Sorry for not having more sex posts, but I actually haven’t been very horny lately. There have been a couple things going on – the latest was ordering a new car (which I’m actually a bit obsessed with), and dreaming about getting a weekend place upstate. I think I’ll just give up on the 100 load goal for the year and go at whatever pace things happen… I’m happy and satisfied with my sex life and that’s really all I care about (OK, some of the sex could be better, but whatever – that’s just par for the course).

But don’t worry – my sex life is cyclical – this won’t last forever and I will keep fucking guys here and there…

So the guy who got gangbanged last month, had another gangbang tonight so I decided to go. It was in a hotel this time. Me and this other guy arrived at the same time. The room was really small and he was sideways on the bed getting fucked by a not-so-attractive guy – sorta like last time, only not so hot. Let’s just say last time I only saw him from behind. This time I saw him from the side and he wasn’t as hot.

Like last time he had a blindfold on… I saw a total of 4 other guys fucking him… He was a busy boy… The guys were average to not-so-attractive (good thing he had the blindfold on)…

I’ll just cut to the chase and say that it didn’t go all that well. We were taking turns on his ass and after taking 3 turns I still couldn’t cum. I was late for something, so just left without cumming.

I think there were a number of reasons why I couldn’t cum:

1. There was an ‘audience’ and I don’t do well with an audience.
2. He didn’t look as attractive as last time
3. The bed was really soft and I couldn’t get him in a position that felt ‘right’

Oh well… I got my dick wet… Wish it could have gone better though…

Load 2007-11

Well, despite the fact that the last time I hooked up with him was a little weird, I hooked up with the guy who lives near where I worked again today after work. It had been a while since I’d cum in anyone’s hole, and a few days since I’d even jacked off – so I really needed to fuck someone. I know it’s sorta boring for me to be hooking up with the same guys over and over, but I’m in this mood where I want things to be simple. So today right before I was leaving work, I see he’s on line. I send him an IM and he says hes up for getting fucked, so I swing by.

On my way there I’m debating whether to fuck him with my PA – given how quickly we set things up, I’m not sure he’ll be clean…

I arrive and the front door is locked and the dog is loose in the house. He comes to the door, but he’s on the phone and signals to give him a minute. I know the business he’s in he deals with a lot of high net worth people, so I’m not put off by his response – business comes first…

It only takes a minute and he lets me in. He apologizes and says he’s starting a new job next week and the call was about that, and comments that it’s weird to see my face before I fuck him, and I’m thinking he’s really short (but I like that)… We go into one of the bedrooms, he covers the bed with a blanket and strips to his underwear and I pull down my pants and he sees my PA. It’s the first time I’ve had it in when I hooked up with him. He wants to suck my dick, but I tell him the ring will hurt, but he tries anyway. There’s another quick phone call, then he mentions that my PA is bigger than the others he’s played with and it does hurt… So he lays on the bed and I start eating him out…

I’m pleasantly surprised that he seems to be squeaky clean despite not having much time to clean up. He loves how I’m rimming and says he could cum with me just doing that… I lube him and my dick and ring up with spit as much as possible and start pushing in. While it would be nice to have better lube, he’s lose enough that I get in without much trouble.

I fuck him for a while and it feels good. It’s a little uncomfortable at first with the ring, but then it just feels good. I go a little easy on him with the ring, and like usual – I cum after just a few minutes of fucking him. It’s why I love his hole – it always makes me cum…

When I pull out I’m worried about shit, but the only thing on my PA is cum. Then I look at his hole and it’s a perfect picture – there’s cum all over his hole and leaking down onto his balls. I hadn’t cum in days, and the PA managed to pull out some of the cum. As you might expect, I dove in, licked up the cum (it tasted good), then I pull his face up and snowball the cum and share it with him. A big grin comes over his face and he just groans.

I go into the bathroom and clean up (just in case, but no need), and then leave…

Not sure when I’ll get to fuck him again. He mentioned that he won’t be as available after he takes his new job…

I’m not having the best luck with hooking up these days – I’m way behind on my target of 100 loads for the year – should be up to 13 and I’ve only gotten 10. Oh well it’s early in the year – maybe I’ll catch up… I’m also sorta not totally in the mood to hookup these days – at least not in the mood to work for it.

Tonight a 22 y.o. latin guy contacted me on Adam4Adam and said he was in the neighborhood and looking to hookup. His pics were hot enough, though he didnt have a body pic – just face pics. His profile mentioned “safe” twice so I told him I don’t use condoms ’cause they make me go soft. He didn’t really respond to that part, but we exchanged details and he came over. He asked if I had poppers and I said yes…

When he got here he was cute enough, though a bit hyper and wearing these baggy clothes that make it so you couldn’t see what his body was like. We got down to business pretty quickly. He turned out to have a bit of a belly, but I just wanted to fuck, so after we exchanged short blow jobs I moved on to his hole. I could tell he really liked getting rimmed. Then when I got up, I was totally hard (rimming does that for me), and he blew me some more.

Then I started lubing up my dick and he asked if I had a condom. I said ‘no’ (a lie – my bf has some), so he goes over to his pants and fishes around for one. Takes him a while but he finally finds one. I remind him that I go soft with condoms and he’s like “won’t you at least try?” “Ah… No…” I should have just thrown him out at that point, but I didn’t. I thought I’d be nice, so I went back to eating out his hole while he jacked off. Then he blew me some more and I fingered his hole until he blew his load.

After he was gone I was cleaning up and realized that there was only one bottle of poppers. I had just opened the other bottle that night and they were good ones – Jungle Juice Platinum – big bottle too… I looked all around and they were nowhere to be found. The little fuck had stolen them. UGH! I guess it could have been worse – he could have stolen my bf’s iPod or something…

At long last, there is official recognition of serosorting as a way to stay neg – the San Francisco Department of Public Health (SF DPH) has launched a “Disclose HIV” campaign that encourages guys to know their status, talk about status with their sex partners, and stick to guys who have the same HIV status as they do. (read the full story in the Bay Area Reporter)

If you’ve been reading my blog for long you’ll know that this is exactly my approach to HIV prevention, so it’s nice to have some official validation.

Unbelievably, there are poz guys who don’t like the campaign…

As an HIV+ man I find it hard enough to get a date, whether it’s with someone who is poz or negative. The public still discriminates against those of us who are poz and this campaign is only going to encourage more discrimination. (from poz.com)

Oh please… The guy thinks his ability to go out on a date comes before the health of guys who are neg. I wish I could yell and scream directly in his face and tell him what a self-absorbed, pathetic loser he is…

As a neg guy who’s had a poz boyfriend (and stayed by his side until the day he died), let me put this very clearly… Poz guys need to date poz guys – or at least never assume they’re entitled to date neg guys…

If you’re poz and a neg guy decides to date you, great. But in my book it would also be reasonable for him to turn you down simply because your poz. Now, if you’re both neg and one of you becomes poz. Then it depends on the circumstances whether you should break up or stay together. But again, the neg guy always gets to pull that card where he says ‘no’ just because you’re poz. (Though once he knows the facts and commits to you, he should try to stick with you.)

But the bottom line is HIV negative guys have a right to protect their health. If people know their status and stick to other people of the same status HIV, the spread of HIV will slow dramatically.

And this is true for people who use condoms as well those of us who bareback, ’cause condoms aren’t as good as you might think at preventing HIV… It’s still unsafe sex, even if your poz top uses a condom…

Today this really hot black guy came by… I was in a really mellow mood and not sure I was completely into hooking up, but I had had luck before with a mellow fuck, so I figured there wouldn’t be a problem…

He was short, muscular – like a little fireplug. Nice ass.. But for some reason after initially being getting rock hard while I rimmed him and fucking him a little, my dick decided to go soft. I just don’t get my dick sometimes… I mean the guy was hot…

However, when I did fuck him he had a hard time taking me (said he usually tops) and then when I was in him I didn’t feel much of anything… Somehow his hole, while being tight enough that he had a hard time taking me, didn’t really feel much like anything. Strangely enough, looser guys feel better to me recently – not sure why – it didn’t use to be that way…

When it was clear my dick wasn’t going to cooperate, I just ate out his hole for a long time hoping I’d get hard again. Then I flipped him over and continued eating his ass while he jacked off. When he came I licked his cum off his chest and face and shared his cum with him…

Oh well, guess that’s just how things go sometimes…