I know it’s been a while since my last fuck. Sorry about that. I’m sorta horny these days, but sorta not… And I’m just not all that sexually aroused… My mind has been more on work than anything else. Sure I look at porn during the day to do posts on the porn blog, but it’s not doing all that much for me. I’ve been jacking off just ’cause I don’t feel like bothering with hookups. But even when I jack off there are times when I’m just not into it – it feels forced and I don’t even get or stay hard…

Frankly, I’m suprised a period like this didn’t happen months ago. It’s just part of the natural ebb and flow of my sex life… But don’t worry – I’ll get back to fucking soon enough…  😉  I was thinking of fucking someone yesterday. Maybe I’ll take a pill and fuck someone later today just to keep in the swing of things…

Well, here’s honesty for you… Turns out my cockring mishap was sorta for the best… Later that evening I noticed what looked like a little “discharge”, but it wasn’t the normal yellow thick stuff that would indicate I had gonorrhea. I almost wondered if it was piss or precum or something… My dick had been a little “itchy”, but that happens when my PA gets irritated, but itchiness plus something else I pay attention to (which is why I was looking to see if there was discharge in the first place). So I made an appointment to go in and see the folks at Callen-Lorde. Then on top of that it burned when I pissed first thing yesterday, so I knew I had something… Bottom line I saw the doctor there yesterday and she thinks I probably had chlamydia. Oh well, it happens when you like fucking cumhole bottoms… [And yes, I did send e-mails to all the guys I had hooked up with in the period specified by the doctor…]

So yesterday my bf and I had had a small argument over the phone. It was over something that cost less than $10 (plus some effort in doing something), so really wasn’t major but neither one of us handled the situation the way we should have. I had forgotten about it by the time he got home, but he hadn’t and he was in this pissy mood. I gave him the better part of an hour to chillout and when he didn’t I figured I’d go out and have a drink and give him more space to cool off.

So the question was where to go… I just wanted some dark bar where I could “be alone in a crowd”, so to speak. I hadn’t been there in years, but Rawhide seemed like it would fit the bill. Rawhide has been around for 30 years now and feels like an old bar (in a good way)… If nothing else I knew there would be go-go dancers I could watch. Rawhide turned out to be a surprisingly good choice…

I wasn’t expecting to talk to anyone. The other day (after the hookup with “the hole” and the research study), I had gone to Gym Bar and, other than some quick remarks about how badly this cute tattooed Latin guy and his female friend where playing pool (it took them 4 tries to hit the balls on the break, and went downhill from there), no one really seemed to want to talk to me. And I was looking really cute that day too – I didn’t get it. But at Rawhide it was completely different…

The first guy to approach me was this handsome older guy (probably 60ish). He said he managed a mostly wholesale business in Brooklyn. He was pretty intense and sorta all over me (with little bit of touching), but while the conversation was nice, there came a time when I wasn’t into it anymore. I went and got a beer and didn’t go back to talk to him.

They had two go-go dancers at the bar – one was a guy who looked like a big, muscular Israeli, the other was a black guy with a huge dick who must have taken Viagra^® or something, ’cause it never went soft – the whole night. When the Israeli got done dancing he spent like 20+ minutes talking to an older guy. It was really clear the Israeli guy was looking for “work” when he got done go-go dancing. Then there was this other beautifully built guy who was fully clothed but always talking to older guys… Him I tagged for an escort as well. It was weird seeing so much escort work going on at a “neighborhood bar”. At the same time it was discrete – I talked to two “regulars” (below) who had no idea there was escorting going on. They were looking right at it and not understanding what they were seeing. I guess it helps having been an escort to understand what was going on…

One of the weirder parts was there was this guy who brought a female co-worker into the place and they stayed for a long time. She wasn’t the type you’d expect to hang out at Rawhide (at least not for very long)… Very weird, but the guy who she was with was pretty cute (and really short too!)

There were two guys playing pool most of the night – a cute little one and another one who looked a tad “alternative” (all black clothes, shaved head, goatee)… We chatted for a while and when the cute little guy heard my theory on the escorting going on he went right up to the Israeli guy and after some serious flirting and a $5 tip, asked him what his price would be for a night… Turns out the guy charges $600…

As the night wore on it was really clear the ‘alternative’ guy was into me. In fact, it got to a point where he was sort of all over me, we were kissing, feeling each other up, etc. He saw my wedding ring early on, and made it clear he knew there were limits. When I said I wasn’t looking to hookup, he said he expected as much… Still, I was drunk (4 pints of Stella by that point) and we started making out a bit. He was hard and kept having me grab his ass… I guess it could have been fun, but I don’t “function” that well when I’m drunk and the whole probable chlamydia thing meant it was a no-go even if I had wanted to try…

While we were sorta all over each other there for a while, we didn’t make nearly as much of a scene as the gaggle of bears that were there. Two of them had their shirts either off or pulled over their head showing off their big bellies. And I mean big bellies – these guys were probably 300 lbs or more… And the pants on one of them kept riding low – so there was bear crack to be seen as well. I found it amusing but the cute little guy was a little put off by it.

So all in all it was a really fun night. I haven’t had that much fun at a bar in a long time. Guess I should do it more often…

The gangbang I told you about in the last post… Well, it was a shoot for Treasure Island. I was really psyched to be in another Treasure Island film. I got all ready. Had my boyfriend help me figure out what I should wear, etc… I couldn’t find my leather cock ring and needed to leave, so I grabbed one of those soft rubber ones.

I get down there and this cute cub greets me at the door. It’s a small hotel room and they were in the middle of filming the top who was just before me. He was this massive black guy – very hot. Max waved ‘hi’ and they continued on…

The room was stifling hot ’cause it was small and there were 6 people (plus me) and really bright, hot lights for filming. On top of that I had taken a part of one of my pills and was feeling a little flush which just exaggerated the heat. I went into the bathroom to get ready and found it was the coolest place there. I put on the cock ring and sat down on the edge of the tub and waited.

The black guy was taking his time cumming… After about 10 minutes I checked my dick ’cause I was worried the cock ring was a little tight and didn’t want to have a purple dick. Then I saw it – a blood vessel had burst on the top of my dick and it created a big dark spot, and there was a smaller one next to it. It was just in the wrong place for filming and would have looked like I had a KS lesion on my dick or something…

When they took a break Max came over and I showed it to him. He went back to filming while he thought about what to do. But I knew the result – you just can’t film around something like that…

Dammit! I am so fucking bummed… The bottom was this early-20s twinkish jock. He was a newbie to porn and it would have been really cool to fuck him. He had 5 loads in him already and they were expecting to get about a dozen loads in him today…

And it was such a stupid mistake for me. I’ve had problems like that with metal cock rings before, but never with the soft rubber ones. I really should have known better – I could tell it was tight going on…

Hopefully Max will use me again soon… We’ll see. It sounds like that was the last in the current round of filming for him, so it might be a while…

On top of it I now have an ugly spot on my dick that’s not going to go away for a week or so. Who’s going to want to have me fuck them with my dick looking like that?

Oh well… That’s life I guess…

Here’s what I’m doing tomorrow (from Craigslist)…

Raw Bareback BB Anonymous Cum Dump Saturday – 23 (Midtown)

We will be whoring out a very hot 24 year old Raw Bareback Cum Dump for anonymous pump and dump scenes this Saturday afternoon/evening at a midtown hotel. Poz friendly.

Bottom will be waiting on all 4’s or spread eagle on the bed for you to stop by, drop your pants, use his hole, blow your load and go. Quick cummers a plus.

We will be videotaping, but you don’t have to show your face.
If interested send stats and pics.

If you’re up for being videotaped fucking a hot bottom (I’ve seen his pics), send an e-mail to the person via the Craigslist ad. Trust me, if you’re at all interested, contact him – You’ll be very glad you did 😉

I’ll give details after the fuck (of course)…

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Sometimes sex just doesn’t go the way you want… Yesterday I had to go downtown to do a follow up visit for that study I’m participating in… I figured I’d get a hair cut and fuck someone before the study appointment.

The haircut went well – it was with a guy I’ve been wanting to have cut my hair, though he hummed off key most of the time – even when the radio station they had playing in the barber shop had a commerical with no music. Nice guy though, and a good haircut.

I had arranged to hookup with this guy before I went down, so I swung by his place. I knew he wasn’t totally my type, but his pics looked interesting – had sort of a Brawny man look to him in his pics. Well, I show up and it’s the same guy, but he doesn’t look like that any more – it was like he was a shadow of who he used to be… It was sorta sad to see…

The apartment was small and a mess. The small part is no problem, but it was dirty, with shit strewed all over the place. It was a beautiful day out and he had the windows closed and the shades drawn. 2 of the 3 drawers on his dresser were open and looked like they didn’t get closed much. This wasn’t a case of “I’ve been working really hard and the cleaning person is coming in tomorrow” – it was just dirty…

He mentioned two other guys had just left, but it hadn’t gone well with them. I probably should have left, but I figured I’d give it a little time and see how it went. I knew he was pretty oral and as soon as I had my dick out he was down on his knees sucking it. While he wasn’t careful enough with his teeth, he had great deep throat abilities. I could get my dick nice and deep and keep it there – he had no gag reflex and he was able to breathe through his nose.

I had limited time and just wanted to blow my load and leave. I reached for his ass and he stood up and bent over in a way that I had access to his hole, but then he squatted down again. The second time I reached for his hole he did the same thing, but then I broke off the oral and made it clear I wanted to fuck.

We lubed him up a bit and he got on all fours on the bed. I pushed in and he had a bit of a hard time taking my dick – said the other two guys hadn’t fucked him. I finally got in, but he kept pulling away from me. I really didn’t have much time, so I pushed him forward onto his belly and fucked him that way so he couldn’t pull off my dick.

As I was fucking him I was thinking about how he was just a hole to me – nothing more. It didn’t take long for me to be able to cum, and given the time and the fact that he wasn’t my favorite guy to fuck, I came as soon as I could, pulled out pretty quickly and left.

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Today was one of those rainy days that keeps everything on the East Coast so luscious green. They say New York get as much rain as Seattle – we just get it over fewer days with these huge soaking rains. Today was one of those days – it just kept raining and raining…

The funny part was I didn’t really think much about hooking up. I looked some porn for the porn blog, did a post, then checked Craigslist and then BarebackRT. When I logged into BarebackRT there were like 13 “buddies” logged in – I was a little surprised given the weather. I e-mailed a few of them – one had to go to work, the one who was close wasn’t monitoring his e-mail, but there was this one guy I’ve been wanting to hookup with who was looking for a load, so I decided to head down to his place…

Before I left I decided to take part of one of the pills I’ve been taking. I opened the capsule and dumped about 1/3rd of the contents into a glass of water. It tasted awful, but I hoped it would do the trick. I wasn’t too worried ’cause I had been able to get hard just fine earlier, but I figured I’d make sure it would go well…

Given his distance from the subway, I opted to drive down. When I saw the car I cringed a little ’cause it was perfectly clean and I was taking it out in the rain, but whatever… The Henry Hudson Parkway was slow due to road flooding which happens every time it rains, but I got there just a few minutes after I said I’d get there…

The weird part was he lived a in the building next to where a guy I used to date lived. He greeted me stark naked. He was attractive, uncut dick, lean build… I had to piss, so I ran to the bathroom. When I came out we got right down to business. I pulled out my dick which was nice and chubby, and he got on his knees and gave me a decent blowjob.

When he had had enough he grabbed the lube from the coffee table (we were in his living room), lubed my dick and his ass and then bent over the couch. The weird part was how unemotional and detached he was the entire time. He didn’t want to really interact with me – he just wanted to get fucked and get my load…

So I shoved in and started fucking him. He asked me to be quiet ’cause he was worried his neighbor would hear, so the whole hookup was virtually soundless… His ass was fairly tight right at the beginning and but loose inside (if that makes sense), so it felt like there was a ring at the entrance and then it was just a warm dark cavity… It was doing the job just fine though  😉

I was sorta slamming into him, but not all that rough or anything – just trying to get in nice and deep, but it was a a little too rough for him and he asked me to be a little gentler, so I slowed it down a little and didn’t try to go quite as deep. That made it a little more difficult for me to cum, but I did finally cum.

After I came I was still hard, and since he had wanted to get fucked gently, I just kept fucking his cummy ass nice and slow. It felt really good (cum is great lube). Finally I had him stand up and I tried to be a little tender with him, but I could tell he wasn’t interested, so I pulled out.

I could tell he was done, so I put my hard cummy dick back in my pants and zipped up (I hadn’t taken off any of my clothes), and left. When I got into the car I noticed the whole thing had taken less than 20 minutes… While I had been in there it had gone back to being a huge downpour outside and it was a slow ride home.

Being a bit anal about my car, when I got back to the garage I wiped the car down with a shammy and cleaned the rims with paper towels… Got it pretty clean that way!

That means I’ve given 4 loads in the past 8 days – not bad…