Loads 2021-4 & 2021-5

A week ago I did a repeat with the poz daddy I fucked a month ago. I was a pretty standard quickie pump-n-dump. He already had a few loads in him and his hole felt really silky and wonderful. He’s a convenient hole to have nearby 😉 One of these days I’ll ask if the “positive” he states in his profile means he’s off meds. I’m always curious why guys would choose “positive” when they could choose “undetectable”.

Then yesterday I fucked one of the best asses I’ve fucked in a while. He was Asian, early 20s, short, with no excess body fat. Naked he had the body of a little boy. His waist was super tiny. I was the oldest guy who’s ever fucked him (probably older than his father). He said he had a load or two in him, but when I rimmed him I couldn’t taste any. It wasn’t until I was deep inside him that I could feel the wetness. We were both rushed for time so my cumming quickly was no problem. But the irony is that he’s someone I would have wanted a longer session with. I rimmed him after pulling out and still couldn’t taste any cum – even though I absolutely knew he had a decent size load from me up there. Then again, I did cum pretty deep. I’m hoping he wants a rematch!

Load 2021-3

Well, since I did my last blog post I fucked three guys (all Latino), but only came with one of them.

First guy turned out to be super close to me. Small, skinny guy (my type). Had a super clean hole I spent a lot of time rimming, and for a while I gave him a decent fuck. But the chemistry and positions were off. When I first arrived he seemed more into jacking his dick than getting fucked. He just seemed hesitant. I’d try to push him this way or that way to get into a better position with him, but he’d resist. At one point he mentioned that some positions were difficult due to a previous injury. He so close and so much my type he’s worth a second try one of these days. Maybe at my place instead of his. And the interpersonal chemistry thing improved vastly as we talked while I was getting my clothes on. Some of my first impressions were off with him.

Second guy was a 20-something cumdump who was taking loads in a tiny little hotel room in midtown. His status on his profile just said “negative”, so not sure if he was on PrEP or bug chasing. I gave him his “10th or 12th” load (he had lost track). He was a lot heavier than I usually like, but his hole felt great and he followed directions (so no problems with position).

The third guy had a profile name that suggested he was pretty experienced, but in person that didn’t carry through to action. He was also significantly heavier than some of his pics, though in his profile he did call himself a chub. He wanted to have sex in his living room – on the coffee table with the blinds open (his neighbors, not mine, so no problem there). There was no bed and the couch wasn’t big enough to be useful. He was very oral. He expected his blowjob (with teeth!) to get me fully hard. It got me about 80% of the way there. I was hard enough to fuck, but he was really tight. When I finally did rim him I did taste some cum – he said he’d taken a load before I got there. Finally I tried to put him on his belly on a pillow on the floor, but that just didn’t work, so I gave up and went home.

No not the greatest experiences, but not horrible either.

Load 2021-2

Yesterday I needed to go to the Upper West Side for a COVID test, so I posted on BBRT looking for a bottom in the area. A daddy hit me up and was in a good location for me, so we made plans. His profile pics were pretty hot – a solid, masculine DILF. His profile just said “positive”, not “undetectable”. Usually that’s code for “I’m not on meds”, but not always. He had hit me up before a few days earlier in the middle of the night when I had woken up and couldn’t sleep and had gotten onto BBRT to respond to some emails. I think it was like 4 in the morning and he hit me up wanting me to come over right then. In my experience the only people who are up at 3 or 4 in the morning are drug addicts who are “parTying” and I really hate fucking guys who are high. So I wondered about him…

I rode my bike down and his place was right on one of the decent routes back, so if you looked at my route you’d never know I stopped for a pump-n-dump since there were no tell-tale detours. He had told me the door would be ajar – it wasn’t, but it was unlocked. So I went in. His bedroom door was barely ajar and he was inside, on the bed in just jeans with porn playing on the TV. If I had to guess I’d say he’s probably gotten into drugs – he lacked the “robustness” that was in his pics. It’s always sad to see meth make hollow shells out of people. Or maybe it was just bad lighting and circumstance (the room was pretty dark). Either way, he was fuckable and didn’t seem high and it had been 8 days since I’d blown my load in the other guy, so it wasn’t like I was going to leave.

He crawled down the bed and started sucking my dick. I got hard pretty quickly and started pushing down his pants to feel his hole. He got the hint and turned around and took them off and got on all fours, head down. Normally I’d rim before fucking, but something about the situation I wasn’t really wanting that in the moment, so I just put some spit on my dick and pushed in his ass. My first thought was that I needed more lube, but pretty quickly it was “good enough”. I was thinking I should take a pic, but didn’t (oh well).

I fucked him on all fours for a little while (not terribly long). It felt good and I wondered if I could cum that way. Probably could have if I kept at it but I had him get on his belly (my standard way to cum pretty quickly). At that point I got in deeper and all of a sudden his ass got really wet. He clearly had some loads in him and it felt really great. The additional sensation put me over the edge and I blew my 8 day load up his ass and then continued to slowly pump his ass for a bit.

When I pulled out my cock was completely drenched in cum. I hadn’t taken off my clothes. If I’d zipped up my jeans at that point I’d have gotten the inside of my jeans all wet with cum and ass juices. Fortunately he came to the rescue and sucked me clean.

I then zipped up and left before he could really suggest me staying. The entire encounter was 14 minutes – and that included me locking up my bike, going up to his place, fucking him, and coming back down and unlocking my bike.

He’s pretty close to me, so I’m sure I’ll fuck him again. A decent, convenient cumdump is a good thing to have around. And I should ask him about his viral load. It’d be hot if he’s toxic. 😈☣️

Load 2021-1

It’s almost embarrassing how long it’s been since I’ve had sex. Last time I updated the blog was November 2018. I’ve literally only had sex on 5 different days since then – a few days after that post, then twice about a year later (October/November 2019), then on vacation in February of last year. Then just as I was feeling like getting back in the game, the pandemic hit and I only hooked up once during the pandemic (with a buddy who I knew for certain was playing safe and keeping risk really low – and we hooked up outdoors, at the beach to minimize risk).

As the pandemic hit and then continued I just hunkered down. Vaccines were eventually on the horizon and I didn’t want to be the person who died a week before they could have gotten the vaccine. I had a lover who died of AIDS in 1995 – a year before ARVs came out. I’d learned my lesson my lesson from that. And my caution was warranted – the roommate of a friend got hospitalized and put in the ICU and after a few weeks he died. Tragically, he died four days after he qualified for a vaccine. He was a cute little cub in his mid-30s. It can happen to anyone.

The pandemic explains why I didn’t hookup for the past year. But it doesn’t explain 2018 and 2019. There were a number of factors, but the cumulative effect is that I kinda lost the mojo to be a good top. You need a certain confidence to be a good top (or even a good bottom), and a number of things in my life were interfering with that. Among other things, there were problems with my immediate neighborhood (which at one point escalated to me being assaulted), finding success in work was difficult, and so on… Even Trump’s presidency felt like a downer. Things finally started to change late last year – Trump lost, and the people who were causing problems in the neighborhood were arrested and are now facing 20 to life for drug trafficking. There are still remaining issues in my life, but they’re manageable.

Needless to say I wanted (needed?) life to get back to normal so I was pretty assertive about getting a vaccine. I got my first shot 2 days after I qualified. But I still played it safe, so didn’t really start thinking of hooking up until I was fully vaccinated (2 weeks after my 2nd shot).

I FINALLY had my first hookup yesterday (5 days after being fully vaccinated). I’m so ready to get back into the swing of things that I’ve set a goal to only cum when I fuck, which means ideally I’d hookup every 3-5 days. But the guy yesterday got a 10 day load since I stopped jacking off a few days before I was fully vaccinated and then I’d been busy with other stuff and didn’t manage to hookup the first few days.

Anyway – the hookup… I started looking in the morning but made the mistake of being too picky about distance. I wanted a bottom who’d host, who I could walk to. There were a few guys taking loads but they were all further away. As it got to be mid-afternoon I realized I had spent far too much of the day looking for an ideal hookup and realized I just needed to breed an ass (perfection is the enemy of good). A guy hit me up and said he’d pay for an Uber if I’d come breed him. He had hit me up back in 2017 and 2018 telling me that he wasn’t taking his PrEP consistently and was thinking of converting. But that was 3 and a half years ago and his profile still said “negative, on PreP”. So I knew he had bug chasing tendencies but didn’t know what was real and what was fantasy with him. He wasn’t my “ideal type” but it’s always fun to fuck a bug chaser, and he was just visiting the City so it was now or who knows when – so I said yes. I declined the Uber and rode my bike down to his hotel.

As I walked into the hotel I panicked a little. I wasn’t sure where the elevators were, but finally I spotted them so I got spared the embarrassment of explaining to the staff that I was there for a pump-and-dump with a guy and didn’t know his name. When I got up to his room the door was ajar. I went in, it was actually a small suite. I set down some of my stuff, went to the bathroom to take a piss, and then went into the bedroom where he was on the bed ass up.

I had him get on all fours so I could rim him. His ass was REALLY hairy (he was sorta hairy all over). He had mentioned before I came that his as was cummy, but I couldn’t taste any loads. It would’ve been cool to felch some cum from his ass, but at least his ass was perfectly clean. Woulda been a bummer if I’d gotten a bottom with a dirty hole the first time out after so long.

I fucked him on all fours just briefly and then had him get on his belly. We hadn’t really said anything to each other, but at that point he got really verbal and was literally begging me to give him a toxic load and poz him. He said he wanted me to be the one to make him poz. I honestly believed that’s what he wanted, but who knows what the reality was. Was he neg and on PrEP? Has he been taking his PrEP consistently, or did he go off before traveling to NYC? Or is he poz and just wants to recreate a fantasy pozzing? Or maybe he has no clue what his status is… Still, it’s hot to hear a bottom beg me to knock him up. He’d been talking about it for enough years I knew he really wanted it – even if his PrEP usage wouldn’t let it happen, or it had happened a while ago.

I’m never one for long fucks. I learned a while ago that when I feel ready to cum, I should just do it – because if I wait I may not be able to cum later. And true to form, I didn’t last long – especially with him begging me to poz him. I felt a spurt of cum, then a few seconds later I felt a much bigger spurt. I mean it had been 10 days since I’d cum. It felt like a pretty big load – but not seeing the load, who knows?

I’d been almost completely silent the entire time. It wasn’t really “connected” sex. I needed a hole and he had one to fuck. But I think he really was hoping I’d just pozzed him and he was going to have this wonderful connected moment with his poz daddy. I hadn’t taken off my clothes (other than my jacket), so as I was zipping up he indicated he wanted me to stick around for a moment. I thought he said he wanted to “clean me up”, but then I realized he wanted to jack off with me. I played with his nipples, but they didn’t seem wired to his dick. He wanted to kiss, but between the anonymous nature of it and, ummm…, the pandemic, I dodged that one. I know he wanted more, but I wasn’t really in the headspace for the level of connection he wanted. I could have sucked his dick, but that wasn’t what I was there for, and would have changed the power dynamics between us. I felt a little bad for him in the moment. I was in disconnected mode, and he wanted connected. But it was what it was. Soon enough he came, then I zipped up, went for another piss and left.

One thing that’s a little amusing to me about this hookup, actually happens a lot when guys hit me up… I haven’t discussed my HIV status in years. I’m completely opaque about it. I like the fact that guys have no fucking clue. But they all seem to just assume that I’m poz and I’ve been toxic for years now. I don’t mind them assuming that, but I they’re making a lot of assumptions to come to that conclusion. But I actually sorta like that. Back in the day before PrEP neg bottoms had no real way to protect themselves. They were totally dependent on the top knowing his status and telling the truth. (This is before people realized undetectable = untransmittable). There was something really special about bottoms whose hunger for loads was greater than their sense of self-preservation. And even when I fucked a poz bottom back then I realized there was a point in their life when they chose to risk their health to get loads in their ass. That risk made barebacking really edgy back then. I miss the atmosphere of risk – it was hot. Those guys were true pigs, and piggy sex is just hotter. PrEP takes away that risk the way condoms took it away in the past. Now when I see a bottom is on PrEP it’s kind of a turn off. I’ll fuck them, but I just wish they’d simply put their status as “negative” and let me wonder.

So I have no clue whether the bottom was taking an actual risk or not yesterday, but I really liked that he at least made it seem in the moment like there was risk.

Loads 2018-4 & 2018-5

A few years ago now I started a development project. I never expected for it to take this long, but it’s finally getting off the ground. Little stuff got done along the way (like how banner ads were served – including on here and on Breeding Zone), and then I wrote a new chat feature for Breeding Zone that was all new code. But it’s only this month that I’m finally getting content moved and the new sites are starting to really do their thing.

So that said, check out BBBH.com (the name comes from #BBBH which is the hashtag used on Twitter for bareback sex). I’ve moved the porn blog that used to be on this site to BBBH.com as well as all the commercial videos that were on Raunchy Fuckers. My sex blog is still here (obviously), and the amateur videos are still on Raunchy Fuckers (for now). And there’s a lot more work to be done on the new sites (e.g. I need to pull in new content), but they’re finally decent and relatively complete, which feels good.

I say all of that to explain (in part) why I haven’t been having much sex. There are multiple reasons for me checking out when it came to sex, but getting absorbed in work is one of them. But honestly it’s more complicated than that. There are a number of things I’ve found emotionally draining… Development taking forever was one, politics was another, and then there were a couple of significant issues in my living environment (to be accurate, but obscure) that weighed on me. Anyway, sum total is that I like to approach sex from a position of power and I wasn’t feeling powerful, so I wasn’t having sex.

Not everything is resolved, but enough things are resolved and I’m seeing the light at the end of the tunnel on the others, so I’m slowly getting back into the swing of things. A couple of weeks ago I went to a sex party and fucked a bunch of guys, but my dick gave out before I came, so I didn’t give any loads. And then this week I’ve bred two guys…

First guy was a couple of days ago. I was looking for a guy who’d come over and take a load. A bunch of guys were generally interested but finally one said he’d actually come over. It was a decent hookup, but I’d say the “connection” was missing for some reason. I’m guessing he wanted to get fucked for a longer period of time. But not every hookup has to be one for the record books. He did say “Well, that was fun” after I was done, which seemed a little funny in the moment. One thing about him that I noticed after blowing my load and I was laying next to him was that he had a really beautiful face. Not that he had a bad body (his body was fine), but if he put more effort into his body his overall “package” would be rather stunning – not everyone has such a great face.

Second guy was this morning. He was the hot bug chaser I fucked at the beginning of the year. It was a rather weird, but hot anonymous scene where I had to tell the doorman I was the dog walker to get into the building. The weird part was that the doorman mentioned the part about the door to the apartment being open. Made me wonder if the doorman fucks the guy as well. (Which would actually be pretty hot). Long story short, I rimmed him for ages while I tried to get my dick to cooperate, and finally I just thought “fuck it, I’ll go with it as it is” and started fucking him before I was fully hard. Good news was that fucking him got me fully hard. Usually I get a bottom on his stomach to fuck, but I could feel my load building with him on all fours. BUT then I could smell that he wasn’t clean. I usually hate that and stop immediately BUT I smelled that after I could feel my load coming, and I was determined to give him my load, so I pushed him onto his belly in an attempt to keep my clothes clean (I hadn’t undressed – just unzipped). I did manage to give him my load and then it took forever to clean up the mess in the bathroom. As I was leaving I was just hoping it was his apartment. I worried he might actually be the dog walker and it was a client’s apartment. If that was the case it would have been a huge disaster.

So hopefully there will be more to report in the near future…

2018-2

Well, 2018 is starting off pretty well. Bred another bottom yesterday. I know 2 days in a row breeding is no big deal, but given my lackluster performance the past year or two, it’s a good sign.

This time the bottom was one of “New York’s regulars”. Usually he gets a hotel room with another bottom and they both take loads. This time the other bottom flaked and it was just him. When I got there there were 2 other tops – a bearish guy, and a really hot, fit Asian guy. Before I’d undressed another top showed up. Best way to describe him is just “piggy” – he had that look about him. (And he had an incredible ass!)

The bottom had to go to go pee right after I got there, when he got back he looked around for the hardest dick and the winner was the bearish guy, so he went and sat on it. Then he started giving the piggy guy a blowjob, so I got around behind and started fucking him. Felt good, but I wanted him on his belly (surprise, surprise), but there was a miscommunication and he got on his back instead. That way just didn’t feel as good. There was no way I was going to cum that way – he just wasn’t tight enough. So I pulled out and the Asian guy started fucking him. Then things switched up a bit and the piggy guy fucked him again.

You get the idea… He was basically just going from hard cock to hard cock and getting fucked (or spit roasted). In the middle of all this another top shows up – so the bottom is servicing 5 guys at once. (Lucky bottom!)

In fairly short order I got another shot at his ass and this time I got him on his belly. The position was a little off (maybe the bed was soft or something), but I still managed to cum in his ass. I wanted to make sure he got every drop so I sorta slow fucked him for a bit after – but not too long since other guys were waiting to fuck him. I asked and he said it was load #8.

I went to clean off my dick in the bathroom and the Asian guy followed me. He’d seemed interested the whole time I was there. He sucked on my dick a bit, but it was too sensitive from having just cum, so I had him stop. I should have gotten his name, number, profile name or something – he was cute.

As I left he was just over an hour into his gangbang. He had 8 loads in his ass and had 4 more tops (so at least 4 more loads) there ready to cum – and he was going to go for another 2 hours. I wonder what his total load count was?