There’s a new study out that looks at the mortality rates of people who are poz. Curiously they declare that HIV is “no longer fatal”, but then they go on to say how it will shorten your life…
There’s obviously a lot of young bug chasers out there. If you’ve ever wondered how they’ll fair long term – the study answers that…
The study said that “despite” these positive results, an HIV-positive person starting Cart treatment at the age of 20 will on average live another 43 years, to 63. A 20-year-old HIV-negative person in a high-income country can expect to live to around 80, a difference of nearly 20 years.
I assume “Cart” is the same as HAART (the “drug cocktail”).
I’ve said for a while now that the only safe sex message that I can see working is “stay neg – enjoy your retirement”. That’s basically what’s going to happen with the guys who are getting pozzed young. Provided they do what a good doctor tells them to do, they’ll live a decent life, and then start having medical problems when they should be retiring. The part of their life they’re going to miss out on are “the golden years”.
Then again it was just a few years ago that they said the average life expectancy after becoming poz was around 23 years. Now it’s up to 43 years for these guys. Given how well medical science is doing it will probably go higher. And that’s the point… People from my generation and before are telling the young guys how crazy they’re being but they’ve forgotten how radically things have changed. It used to be that someone who was poz for 5 years was a “long term survivor”… It’s not like that anymore.
[Fine Print: These are averages – you may be on the low end of the average. If you don’t get tested and don’t know you’re poz you will be on the low end of the average for sure and will die way before you should. So GET TESTED and know your HIV status!]
Then you think about the guys like the bug chaser who’s in San Francisco this week who are in their 40s and turning poz. Their life expectancy after infection is shorter than 43 years, but still – if you got pozzed in your upper 40s and lasted say 30 years (I’m pulling that number out of my ass), then you’ve still lives a pretty full life. They’re making a choice that will undoubtedly lead to complications, but they’re not completely insane like some people would lead you to believe.
Here’s the problem. The Swiss statement is based directly on empirical data. The new study is a mathematical model, and it would appear the empirical data the Swiss have access to does not fit with the Aussie’s mathematical model. If you know anything about statistics you know the closer you are to real-world observations, the better your results will be. The data source is always suspect. So it looks like the mathematical model may be in trouble, though it is getting published in one of the top peer-reviewed journals so you’d think it couldn’t be that bad. Then again, I think there are people who want to see the Swiss discredited.
The point is, the discussion about the Swiss statement is far from over.
Remember the bug chasing bottom I met up with at IML? The one I did the whipping video of and who wrote up the whole post about how he’s now taking all loads – both neg and poz? Well, he’s in San Francisco this weekend for Dore Alley and he’s looking to continue what he started at IML and get as much cum in his ass as possible…
Here’s what he wrote up…
Cum hungry bottom visiting San Francisco from July 24-31, Dore Alley, new to taking loads of cum up my ass but hungry for as much as I can get.
6 ft, 170lbs, dark bl/beard, and a total bottom. Looking for total TOP MEN only to come by and breed my ass. I’m staying at a hotel in SOMA and I’m also looking for guys who want to join in a gang fuck I’m organizing for Saturday evening in my hotel room. Bring your buddies.
So guys, lets make this week a really good one for him… All you tops in SF get in contact with him and see if you can’t give him a load before he leaves!
He likes the sexual energy of total tops. Mind you, the “dom top” who worked him over during the gang bang at IML was actually versatile, but in “top mode” – so that’s fine with him as well… What really gets him off is being dominated. Taking loads is a totally submissive act for him. But his submission goes way beyond taking loads. He’ll drink your piss, and will get into it if you slap him around. If he trusts you he also gets into being punched and if you leave bruises he’ll be showing them off in a day or two when they’re visible. But don’t get the wrong impression – he’s a really sweet genuine guy which is why I’m doing this post… I like the guy a lot…
So give him what he wants boys and keep his hole nice and cummy this week… You can contact him by sending him an e-mail… henk01@hotmail.com
Just as a reminder of what he looks like here’s a pic I took of him @ IML… Maybe if you hookup with him this week you should take pics or a video…
And here’s the video of me whipping and fucking him… Don’t quite know why, but this video has done really well on XTube – over 176,000 views, and it’s got a perfect 5 star rating!
A discussion on bareback porn on another site got me thinking… Barebacking is a lot like smoking. It’s addictive and it can kill you. So how does it compare?
According to UNAIDS/WHO, 21,000 people died of AIDS in North America and 12,000 in Western and Central Europe. That’s 58 people a day in North America and 33 a day in Europe. By comparison the CDC reports that 418,000 people die just from cigarette smoking every year in the United States alone. That’s 1145 a day.
I get that some of the people who are dying every day of AIDS acquired HIV by barebacking. But I bet the people who are bothered by young guys barebacking don’t think twice when the same guys light up a cigarette… I’m not trying to say they’re being willingly hypocritical – personally I think society is having a moment of group think where the big killers don’t get the attention they deserve and smaller ones that are seen as somebody else’s problem get all the attention. HIV is a popular one ’cause people see it as avoidable. But smoking deaths are avoidable too and kill so many more people. But HIV is seen as something that affects unpopular minorities like gay guys and drug addicts so it gets focused on.
On the other side of the coin, as a community this does affect us greatly and it’s something we need to come to grips with. Personally I think one of the huge issues is how ineffective the safe sex message is these days. It needs a total rethink but it’s such a touchy subject people don’t want to touch it with a 10 foot pole. Some people will cry foul if the message is anything but “use a condom every time”. On the other hand I’ve seen guys get addicted to barebacking in a monogamous relationship and then not be able to quit barebacking when the relationship ends. So who knows what the message should be. I know I don’t know…
But for me, as with smoking, it comes down to personal choice. People choose to smoke and some die as a result of that choice. Likewise people choose to bareback and some die as a result of that choice. The difference of course is that the damage from smoking builds over time where with barebacking the damage happens all of a sudden and you don’t know when that will be. So a teen could smoke for a year or two and stop without much consequence. But if they bareback it’s an all or nothing game. The damage may have been done by the time they decide to stop.
Just as we don’t bar people from smoking, we can’t bar them from barebacking. But society has put limits on things like advertising of tobacco and alcohol, and the sale of those products. The issue is what limits, if any, are appropriate for barebacking?
Some people have suggested a system similar to straight porn where there’s an industry sponsored non-profit testing agency who monitors all the models. But I don’t know whether that would even work in our case since so many models are poz or like me – neg and don’t mind fucking poz guys.
Personally, I think the important thing is that the guys in bareback porn do so with informed consent. That they understand the risks and consequences. If they do, then it’s all OK in my mind… The question is how do you know some Eastern European guy who doesn’t speak your language had decent sex ed in high school? The concept of informed consent is great. The implementation is a bitch…
UPDATE
I was thinking about this a little more… Canada has about 10% of our population, so let’s guess that 19,000 people in the US died of AIDS. Let’s also guess that 75% of them were gay (I think that’s actually a higher number than what’s true), so that would mean about 14,000 gay guys died of AIDS last year. Now, if we’re 5% of the population (10% of the men), then that means if the entire US were made up of gay men then 280,000 of us would have died of AIDS. That 280,000 number is comparable to the 418,000 that died of smoking.
Those are really rough numbers, but the bottom line is that it appears smoking kills more gay men than HIV/AIDS. Think about that for a moment. Smoking is a bigger problem for our community than HIV. I wish someone could get hard data to prove that, but with high rates of smoking in the gay community, I’m almost certain it’s a true statement.
There’s this bottom who has been wanting to hookup with me and my boyfriend literally for years. But on two occasions he said he’d come over and then he was a no-show. The second time he swore it wouldn’t be like the first time, but it was…
I hadn’t blocked him on Manhunt, so yesterday he contacts me again and says he wants to hookup. I told him I wasn’t in the mood to get stood up. He apologizes (again – he keeps having to do it every time he contacts me) and says it’s different this time – the other times he had a boyfriend and things came up.
I was feeling lazy – didn’t really want to leave the apartment… So I give him the address and tell him to come over. I figured once again he’d just flake out. He writes back saying he’ll be here – in two hours… He needed to clean up and he was coming from Brooklyn. Then he writes back and says he’ll be early ’cause he’s leaving earlier than he had planned.
As expected the time he said he would be here came and went and there was no sign of him. He definitely wasn’t early. I was thinking “how typical” when the phone rang. It was him and he was having some sort of subway troubles. I was just about to think it was some sort of excuse when he mentioned a street in the neighborhood – that he had gotten out of the subway and was walking. Thing was I had given him instructions from the subway that didn’t include the street name, so he needed to know how to get here.
Suddenly things were looking up. I told him how to get here and 10 or 15 minutes later he was at my door. His pictures gave a mixed impression of him, but in person he was pretty cute. He had a bit of a nerdy Jewish guy look to him, but later when I saw his uncut dick I realized he wasn’t Jewish.
We undress and he starts sucking my dick. I had taken my PA out since I didn’t want complications and hadn’t taken any pills (since I didn’t actually expect him to show up). The blowjob wasn’t getting me hard, but he had mentioned that he liked watersports. Since some guys (like the guy who got gangbanged last week) only like golden showers, not drinking piss, I checked with him first before I tried to piss in his mouth. Don’t know if it was because I was semi hard or if it was because my bladder just wasn’t all that full, but I wasn’t able to piss more than just a little bit… Oh well…
Since the blowjob just wasn’t doing it for me I had him get on the bed on all fours so I could rim him. I was a litte worried that since he had been walking in the heat he’d be all rank, but he wasn’t fortunately. He had a pretty nice hole, which I gave a pretty good rimming to before it was sloppy with spit and I shoved my dick in…
His hole felt pretty good. I fucked him on all fours and on his belly. When he was on his belly it was a bit of a weird/awkward position but it still sorta felt good. There was no eye contact – he was just a hole… Which is sorta what I wanted of him. After all he had stood me up twice – this was when he made it up to me… For a while there I wondered if I was going to be able to cum, but eventually the orgasm came and I gave him a big load deep in his ass.
I then rolled over on my side with my dick still in his ass. Usually bottoms want to cuddle after getting a load, but he did this thing where he moved so his back was not up against my chest. It seems he didn’t want the intimacy of getting held. OK…
After my dick softened and fell out of his ass, he got up and started cleaning off my dick. I thought that was going to be it, but then he went on and on… Licking my balls and basically being very subservient and sort of worshiping me. He even licked my feet…
Having just cum, I was laying there and for a moment I realized I was acting a bit like a “do me” sorta top. But then I realized I had “done him” so that wasn’t the case at all. I sat up with him still between my legs and showed him some more attention. He wanted me to spit in his face (I did), and he liked it when I slapped him. I could tell he wanted something more like the dom top I watched at IML, but I just wasn’t in that headspace. I did take a page out of that top’s playbook and when he was sucking my fingers I shoved them deeper and deeper until he was just about gagging on them. I could tell he didn’t like that ’cause I’d keep trying and he’d usually move his tongue so I couldn’t get back that far – though he did let me get down deep a few times more…
That sorta stuff went on for a long time. The fuck wasn’t that long, but he was with me for about an hour and a half total – most of it was just him worshiping me and serving me. He cleaned my sweaty pits, licked my feet, sucked my dick, chewed on my beard. I spit in his face, slapped him and generally just treated him like a pig.
At one point he got me hard enough that I wanted to fuck again. I started by rimming his cummy hole which was great ’cause I could taste my load in there – nothing like felching a cummy hole! Then I fucked him and it was incredible… His hole felt all silky and smooth…
We then went back to him serving me. At one point he was sucking on my toes and then he turned around and started trying to shove my foot up his ass. Of course it didn’t get far, but it was still sorta cool… The guy was a definite pig… Of course he licked my toes clean after they were up his ass…
At one point he was laying next to me and he smelled musky and raunchy – it smelled pretty good. He sorta had piss breath, but not too bad since I hadn’t pissed much in his mouth…
Finally he jacked off while having me slap his face with my foot… The guy’s a perverted fucker – I like that…
As he was getting dressed I went into the bathroom ’cause I needed to piss. Then I thought – this is dumb – I’ve got someone who will drink it… He was already dressed and surprised I wanted him to drink cum, but he got on his knees and sucked it down. Afterward he went into the bathroom and cleaned up a little (not too much) including rinsing his mouth out with water. He’ll still go home with piss breath, but it won’t be as bad as if drinking rank piss was the last thing he did…
After he left I took a shower and the rank smell just wafted off my body. Having a piss pig lick you all over gets you smelling like piss… Gotta remember that next time and not go out with friends without showering first!
UPDATE: Video now included below…
UPDATE #2: The neg bottom took a poz load at the gangbang…
UPDATE #3: The bottom tested neg about a month later…
Well the piss bottom had his gangbang… When I arrived he had the biggest grin on his face. He just couldn’t stop smiling… I’m assuming it was because of the 5 loads in his ass (from 4 different tops) – don’t think he was just happy to see me…
Anway, I got the video camera ready, explained it to the hosting top, we turned on a few lights so the video would come out better and we got started.
I should mention that I had put my PA in that morning after not wearing it for a few months… It’s a pretty big PA – 2 gauge, 1″ diameter. The bottom started by sucking my dick. He did a pretty good job of keeping the metal away from his teeth. But the problem was I couldn’t really face fuck him without my ring hitting his teeth and hurting him… So that didn’t last too long…
I rimmed him briefly (the organizing top didn’t really want me rimming at all – wanted the loads to stay in his ass)… Then I went to fuck him.
Getting the ring in was really difficult. At one point I thought I was in only to realize I wasn’t. I asked for lube, but believe it or not they didn’t have any (go figure – a gangbang with no lube!) Finally I just pushed the thing in with my fingers. [The moral of the story here is to only fuck with a big PA when the bottom is really loose.]
The bottom was in a lot of pain. I was a little worried about tearing him up inside – so on one side I didn’t want to stop and wanted him to get used to it, and on the other I was watching him closely to see if he went from extreme discomfort to any sort of sharp pain. It took a while, but we eventually got him accustomed to it and he was OK. I think part of it was me needing to get hard enough to get the ring in deep enough so it got past the muscular part of his sphincter…
Even when he got used to the PA, it wasn’t a garden variety fuck – it was more like he was enduring it than taking it easily… But as long as I didn’t think I was damaging him I was OK with that… And I gotta admit – the idea of a little bit of minor damage was a bit of a turn on (though not enough that he’d have to stop getting fucked for the evening – he didn’t have enough loads in him and the night was still young)…
So as you might expect, it didn’t take all that long to cum – which was probably a good thing given the punishment his ass was getting…
When I pulled out his hole was just gaping open and all cummy. I put some of the cum on my finger and tasted it. Then got a little more and fed it to him…
Update: Here’s the video of it… I wish you could see his face. You can tell by his grunts and groans he was in pain, but the look on his face was that of endurance more than pleasure…
Things then wound down, I packed up and left. I didn’t really like how it ended with him… The entire scene didn’t have the intensity that I like to have with a sub bottom. The PA and the videotaping were distractions… Oh well… I’ll fuck him again sometime soon…
One other update: I noticed the other day that his Manhunt profile now says “HIV Status: Don’t Know”. I asked and he said he found out one of the tops lied and said he was neg when he was actually poz, so he figured “Don’t Know” is more accurate. Turns out the poz guy was this young guy (who I know ’cause he’s been wanting me to fuck him), probably not on meds (though they’re not sure), and he told them he wasn’t sure of his HIV status, but he inferred that he was probably neg. To me “don’t know” is more dangerous than “poz” since the viral loads can be higher. They let the guy fuck him and then later it comes out he’s actually poz. You gotta remember the top before me fucked him really rough, and then I roughed up his hole with my PA… Hmmm…. It’s two weeks later and he hasn’t gotten the fuck flu… Who knows… It’s sorta par for the course though…
UPDATE (3): It’s now a month or so after the gangbang. The bottom got an HIV test and he’s negative. That means chances are he really is negative and what happened at the gangbang was of no consequence. Just reminder – this is all hearsay – it could be the guy who said he was poz wasn’t poz at all, but just playing some sort of weird game. Or it could be the bottom was lucky that night… Who knows.
So there had been another gangbang that I had said I would go to before I knew about this one – and it was just a few blocks from the first gangbang. So after hesitating a bit I decided to go. I figured if nothing else two gang bangs in one night would be good practice for IML next year…
When I got to that one there were three guys in the room… The bottom was a “beefy” 40 y.o. – you’re typical cumhole bottom. Not nearly as much my type as the first bottom, but an easy fuck.
As I came in he was getting fucked by this really thin black guy… I put down my things pulled out my dick and watched a bit… Then I looked more closely and realized the black guy had a HUGE dick – one of the biggest I’ve seen in a very long time. Possibly the biggest I’ve ever seen. When he pulled out and his dick was just hanging there I kid you not when I say it hung down almost half the way to his knees – at least that’s how it seemed. And on a guy as super skinny as he was the enormity of his dick was just accentuated…
I was getting used to the dynamics of the group when the bottom walked over to me felt up my dick (which seemed tiny by comparison to what he just had in his ass), then he got on all fours on the bed with his ass facing me. I got the hint and started fucking him. But all he seemed to want was a taste and then he changed around and continued getting fucked by the black guy.
I had taken my PA out because I didn’t want complications. I had just cum and wasn’t sure how I’d perform anyway, so wanted to keep things simple. But his ass had been really loose and really well lubed (didn’t know if it was with cum or actual lube). But long story short I knew the PA wouldn’t be a problem, so I put it back in. Figured I needed something to try to compete with the big-dicked black guy.
When the black guy got tired, the bottom presented his ass to me again. By now I was realizing that the bottom wasn’t interested in the third top at all… His choice, so I rimmed him quickly and then stuck my pierced dick in his ass. Unlike the other bottom there was absolutely no problem with it going in…
The bottom was kissing the black guy and sucking his dick while I fucked him. Since I had cum already, it went on and on. At one point things felt good and I wondered if I could cum again, but the orgasm never came.
The bottom was so loose that I was doing stuff to try to keep it interesting – pulling out and shoving back in (with the ring I figured he had to feel that…) But my cock just wasn’t a match for the black guy’s dick (and the dildo I saw on the night stand), so the black guy went back to fucking him…
The black guy just went on and on… Finally I had to piss and when I got done with that I figured it was time to go, so I left… As long as the black guy was in the room he was going to be the one getting all the attention.
So all in all an interesting night…
And last I heard the piss bottom (gangbang #1) got a total of 7 loads. Too bad he didn’t get more, but it seemed everyone wanted to get gangbanged that night. There were lots of Craigslist ads for guys taking loads… I was even contacted by a guy who knew of a hot 28 y.o. who was getting gangbanged. Told him I already had two gangbangs lined up. He actually wound up being load 5 for the the piss bottom. Apparently he had a big dick and fucked the bottom really rough (maybe that’s why the bottom had a huge grin on his face when I walked in – he had just gotten fucked by the rough top). They were surprised when I told them the guy was versatile…
But too many gangbangs in a night is a great problem for us tops…
