There's an Asian "kid" out in San Francisco who contacted me… DAMN! would I love to seed his ass… I mean look at it…

In the last one that's his boyfriend's cum leaking out of his hole… The best part was he was fantasizing that I was the one fucking him while getting nailed by his boyfriend. Gotta love that…

He's started a blog about his efforts to negotiate the whole "Be 'faithful' to my bf while enjoing being young and horny" thing… The stories are about how he goes to sex clubs behind his bf's back and gets fucked with condoms and gives blowjobs and swallows, but (at this point) is only getting loads in his ass from his boyfriend.

The kid loves cum in his ass so I suggested he find a few fuckbuddies he can trust and start taking loads from them…

I gotta get out to San Francisco sometime to give him my load…

Load 2007-4

Hooked up with the Brazillian tonight. His boyfriend is away visiting his parents for the next week or so and he wants to get as many loads from me during that time as possible. He's such a good bottom – totally focused on getting fucked. He didn't even give me a blowjob – just kissed me when I came in the door, we stripped, got into bed, kissed a little more and up went his legs and my cock found it's home up his hole…

Kissing and fucking pretty much summed up the hookup. He's still doesn't want me to rim him, and when I went to suck his cock (nice, uncut and thick) he went soft. I know I'm not the best cocksucker, but seriously – I'm not that bad… I'm guessing he wants me to be a total top and my sucking dick killed that for him…

After I came in his ass we layed around and kissed and talked a little… He mentioned he really liked my body (go figure), and he asked if I'd be into doing a home video of me fucking him (I said I would if I could wear a mask). When I had arrived I had my PA in and immediately took it out 'cause I figured he wouldn't be interested in it and it might turn him off, but while we're talking he said he asked whether it was possible to fuck with it, and when he heard it was he said he wanted me to keep it in next time…

Which reminds me, the friend of a friend also wants me to fuck him with the new, bigger PA. He also is getting a little obsessed by the idea of me fucking him when he's already got a load in his ass from someone else, so he's turning out to be a good little pig.

Anyway, the point of all the cuddling and kissing was to get me in the mood to fuck again. I put it in a little more, but wasn't doing all that well, but then a little later I turned him on his belly and gave him another good solid fuck… That got him going – and he jacked himself off right after that. I tasted his cum (a bit bitter), then licked it up and got it all in my beard and let him lick it off my face…

So, with him looking to get fucked a lot this week, I shouldn't have a problem finding a hole to fuck whenever I need one…

One final note on boyfriends… Mine has been getting plenty of action lately – doing several hookups a week on his own, which makes me quite happy… The Brazillian had to use his boyfriend's computer the other day and found he had left open his "alternate" e-mail and there were a whole bunch of messages about ads on Craigslist… So his boyfriend is out sowing his oats too…

Here are some excerpts from a thread on bnskin.com – some of the comments are so completely wrong it's just not funny…

Guy in Las Vegas: When chatting with guys in chat rooms, if they ask the question, you clean? And then you reply, yes, then they want you to come over, but if you say no, I'm not, they say, OK forget it. How NAIVE can these guys really be? Do they really believe someone who will just say, I'm clean? I think asking that question is totally ridiculous only because it can not be proven.

Guy in Massachusetts: I think most people lie about this, or are naive about what other people would do. I don't like to think I'm cynical, just realistic.

Guy in Seattle: For someone who's neg and wants to stay that way, the only safe thing to do is to assume that everyone else is poz, even if they tell you're not. I do wonder if guys who will easily accept an "I'm neg" comment are naive or just want to believe it so they can get laid. I'm sure it's happened to others, but one guy I met years ago wouldn't have sex with me because I was honest and told him I was poz. He would have been perfectly fine to play if I hadn't volunteered that. I didn't get the logic.

ME: Oh please…. I'm so sick of hearing that people who ask about status are naive… It's one of many things that are called RISK REDUCTION – no one is calling it risk elimination. Get off your high horses – risk reduction, in any form, helps.

The other assumption in Las Vegas' comment is that most or many poz guys lie about their HIV status. That's an awefully cynical view of the world which I just refuse to subscribe to. On something as important as HIV I think most people are decent and tell the truth if asked a clear, direct question. I will agree that "Are you clean?" is a stupid question – because it's not clear and direct.

And as far as Seattle's "the only safe thing to do"… The answer to that is "not have sex" – everything else involves risk, which then means that all neg guys are naive for having sex. OK, that doesn't work, so let's start back at the beginning – risk reduction, in any form, helps.

Some Slave: If asking "was" a form of risk reduction, I would agree with you, but it isnt.

It can take the body up to three months to make enough antibodies to be detectable on the HIV test, but most people will create enough antibodies in just 4 weeks after infection. This 4 week to 3 month time frame the window period. During the window period, the HIV test may not be able to detect infection. SO, you can be HIV POSITIVE, show negative on a test, and still be able to infect people.

Still think asking someone's status is risk reduction?

ME: DAMN, that's just so wrong…

There are a shitload of guys out there that _know_ they're poz. If you don't ask them their status, then you won't know they're poz.

The fact that a few guys don't know their status is irrelevant. This is RISK REDUCTION, not risk elimination. Why is that hard for people to comprehend?

Let's say 50% of the guys you think of hooking up with are poz and 80% of those guys know they're poz (I'm pulling those numbers out of my ass — don't take them too literally – they'll actually vary for each person). If you don't ask their status, 50% of the guys you play with will be poz. If you do ask their status, then 10% of the guys you hookup with will be poz. That means you've had an 80% reduction in risk. Put another way, it means it will take you 5 times longer to become poz. During that time an effective vaccine could come out or at least there will be better treatments available… Or you might not become poz at all…

Asking is a form of risk reduction.

Guy in Denver: rawTOP, you're right, asking is one form of risk reduction. I think what most people here are trying to get at is that it's not anywhere near as effective as other methods.

I guess the point is that a lot of people think that the harm reduction of just asking is so small given the number of guys who either don't know they're poz or who lie about it (particularly among guys who fuck around a lot bareback) that it's hardly worth it.

A 20 year old: "Asking is a form of risk reduction."

Yeah. And it helps as much as pulling out and douching.

ME: Denver Guy – I think asking about status can actually be a pretty effective risk reduction strategy. I don't think much lower than 80% number I pulled out of my ass before – though I don't have any hard data to support the number. But asking is probably one of several risk reduction strategies the person is using. Think about it – anyone who asks about status in a consistent manner isn't going to sex clubs and bathhouses 'cause you can't really ask very easily in venues like that, which means they're also limiting the number of partners they have. And if you're asking, you're at least thinking about the risk you're taking… It all adds up – and remember the benchmark is condoms which are only 90-95% harm reduction (there is hard data for that one). So I don't really see the "not nearly as effective" part either… If I'm even in the ballpark of the risk reduction of a condom and don't have to actually use one, I'm happy…

20 year old – If the top really does pull out, then it is a form of risk reduction for the bottom (not the top). Though, if I were a bottom I'd be an idiot to make it my only form of risk reduction – but what we're talking about is multiple layers that add up to a fair amount of risk reduction.

When you repeatedly muliply fractions you get smaller and smaller numbers – that's the idea with risk reduction – if you practice multiple forms of it you can get a pretty decent reduction in risk.

It's almost as if people who weren't good in math and statistics can't understand risk reduction well enough to keep themselves safe.

Then there's the issue of how many poz guys really lie about their HIV status.

What does everyone thing about all this?

This morning a guy stopped by to have sex pretty early. He was my bf's type (big and beefy – I'd label him a muscle cub, but didn't have a beard or anything), not so much my type, but he had contacted me 'cause he really gets into deepthroating and wanted to choke on my dick.

He said he was also up for getting fucked. His profile said "safe sex only", but we really didn't discuss how things would go. My profile gives a lot of hints that I want to bareback (without actually saying it in so many words). But apparently he didn't get the drift of what I was trying to communicate…

He gets here and he's a big guy, but attractive (nice face, muscular, but still pretty fat). It's clear from the onset that he's the type of guy who likes to be told what to do – verbally… My bf and I are pretty quiet when we're hooking up – we keep the chatter to the minimum and just take what we want and only tell the bottom what to do when it's necessary – not for every little thing. So we get him in the bedroom and start taking off our clothes, he sucks me a little, then I get on the bed lay down and have him blow me. I knew that was what he was here for… He gets me nice and hard and starts throwing his head onto my dick trying to get it as deep in his throat as possible. It was sorta cool – the guy was definitely an excellent cocksucker.

Meanwhile my bf is behind him, feeling up his dick and his hole. He then put some Gun Oil on his dick and shoved it up the guy's ass. The guy really starts groaning at that point – he's gagging on my dick and has another cock in his ass… My bf pulls out after a minute and the guy says "A condom would be nice". My bf and I look at each other wondering where that came from and so my bf reaches over gets a condom and puts it on and fucks him some more, but then pulls out and goes into the bathroom to clean up.

We then both sit on the bed and have him go back and forth between our dicks, but he keeps asking questions – like "what do you guys like to do?" and shit like that… I told him I like to fuck but didn't mention that what I really wanted to do was cum in his ass. I go soft just at the mention of condoms, so by this point he's not able to get it hard by sucking it, so he's mostly working on my bf.

I get up, go around behind him and feel his hole. I didn't feel like rimming him, but just feeling him up got me hard enough that I could fuck. I slap my cock a few times on the top of his butt and then rub it on his hole. He pushes back making it clear he was up for getting fucked. I get some lube, and push in (raw of course). It's a nice hole and actually I felt like I might be able to cum right after I got into him – his hole was rubbing my dick just right. But it was a little bit of an awkward position, so I didn't cum. Again he mentions that "a condom would be nice" but I tell him I go soft with condoms. Once again, the mention of condoms put me off my game and I had a hard time getting back into him. I then had him stand up and bend over to suck my bf (he had been on his knees with me kneeling behind him). I got in him again and fucked him a bit, but it just wasn't happening for me.

At this point he wanted to get on the bed with his head hanging over the side and have us bang his mouth. We did it for a bit and while I was face fucking him, my bf raised up his legs, took off his underwear that he had put back on, and fucked him raw. But I was going soft by this point – I knew I wasn't going to get a load in his ass, so didn't have a lot of motivation… My bf pulled out and got on top of him and used his face as a hole. I told my bf to cum, he asked the guy if he swallowed and the guy said yes, so my bf fucked his face and dumped a load down his throat.

My bf needed to get ready for a meeting, so he left and I played with the guy. I told him I'd cum with a blow job fewer than 5 times in my life and he said he wanted to try and make me cum. I figured I didn't have anything to lose – as long as he knew the odds, I might as well get the blowjob. He worked really hard on my shaft while I played with his hole (he had put his underwear on yet again and I had to pull them down a bit to get to his hole). I got hard enough and at times it that I felt like I might cum, but I never could actually cum despite the fact that he tried, and tried and tried to get me to cum (but I just don't cum that way).

He felt really bad about not being able to get me to cum – I think it hit at his core since he sees himself as a primo cocksucker. When he did finally give up, we laid around for a couple of minutes and chatted. Turns out he's bisexual – been in relationships with guys in the past, but currently married to a woman who understands that he's hooking up with guys on the side. He even offered to rim my hole for me – said straight guys who eat cunt do it better than gay guys. Not so sure about that one and I wasn't into getting my hole eaten out…

Nice guy, but since I can't cum in his ass, don't know that we'll hookup with him again unless my bf wants to…

Load 2007-3

Last night I fucked the hottest guy I've fucked since the Korean guy nearly a year ago – he was a perfect 10 – cute, short, latin, tight body, tattoos, great ass, wonderful hole, nicely dressed, and interested in both me and my bf.

Once again, I found him on Adam4Adam (I'm starting to love that site). His profile said he was neg but didn't say anything one way or the other about safe sex, and I was pleasantly surprised when we was game to do a 3-way with my bf.

When he showed up he was really hot and really well dressed, we went into the bedroom and he got right down to business by immediately getting out of all his clothes… He had on a 2ist thong and it looked better on him than it does in this picture:

IF this guy goes to sex parties and sex clubs I think he'd be the ass that everyone would want to dump their load into (you know the type – other guys may get raw dick in their ass, but the hottest guy in the room gets the loads provided he's not a prima donna) – his ass was that good… A hard, perky, real bubble butt that didn't have an ounce of fat on it.

We made out a little, I sucked his cock briefly (nice, long and uncut), he sucked my bf's cock and then mine a little. I ate out his ass – his hole felt like he had just been fucked or had used a dildo on it – slightly puffy lips, but since he was standing up and pretty short I couldn't really get in there and eat him out the way I wanted to… I put some gun oil on my dick and while we were still standing up playing, I went up behind him and slide my dick up in him as he was bent over giving my bf a blow job. It felt nice – took my dick real easy without being too loose.

I fucked him slow for a while as we stood there. Then I pulled out so we could reposition ourselves on the bed. He cleaned my dick off with the towel and then didn't want to lay on the bed until we put the towel down. (The fact that he's a clean freak is why I don't think he goes to sex parties, 'cause if he did go to sex parties he'd be poz by now). I pushed his legs up, put a little more gun oil on my dick and went in – all the way to the hilt… He felt good. We kissed a little while I was fucking him… I wasn't really pounding his so much as going in as deep as I could…

My bf looked a little left out at this point, so I gave him a turn… It was hot watching the guy take my bf's dick… After pounding him for a while my bf asked me if I wanted him to cum. I said I did, so he asked the guy whether he wanted the cum inside him and he said yes – so he got he the first load.

Now that he was lubed with my bf's cum, I had him turn over (my favorite position with small guys), put a little more lube on my dick and shoved in. His legs were spread and his but was these two perky mounds of muscle. That, and how his hole felt was a complete turn on. I fucked him for a few minutes and felt it coming… I had a 4 day load in me and he got all of it – wave after wave of cum.

I rolled onto my side with my dick still in him and he started jacking his dick. A minute or so later he came. I swirled my finger around in it and tasted it… We layed there for a few more minutes chatting – found out where he lived, what he did for a living, stuff like that… Nice guy.

Clean freak that he was, he wanted to take a shower, so I'm not sure whether he went home with our loads in his ass or not…

All in all, the best hookup in nearly a year. I hope he's hungry for cum and becomes a regular fuck.

I've run into a couple of people now who seem somewhat surprised that I'm neg. Maybe "unusualy happy/relieved" would be a more accurate way to put it – but it's the same idea – there's this disbelief that someone can bareback and stay neg. The doctor who gave my bf his results was even surprised… It seems odd to me – I mean I would be surprised if the test came back poz.

While I haven't been the biggest slut, I've been barebacking for about 10 years now – some of the guys I know were poz, others I assume were poz (though none lately), plus there's all the guys who were complete strangers…

I used to have a gay doctor who was one of the first doctors to treat AIDS patients in the early '80s and over the years saw a lot of poz guys. He made the comment to me one time that he doesn't know anyone who became positive by topping – at least no one he believed.

Yes, I know it's possible for me to become poz. There have been some threads on places like BNSkin that brought up the topic and one or two guys will chime in and say that's how they became poz. But that's one or two guys in a community of hundreds (if not thousands) of poz guys…

Bottom line, being a raw top is relatively safe. Get used to it…