Load 2009-2

I know I haven’t been very good with fucking bottoms this year. That is what it is, but I’ve been really horny lately and feeling the need to fuck. Yesterday I was on BarebackRT and I was wondering whether or not I was actually going to get to hookup. But it always seems like it goes from drought to too many offers and I had a couple offers, but this one guy was super cute, hot body, 20-something Latino. His pics were pretty kinky so I knew hooking up with him could be pretty fun…

I was sorta wondering whether he was actually going to come over, but then he confirmed he was on his way. When he showed up he really was adorable. He seemed a little hesitant at first, but then he seemed to just go for it – put down his bag and started getting undressed.

Some of his pics showed him in leather gear so I asked if he was up for it. He said “whatever” (in a good way, not in a sulky way). So I dug around and got out a hood, some restraints and a few paddles. When I was ready he had stripped down to his underwear which was a stripperish bikini with studded leatherette in the front, and fabric in the back.

I put some puppy mitts on him, since he hadn’t worn them before I made sure he knew to keep moving his fingers around. Then I hooded him, and locked his hands together with a heavy padlock. I wasn’t really sure what his him limits were and didn’t want him to have a negative experience and not come back. I played with his body a bit and then had him take a few steps forward and bend over the bed.

I pulled down his underwear and went to rim him when I noticed it – a HUGE uncut cock swinging between his legs. But he was here to bottom, so I mostly paid attention to his hole. Every now and then I’d pull back his dick and give it some attention, and I did feel it up a bit. His hole looked like it had seen some serious action/abuse. I was getting the feeling I could do pretty much anything with him, but still didn’t know where his limits were.

When I got his hole wet with spit, I stood up and shoved my mostly dry cock up his ass. I figured if it hurt he wouldn’t mind much, and given what I saw of his hole I knew he’d adjust quickly enough. It felt good being inside him – it had been way too long since I had fucked.

To make a long story short(er)… Fucked him with his legs in the air a bit then rotated him around and got him on his belly. Hoods on cute guys are a weird thing – it makes the guy into this piece of meat – a total hole, not a person. I hadn’t cum in days and knew I wasn’t going to last all that long. Since he was just a piece of meat I fucked him however I felt like fucking him – I knew he wanted something pretty intense, but right then I just needed to fuck and blow my load up a hole. Eventually I came and gave him a nice load.

I had taken part of a pill and had no problem staying hard, so I just kept pumping his ass. Then I pulled out and felched my cum from his hole – didn’t go too deep – there was plenty of cum on his ass since I kept fucking him after blowing my load. Then I fucked him a little more and then felched a little more…

My cock was sorta getting “done”, so I put this small butt plug like thing in his ass and I figured I’d switch things up a bit. I started with something light – a cock and ball whip on his ass. The way he had been put down on the bed his dick was pointing down between his legs, so I started using the cock and ball whip on the head of his dick – lightly (didn’t know his limits), but I could see him getting harder as I did it… Then I switched to normal paddles and paddled his ass.

At one point I laid next to him and mentioned that I didn’t really know his limits. He said “I don’t have limits – you can do whatever you want”. My mind immediately jumped to the whip I picked up at IML (the one I have a video of me using). So I asked if he liked pain. He said something indicating that he did in fact have limits when it came to pain, but was game to try. I went over to my “toy chest” and rumaged around and found the whip.

That whip hurts like hell – I know, I’ve tried it on myself. It’s homemade – just wires with knots in them. The wire is thin enough that it really burns when it hits, and then the knots make it even more painful. I started a little light on him, but pretty quickly moved to full pretty painful strokes. I couldn’t tell how far I could go so I asked him and he said the pain was about a 5 out of 10 which gave me license to really go full out and whip him pretty hard.

As I whipped him I could see the red marks forming. I wasn’t hitting as hard as I could but still pretty hard. When I’d feel his ass between rounds I could feel the whelts forming – they were raised and his ass was starting to look like tenderized meat. My goal wasn’t to take him too far, just give him a good ride.

Eventually I stopped. We laid next to each other and I took off the leather hood. He really was so adorable and you can’t tell that when he’s got the hood on. We kissed and talked a little. I forget what we talked about but I remember his lips were really full and it was cool kissing him. Eventually I got hard again and went back to fucking him. While we were intimate a moment before I could tell when he’s getting fucked he just likes being a hole. He never really looked back – he just took the dick.

Things gradually wound down and we started talking. He had graduated recently from a really good school and has a killer internship coming up that will really jumpstart his career. The kid is going to go places. It’s sorta funny – he’s not the first no limits bottom who’s is (or will be) really successful. There’s something about people who enjoy being abused – in the right combination with other attributes they can be incredibly successful.

I hope we can meet up again. I’m wondering if he doesn’t prefer PNPing. He was telling me about a top who “got him fucked up and then fucked him and used him in a sling”. It was rough enough that he went home with a cut on his face. I’m not going to do the PNP thing, and wonder if he enjoys it as much when he’s sober. Great guy though. I really am hoping we hookup soon.

After the hookup I was SO relaxed. Felt really wonderful. I had wanted to get a little more work done, but just relaxed and watched action movies on FX instead.

I’m cleaning out my closets in preparation of selling our place. A while back I got rid of a ton of VHS porn, but I’ve still got a box of “the good stuff” I (or my bf) couldn’t bear to part with back then. A lot of it is bareback. I’ll wait a couple weeks and give it to the person who gives me the best offer. I’ll even ship it to you if your offer covers shipping… Otherwise, give me an offer (financial or sexual 😉 ) and I’ll pick the one I think is best.

Email me at rawtop@yahoo.com if you’re interested…

Here’s what’s in the box:

Treasure Island

• What I Can’t See (it still pains me to get rid of this one – it really changed how I viewed barebacking)

Hot Desert Knights

• The World’s Hungriest Cumhole Contest
• The Boy’s Club
• Butler’s Boys
• Hole Hunters

Gaslamp Video (now known as S/X Video)

• Muscle
• Fuck My Black Ass
• The Fuck Machine
• Latin Bareback

Big City Videos (featuring of my long time fuck buddies – the heavily tattooed Latino I’ve written about)

• Spanish Sex in The City
• Ride’n The Latin Train
• Latino Sex-a-thon #2

Falcon (and related companies)

• Basic Plumbing (FVP 86)
• Big Bang (FVP 69)
• Perfect Summer (FVP 57)
• Spring Break (FVP 48)
• Super Jock (FVP 44)
• Winner’s Way (FVP 45)
• Bigger Than Life (Matt Sterling Video – MSC 05)
• Hold Me Again (Jocks – JVP 57)

His Video

• Idol Country
• Big and Thick
• The Wildest
• Jeff Noll’s Buddies
• LA Tool & Die
• Kansas City Trucking Co.

Miscellaneous

• LA Sex House Movie Two (if you remember the story behind this video, you’ve been barebacking a while…)
• The Best of Joey Stefano
• Manholes #1
• Santa Monica Boulevard
• Dark Side of the Moon (Studio 2000)
• Man Watcher (Kristen Bjorn)
• The Road Home (Hot House Video)

That’s 33 videos, and good ones at that… If you want a VHS player I can throw in one of those too… And just to be completely upfront, I haven’t watched some of these in years. These are old videos and while they’ve been stored in a dark closet I don’t know if they’ve deteriorated or not. They look OK (just dusty), so most of them should be just fine.

Start by watching this and listen very closely around 0:09 in the video…

Who knew the Obamas were into fisting? You start wondering whether that’s anal or vaginal and who’s the fister and who’s the fistee? But frankly it’s just so out of character for them, but then again you never know what people do in the privacy of their bedroom…

Thing is, this is what the commentator really meant by fisting…

I think she needs someone to explain the term “fisting” to her…

Safe sex porn star Mason Wyler, like thousands of other bottoms, seems like he’s getting addicted to getting fucked bareback in his personal life. You might remember him from the news as the porn star who got raped last fall (part 1, part 2, part 3)…

Well, one bit of news is that Mason Wyler now has a site where you can watch him – MasonWyler.com. But the bigger news, IMHO, is how he’s turning from a safe sex bottom into a bareback cumhole… Here’s the chronology…

October 21, 2008 – He does a post on his blog that criticizes barebackers. It’s in the form of words to a song that’s sung to the tune of Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer. It ended with

Then all the gay boys hated him
as they shouted out with glee:
“Bobby with your unsafe sex,
you’ll die alone in misery!”

That’s just a nasty thing to say – that poz guys should expect to die alone in misery and that other (neg) guys should be gleeful about it. But even in that post he goes on to admit that he barebacks sometimes…

November 3, 2008 – It’s telling that all the pics in this post are bareback. Hmmm…

December 2, 2008 – A month and a half after posting that hateful message he says he admits to being addicted to Eastern European bareback porn where the guys “are openly in love with raw cum filled cock and hole”. He goes on to say “If only I were braver… or more stupid, I’d be in Prague right now getting my hole fucked deep by all these big-dicked Euro boys and letting them cream inside me. But unfortunately OR fortunately, I’m not that daring.”

In other words he’s fantasizing about being a cum dump, but he’s conflicted about it.

December 3, 2008 – He announces a contest where the winner gets to fuck Mason “however you please”, plus airfare, hotel, etc. plus $1,000. Some of the top contestants said things like “this dick is going to breed Mason Wyler’s hole”, and “I’m going to make Mason my cum dump”.

December 11, 2008 – He does a “DICKtionary” post on the term “cum dumpster” where he says glowing things about Dawson including…

Even though the chances of me having sex with Dawson are slim to none, he is by far my all time favorite Cum Dumpster. I would LOVE to eat his hole out after he’s had a long, fully-filling day at the office but that’s just because I’m always thirsty for cum and I know his ass would be overflowing with it!

Needless to say, that’s a big step from what he said in October…

January 17, 2009 – I’m VERY happy to report that two days ago Mason posted the following on his blog:

In my post titled, “A Guilty Pleasure“, I revealed my affinity for Eastern European Bareback Porn Flicks and the boys that star in them. I said that if I was only more daring or more stupid that I would be in Prague getting my ass plowed bareback by all the hot gay cock that the Czech Republic has to offer. Well today I want to confess that I might actually be that daring/stupid. That’s right, I can’t deny it any longer, I want to be an American barebacking bottom slut for Hot Eastern European Porn Models, taking load after load deep inside me until my ass looks like a torn-up cream filled twinkie.

So in less than 3 months he’s gone from criticizing barebackers to wanting to be a total cum dump. I think it’s ’cause he’s 110% bottom – just loves getting used and the logical extension of that is to let the top do whatever he wants to you. In other words, he’s the type who I think will inevitably become a cumhole bottom – it’s rooted deep within him.

Let’s hope he follows through on it and becomes a bareback gangbang porn star! Personally, I’d like to see him be a “take all loads” type bottom and think he’ll get there eventually, but given his taste in men I’m guessing he’ll just to do the pretty boy variety of bareback porn initially. Too bad – I’d like to see him jump directly into the more hardcore bb porn… But still, seeing an ass like his leaking cum after a gangbang would be a beautiful thing no matter where the cum came from…

In the meantime, if you want to see him in action (with condoms unfortunately), check out MasonWyler.com.

My being so busy at the end of last year sorta put me off my game… I got out of the habit of fucking and just haven’t felt the urge to get back into it… It really is a habit with me, I know it sounds weird, but looking back I can go for months without much fucking – I just get out of the habit and don’t miss it for a while…

The work stress of last year has been replaced by a desire to sell our apartment and all the mixed emotions and frenzy that comes with that. Our current place is one bedroom too small, but up until a few weeks ago my bf didn’t want to sell it ’cause he was really attached to it. The falling real estate prices present us with a unique opportunity. The building we’re in is still pretty desirable and the prices have remained fairly strong. But the prices of what we’d like to get have fallen dramatically because the market for that type of property has been more speculative.

We did renovations 3 years ago, but there were some finishing details we told ourselves we were going to take care of but then never did. So now we’re in a bit of a frantic scenario where we need to get them done quickly. Things like sending all the doors out to be stripped and replacing all the hardware on the doors have been reduced to hand stripping the worst doors to a point that they’re “adequate” and then just painting everything and forgetting about the hardware… Still, there’s a lot to do…

It’s a long story, but the end result might involve a move to Brooklyn. The type of place we want we can’t quite afford in Manhattan, but we can in Brooklyn. But we’re thinking of just selling and renting for a while until the market looks like it’s bottomed and then buying at that point when prices are low. Maybe then we can afford what we want in Manhattan…

The end result is that life has been a bit crazy, and sex has not been a priority. But I gotta change that and get back into the saddle – which is a funny way of putting it since ‘bareback’ comes from riding horses without a saddle…

If you’re not from NYC you may not have heard of him, but Rev. Al Sharpton is a bit of a fixture around here – he’s even run for mayor (and I voted for him). The man says things that are so true and says them with a frankness that’s wonderfully refreshing. Here’s the latest from him…

It amazes me when I looked at California and saw churches that had nothing to say about police brutality, nothing to say when a young black boy was shot while he was wearing police handcuffs, nothing to say when the they overturned affirmative action, nothing to say when people were being delegated into poverty, yet they were organizing and mobilizing to stop consenting adults from choosing their life partners. There is something immoral and sick about using all of that power to not end brutality and poverty, but to break into people’s bedrooms and claim that God sent you.

Can we clone him? Maybe make a few white versions of him and put them in places like Kansas so his message reaches a broader audience?

Needless to say guys like him are another reason why I love New York. Find me another place where a prominent black minister is saying things like that… And then there’s our blind, black governor who is trying his hardest to get us gay marriage, and the new (black) state senate majority leader who decided he’d rather lose his position than compromise his principles on things like his support for gay marriage (3 anti-gay Democratic senators were threatening to caucus with the Republicans if they didn’t get a vote on gay marriage taken off the table – in the end they lost and he won but the point is he wouldn’t use our civil rights as a bargaining chip for him to get a great deal or power)…

I really can’t imagine living anywhere but NYC…