Believe it or not, it’s been over two weeks since I fucked anyone. Somehow my efforts to find someone the last few days haven’t gone very well. There was the young guy in Inwood who kept asking if I was neg and never giving his address. Then there was the guy this morning who had great stats, but didn’t have any pics. I told him I wanted him to come here, he said he’d be right over, but never showed up. Then there were guys who wanted to hookup later…

On top of everything else my bf and I had another fight about me hooking up this morning. I hate those fights – really getting tired of them. He’s under incredible stress, so in the end I understand its not about me, but still I really, really hate them…

Anyway, this evening the skinny tattooed guy who lives not far from me wanted to hookup. I went over to his place. I really like this guy’s body – he’s short, super skinny – literally not an ounce of fat on him, has these great tattoos… The chemistry with him was a little awkward tonight – not sure why… I sorta forget if it was awkard last time or not.

Anyway, long story short, I had been hard pretty easily yesterday and today so didn’t think I needed a pill, but I guess I should have taken one. I was hard, but not not consistently hard. When I had him legs up I just didn’t feel much of anything, so I fucked him on his belly a bunch and nearly came twice, but just never came…

We fucked for a while on and off. And it was fun. At one point I wasn’t all that hard and he told me he was sorta sore ’cause he had gone to a halloween party last night and had gotten fucked by three guys. That got me totally hard. Then he told me he’s been fantasizing about getting gangbanged and he planned on buying a sling in a month or so and seeing if he could set up a gangbang. The idea of him getting gangbanged got me totally hard. There’s something about gangbang bottoms that just gets me going…

The other thing was he had “partied” last night and had crystal dick – his dick and balls were completely shriveled up, but I like that… On top of his skinny body it just made him seem like more of a bottom. I wondered if his PNPing didn’t contribute to the weird chemistry – who knows…

Anyway, after several rounds of rimming and fucking we just cuddled, and then I left… I satisfied my need to fuck, but tomorrow I need to take a pill and actually cum in someone’s ass…  😉

The FBI has released it’s hate crime statistics for 2007, and they say there were 1460 hate crimes based on sexual orientation. If you take out the 27 that were anti-heterosexual crimes, there were 1433 crimes against the LGB community last year (transsexuals don’t seem to be included as a category). That’s 3.9 every day…

The FBI statistics reveal that hate crimes against our community are on the rise, whereas other types of hate crimes are going down.

But I’m a little suspicious- the homicide numbers seem low. They say only 5 LGBT people were killed last year. But the video from FightOutLoud.org I mentioned back in early March documented 7 deaths in just the first two months of this year: Shanesa Stewart, Adolphus Simmons, Alexio Bello, Patrick (“Patricia”) Murphy, an unidentified transgender woman in Detroit, Lawrence King, and Simmie (“Beyonce”) Williams Jr. How can only 5 have been killed in all of last year when we had 7 die in just two months this year?

I haven’t been tracking the stats very well since then, but just the other day two elderly gay men were bludgeoned to death in their home – Milton Lindgren, age 70, and Eric Hendricks, age 73. I’m sure there are others as well.

I’m guessing the FBI’s standards for calling something a hate crime are a bit too stringent. Looking at who’s been killed so far this year it’s overwhelmingly black, hispanic and/or transgendered people getting killed. It makes you wonder if those killings are getting handled properly and correctly labeled as hate crimes.

Also, given how the campaigns have gone, it’s pretty clear which presidential candidate will be more likely to A) have the FBI report the data correctly, and B) take meaningful steps to reduce the violence against our community.

I’m swamped with work and it’s making me not so horny… Guys want to hookup and I just never seem up for it. I’ll get back in the swing of things in a couple days, but I thought I’d share a study I found through LifeLube (possibly the only pro-condom site I’ll say good things about).

The gist of the study is that repeated exposure to other strains of HIV maintains a strong anti-HIV immune response in the bodies of guys who are already poz. While super-infection is theoretically possible, it’s extremely rare. What’s more normal is for the poz bottom to actually benefit from the poz cum he’s getting in his ass…

We found that individuals, who regularly engaged in unprotected receptive sexual intercourse with an HIV-1 infected viremic partner, displayed higher T cell responses to HIV proteins compared to those who were not regularly exposed to a viremic partner. None of the individuals within this study showed evidence of systemic super-infection. Exposure had limited impact on general activation or poly-functionality. These results are clearly of importance for HIV-1 infected individuals who chose to engage in unprotected sexual activity with other HIV-1 infected individuals. These data also reveal a more general mechanism that occurs in infectious diseases: immune responses to chronic viruses are influenced not only by the virus within the host, but also by exposure to the virus from without.

So from an HIV perspective, poz guys apparently will stay healthier if they take loads up their ass from other poz guys, at least on average. Of course you also have to factor in the negative effect of the other STDs you’re likely to get – it’s not 100% beneficial.

Read the study

A guy I’ve been meaning to hookup with asked me to post that he’s looking to get gangbanged on Saturday starting at 10pm… He describes himself as “38, 5’10, 175, hairy chest, beard, good shape, good deep throater and very willing ass”. He’s located in the 130s near Broadway. I’m going to try to make it…

If you’re interested, you can contact him at nycmann@gmail.com

Get this one… A 23 year old DJ in Raleigh North Carolina named Josh Weaver is under house arrest for barebacking – complete with one of those electronic ankle bracelets. He had plead guilty earlier to having sex on three occasions without disclosing that he was poz and received probation that stipulated that he wasn’t allowed to have any unprotected sex. Well, he got an STD the health officials said could have been prevented with a condom and now he’s under house arrest for violating his probation.

Personally, I don’t get it. I can see criminalizing lying about your HIV status, but I don’t get how it’s the poz guy’s responsibility to tell if the neg guy doesn’t ask especially in anonymous situations. What happened to the concept of personal responsibility? NO ONE IS RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR HEALTH EXCEPT YOU!

He’s living with his father, so if he’s really lucky his dad is cool with him having guys over. Once his probation is up I’d suggest he come to some place like New York where disclosure isn’t mandatory.

I mean, a guy who’s that hot should have all the sex he wants…  I know I’d fuck him  😉

ADDITION:

One thing I want to add here… If he’s on meds and has an undetectable viral load. He’s safer to have sex with than a “neg” versatile guy who’s running around barebacking and not getting tested regularly.

The laws were written in an era where poz guys were pretty infectious pretty much all the time. That’s not the case any more and I’d love to see one of these laws challenged on the basis of the person in question had an undetectable viral load.

To say that all poz guys have to disclose all the time and not require neg guys who haven’t been tested in say the last three months to disclose that their status is actually “unknown” simply makes no sense. The current policy is a lot like a scarlet letter.

Saw this video on Towleroad – it’s brilliant. It reminds us once again why it’s important to vote for gay and gay friendly candidates this year. It’s about giving future generations visible options, letting them know they can be who they want to be, achieve what they want to achieve.

Now compare that to this…

There’s so much I could say about that clip, but the point is many of us grew up around people like that (in my case they managed to state their bigotry a bit more tactfully, but the bottom line was about the same). It’s vital that young gay teens see that when they get the opportunity to get out from under those circumstances there’s a life waiting for them that’s worth living.