Load 2010-18

Today was a frustrating day that at least ended well…

I started looking for someone to hookup with fairly early this morning. The first three guys who said they’d come over happened to all say they were neg in their profiles. One canceled right after I gave him the directions on how to get here. Another canceled when I asked for his address. Another one said he was leaving and never showed up. And then a fourth bottom who’s status was listed as “don’t care” wouldn’t tell me when he was going to get here – he just kept saying “yeah, I’m definitely coming”.

As a result I’m the #1 most viewed profile on BarebackRT today – which is not something I really wanted to accomplish ’cause as soon as you’re on their most viewed list you start getting e-mails from all over the world. I don’t want e-mails from all over the world. I want bottoms who are local who want to get fucked. Oh well.

Anyway, FINALLY this bottom hits me up. He describes himself as “sleazy” and he doesn’t list his status (= poz). By that point I was so fucking sick of neg bottoms and their indecisiveness I was actually looking forward to a good poz bottom. I mean fucking neg hole is fuck, but getting it to show up and take the load is a pain in the ass sometimes (like today).

This guy’s pics were horribly obscure – I honestly had no clue who was going to show up at my door. Then, he was a half hour late. I was thinking he too was going to flake on me and then the buzzer rang. Thank god! What showed up a minute later at my door wasn’t at all what I was expecting, but he was still attractive so I didn’t really care. His profile said he was early 40s. I’m guessing that was 7 to 10 years off, if not more. He was this older Latino with sexy graying hair. It was sorta hot actually, but more of a short thin daddy vibe and the daddy part wasn’t what I was expecting.

We went to the bedroom, he got down on his knees pretty quickly and started sucking my dick, but I was completely soft. I’m a grower not a shower, so soft is small in my case. And for some reason blowjobs are doing next to nothing for me these days. He tried for a minute or so and I didn’t get hard at all. I stopped the blowjob, had him take off the rest of his clothes, and get on the bed on all fours. I got down and started rimming his ass.

The guy had a great hole. Let’s just say it was an “experienced” hole and he knew how to control it for maximum effect. He was pushing his a sphincter in and out to match me in my rimming. I knew it was going to be a good fuck – anyone who has that much control of his ass always is.

I rimmed him for a little bit and then grabbed for the lube. There was a big bottle of Gun Oil close to me, but nothing came out when I squeezed it. Then I remembered I really wanted to use Wet Platinum ’cause every time I’ve used it I’ve had an easy time of cumming, so I grabbed the Wet Platinum and squeezed some in my hand. Too much came out so by the time I was done my dick was really slick with lube.

I stood up behind him with him on all fours on the bed. I really just needed to fuck and unload in a hole. It had been 6 days since I last fucked anyone and I’d been good and hadn’t cum the entire time. With this fuck and the one before I’m finding it’s really easy to fuck doggy style standing up. Sometimes the hole doesn’t feel right, but lately it’s been feeling great. I just kept this steady, sorta insistent pace – pretty steady. I think some guys think it’s a little boring ’cause it’s so consistent, but it was working for me.

I could tell I was going to cum fairly quickly. I didn’t cum right away – it took a while to build, but when I came it was like last time – it was an ENORMOUS load that just kept cumming and cumming. I wish I could have been inside his ass watching it come out. It felt like I dumped a gallon of cum in him. I had been silent the whole time I was fucking him, but was groaning as I came. When I was finally done he curled his feet around my legs and tried to hold me inside him. I fucked him a little, very slowly and finally pulled out. He jumped down off the bed and cleaned off my dick.

I thought about felching him, but then didn’t really feel like it when the time came.

The thing about doggy style is that it’s a lot less intimate. When I fuck with the bottom on his belly I wind up collapsed on top of him when I’m done. With doggy I never even get on the bed. It’s much more “slam, bam, thank you ‘mam” and when you’re done I’m standing up, refreshed (since it takes a lot less effort).

I knew this bottom wouldn’t have a problem with a pump-and-dump, so I sorta just ended it there. I mentioned that he got a HUGE load, he thanked me, we got dressed and he left.  The total hookup was 15 minutes, if not less. Hell, I’ve done 7 minute pump-and-dumps before – this felt pretty close to that only we took the time to take off our clothes. My bf was a little surprised that it ended so quickly and wasn’t a bad hookup. He asked if the bottom was OK with leaving so soon and asked if the bottom had cum. I was pretty sure the bottom was fine. He got what he was looking for and left with an ass that was flooded with cum.

I’m liking not cumming between fucks. It really lets me give the bottoms much bigger loads. Gotta go put my PA back in to make sure I don’t cum tonight… 😉

Load 2010-17

Well, wearing a PA to avoid cumming worked – possibly too well. About 3 days after the hookup with the black fuck bud I tried to hookup, but had “some problems” making it happen, then life got busy, and then at about day 6 or 7 I sorta felt run down and not up for fucking (which is weird ’cause I had similar symptoms about 2 weeks after fucking the black guy last time). I wasn’t totally run down – just sorta.

I felt good enough to give it a shot and on day 7 had my Brazilian fuck bud over. He sucked my cock with my PA in, which was probably a mistake since it was sorta distracting when I wasn’t feeling 100%. I tried to make fucking happen, but it just wasn’t happening, so we both gave up.

Two days later I had a huge 9 day load in me and needed to unload. This “Asian / Pacific Islander” hit me up on Adam4Adam. He didn’t have a face pic, had a fuzzy torso shot, but had a nice butt pic (but even it was a little on the beefy side). I just had to cum so I said yes even though I really didn’t know who was going to show up at my door.

Before he got here he said he was looking for an anonymous hookup. I told him there’d be no taking then and I asked him if he’d be up for a hood or blindfold, he said yes, so I got my leather blindfold ready. His profile said he was neg, but didn’t say anything one way or the other about safe sex, and he asked no questions. I didn’t really know what to make of that – sorta guessed he was poz, but not public about it…

When he was a block away he texted saying he wanted a hood, so I scrambled and pulled out a hood for him, though I really wanted him blindfolded. He showed up and 1) he was a lot cuter than I thought he’d be, and 2) he was a lot heavier than I thought he’d be. I wanted to put the hood on him at the door and lead him back to the bedroom, but he made it clear he wanted to see his surroundings first.

When we got to the bedroom he got naked and honestly I wasn’t sure how the hookup would go. He was ADORABLE, but his body was really beefy. Imagine a stereotypical Samoan warrior (he’s not Samoan, but he looks like he could be), take away 99% of the tattoos, take 10 years off what you’re thinking, and you’ve pretty much got him. So he looks like a cute Pacific Islander muscle cub – which is not typically a type I do well with, but he was there and I had a 9 day load in my balls that needed release.

I went to put on the hood and realized I picked one with eye holes which was sorta dumb if it was supposed to be anonymous (but it was a last minute choice). I didn’t want to mess up the vibe by looking for another one, so I just went with it. It took a little work to get it over his head, but I finally managed.

I then told him to get on all fours on the bed. If it was going to be anonymous, I didn’t need a blowjob – we’d go right to anal. I pulled his ass cheeks apart and started rimming him. As soon as my mouth touched his ass I knew I was in luck. His whole body was silky smooth and his hole was just as smooth. I took my time eating his ass, though I don’t think he enjoyed it as much as I did – he just sorta laid there and didn’t react one way or the other.

I was jacking my dick the whole time I was rimming him. I had taken my PA out before he got there ’cause I didn’t want it to interfere this time. His hole was so good I had no problem getting rock hard.

Then I stood up and shoved in. Oh. My. God… His hole was incredible – it was silky and literally gripped my dick. I was either the best hole I’d ever been in or the 2nd best (the other being the Peruvian guy I fucked last year – who I still need to fuck again soon)… Usually doggy position isn’t a great position for me, but I knew I shouldn’t mess with perfection in this case – there was just something about his ass in this particular position. It also had the advantage of being a position that didn’t require a lot of physical exertion on my part. Part of my problems with other hookups is that my favorite position is with the bottom flat on his belly. In that position I have to repeatedly lift my entire body up and down (all 240 pounds of it) – that gets tiring pretty quickly, but in doggy there’s almost no physical exertion – which was good ’cause it was a border-line hot day and the fan in the window was barely cutting it – it would have been really easy to overheat.

As you can imagine – 9 day load + an incredible hole meant it wasn’t long before I was cumming in his ass. The orgasm was incredible. First I could feel the cum start leaking out pretty rapidly. It was like a bucket that was too full and sloshing it’s contents all over the place. That lasted so long I started wondering if I was going to cum for real, but I realized even if it stopped there I would have given him a nice size load. Then the full orgasm came and I started really blowing cum in his ass. That went on and on… It felt like I was giving him a gallon of cum up there – spurt after spurt after spurt. Finally it subsided.

I hadn’t said a word the entire time I was cumming. I was a little embarrassed how quickly I had cum and didn’t want it to end… The pace changed after that – I fucked him a bit more slowly, but I just kept fucking him and fucking him. His hole felt wonderfully wet. At one point I stopped and went to felch him, but while he was clean, he wasn’t squeaky clean, so I gave that up immediately and went back to fucking his cummy hole.

After a while he went from being on all fours (with his head down) to dropping upper torso down onto the bed. When he did that his hole changed completely and it felt just like a loose cavity – the incredible feeling pretty much stopped. So I figured it was time to change position, so I pushed him on his belly, but like so many cubs/bears that position just didn’t work at all, so I start winding up the fucking by whispering in his ear how big of a load he had taken and how wet his hole felt.

I pulled out and went around to the other side of the bed and had him clean off my dick with a little ATM. As he was sucking me I started feeling up his smooth body and sorta petting his head. When he stopped sucking me (since I was getting soft), he just buried his head in my crotch and never looked up at me. It reminded me a lot of playing with the puppy at MAL – I liked it a lot – it showed that anonymous sex can actually be very tender and intimate.

I pet him for quite a while and then laid down next to him at which point he started caressing me as I was caressing him. I’m not sure what he was going through in his head, but it seemed he needed both to be fucked like a cumdump and held tenderly – all without even talking to me. It was a really wonderful mix I don’t get very often – complete submission but tenderness too. I liked that.

Eventually we started talking a little bit. I asked if he liked puppy play and wound up having to explain it to him, and we talked about where he was from, his job, stuff like that…

Then, after a while I got hard again. This time he climbed on top of me and rode my cock. Once again, it felt incredible. It was like he was using my dick to give himself a prostate massage and was loving every minute of it. Besides rubbing my dick perfectly his hole just felt wet with all the cum.

When that was over we talked and caressed a bit more. If I didn’t have a boyfriend in the next room I would have kept him there longer and I know he wouldn’t have left. But I was hungry and needed to pay some attention to my bf, so I gradually wrapped things up and he left…

This is one of the few cases his having crappy profile pics was a good thing. If I had seen an accurate pic of his body I probably would have passed and missed a really good fuck.

Grrrr… I just got stood up by a sub bottom and it’s not the first time he’s done shit like this… When I was first trying to hookup with him he’d cancel at the last minute, but he hasn’t done that in quite a while. He hasn’t been as eager as I’d like, but he hasn’t told me one thing and done another in quite a while.

The bottom is actually the bottom I fucked a couple of years ago with my PA. He was getting gangbanged and I think I sorta tore him up inside and he couldn’t really take dick after that. Then one of the tops told him he wasn’t really neg – that he was poz (making the fact that I tore him up a little more significant)… There was a lot of drama and the bottom didn’t really like the things I said when I wrote up the encounter. For a while he didn’t want anything to do with me, but then he finally came back for more – deep down he needed it.

Anyway, that fuck was one I videotaped – here it is…

And here’s an earlier video I did of him…

So here’s how it went down this time… He hits me up on BBRT and wishes me Happy Pride. I ask him if he’s looking and can host, he says ‘probably’ and asks if I’ve pissed yet (he likes to get pissed on). I tell him I can come over pretty much right away (he’s within easy walking distance). And he says “thats up to u SIR. [Whether I drink a bunch so I can piss on him.] or u can just come over and dump a quick load in me SIR. u tested recently?” I avoid the question about my status (just to sorta play a head game with him), and say “give me your address and i’ll come over now”. There’s a bit of a delay and he finally says “sorry SIR – could u answer my question SIR? have u been tested recently SIR?” Since he pushes the issue I answer – “last test was january. it was neg.” He comes back with “understood SIR. thank u for answering SIR. XXX west XXXrd street SIR. #XX. hole will be lubed for you SIR. no pa, right?” I tell him I’ll take the PA out to fuck him. He thanks me and says he wishes he got my 6 day load. I tell him he’ll be getting a 3 day load and it’ll be plenty big and thick. I get dressed and head over.

When I get to his place I press the buzzer. No response. I press again. No response. Then I call him and it goes to voicemail. I leave a rather terse message. Then I ring the buzzer a few more times. Then I text him. Finally I login to BBRT and see he’s left me a message… “actually SIR – just found a load a little closer and ready now. so gonna cancel on u – im sorry!” The little shit… I know it’s a lie – that he’s in his apartment listening to me ringing his bell and calling him. But there’s no point waiting, so I leave.

He finally responds to my text and among other things says “i have no good excuse but i really do apologize SIR.” He’s obviously a Catholic and doesn’t realize he’s dealing with a Protestant. Protestants only care about actions – apologies that aren’t accompanied with action are meaningless and sorta insulting. I give him an earful and tell him I’m just 4 blocks away – I can come back. I mean it’s one thing to get cold feet and that was his chance to redeem himself. He apologizes some more but doesn’t take me up on my offer to redeem himself. I tell him he should be a better sub than that and that next time he’s getting fucked with the PA as punishment. I know he doesn’t like it, but he can endure it… Seems like a good way to get back at him. He then gets back to me with more of an explanation…

i don’t have a good explanation SIR, like i said. i am actually in formal training with a master now to be a better slave SIR, and for the first time i just dug in my heels and disobeyed a direct order from him SIR. he has already told me i will be punished quite severely SIR. i am truly sorry to have let both of u down. i don’t know why i did it SIR. i am sure that he will correct the matter and you will have full access to my hole any time you need it in the future SIR. in spite of my behavior today, he is an excellent master SIR and has been training me well.

I’d love to be there when he gets punished. I don’t think he’s all that much into pain, but it would be sorta fun to take a whip to him and then fuck him in with the PA and dump a big load in his abused hole.

At the root of the problem is the fact that he’s a submissive cumdump who wants to stay neg. I think his misgivings about tops is what makes him disobey. Honestly, I think his life would make a lot more sense if he were poz. Being poz just sorta fits with where his head is at sexually. But it’s the conflict between the two that’s at the root of all of this. He wants to submit, but he’s concerned about the implications.

We’ll see what happens next…

Load 2010-16

A day after my last fuck I still hadn’t cum and now had a 6 day load churning in my balls needing release. I wanted a sure fire fuck – one where I knew I’d blow my load. When I saw my black fuck bud online and found out he was available, I knew I’d finally get to cum – after all, I’ve come absolutely every time I’ve fucked him.

The fuck was actually sorta uneventful – ’cause it was just like the last few. The only really interesting part was that his boyfriend came home just as he was about to leave and asked where he was going. lol – he said he was going to the gym. That delayed him a bit and I wanted him to come over while my bf was out. My bf doesn’t mind, but I just think it’s a bit more polite to not have him come home and find me fucking someone.

So, just like the last time I fucked him, we had him cum first, and then I fucked him. He’s got this big cushy black butt – not fat, sorta muscles with padding over them. It’s a sweet ass.. And it just feels good being inside his hole… Needless to say, since I hadn’t cum in 6 days and his hole feels really good, it didn’t take long to give him my big thick creamy load.

Thank god for dependable cumholes…

Load 2010-15

I’ve got another bottom coming over in a couple hours, so I figure I need to write up the last one so I don’t get behind on my writing…

The squirmy, neg, “safe sex only” Asian bottom I bred a couple weeks ago kept texting me telling me he wanted another load. While he’s sorta a difficult bottom, there’s something about him that made me want to get my load in him again – sort of an innocence / naïveté, so last Thursday he came over to get fucked again. He’s gotta come quite a ways to get here (from way out in Queens) – I’m sorta surprised he’s so into coming.

The hookup went sorta like last time, only quicker… We got naked, he sucked my dick, I ate his ass, and then we went to fuck. Same as last time he started squirming around, and like last time it was sorta distracting, but I just concentrated on the task at hand. I hadn’t cum since I fucked the muscle daddy 3 days before, so I knew I’d have a nice big thick load for him and I just visualized cumming deep in his ass.

Like last time I found the position that felt good was with him sorta on an angle with one leg up a bit and one straight. I got him in that position and I could feel my load building up in my balls. Then he started squirming and so I just pushed through it and wouldn’t let him squirm much and then he calmed down and a few seconds later I came in his ass.

I think he was surprised I came so quickly. Last time I fucked and fucked and couldn’t cum and then only came after taking a short break. This time I probably only fucked him for 5 minutes. I think he was sorta disappointed, but I had accomplished my goal of giving him another load.

Like last time we talked a little and then he wanted to jack off. I had really sorta hated it last time and just wasn’t in the mood for a repeat, but a repeat was what he wanted. Last time he had me finger him so deep that my hand actually ached afterwards from the weird angle I had to maintain. This time I just didn’t go in as deep even though he wanted me to. And I didn’t put as much effort into sucking his nipple either. But I still wanted it to be a generally good experience for him so he’d want more, so I went through the motions without really pushing it. I think he sensed I wasn’t doing 100% and he just concentrated on cumming and came a lot quicker than last time.

I still find it funny that someone who lists themselves as “neg, safe sex only” is so hungry for cum. We all know barebacking is addictive – I can just tell he’ll be taking more and more loads over the next year. He’s a cumhole in the making and still pretty early in the process, which is why I think I wanted to give him my load. They may be difficult at that stage, but there’s the reward of seeing them crave something they’re a bit conflicted about.

Load 2010-14

It’s always weird to do a write up knowing the guy I fucked is going to read it, but here we go… It’s also weird to feel like a tourist attraction. “Yeah, I went to see the statue of Liberty, went to the stop of the Empire State Building, got fucked by rawTOP, and saw Central Park”, but that was sorta the case with this hookup as well. Usually things don’t work out with tourists. They’re just not in town long enough, and to put it bluntly, I have a life and my schedule just doesn’t work with theirs. But yesterday things did work out.

Between medical tests yesterday, I spent the afternoon downtown with Jayson Park – curiously not having sex. We were talking business instead. But talking business while sitting in a public place (Whole Foods TriBeCa) does take a little delicacy when the business is porn (most of the sites I wanted to go to were blocked by Whole Foods proxy server). Luckily Jayson had managed to snag the corner table so we had some privacy. I was sorta hoping I’d have time to fuck someone while I was downtown after meeting up with Jayson. There was this neg, “safe sex only”, vers top I really wanted to fuck, but he wigged out on me when I got serious and gave him my number.

As I was killing the last hour before my 2nd test I logged onto Adam4Adam and BBRT. My iPhone battery was dying, so I didn’t have  much time. Luckily there was this hot tourist muscle daddy who got to the point and gave me the address for his hotel and room number pretty quickly. Mobile interfaces leave a lot to be desired and I could tell he was hot, but couldn’t tell much more about him. I could also tell from how he worded things that he connected me with this blog.

I switch to texting ’cause it takes less battery, and I’m running a little late. He asks me if I like a cummy hole and I say yes. When I show up he’s as hot as I thought he’d be – this big muscular, solid guy with a sexy foreign accent. He had just gotten out of the shower and had a towel around his waist. He was a little shy, which surprised me a little. It was a bit warm, so I stripped down to just my socks (in hindsight that’s sorta a tribute to Jayson since he’s got a white sock fetish, but I didn’t think of that at the time)… He asks me if I like using a hole with another top and I answer ‘no’ mostly ’cause I needed to get home and really only had time for a pump-and-dump.

We start playing, but he’s a little bit tentative. I start playing with his nipples, stuff like that… All the while jacking my dick. I had taken a pill that morning, but didn’t bring a cock ring, so I was hoping I wouldn’t have problems – especially since I’m hit or miss with big, beefy guys, but my dick was getting pretty hard, pretty quick. It helped that it had been 2 or 3 days since I had cum and I hadn’t had sex for over a week since there were a few days there where I was pretty fatigued for some reason.

Finally he sucks my dick. In hindsight I’d been running around in fairly hot weather. I hope I wasn’t too rank down there. Guess I should have asked. He didn’t suck me for very long. When he was done I got him on all fours on the bed and started eating out his ass. He was nice and clean and his hole actually felt good on my tongue. He seemed a bit loose, but not too loose. I remembered what he said about a cummy hole so sucked on him a bit, but wasn’t tasting any cum. I asked if he had loads in him and he said he’d taken 2, but then had to clean out, so didn’t have any in him right then. Too bad.

I stood up, grabbed his lube, lubed up, and started fucking him. His hole really did feel good. I was sorta standing behind him with him on the edge of the bed. I can actually fuck for a long time that way ’cause it doesn’t take nearly as much exertion as when I’ve got the bottom on his belly and I’m lifting my whole body up and down. But I didn’t have a lot of time so I pushed him forward onto his belly since that’s usually the way that makes me cum fastest.

I was a little worried ’cause he was such a big guy and I usually don’t do well with big guys, but things worked really well with him. Looking back I wonder if part of it isn’t the lube. He had Wet Platinum, which is silicone based. I sorta think that might’ve really helped. One way or the other his hole felt perfect, the pressure on my dick was perfect and it wasn’t long before I was blowing a nice big load up his muscle butt.

In hindsight I should have gone down and felched his cummy ass, but I didn’t. I cuddled with him for a few minutes. He was surprised I was “so cuddly”. Actually, I didn’t cuddle with him as long as I usually do.

Then there was a knock on the door. Turns out he had tried to get another guy to come over to give him a quick load so he’d have a cummy ass for me. (Such a good bottom!) That’s what he was asking about when he asked if I liked working over a bottom with another top. Given that things were sorta done, it would have been fine if the guy had come in. I would have gotten into seeing him get fucked by the next top as I was getting dressed to leave. But he seemed to want a little more 1-on-1 time with me, so he told the guy to wait. I figured the guy was going to come back in 15 or 20 minutes, ’cause he was completely unrushed and we continued talking for a little bit longer. I felt like I was the one rushing out of there to get home. Turns out the other top was waiting patiently in the hallway for me to leave. He was a bit younger and pretty cute/hot…

This morning I started thinking… The guy was from South Africa (hence the sexy accent), and I realized we don’t really think about the fact that African guys can get reinfected with HIV when they have sex with American guys. In Africa the dominant type of HIV is HIV-2. In Europe and North America the dominant type of HIV is HIV-1. While it’s almost unheard of to get two strains of HIV-1 or two strains of HIV-2, you can get both HIV-1 and HIV-2. I don’t know what the guy’s status was. His profile just said “Ask Me”. Given that he was about to get load 4, and probably got more loads later that night, and presumably had gotten equal numbers on other days, I’m assuming he’s poz. If he’s not on meds, then I’d think getting HIV-1 would be a bit of an issue for him. If he was on meds (more likely) then the question is will the meds for HIV-2 protect him by acting as a form of PrEP (Pre-Exposure Prophylaxis) for HIV-1? What if the US top had a really high viral load – would his meds still be able to protect him? These aren’t things we really think about much ’cause we rarely ever fuck with guys from Africa, but I can see where they’d be issues for African guys who go on sex holidays like he was doing (he started his trip by going to IML).