I had to go downtown today on an errand. Tried to find some new hole to fuck, but finally just wound up with the dependable Latin slut I’ve fucked on and off for a few years now…

As usual, he was bent over just inside the door, hole greased up, ready to get fucked. I pulled down my pants, jacked my dick until it was pretty hard, and started fucking him. For some reason I was just in the mood to completely slam his hole – over and over and over. It was a pretty rough and relentless fuck. I wasn’t able to cum for some reason, but I was able to stay hard. A couple times I felt my orgasm cumming, but then nothing actually came of it. So I just kept pounding and pounding and pounding away. If he weren’t such an experienced bottom I might have worried whether he could take it, but I knew that shouldn’t be a problem for him. It lasted for a quite a while and my tempo was a lot like the Energizer Bunny – really consistent… We would change positions but always the same relentless fuck.

Finally I was dripping with sweat and he was worn out. He said “unless you’re going to cum, can you stop now?” I did, went into the bathroom and cleaned off my dick. While I didn’t cum, it was still an OK hookup…

This hurts my batting average a little bit. I was doing really well this year – only a 13% failure rate before today (down from 43% the last two years). This puts it up to 18%, but still pretty good considering how things have gone in the past.

Load 2008-14

Last night there were 3 or 4 guys who wanted to hookup after work. I picked one and then he stood me up. He logged off when I thought he should be leaving. Then he just never showed up. When I finally realized it wasn’t going to happen I contacted the other guys, but it was too late… And I had even taken one of the pills (1/3rd dose) to make sure things went perfectly with him…

My boyfriend and I had dinner and watched the movie that we had gotten from NetFlix – “Gay Sex In The 70s” (highly recommended, BTW). With all the anonymous sex they were talking about ans showing, the movie got me all boned up – made me wish I lived in NY 30 years ago… My bf and I were discussing whether people have more or less sex these days. It’s definitely different than it was, but random hookups off the Internet in some ways are just as anonymous as cruising a pier (and you’re less likely to fall through a hole and drown in the river).

There I was wanting to fuck, and then being stood up, and then watching a movie with a lot of anonymous sex… So I get online and recontact one of the guys I had talked to earlier on Manhunt. He was available, and since he was uptown (in Harlem near the top of Central Park) I was willing to travel to hurry things along since I wanted to get to bed at a reasonable hour.

He gave me his address and phone number and told me to call when I was outside his building. Thought it was weird he didn’t give me an apartment number, but whatever. So I get there and the entrance to the building is dark. That’s not a good sign, so I call and he says he’s getting out of the shower, give him a minute. I’m sitting there wondering what’s going on. His immediate neighborhood is really nice. The building is a nice looking limestone townhouse, but he’s right on the edge of a pretty seedy neighborhood. If I were paranoid I wouldn’t have felt completely safe.

Finally I see some shadows behind the door and he opens up. No wonder he didn’t give me an apartment number – it turns out he owns the whole building and it’s configured as a single family home. The place is incredible – huge rooms, wonderful old details, really tall ceilings… After all the little hell holes I’ve fucked some bottoms in, this was a really nice change of pace.

We get down to business… He took off his sweat pants and left on his tank top and jockstrap, I left on my shirt… A little bit about him… He was significantly taller and a couple years older than me (things I don’t usually go for), but he was thin as a rail (something I definitely like). And to his credit – he was exactly like his pics – which were clear and numerous.

His ass was really nice so I dove in and rimmed it for a while – just took my time and enjoyed a great looking hole. I reached up to feel his dick – it was soft and a lot smaller than I would have expected on such a tall guy – but I didn’t mind that one bit…

Needless to say by the end of that I was completely boned. I spit on my dick a bit and then shoved in. Given our height difference I figured I should get him up on the bed on his stomach – it would be easier for both of us. His hole felt good (lube probably would have made it feel great), we fucked that way for a while then when I felt my load building I let him know I was going to give him my load. He pushed his ass up a little and you could tell he liked getting my load.

Since I had taken even the one pill earlier, I didn’t go soft right away. I laid down on top of him and slowly kept pumping my dick in and out of his now cummy ass. I didn’t want it to end…. Finally I rolled him over on his side (in case he wanted to jack off), and kept slowly pumping his hole. That went on for a while as well…

Eventually he wanted to kiss and when he laid on his back my dick popped out of his ass. After we kissed and felt each other up then he sat on top of me and jacked off (had this really intense look on his face while he was doing it and barely looked at me)…

Afterwards we laid around and talked – mostly about boyfriends and our experiences owning real estate in Upper Manhattan. It was a good talk…

I’m hoping this is the start of something regular. He’s a nice guy and I liked giving him my load…

Load 2008-13

Well, the pills that were making me feel so shitty for over a week are done. UGH. They were getting rid of parasites – don’t know if I got them from rimming or a restaurant worker who didn’t wash his hands after going to the bathroom. Either way I was one of the 16% of people who have pretty bad nausea. I just felt like I was about to throw up – for a whole week…

While the pills will take a few days to get out of my system, I hadn’t seeded any ass for a 10 days, so yesterday I hooked up with this Latino in the Bronx who was on my way home… He had contacted me on Saturday saying he and his buddy were hanging out at his place, both were bareback bottoms, did I want to come over? So when I saw him online yesterday I sent him a message…

I get there – it’s a “decent” neighborhood, I found parking right away, not far from his building. I get up to his place and it’s pretty spartan, but decent and clean… He was pretty much just like his pics – a nice looking, pretty thin, light-skinned Puerto Rican around my age. But he was also really pretty timid and nervous. Said he didn’t do this very much but I could have anything I wanted. I wasn’t quite sure what he meant by “this” – hooking up? taking loads? pump-and-dumps?

So we start taking off our clothes (I left my dress shirt on the whole time and just took off my pants and underwear). When he takes off his pants this HUGE dick plops out. My mind went to BikeGuy’s post the other day… It must have been 7 inches “soft” and it was thick too with a big head… I usually don’t suck much cock, but this one I had to try out… So I get down on my knees and start blowing him… It was a really nice cock. I wonder if the guy doesn’t get fucked much simply because when versatile tops see his dick they turn into big bottoms… Even though it was a great cock, I wasn’t there to suck dick. When he reiterated that I could have anything I wanted I had him lay on his back and started rimming him. (Yeah, I know, with what I just went through, I shouldn’t rim as much as I do – but I love eating ass…)

When I got his hole all sloppy with spit I gave him his poppers and started fucking him. Now I should back track – his hole was one of those holes that looks like it’s seen a lot of use and pretty loose. Could have been dildo use, but still, it’s not the type of hole that’s going to have problems taking a dick. But even so he wanted me to go slow and had me wait for his hole to relax.

As we fucked he kept pausing to sniff more poppers so his hole was loose enough, but the fact of the matter was it was pretty much completely loose as it was. The poppers were a pretty big distraction ’cause it meant we kept stopping so he wouldn’t spill… But at the same time his hole did feel really great. It was loose and really wet. So wet that I wondered if he hadn’t squirted a bunch of lube up there. If he hadn’t been so awkward about hooking up I would have thought he had a bunch of loads in him… Either way, it was a great hole – so the popper interruptions were something I was OK with putting up with.

Finally I got him on his belly which was good ’cause it was a position that I could fuck him while he was sniffing his poppers. I just wanted to cum and before long I felt it building and then let loose like 4 or 5 big squirts of cum in his ass… It felt good to finally put my cum where it belonged – up an ass rather than jacking off like I was doing when I wasn’t feeling so great the past 10 days…

He was so awkward about hooking up things sorta ended there. No after fuck cuddle – nothing. He was laying there on the bed looking at me with his huge dick, but sucking him off didn’t seem like the right thing in the moment. He was a sub bottom, I was his dom top. His orgasm didn’t seem all that important to him…

As I was getting dressed he mentioned that he was glad we’d hooked up. He’d been trying all weekend without any luck…

A comment on another blog got my hair bristling the other day…

HIV is a disease of low self esteem. People with high self esteem don’t put their health at risk because they value their lives. Also, people of self esteem don’t need to go ‘bareback’ to achieve intimacy because they will already have far more intimacy in their relationships than random hookups will ever give. Finally, people who are in touch with their instincts and know how to detect character flaws very early on will not have to worry about cheating partners.

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In the future, i imagine 2 classes of gay people emerging: those with high self esteem (almost all uninfected) and those with low self esteem (high rates of infection). I also imagine these 2 groups not intermixing when it comes to sex.

Those statements so outlandish I’m not sure if the guy is being funny or if he’s serious.

If he’s serious can you imagine what sex must be like with him? Do you think there’s ever a chance he’ll get a boyfriend or that the boyfriend will be monogamous?

But hey, if he ever does manage to get a boyfriend I’ll be happy to fuck the guy and seed his ass when he gets tired of the let’s-play-house “intimacy” with his boyfriend and just wants a proper fuck that leaves his ass all sloppy with cum. He won’t be the first guy like that I’ve seeded…

OK, I’m laying here feeling a bit like shit surfing the Internet with the TV turned to Logo in the background. All of a sudden I realize the music video they were playing was really pretty good… It was this one…

So I get the performer’s name (Deadlee) and look for the video on YouTube (found it, obviously). Watch the whole thing, closely… Pretty incredible. In it he talks about the rejection of his father. I love the line “Hate this sinner, ’cause I love this sin”… And he touches on issues of suicide among gay kids… Good stuff. And he and the boys he has in the video are pretty hot too (if you like blatino thugs)…

Then I head over to Deadlee’s blog and like what I see – great sense of style in the music videos he posts, and very political (in a good way)…

I then checked out his album on iTunes, but the other songs weren’t much like “Good Soldier II” (the one above), so they didn’t really do it for me. We’ll have to see where he goes with his next album…

Just came across the blog of an LA top (Ted) who specializes in whoring out bottoms boys. He’s got two blogs actually – bottoms who want to get whored out, and tops who are available for gangbangs and pump-and-dumps.

And the remarkable thing is how hot some of his bottom boys are. (a few are TOTALLY my type – like this asian guy, this asian/latin? guy, this white guy, this white latino who says he’s “neg” (LOL), this latin guy, as well as Steve Tuck, and Jared Steel (along with comments about how big of a mess he’s become).

The more recent posts are pretty revealing actually – he posts e-mail addresses, phone numbers, and sometimes even addresses – depends on what information the bottom provides. From what I understand in most cases the bottoms have to take any load he sends their way.

At first I was thinking it would be completely cool to add a couple blogs like that to this site with cumholes and tops posting their availability. But then I started thinking that’s what Craigslist is for… The only difference might be there would be less hostility here, it’s not quite as public, tops could comment on their experience with the bottom (and vice versa), and I could send out geographically-based e-mail alerts. If I did it, I’d have it broken down so you can see guys in a particular area…

What do you guys think? Is it worthwhile, or redundant? If you think it’s worthwhile, I’ll add it…

Bottoms – if you want to be listed, click here.

Tops – if you want to be listed, click here.

Or, if you just want to comment on the idea, send me an e-mail or comment on this post.