So my bottom was doing pretty well by the time the gangbang came along. He had gotten 3 loads pretty quickly the night before and 4 that morning (including mine). Just before the gangbang he realized that having breakfast may have been a mistake so he went to douche. The other bottom (an older black guy) showed up a few minutes early and when he heard my bottom had had a full breakfast just before a gangbang he rolled his eyes. The more experienced bottom hadn’t eaten anything but a danish in two days and wasn’t planning on eating much of anything for the rest of the weekend. That’s actually pretty typical of cum dumps at events like that – they just stop eating a day or so before the event so they don’t have to worry about being dirty. I know Jayson Park had told me as much – he wasn’t eating anything either.

2pm came and it was officially the start of the gangbang and my bottom boy was still getting brown water when he douched, so the older more experienced bottom told him to use cold water when he douched and that seemed to do the trick.

The first top arrived while my bottom was still cleaning out, but the black bottom sucked his dick and things were off and starting… Then my bottom was finally done douching and more tops started arriving. I can’t really give a blow-by-blow since it’s all a bit of a blur, but I’ll give some highlights…

When I did the gang bang at IML I noticed that the white bottom was getting a lot more loads than the mixed race bottom. And the same thing happened at this gang bang – my bottom had something like 6 loads in him before the black bottom got his first load. Usually guys of color will at least fuck the bottom who’s of color, but in one case this huge black guy came in and completely ignored the black bottom and just went for the white boy. I know my bottom probably wishes the guy hadn’t been so into him ’cause the top managed to hurt one of the bottom’s ribs when he had him on his belly and was pounding him.

Sexual preference is what it is. I’m not faulting guys for liking who they like as much as observing that it’s not all that easy to be a gay man of color – white boys often get a lot more sex. When it was all said and done my bottom got 8 loads and the black guy got 4 loads. Some of the 4 loads came because my bottom needed to take a break (after the huge black top hurt him)…

About 16 or 17 tops had showed up and obviously a few didn’t give a load. One was this older guy who just didn’t fit in very well. I could tell he was harmless so didn’t force the point and ask him to leave. The bottoms were ignoring him and that was doing the trick. However, right in the middle of the gangbang there was a knock on the door and he went to answer it. I stopped him and answered the door myself and I was really glad I did – it was the maid asking if we wanted the room cleaned! What horrible timing. I said I just needed some clean towels and she went and got some for me. Afterwards I realized my fly was down the whole time I was interacting with her – but that was a lot better than the old naked guy answering the door…

That means my bottom was now up to 15 loads. 12 since he woke up that day, and the 15 came in about a 26 hour period. His record before was 9 loads in a day. I was hoping to get at least 25 loads up him over the weekend, so he was doing well so far in that regard.

In hindsight the loads at the gangbang were the last loads my bottom took – something changed in him and he stopped being a cum hungry slut – but more about that in later posts…

Load 2010-1

UPDATE: Remembered a few more details, so I changed the post…

A lot as happened since Saturday morning, but I’ll try my best to remember the details. My bottom had taken three loads in pretty rapid succession the night before and we had a gangbang scheduled for 2pm on Saturday with over 100 tops expressing an interest in coming. However, the gangbang of another cumhole the night before was a bit of a dud, so I wasn’t sure how things would go…

I didn’t sleep well that night and got up feeling tired. One of the lessons I learned at IML was to eat properly so you don’t get run down, so I went to breakfast (the bottom said he didn’t want to eat). I had a full breakfast with cold runny eggs, cold french toast, etc. – it was pretty lame, but it got food into my system.

I wanted to videotape me fucking the bottom, so I set up the lights and got the camera ready… For a few reasons my dick just wasn’t into it. It was hot, I was tired, and I think my digesting food didn’t help either. So we took a break. However, I did notice a certain hesitation on the part of the bottom about being videotaped. I couldn’t have been more clear when we were discussing the weekend. I was paying the room charges and finding tops to fuck him in exchange for him letting me videotape him. I was fine with him wearing a hood, but me videotaping him was a given (so I thought)…

The bottom then decided he was hungry so he went for breakfast. While he was downstairs eating there was a knock on the door. I had been giving out the room number and wondered who the guy was here for. He was young and lean and pretty hot so I had him come in. We started playing together and he just wasn’t responding when I touched his ass, so I asked if he had been chatting with a top or a bottom and he said a bottom. Now mind you, I looked nothing like the bottom – I’m not sure why he didn’t say something sooner. So I texted my bottom and told him he had a top waiting for him and then I played the role of cocksucker to keep the guy happy and in the room while the bottom got back. Frankly, I did a lot more cocksucking than I’m usually comfortable with and he said he almost blew his load a few times, but I was purposely just trying to edge him and not let him cum since while I love the taste of cum, I wanted the load up my bottom’s ass, not down my throat.

Finally the bottom got back and it was just in time ’cause the guy was literally ready to blow. The bottom started giving him a blowjob but I told him he was ready to blow so the bottom just bent over the bed and took the guy’s dick and since I had been edging him for 15 minutes or so he blew in the bottom’s ass pretty quickly.

After that another top came by and fucked him and blew in his ass. I was sitting and jacking my dick and seeing him take a load got me boned. So now that he had 2 loads in him I got up and started fucking him. I suggested putting our hoods on and turning on the video camera but he talked me out of him. Later he said he was worried it would interrupt the flow and I accepted the explanation, but now I wonder if it was just avoidance…

So I just kept fucking him. His hole felt good and it was getting me off that he was taking loads… It wasn’t long before I blew my load up his hole. The last time I came had been Thursday, so it was a big load. When the other top had gone the bottom seemed really happy.

Then another top came by a little while later and the bottom took a 4th load – all before the gangbang… So now he was up to 7 loads.

Things have been busy/crazy and I need to write up what’s been going on before I forget…

Friday I was planning on leaving NYC at 9am so I’d get into DC around 1pm, but that didn’t happen. I had worked until 9:45pm the night before getting stuff ready for one of my sponsors. I manage their hosted blogs and they wanted to announce a new tube-style porn blog I’d been working on for them (MilkYourBone.com). Unfortunately they had all this content I had to go through and they got it to me at the last minute so I couldn’t have one of the guys who does work for me take care of it.

Long story short that put me way behind. I should have spent the afternoon getting ready – our cleaning guy moved out of town a few weeks ago, so I had to do laundry on top of everything else… All of it got pushed to the next day – the day I was supposed to leave at 9am. Bottom line I left NYC 5 1/2 hours after I intended to leave. And because I didn’t leave when I  planned traffic wasn’t as good as I had hoped and the trip took a bit longer than expected.

So I got in at 7pm instead of 1pm which sorta fucked things up. I really wanted to videotape me fucking someone that afternoon, but that wasn’t going to happen. I had just enough time to deal with all the e-mails and try to relax a bit before the bottom arrived.

Actually Jayson Park came over for a bit in the middle of all that. We hung out and talked. He was doing a porn shoot for Dick Wadd later that night, so I knew he wasn’t up for really getting fucked – his hole had to stay in good shape so the shoot went well for him. He was looking really hot. It’s like he doesn’t have an ounce of fat on him – and his butt – my god, his butt was so little, perky and fuckable… Anyway, at one point I touched him (’cause I couldn’t keep my hands off him), then we were kissing, then I wanted to rim him, so I pulled down his pants and started eating out his primo hole. Well, hard dick, great ass… Next thing you knew my dick was up his hole. It wasn’t a real fuck though. For starters I knew he had the shoot later and didn’t want to do anything that would mess that up (though I should have used something other than spit). And second, I had this crazy idea that the only loads I’d give this weekend would be ones I videotaped… So I just sorta play fucked him and then pulled out and we went back to hanging out.

He had to run, then there was a bottom from NYC who I’ve been meaning to fuck who was having a gangbang. I went over to his room about an hour after the gangbang was supposed to have started and when I went in he was the only one there. He was head down (blindfolded?) with his ass in the air. There was a sign near the door where tops were supposed to make a mark when they gave him a load. Only one top had made a mark. However, when I went to rim him his hole was totally cummy. In fact it tasted pretty incredible. I didn’t suck his hole ’cause it’s a little rude to take loads out of a cum dump that’s getting gangbanged, but there was plenty of cum on the outside of his ass… I fucked him for a bit and kept pulling out and cleaning off the cum I’d worked out of his ass. Thing was, I just wasn’t ready to cum right then.

At that point I was hard and wondering if there were other holes to fuck, so I walked all the floors in the hotel, but it just wasn’t happening yet. Then I went downstairs and had a beer, but when not much was happening there either I came back up to finish unpacking.

The boy arrived before I was done unpacking. I had just gone out for drinks with him a couple days before – didn’t really know him, though I knew he was a decent guy and got into taking lots of loads. I also sorta suspected that he wasn’t as submissive as I was really looking for and honestly that’s been a bit of an issue this weekend, but more on that later (nothing major – just little things).

Of course bottom boy comes into the room for a weekend of fucking – he wanted my dick and I wanted his hole so we fucked a bit, but like with Jayson, it was just play fucking. I wanted him to get my load when I was videotaping it… After he settled in a bit we went downstairs for a beer. This was actually his first leather event (hadn’t even been to a real leather bar) so he was a bit nervous.

After the beer we decided to go over to a bear event at a bar near by that someone told me had a darkroom. I’m not all that into bears, but I figured I might be able to get my dick in some holes and get a few loads for my boy. We walked over only to find the place was dead, so we left and came back to the hotel. We could have gone to a sex party we knew about but both of us were too tired to bother with a sex party that had a $15 cover and required driving.

By that time the hotel was a bit like a bathhouse. I put a blue hanky on the door knob and left it ajar and guys started looking in and then a few came in. The first two seemed like a couple. They were pretty hot, and the top was pretty aggressive. He wanted to fuck with a condom but I said I didn’t have any (there were actually the two from the registration bag – but they were in the trash by that point). The aggressive top kept trying to force my head down to suck his dick, but I don’t suck dick by force, so that wasn’t happening. However, I fucked the bottom raw with the two of them watching and they were into it, but didn’t want to do it themselves.

They left and then this top came in. Older guy with a nice dick. He wanted to fuck with a condom too, but had brought his own. My bottom indicated it was OK (he just wanted to get fucked), so I let the top fuck him. The fucking brought other guys into the room who wanted to watch, etc. Eventually the safe sex top wasn’t cumming and the condom was hurting the bottom so we had him stop. He left pretty quickly then I figured I’d show the others what the bottom really wanted and started fucking him raw. When I pulled out one of them took my place.

At that point things started getting hot and heavy. Guys would come in and out of the room, tops were fucking the bottom. At one point there was a 10 or 15 minute stretch where three guys blew their loads in the bottom in rapid succession. It was like a breeding frenzy – very hot…

Then this hot tattooed bottom I’d been chatting up online comes into the room and this whole group of guys sorta followed him in. He was the hot piece of meat that everyone wanted to fuck (including me). I felt up his ass and it was cummy, so I shoved my dick in, but I just fucked him for a bit and then passed him off to another top. The problem was the energy in the room changed and it was sorta out of control (in a bad way), so I closed the door so other guys couldn’t get in, and then was sorta happy when the hot piece of meat decided to leave and everyone followed him out.

UPDATE: The “hot piece of meat” mentioned the encounter on his blog:

I found out that a couple of rooms further down the hallway from my room there was a bb gangbang going on (open door, blue hanky on the door knot), organized by rawTOP (u know who I am talking about). We have been chatting online and exchanged phone numbers because I am just SO turned on by his blog, his videos and his stories. But for some reason he does not seem too much into me or not very eager to fuck my cunt and breed me because it takes him FOREVER to get back to me via text or mail (if he gets back to me at all). But I decided to check that little party out. There was one bottom being fucked by rawTOP and some tops around him waiting for their turn. As I entered the room I realised there were some guys following me – NICE! I bend over the bed and rawTOP was the first one who fucked my ass for some minutes (FINALLY!!) before he handed me over to some other fucker (at this time I did not really care who fucked my so I can’t tell what the guys looked like). After sometime I felt a little akward because I had the feeling I was crashing a party I was not really meant to be at: All the fuckers turned towards my ass and I felt uncomfortable. I LOVE cum up my ass but it did not feel right to steal all the fuckers from that other bottom and fuck up rawTOPs gangbang. So I decided to leave.

[For the record: I’m totally into the guy and would love to give him a proper fuck some time! (And videotape it too!)]

At that point we were both pretty tired and decided to go to bed. The bottom had gotten 3 loads in him pretty quickly, and I had gotten my dick in 4 holes, so it was a decent start to the weekend.

As we went to bed I cuddled with the bottom a bit, but he seemed really distant. I was having a really hard time reading him and days later as I write this I still don’t think I really understand him – just understand bits and pieces of him poorly… Looking back I’d say there are times when he seems to build a bit of an emotional protective wall between him and the other person. He doesn’t seem to mind it when the person uses him sexually, but he doesn’t give much of anything other than his body to the person. So as I was cuddling him, he didn’t respond, but didn’t complain either. It’s been a long time since I’ve cuddled with a bottom and gotten zero response. It was a bit odd…

IMPORTANT: This poll is only for guys who are sexually active with a bunch of different guys. If you don’t bareback or you’re generally monogamous, or you just don’t hookup much, DON’T FILL OUT THE POLL.

My 2010 is starting out with a leaky dick, so no sex for me for a bit. Callen-Lorde’s Saturday drop in clinic was closed for the holidays when I tried to go this weekend, but luckily I was able to get an appointment for today, so I’ll be back in the saddle by Wednesday or Thursday… Which seems sorta pointless since I know I’ll have to go back in a couple weeks to clean up what I catch at MAL. But that’s just how it goes…

But that made me wonder how common STDs are for those of us who bareback. Mind you, I managed to get HEP B years ago back when I was playing safe, so condoms aren’t totally effective, but they do help a bit. But I know for me I’ll get something when I go for weekends like IML or MAL (I can just count on it), and then I’ll probably get an STD 2-3 other times in the year depending on how much I fuck. So I’m at 3-4 times a year on average.

What’s your experience?

IMPORTANT: This poll is only for guys who are sexually active with a bunch of different guys. If you don’t bareback or you’re generally monogamous, or you just don’t hookup much, DON’T FILL OUT THE POLL.

UPDATE: So I went in and got meds to clean up whatever it is I’ve got. Also got an HIV test – and once again it was negative. The funny/frustrating part was how the HIV testing counselor kept trying to talk me into safe sex. Finally I just had to be abrupt and tell her I’ve been around the block, understand the risks and I’m fine with them. She got all weird after that, but I was just there for the test – not a lecture.

Every now and then this guy IMs me. Usually I just say I’m busy (’cause I am), but his first line got me interested in what he had to say…

slave boy:  I have been stealthed again……was really hot
rawTOP:  tell me details!
slave boy:  a hot muscled top hit me up on manhunt
slave boy:  his HIV status was left blank
slave boy:  and I could already smell something
slave boy:  after exchanging a few messages……..I went to his place
slave boy:  he claimed he was neg
slave boy:  but he asked if I was into bareback
rawTOP:  did you ask before going over?
slave boy:  yeah
slave boy:  I asked before going
rawTOP:  so why do you think he’s poz?
slave boy:  poz or not sure at least
slave boy:  mainly because he didn’t list his status
rawTOP:  does he take loads?
slave boy:  didn’t ask
slave boy:  he made me strip down to my jockstrap
slave boy:  and finger me really roughly
slave boy:  he agreed to play safe before I came
slave boy:  so he put on a condom
slave boy:  but he would enter me
slave boy:  and then pull out
slave boy:  I could see that he was inching the condom off bit by bit
rawTOP:  were you face down or on your back?
slave boy:  on my back
slave boy:  I was a bit nervous
slave boy:  so I asked if I could ride him
slave boy:  that way I would have more control
slave boy:  but he said no
slave boy:  and pinned me down
slave boy:  after a few more enter and re-enter
slave boy:  at that point I could not see if the condom was still on
slave boy:  then he started pounding me really hard
slave boy:  I was a bit scared…..because I knew what was happening
slave boy:  I said I wanted to change position into doggie…..so that there is a chance that I could see if the condom was still on
slave boy:  but he flipped me over with his cock still inside me
slave boy:  so I could just take it
slave boy:  then his breathing quickened and somehow his grip on me loosened
slave boy:  at that point I pulled away
slave boy:  and I saw that his cock was bare
slave boy:  and he stroked his cock, but only a few drops of cum oozed out
slave boy:  probably he has already shot his load up my ass
rawTOP:  did any cum come out of your ass after the hookup?
rawTOP:  usually within a couple hours you know if you got a load ’cause it leaks out
slave boy:  not that I notice
slave boy:  does it always leak out?
rawTOP:  depends on the size of the load i guess
rawTOP:  so what happened then?
slave boy:  he somehow then produced a condom in his hand….sort of made it looked like it slipped out when his cock pulled out from my ass
slave boy:  I haven’t cum at that point
slave boy:  and so I asked if I could kiss him while I jerked off
slave boy:  and after that I came……..and then I took a shower
rawTOP:  funny you wanted to kiss him after you thought he was stealthing you…
slave boy:  yeah……he was hot and the scene turned me on
rawTOP:  so do you want to hook up with him again?
slave boy:  maybe….. but he seemed not that into me
slave boy:  maybe he just wanted a hole to breed at that time
rawTOP:  why not contact him and tell him he can go raw this time if he wants… maybe he’ll be more interested in you if he knows he doesn’t have to hassle with a condom…
slave boy:  ah….. I’m still not willingly accepting raw loads yet
slave boy:  I get off on the idea of being stealthed or raped raw
rawTOP:  when was your last test? like how sure are you that you’re neg?
slave boy:  Nov last year
rawTOP:  so recently…
slave boy:  and everything is safe since then
slave boy:  except with this guy
rawTOP:  mind if i make this into a blog post? (i’ll take out who you are)…
slave boy:  ok….sure. I’d be honored

Admittedly, the guy calls himself a slave, so his getting off on being stealthed is an extension of his liking tops that take control. But it’s definitely an interesting combination – avidly safe sex, but secretly hoping the top takes off the condom and blows in his hole without his consent…

So as I mentioned last year IML instituted a no bareback policy for 2010 so many of us are boycotting them. If you have plans to go to IML cancel them now and go to some other event. I’ve always heard MAL (in DC) was more sexually charged anyway, so this was a great year to give it a shot, so in 2 weeks, that’s where I’ll be – January 15-18.

I’m trying to figure out how I want the weekend to go. One of the guys who bottomed for the gangbang I hosted at IML last year wants me to do another gangbang at MAL. Thing is, organizing a gangbang isn’t really what I feel like doing. I’ll go to them, but don’t feel like organizing one.

There are a few options. First, if I could find a guy who wanted to be my boy/cumhole for the weekend I’d sorta organize the weekend around him. I would plan a gangbang (or two) and generally see how many loads I can get tops to blow up his hole. But he needs to inspire me – young, thin(ish), short(er) and generally attractive would do the trick and these days “young” is 30ish or less. Anyone want to volunteer?

I give finding a suitable boy about a 10-15% chance of happening, so there needs to be an alternate plan. I’ve got a few priorities… 1) I want to videotape fucks – so anyone who’d be up for being videotaped would go instantly to the front of the line and get more time and attention (hint, hint), 2) I want a few good bdsm sessions with bottoms, but 3) I also just want to see how many holes I can get my dick in. At IML ’08 I fucked 12 guys I hadn’t fucked before (including ones at Flex Cleveland where I stopped on the way out and back). At IML ’09 it went up to 18 (half of which were at the blackout party). I can probably only cum 5-6 times over the 3 day period, but it would be great if I could get my dick in 30+ holes. It’ll really be about quantity more than quality (though I have my limits), so that means I’m looking for bb sex parties, backrooms at bars, sex clubs, bathhouses, etc. Does anyone have suggestions along those lines?

Let me know what you think, and if you’ll be at MAL and want to fuck then hit me up on BarebackRT (‘rawtop’) or on Recon (‘rawFUCKER’).

UPDATE:

Well, it looks like I may have found a boy for the weekend. I know he’s a good slut – I’ve seen him whoring his ass taking as many loads as possible, weekend after weekend after weekend on Craigslist. Still trying to figure out how submissive he’ll be, but chances are he’ll be my boy… 29, 5’8″, 145 and cute…

On top of that Jake Wetmore hit me up on Recon and wants my load – even wants me to whore him out. So one way or the other, it looks like I’ll be hosting a gangbang…