuck some young ass… Would be cool to fuck someone 1/2 my age (or younger – age of consent here in NY is 17)… Of course, most teens either want someone their own age or haven’t discovered the joys of being a total cumhole…

What I need is a submissive kid with a daddy fetish… Growing into the whole “daddy” role is why turning 40 isn’t really scary, but more like closing one chapter in my life and staring another…

There is one teen who contacted me the other day with a question. I need to post an answer to his question which will explain a lot about how I view the last 20 years of my sex life… He says he’s not my type, but maybe I should fuck him to get my dick in some young ass…