Sorry for getting this out so late – I’ve been pretty sick the past few days. (No, not what you’re thinking… Just a wiked sinus cold.) And before that I was swamped with work.

So the  “Canadian Sub” (the “winner” of the 32 load gangbang) spent the night Saturday night after the gangbang. I had to talk him into it. He seems to have “boundary” issues and was falling for me just hours after meeting me (lol). I just wanted someone to sleep with so when I woke up in the middle of the night I’d have a good cummy hole to fuck. (And I liked him). He was pretty wired and I was pretty tired. We stayed up talking, but about 3am or so I drifted off to sleep. Not sure how much sleep he got. It was nice having him around though. He was nice to cuddle up with and fuck. I think I woke up at one point and we fucked then drifted off to sleep again. Finally we got up around 8. He said good bye and went back to his room.

I don’t do particularly well on 5 hours of sleep. PortaUrinal and I went to breakfast at Union Station, but it was clear it was going to be a slow relaxed day – I just wasn’t up for much of anything else. And taking it easy was one of my goals for the weekend anyway.

Organizing for the gangbang was a bit of an issue… I had moved one of the bottoms to the Saturday gangbang, so I asked Canadian Sub whether he would be the other bottom for the Sunday gangbang – he said ‘sure’. Then the main bottom dropped out saying he wasn’t feeling well, so I needed to come up with another bottom. I knew it wasn’t going to be as big of a gangbang, but I preferred having two bottoms.

Then this 22 year old hit me up on BBRT. I asked if he wanted to bottom for the gangbang and he said he’d be into it. He was the wild card – I was just hoping he’d show up. His status said “Don’t Care” – I was sorta wondering what his story was…

That afternoon I flogged this guy (interesting story – he used to be involved with IML before they went anti-bareback). After flogging him we were laying in bed cuddling and talking and the 22 y.o. texted me and said he wanted to come over. It was more than an hour before the gangbang, but I figured it was better to get him in the room early than not have him show up.

He arrived and the flogging bottom left. He was this sweet, slightly awkward kid. He liked to talk and told me all sorts of stuff. Turns out he was sharing a room with two guys – one poz and the other a pretty serious bug chaser. He hadn’t been tested since the previous summer and didn’t really know his status. After talking to him I wondered how much he really got fucked. He said he had gotten fucked earlier that day, but before that the last time was a month ago. He was clearly was not the typical cumdump who you find bottoming at a bareback gang bang.

I had him check that he was cleaned out properly and we talked some more… He talked about how his parents had opted him out of sex ed in school and I wondered if that was one of the reasons why he had no fear about being a gangbang bottom… He lived in a relatively small town and I think mostly he just got fucked by straight and bisexual guys who needed a hole to cream. He seemed to see sex as a purely physical act (not emotional). Still, he was more than old enough to know what he was doing…

Canadian Sub and PortaUrinal showed up just before the start time. It was a different mix of guys and the vibe was different. Being Sunday it was also just a slower, more relaxed day in general. The blindfolds had worked really well the day before and both the bottoms wanted to be blindfolded, so that was good thing… It helps them concentrate on the dick.

The first top came in and started with Canadian Sub. I figured I would give the kid some dick so he didn’t feel left out. It was good I did – he was TIGHT. I started thinking he may not have gotten fucked earlier in the day – it may have just been a story (you never really know). It took me a while to get in and he was in a bit of pain, but I just held my dick in there till he got adjusted. He needed to be able to take my dick or else he wouldn’t be able to take all the other cock he was going to get. I’d be (sorta) gentle with him. Other tops not so much…

I swapped places with the other top and kept going back and forth between the bottoms for a good 30 or 40 minutes, maybe more… It was sorta fun, but I never did cum.

Then SFVersCumBoy and his boyfriend showed up. SFVersCumBoy is usually a bottom, but as his name implies, there are times he tops. He fucked the kid and his boyfriend fucked Canadian Sub. He gave the kid the BIGGEST load – he hadn’t cum in a week! That was a very good way to get the kid started – his hole was now completely filled with poz (undetectable) cum.

In general the tops were a lot more attractive than they were for the Saturday gangbang – especially early on. Attractiveness of tops is something I struggle with when I organize gangbangs. Sometimes not-so-hot guys can be great tops, and sometimes the bottoms don’t care – they just want the load, but where do you draw the line? At Saturday’s gangbang I wasn’t really comfortable with some of the guys and I didn’t know what the point was that I should ask them to leave. That wasn’t really much of an issue until the end of the Sunday gang bang.

After the kid had 5 or 6 loads in him, my buddy Brad Ramsey showed up. He’s got a THICK cock. After fucking Canadian Sub for a bit he tried fucking the kid. But the kid just couldn’t take Brad’s dick. Brad was patient and kept trying, but the kid was just in excruciating pain, so Brad finally gave up and went back to Canadian Sub and gave him the load.

A fuck or two later I was sitting across the room in a chair watching this hot guy pound away at the kid’s ass. He had the kid flat on his belly and it was a very hot scene. But after he got done the kid sorta curled up in a ball. I’m not sure what happened, but it was over for the kid after that. He said his hole really hurt and he couldn’t take any more. He was literally trembling. I just held him and didn’t push it. I was hoping it was temporary and that he’d get over it, but I realized after a few minutes for whatever reason that was it for him. So I showed him to the bathroom and gave him his clothes.

All in all the kid got 7 loads from 6 guys plus one oral load. Of course the one from SFVersCumBoy was huge and probably counted for several loads. He was counting dicks and thought he had taken 14 or 15 loads. Thing was people like me fucked him multiple times and others were going between the bottoms and then only one would get the load.

The gangbang continued with just Canadian Sub. In the end he racked up 11 loads. So he got 29 between the two gangbangs. Plus he had 8 other loads (4 Friday, 2 Saturday, 2 Sunday), so that means he had a 37 load weekend with 20 on Saturday alone – not bad.

PortaUrinal did pretty well – 10 loads of piss… He totalled 41 loads of piss for the weekend (24 of which were at my gangbangs). He wrote up a post on Breeding Zone raving about the weekend. Glad I could help him have fun – he’s a good guy.

Afterwards the Canadian Sub and I went down to the lobby to have dinner and a beer at the bar. I introduced him to some of the guys who fucked him. “This is Brad, he’s the one with the really thick dick…” It was sorta funny – people knew who he was, but he didn’t know who they were even though their loads were in his ass.  lol

We called it an early night and went back up to my room and he slept over again. I got more sleep this time, but I was still almost dangerously tired driving back to New York the next day (just the last half hour or so of the drive). Canadian Sub is a “grower”, not a “shower” and he had been soft (and really small) the entire time he was with me. I like a bottom with a little dick, but at one point Monday morning I collared him told him I wanted to own him and have him be my boy. He instantly popped a pretty respectable boner. After two gangbangs and 37 loads – that’s what he really wanted – a master to own him… Unfortunately, I can only fulfill that role one or two weekends a year. But it doesn’t mean I wouldn’t want more from him if the circumstances were different.

I texted with the kid a few days later – he was apologetic for not lasting longer. Said his hole was sore the next day but he wants to do another gangbang. I think he’s caught the bareback gangbang bug, so to speak.

Load 2011-1

Well, after drinking WAY WAY too much the night before (thanks to @PortaUrinal, lol) much of Saturday was wasted recovering from the night before. This really hot guy wanted to come over, fuck and get videotaped and I kept stringing him along thinking I’d feel better but it was late afternoon before my dick started coming to life again (after taking both a Cialis and some herbal pills).

I went to breakfast with Jayson Park. I hadn’t eaten properly the day before and the rush of calories wasn’t necessarily a good idea. I have a 20+ year history of blacking out when my blood sugar is low and Jayson was sitting there going on and on about some porn thing or another and I was just saying “yeah, yeah” while my mind was consumed with which way I’d fall if I blacked out at the table – lol. Combine low blood sugar with pain or thoughts of pain and I would have blacked out (it happened over 4th of July weekend this past year – at a restaurant nonetheless). Luckily nothing Jayson talked about involved pain, so I got through the breakfast – but I felt like shit and just wanted to go back to the hotel room and digest and get back to normal.

I hadn’t gotten that much sleep and tried to get back to sleep, but it just wasn’t happening. So I stayed awake and tried to figure out the logistics of the gangbang that night. 125 had signed up on BBRT and I had another 10 or 15 off Craigslist (despite some Nazi flagging my posts over and over again). I thought I need 3 bottoms. I had one solid bottom planned. Then I moved a dependable bottom from Sunday to Saturday, but I still needed a third. I was being a bit picky about the 3rd slot. When the puppy I played with last year said he’d be up for it, I was really happy. Last year when we played he was neg, but he had told me he converted since then…

I also spent some time down in the leather mart with Jayson Park. We spent a while talking to the guys from Dick Wadd Fetish which was interesting. Treasure Island apparently had been complaining ’cause they tried for 6 years to get in, but MAL never accepts their application. But in MAL’s defense, vendor space is limited and Treasure Island isn’t fetish. On the other hand Dick Wadd is all about fetish – piss and fisting are a big part of what they do – which is why they were there and Treasure Island wasn’t there. The day before PortaUrinal hadn’t met Jayson and as we were walking past the Dick Wadd booth I pointed to the TV and said “that’s Jayson” – and there he was big as life on the TV screen in a sling getting pounded while guys were pissing in his mouth…

Since I wasn’t really up for fucking I did flog two guys that afternoon, but I’ll give more details about them in another post…

Problem was as we approached the gangbang time the puppy wasn’t responding to text messages. I got a cumhole who had been taking loads all weekend to say he’d come over if the crowd got too much for the two bottoms, but as it turned out that wasn’t necessary.

An hour before the gangbang the first bottom arrived (TallDCPig on BBRT). He lived in the area and needed to check his douche before getting started. He was a nice guy. Sorta a “man’s man” – pretty butch both in appearance and personality. There was a glimmer in his eye – he was excited to see how many loads he could take. Technically he’s still neg… It’s been a year since his last test and he doesn’t really know what his status is. He was a total top up until 2 years ago, then tried bottoming and found he loved it, and the rest is history… They say you should know your status and getting gangbanged and getting a bunch of anonymous loads is definitely one way to be pretty sure about your status 😉

[Though seriously guys – get tested at least every year and never let more than two years go by without getting tested. Guys who wait longer than that are the ones that have bad things happen and die earlier than they should as a result.]

About 15 minutes before the gangbang bottom number two showed up. He was VERY hot… Sorta this beefy muscle guy. Not a total muscle boy – still had a man’s body. In fact he had the body I should have (if I hadn’t stopped working out). I’m going to call him “Canadian Sub” and not give his profile name. There’s a lot more to his story and I want to give him a little distance from what I’ll say about him later…

PortaUrinal showed up about the same time and set up his the portable urinal he made himself using a MORMON training urinal and a bunch of other parts. He’s more than happy to drink from the tap, but some guys get hard and can’t piss which is where the Porta Urinal is helpful…

The first few minutes of a gangbang are sorta funny. The bottoms have been ready for 5 or 10 minutes, but nothing is happening. You look at the time and think “it’s 9:01 already – where are the tops?” but then they start showing up… Oddly they seemed to show up in pairs which was pretty much perfect ’cause it meant both bottoms were getting fucked. 45 minutes in each had taken about 4 loads and the night was off to a nice even start.

At about 9:30 this one guy showed up in a blue oxford shirt and kakkies – totally out of dress code for a leather event. Turned out he was a BIG fan – he was sorta gushing and saying stuff like “I’m so honored to meet you”, which I always find a bit awkward to hear, though I know the person genuinely means it… I just don’t see myself that way… Anyway he was one of the first ones there and didn’t leave until 1am. There was about 10 minutes when he left to talk to Jayson Park (who he’s also a big fan of). He stayed hard the entire time and just kept fucking and fucking and fucking. We dubbed him the Energizer Bunny. At first I sorta just wished he’d cum already, but by the end I was really glad he was there (I was just glad he was one-of-a-kind). It meant that from about 9:30 to about 12:30 the guys were getting fucked constantly – so it was a very good gangbang for them…

[PortaUrinal sorta fell in love with the Energizer Bunny. His stamina was incredible and he was hot as well…]

Managing a gangbang is always a little tricky. There were guys there who I didn’t really like the looks of, but they were respectful of the bottoms and not really causing problems – so the question is do you kick them out or let them stay? After all if I had kicked them out the bottoms would have gotten fewer loads – and the bottoms wanted loads.

However, some guys didn’t understand the difference between a gangbang and an orgy and they started sucking each other’s dicks and wanting to get fucked. Things get out of hand, things get stolen, etc. when it comes to orgies, so I had no problem stopping the guys who were trying to turn the gangbang into an orgy.

The gangbang was supposed to go from 9 to 11 or 11:30, but 11:30 came and it slowed down, but guys kept coming, so the bottoms kept taking dick.

At one point this hot silver haired (poz?) daddy came in. He fucked one of the bottoms but then seemed to want to get fucked. While I wasn’t letting the party turn into an orgy, it was my party and I can make the rules and fuck who I want, so I did fuck him briefly.

I kept alternating between the bottoms fucking one and then the other as the mood hit me, though I have to say I preferred the Canadian Sub. There was one point where I fucked him pretty hard and wasn’t quite sure if I came or not towards the end. His hole was totally sloppy with cum when I was done. He had like 14 loads in him at that point and I literally fucked the cum out.

Then this other guy came in… Hot little guy, probably tweaking a little… He fucked the bottoms a little and then wanted to get fucked. It was pushing midnight and there weren’t many people there. I slid into his ass and it was silky smooth – felt INCREDIBLE…. I hadn’t cum in 6 days and soon I felt my load building up and I blew an enormous load up his ass. When I pulled out he asked if he had gotten my load and I said yes. THEN he asked me my status. It’s been over a year since my last test. I can’t say with any confidence what my status is, so I told him what he wanted to hear – that my last test was neg. He was happy with the answer and didn’t ask when the test had been… [NOT a good way to stay neg.] I should have gotten his e-mail – he’ll be poz this time next year and would make a great gangbang bottom…

Curiously, PortaUrinal (a dedicated bottom) tried his hand at being a bareback top. He fucked the bottoms right at the end of the night. If you’re going to experiment with being a bareback top, fucking cummy holes is definitely the best time to start…

After 18 loads (from 17 guys) the Canadian Sub called it quits. The only people left were the two bottoms, PortaUrinal, the Energizer Bunny, and the “are you neg?” vers guy… The blindfolds had come off, I was in a chair in the corner and the Canadian Sub came over, and sorta curled up between my legs and pretty much melted as I caressed his head, neck and shoulders…

1:30 came and things were finally done. The Canadian Sub had gotten 18 loads from 17 guys. TallDCPig got 14 loads from 12 guys. PortaUrinal got 14 loads of piss. The Energizer Bunny had fucked 3 guys and given one bottom 2 loads and the other 1 load. I had fucked 4 guys and gave the neg visitor a 6 day load. It was a good gangbang…

By the time it ended Canadian Sub and I had been curled up together for close to a half hour. I persuaded him to stay and we had a great night together talking and fucking. Not sure exactly when it happened, but he had fallen for me sometime during the gangbang and was like putty in my hands. But more on that later…

Load 2010-24

Last week I was chatting up this Asian guy on BBRT. He was out of town but said he was planning on coming to NYC the next weekend. All of a sudden he said…

So I just confirmed my trip to NYC this Friday-Sunday. When can we meet? … It was your PA that made the decision point.

From the sound of it he was coming into town specifically to get fucked by me and my PA. In one way it’s nice, in another it sorta obligated me to hookup with him. (If you’re reading this and thinking of doing something similar – don’t do it – chances are I will not be able to hookup with you).

His pics were just so-so and I wondered what I had just gotten myself into. On the other hand, he wanted to get fucked with a PA and it had been a while since I did that and there were things about him that looked interesting… He was Asian and I like Asian guys. He seemed like he was in reasonably good shape, but not great shape, but good enough. And the part that was most curious was that his profile didn’t just say he was neg, but in his profile text he listed the date of his last test. But he asked me no questions and his “looking for” status was “no preference”. Combine that with his wanting to get fucked by a PA that would probably tear him up a bit and he seemed like a bit of a hungry pig – that much I knew I was going to like.

We exchanged texts and set up a time. I really did get the sense that he came into town specifically to get fucked by me and my PA – it was sorta weird. Friday evening I had a barbecue at a friend’s place in Jersey, so we arranged to meet Saturday afternoon.

That morning I decided I’d take a hot bath, try to stretch my PA and get my 0 gauge ring in. It didn’t happen – I didn’t get the 0 gauge ring in until the next day. But I thought it would be cool to  fuck with the additional weight of the 0 gauge. In hindsight it was good it didn’t go in. The 0 gauge has been a little painful as my hole stretches to adapt to it. Probably would have been a really bad idea to fuck with it a few hours after going up to the bigger size. As it turned out this was the last fuck with the 2 gauge – seems appropriate to fuck with it the last day it was in – sorta like a going away party for the ring – lol.

Now my next issue was that my PA is sorta distracting. I don’t fuck with it (very often) ’cause when it’s in I don’t perform as well. So knowing he wanted to get fucked with the PA was a bit of a complication. I decided to do both my herbal stuff as well as a little Viagra. So first thing in the morning I took some of the herbal stuff and then a couple hours before I was supposed to meet him I took about a 1/3rd of a Viagra (maybe a little less). I just hoped it would work well enough…

You’d think if he was coming into town specifically to get fucked by me he’d pick a hotel that was easy for me to get to. Instead he picked one down near Wall Street. And then on top of it there was track work and I wound up having to go all the way to Brooklyn double back to get to him. It took a bit over an hour for me to get there. I did feel the Viagra kick in when we got to 59th Street, but by the time I was finally approaching his hotel I was thinking “I hope he’s worth it…” Oh yeah – and the temperature was in the 90’s with high humidity…

Then I get into the elevator at his hotel and realize you need a key card to get up to the guest floors. I texted him to come down. When he got there I was shocked – he was totally cute – unlike his pics, he was quite thin – so thin I’d call him skinny. And his face was so much more adorable than his pics – he looked like a bit of a nerd in his pics. He real life had this hot faux hawk and was 110% my type… Not perfect, but I don’t expect perfection – but he was damn close to it. Needless to say I was glad I bothered to hookup with him.

We get to his hotel room and strip down. He was totally into me (which I always find odd coming from guys who have great bodies), and as I’ve said I was totally into him. I had forgotten that he told me he liked to party. So it turned into a 3way with Tina/Chrissy… But oddly, he did it 3 times while I was there and the interaction with him was completely normal – like he wasn’t doing anything at all. Again, I lucked out… There wasn’t even the weird odor I’ve smelled when guys smoked up before sex – I wonder what it was that he was doing – maybe it wasn’t Tina… Anyway, a minor distraction, but not a problem.

We made out and I felt up his body for a little while. Then he sucked my cock for a few minutes. Then he got on all fours on the bed and I started eating him out. He had told me he took a load earlier in the day, but it was in there pretty deep (or he had cleaned out) ’cause I didn’t taste anything. He had a great ass and I finally got totally hard.

I stood up and started pushing my PA and cock into his ass. It’s always a little tricky getting such a big ring up some guy’s ass without hurting him or me in the process, but I did finally get it up there. I fucked him doggy style for a while, but every time I’d hit bottom in his ass it was a little painful for me as the ring would double back. So I pushed him onto his belly thinking maybe I wouldn’t get as deep in his ass that way.

With him on his belly there was still a little pain but not so much, but what I really noticed was hot small he was underneath me. He felt good… really good… There was something about his body where his hole was just in the perfect place for me. As you might guess, it wasn’t long before I was blowing my load in his hole. Between the Viagra and the herbal stuff I stayed hard after cumming and kept fucking his cummy hole (more slowly) for a while.

Finally I pulled out and he cleaned off my dick (it’s sorta surprising how many guys are into ATM these days – it seems everyone wants to clean off my dick after it comes out of their ass)… And given that my big PA digs up shit even in “clean” bottoms it said a lot about his ability to clean out that he could suck the dick right after it fucked him. Then I got behind him and started eating out his cummy hole. It tasted great… It’s sorta weird tasting my cum when I’m rimming a guy. I had fucked him enough after cumming that he had a fair amount of cum outside his ass – I didn’t have to work too hard to get my fill of cum.

We then laid around for a bit and chatted, cuddled, sucked each other’s cocks, etc. After 20 minutes or so I got hard enough for round two, but I wasn’t totally hard. In the past I’d noticed that my ring would hold my semi-hard cock in a guy’s ass, so I pushed the ring in and fucked him. I wasn’t totally hard and it was sorta an odd fuck. Seemed it was pretty intense for him – probably because my ring wasn’t as deep in his ass and when I’d pull out a bit the ring would stretch his sphincter. For me it wasn’t the greatest of fucks, but he seemed to like it because the PA was causing some pretty intense sensations.

I wasn’t going to cum, so eventually I just pulled out and we went back to cuddling, talking, sucking cock, etc. At this point I asked him what was up with him since he put the date of his last HIV test in his profile but then had “no preference” in for “looking for” status. He misinterpreted what I said and before I got “no preference” out he said “‘don’t care’ – did I forget to change that?” In other words before his test his HIV status was apparently listed as “don’t care”. Anyway, his answer was pretty simple – he had gotten into barebacking, loved it, never wanted to use condoms again and knew he’d eventually become poz. That still didn’t answer my question as to whether putting his HIV test date in his profile was there to attract neg tops or attract gift giving poz breeders. Either way, I didn’t get the sense he was bug chasing so much as just aware it would happen sooner or later and enjoying life in the process.

I seem to get a fair number of guys assuming I’m poz. I wonder if his coming to NYC paying for transportation and hotel mostly just to get fucked by one top wasn’t because he was thinking that being fucked with a big PA would be a memorable way to get pozzed. Thing was, even when we were discussing his status he didn’t ask questions about mine… He clearly just didn’t want to know. There are times when I wish I could be a mind reader…

When we went to fuck the third time I took my ring out. It was a big enough distraction I knew I’d do better without it. I rimmed him little before I started, but by this time his ass was pretty musky from all the fucking and cum, so it really wasn’t that big of a turn on. But when I went to fuck him it was a good fuck. Once again we started with him on all fours. He was jacking his dick, which usually I don’t like, but it wasn’t interfering with anything. Then he stopped and I asked if he had cum – he had. He didn’t ask me to stop, so I pushed him onto his belly and kept fucking him. There was something about his hole that felt incredible. It was cummy and I was going in at just the right angle, and of course like before I could feel how small he was under me. I almost came a second time. In all my preparations for that day I had forgotten my cock ring. Had I remembered it my dick might have been a little thicker and a little more sensitive and I just might have cum the second time. For me it was probably my favorite fuck of the day – even though I didn’t cum.

Afterwards we cuddled and he actually fell asleep in my arms for a few minutes. Eventually I had to go. It had been a busy 2 hours and I needed to get home.

All in all an excellent fuck…

I got this e-mail the other day…

Hey dude-

Im 21, 6’0” 190 lbs athleic in the military. I’m stationed in Texas. I know you are in NYC but ive read your blogs and wanted to see if you could help me. I’ve wanted to be bred, and by that i mean actually converted for a long time. since i was 18. Its kinda hard for me to find any poz guys to help me out in the military and im not so good on sites- so i wanted to see if you might be able to help me out. I know a lot of people dont understandwhy i want to do what i’m trying to do, but ive made up my mind.

Please let me know if you know anyone willing to initiate me into the brotherhood

Thanks man!

What is it about military guys wanting to get pozzed? He’s hardly the first one I’ve seen… I mean I even blogged about a Craigslist ad I saw almost 3 years ago now where a military bottom wanted to get pozzed, and I’ve seen profiles before with the same deal.

Personally I think it has a certain logic to it. If you watch the Newshour on PBS there’s this list of young guys just like them that are being killed in Iraq and Afghanistan every day. It’s sort of a chicken and egg thing – do people who don’t value their lives go into the military or does the military teach their recruits that their life is cheap? I probably just said that wrong ’cause I don’t mean to be judgmental – what I mean is that being in the military and being attracted to danger sorta go hand in hand.

The impulse that makes someone want to go into a battlefield where they can get shot is pretty much the same as a neg bottom who wants to get pozzed. I mean, the war in Iraq isn’t really necessary for national defense – people who want to fight there are simply turned on by danger (or hate Arabs, or whatever)…

That’s why I don’t think it’s fair to look at bug chasers like they’re two headed freaks. We don’t look at guys who are volunteering for the military that way and they’re pretty much doing the same thing as a bug chaser, IMHO.

So he wants me to post his pics and give out his e-mail in case any of you out there are willing to help him on his quest. The funny part is he didn’t want his real name used, but the pics he initially sent me were face pics. lol [That means I’ve seen his face pics and can say that he’s VERY hot!]

[pics removed]

For hookup stuff he goes by “[name removed]”, and his e-mail is [removed]. If you’re interested in making his wish comet true – contact him… 😉

[And for those of you have a problem with this – think about the fact that he’s been wanting it for 3 years… He’s on a quest and it will happen sooner or later…]

UPDATE: Got a message from him…

Hey man!!! Ive found someone and just started taking loads!
You can keep the post up but if u could remove my pics n email id appreciate it!
I’ll keep you posted with updates on my journey
Thanks!!

I asked, and the guy he found is high viral load poz… Looks like he’s getting what wanted.

Got this e-mail this morning and thought there might be a few of you in SoCal who can help this twink out in his quest for poz cum…

Hi my name is *** I was looking at BB shit today and came across your blog, k I know this is weird, but I’ve been trying for like a year to find a hot top to poz me my residence is ***, california aka orange county, seeing as it seems like you talk to people everywhere or at least know a few maybe you can help me I know it seems easy but I want it to be with a guy who is at least under 33, only because I want it to be really hot I want him to want to poz me and that’s the whole point of fucking me, long story short I’ve been trying to find a guy for a little over a year and have been unsuccessful, so if you could help me, refer me 2 someone or idk really but its my biggest fantasy, I’ve wanted to do this for 3 years took 2 to think about and 1 to start looking.

If you want to contact him, his e-mail is: [removed]

And for all of you who are appalled by this… Notice the part where he’s been thinking about it for 3 years… It’s not like he’s made the decision lightly nor is is likely he’ll stay neg once he’s made the decision to get pozzed after that much thinking about it…

Here are some pics of him. Had to crop out his face, but he really is pretty cute…

[pics removed]

UPDATE: The twink asked me to take things down, that he’s “got things covered now”….

UPDATE: It’s now a month or so after the gangbang. The bottom got an HIV test and he’s negative. That means chances are he really is negative and what happened at the gangbang was of no consequence. Just reminder – this is all hearsay – it could be the guy who said he was poz wasn’t poz at all, but just playing some sort of weird game. Or it could be the bottom was lucky that night… Who knows.

Just a reminder: I have no clue which parts of this story are the closest to the truth. It’s three sides to a story and the truth is in there somewhere. Or it could just have been a matter of different people having different perceptions of the situation…

So the gangbang a couple weeks ago where I got the video of me fucking the guy with my PA… Well, it’s gotten even more interesting… Turns out the bottom took a poz load that night despite the fact that the organizing top had promised him to screen the tops and only have neg tops fucking him…

First I noticed the bottom had changed his HIV status on Manhunt from “Negative” to “Don’t Know”. I asked why and he said…

well a) since i figured thats a more accurate representation and b) since i found out that one of the guys who bred me at the gang bang is poz and lied about his status to get in

Needless to say that peeked my interest, so I inquired further, asking the organizing top what happened…

it was a guy that I had been talking to for over a week… about loading guys, etc. I originally asked his status and he said he was unsure. Told me that for weeks.

So we continued talking afterward and then it came out that he was actually poz. To our knowledge, he is not on meds (according to him) and he wouldn’t give us info on his viral load. So not sure. He claims that he told us he was poz, but he didn’t.

Then the bottom told me more…

his name is *** on here [Manhunt]. he was the second load i took.

honestly, although most of the time i was doing it in very controlled situations (but not always), i have been bbing for such a long time that it is of course possible that i’ve taken poz loads before and not known it. however, this guy’s attitude was so appalling. he lied to get in to the gangbang and he was completely unapologetic about his blatant decision to knowingly do that to me. he is an unhappy, bitter person. that affected and upsets me more than the fact that he was poz.

Notice how he doesn’t say the guy told him he didn’t know his status… Curious. Personally, I view “don’t know” as riskier than “poz” since at least with poz you can ask their viral load…

In another email the bottom said

of course i realize the risks of taking loads. still, thinking about that guy, about how he would just blatantly lie like that and not care at all about the consequences…and how he could be so young and so bitter… that type of thing just makes me sad.

It sounds like he’s pretty mad at the poz guy, right? Well, that’s where it gets a bit more complicated…

I knew the poz guy – he’d been hitting me up to fuck him and I just hadn’t found the time. So I shot an e-mail off to him asking about it and mention the bottom seems pissed. He says…

he and i have spoken extensively on the topic. he wants to hang out again but hes not sure when. he doesnt seem THAT angry to me.

Who knows if that’s true or not… It is suspect given that the whole thing started with him not being fully open about his HIV status…

Then the bottom tells me…

yeah, i’d like to try to stay neg. i’ve managed to take loads for years without turning poz…we’ll see what happens at my next test. i know that part of that is luck, but part of it is screening and seeing if i trust the person (which i can’t do if i’m letting someone else set up a gang bang). of course on rare occasions i’ve also done things like take random loads from guys at the park or in nasty vid stores, etc, which clearly has virtually no control or screening.

one of the ways i dealt with the stress of finding out about all of that was to sexualize it. i’ve never been into the “bug chaser” scene at all. but my friend *** [his “master”] helped spur me on to jo-ing about getting fucked by that guy. he was actually one of the hotter fucks of the night – he was fun and mean and had a good cock.

So his master has him jacking off to the idea of taking a poz load… He did the same thing with obese guys – had the bottom get fucked by a really obese guy and then told the bottom he was only allowed to jack off while thinking about getting fucked by that guy. That resulted in the bottom getting turned on by the idea of being used by fat guys, now he’s going to start getting turned on by the idea of taking poz loads.

Now also think about how rough the bottom was fucked that night… I fucked him with the PA and he was hurting from that. The top before me had a huge dick and fucked him really rough. It goes without saying that the poz load got worked in there really well. It’s two weeks later and the bottom feels fine (no “fuck flu”), but who knows…

Since he’s jacking off to the memory of taking a poz load, and he’s thinking of meeting up with the guy again (if you believe the poz guy) – I think the bottom is at a big turning point in his life.