If you read the blogs I have listed in my sidebar you may know that Matt from “Matt & Dan’s Sexual Adventures” is in town from Minneapolis and will be getting gangbanged Thursday night starting at 6pm and going until whenever…

So far they’ve gotten responses from 50 guys but looking for more (after all only about a third of the guys who say they’ll come actually do). I plan on being there – probably a little later in the evening so I can felch some loads out of his ass…

Dan describes Matt this way…

He’s a hot young 25 y.o. (5’8′, 155, 32w, br/br, Neg, DDF) with one of the most spectacular asses I’ve ever fucked.

He’s looking to get fucked and to take as much cum as he can.

Stop by and let his talented ass drain your cock! Totally anon – he’ll be waiting, jockstrapped, ass in the air – lubed and ready.

And yes, even though he keeps testing neg, he does take poz loads…

The gangbang will be at Hotel Pennsylvania which is at 7th Ave and 34th Street, near Penn Station.

So tops – lets see how much cum we get get in him! Contact Dan if you want to stop by and drop a load – mattdanbb@hotmail.com – they’re going at it all night long…

HIM:

how many give you shit for your profile?

ME:

very very few these days. 3 or 4 years ago that was different – guys would get nasty if i even complimented them on their pics…

HIM:

that’s unfortunate.

how do you do it man? so adamantly work against the safe sex movement with such pride?

I can’t help but detect you gloating about the amount how aren’t speaking up to you-the younger generation is in trouble due to men like you..

ME:

how i have sex is between me and the guys i fuck. i’m upfront about what i’m looking for. i’ve done my research and know the facts usually better than people who use rubbers…

here’s how i look at it… people drive in cars and don’t think twice about it, but public highways are one of the most dangerous places in the world. people speed, they drive when they’re tired… it’s all really dangerous.

people skydive, people bungee jump off bridges… they do all these things because they make their lives more enjoyable.

so why is the safe sex crowd think sex should be different than any other part of a person’s life? they’re ok with straight people barebacking and having unwanted children – why is it that gay sex is so horrible that we have to have a completely different standard for it?

bottom line – it’s a personal choice.

HIM:

just because protease inhibitors exist doesn’t mean you can spit on the graves of the 100s of thousands who died. It doesn’t mean you can encourage those who are less educated than others that barebacking is acceptable. It doesn’t mean that 14, 15, 16 year olds who are coming out should consider this an option…have all the one-on-one, group-on-group personal choices you want- but the broadcasting of this is dangerous.

Despite what you may think- the message isn’t out there loudly enough. Trust me, I understand your stance on personal choice- but you purposely put fetish around it, you enjoy the luring other people to think and act like you do. The personal choices of 18 year olds wouldn’t necessarily be their choices at 20 or 22 or 30 and so on…why jeopardize would-be negative men..

you’re creating a dangerous environment- don’t assume people are as wise as you.

ME:

i had a lover die of AIDS in early ’95… i don’t need the lecture. i’m guessing you’re young enough you haven’t had someone close to you die. until you have, that’s a trump card you don’t have the right to play.

even people in public health call the era we’re in “the post AIDS era”… it’s not like it was before ’96 – not even close…

the safe sex message is failing because the people promoting it don’t seem genuine. they’re saying the same things they were saying 20 years ago and don’t acknowledge that things have changed. it’s not my responsibility to do their job for them.

in contrast bareback porn is honest – it shows obviously poz guys fucking the way they fuck at home and at sex clubs. i take it you know i’m a blogger – blogs like mine are honest too… people respond to that honesty. don’t get on my case for honesty… get on the case of the safe sex crowd for not being honest.

HIM:

Yes, I have had a friend and mentor die of AIDS. Despite the myriads of men I know living with it and wish they weren’t.

Can I play that card now?

Yes you’re honest. I’ll give you that.

It just saddens me that you’re shrugging this off and that people are following in your footsteps. Weak strain, heavy strain. It’s all a lottery – not everything can be “hot” all the time.

goodbye now- I do appreciate your response.

ME:

You know it’s weird… I’ve never had a poz guy tell me they really hate being poz (at least none that have been poz for a while and have adjusted to it). I don’t see poz bloggers really talking about it either. And on top of everything it seems at least some poz tops really get off breeding neg bottoms…

The situation is not black and white…

I need to qualify that last bit… The guys I know either 1) don’t tell me they’re poz, or 2) don’t talk about what it’s like to be poz. Years ago they used to… If it comes up at all these days it’s brushed off. Maybe they don’t think a neg guy would understand – or they don’t want to go into it – or their lives just don’t revolve around he issue anymore – I don’t know…

And I’m sure there’s some blogger out there somewhere who talks about what it’s like to be poz. I know Geek Slut did from time to time (his blog is offline right now). He’d mention when his doctor changed his meds and it would sorta knock him for a loop.

I’m not saying poz guys have it easy. I’m saying that I’m neg and it’s not my job to communicate the experiences of poz guys. They can start their own blogs or comment on blogs like this one (starting their own is the best way to get credibility – far better than “dropping bombs” on blogs like this one). Fred Mayer is starting a new cam site and blog. I’m really hoping he’ll fill in some of this void with his blog…

Did you also notice how the guy above seems to think I don’t have a right to talk about my sex life and my opinions? Damn! That’s a pefect example of political correctness gone completely wrong.

Load 2008-41

Well, after two quickie pump-and-dumps lately – 12 minutes and 4 minutes – I figured it was time for something slightly more meaningful, so when the Brazilian guy in my neighborhood sent me a message on Manhunt saying “give me your load”… I figured – why not? I checked with my bf, took a shower, and headed out…

I hadn’t taken any pills or anything so I put a leather cock ring on before I left. When I got there I made it nice and snug and he got down on his knees and gave me a blowjob. At one point he indicated that he wanted me to put my hands either side of his head and fuck his face, which I did. Didn’t seem to be able to get in far enough to gag him or anything though…

It’s funny hands forcing a head onto a dick is one of those things I absolutely hate when I’m the one giving head – but I guess if you’re a bottom who likes to get pounded it might be enjoyable.

After a while I reached down to feel his hole – it had been really well lubed. He doesn’t like me to rim him for some reason, so he fact that he was lubed wasn’t a problem.

We then move on to fucking and as usual start with his legs in the air. He likes to kiss in this position, so we do some of that while I’m fucking him. But (like usual again), I need him on his belly in order to cum, so I flip him over fuck him that way. His hole was working my dick just right and after a while I felt my orgasm coming. But then it sorta passes, I slow down a bit and then I cum… This delayed cumming thing is getting a bit weird…

We cuddle a bit and catch up on things (it had been over two months since we last fucked), and then I take my leave…

A little routine, but not a bad way to get the day started…

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In case you thought 12 minutes was too long for a pump-and-dump, did one that was MUCH shorter earlier tonight…

This guy and I started chatting on Manhunt. He seemed really hungry to be treated like a cumhole and take a load. The scene he wanted was just a pump-and-dump with him blindfolded. On top of that he makes it clear he wishes I were a poz top. It take the cue and contacted a poz guy I knew was versatile (I had fucked him before, and he had had me over to load up a bottom he was fucking). Given how things had gone last time when he hadn’t let the bottom turn around to look at me, I knew he’d be into it, but the timing was bad for him. Then I took a look at the profile of this other poz vers/top, he saw me look at his profile, contacted me and said he wanted to take my load. I told him the scenario and he liked the idea, but the timing was bad for him too. [And for the record, both tops were undetectable – so they’re shooting blanks – the fact that they were poz is somewhat irrelevant…]

But then the hookup fell through completely when the guy didn’t confirm. I tried to find another hookup. The hot skinny guy who lives near me who I fucked a few months ago said he was game to come over. That was a big step for him since he had told me he had stopped taking loads, but was still game to take mine. But then when he was supposed to come over I get a message saying when he was cleaning out he realized today was one of those days he couldn’t get completely clean, so he wanted to cancel. Mighta been true, or coulda been a good excuse. Either way that was the second hookup that fell through.

Thing was I had taken a couple pills and there was this point at which I popped a HUGE boner and really just needed to fuck. So I start really hitting up guys to hookup. It was amazing how many “online” guys didn’t read my message. OK… I contacted a piss and cum bottom who was in town and had wanted to hookup with me the night before. But he said he had been out late the night before and wasn’t up for it (even though he said he’d been taking it easy all day). That one I didn’t understand – it was 7pm – if he had been taking it easy I don’t get how he couldn’t hookup. Oh well, whatever…

Then the guy from the first hookup contacted me and said he was ready. Two hours late, but whatever… I jump in the car and head over. Surprisingly I find parking pretty easily (which I couldn’t have found two hours earlier due to parking restrictions). I get into his building, find his door and it’s ajar. I go in and the bedroom door is ajar – I peer in and see him on all fours, blindfolded…

The guy had a hot musclar, trim body… I pulled his ass back, got on my knees and started eating out his hole. He was absolutely LOVING it… He reached back and pulled apart his ass cheeks to let me get in deeper. Problem was his ass started expelling air right about then. So I waited until that was over, figured out he wasn’t messy and went back at it a little more gingerly than before, but just long enough until I was hard (didn’t take long).

As I was shoving my dick in his ass I realized I hadn’t made note of the time when I came in. I looked and saw it was 7:56. I figured I’d been there about a minute so far – maybe a little more, but not really more than two minutes.

I started fucking him. His hole was gaping open when I was rimming him. It was sorta hot. He wasn’t tight (at all), but it still felt really good… I had needed to cum so badly it didn’t take long at all to cum… But it was one of those weird orgasms where the actual cumming comes after the feeling of the orgasm. Either way, he got my load… I pump a few more times and pull out.

I see him turning around and feeling with his hand trying to find my dick. I figured what the hell – I’d let him clean off my dick before I shoved it back in my jeans. I could tell he wanted to blow me, but my dick was sensitive after cumming. So I pull away, shove my dick in my pants and leave.

I had managed to turn off my cell phone when I checked it earlier. When I got in the car it had booted back up and the time was 7:56… So 7:56 to 7:59 – the time at the beginning before I checked the time was less than the time I spent walking to the car. Take inclusive time period and you have a 4 minute pump-and-dump… Not bad.

When I got home there was a message waiting for me… “man that was a big load… very hot”. That was far from my biggest load… Which explains why I can’t cum all that often…

UPDATE: Heard back from him with more details… My load got him wanting more. He got a total of 7 loads that night – was blindfolded for all of them. [The most he’s gotten in one night was 12 loads…]

UPDATE #2: Was chatting with him on Manhunt yesterday (7/1) he said he got his test results back and he was poz… He thinks it happened a few months ago. Similar to when I fucked him, he was blindfolded taking anonymous loads. A guy he had been chatting with sent over a couple of tops and one of them asked “Want it?” before dumping in his ass. Of course he said ‘yes’, and he got IT… He never saw the top – doesn’t have any clue who it might be since it was the other guy who set it up…

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It’s been a while since I’ve done a real quickie pump-and-dump and last night I was sorta in the mood for one. After work there was an art opening my bf wanted to go to down in the meatpacking district, so I figured I’d stop and fuck someone on my way downtown.

What’s weird is that guys seem really horny this week. Must be the weather or something, but the timing seems to be bad. Either they’ll want to hookup during the day, or late at night when I want to go to bed. So I’ve gotten a lot of offers, but nothing has really worked.

So when I was looking late yesterday afternoon this Latino unlocks his pics on Manhunt. The arrangements were quick and to the point…

Me: can you host around 6 or 6:30 – i’m just looking for a quickie pump and dump before i go to something down in the meatpacking district…

Him: 6:30 sounds good

Me: give me an address and i’ll be there…

Him: XXX west 49 just call me before 646-XXX-XXXX

Why can’t they all be that easy? There were a few other e-mails after that, but I loved how quickly things fell in place.

So I show up at his place – nice, neat, tidy apartment which sorta matches his personality – seems like a nice, unremarkable guy (not saying that in a bad way at all)… I’m not there for chit-chat, so pretty quickly I just unzip my pants and he’s down on his knees sucking my dick.

I wasn’t quite sure how my dick was going to respond – I was horny, but I had taken a pill not on an empty stomach and not quite enough time before the hookup. So I put a leather cock ring on to hurry things along…

The leather cock ring did it’s job and before long my dick was down his throat. He seemed to like seeing how far he could get it down his throat, but then he’d choke pretty bad, his gag reflex would kick in and he’d wind up coughing spit all over my pubes. Was sorta hot though…

I was there for a quick load, so when I got hard pretty soon I started feeling for his ass. He got the hint and the second time I reached for his ass he did one last push to get my dick down his throat, then he got on all fours and presented me with his ass…

I just spit on his hole a bit and shoved in. It hurt him a little initially, but he’s an experienced bottom and got used to it pretty quickly. It was a good fuck, but the weird thing was that I kept hitting something that felt a bit hard. I’ve sorta had that experience in the past and what I was hitting was shit. But there was no odor this time (and in the end my dick came out clean), so I don’t know what it was.

Mid way through the fuck I notice a wedding band on his finger. To me that was a total turn on. Here’s this guy on all fours taking my load no questions asked – and I’m guessing his boyfriend has no clue. Fuck I love that…

I can come pretty quickly when I’m fucking a decent hole – especially when I haven’t cum in a couple days. And the whole point of quick pump-and-dump is to make it quick, so when I felt my orgasm coming, I just unloaded in his ass – didn’t try to draw things out or anything. I stayed in his ass for a little bit, then pulled out.

As I mentioned, everything came out clean, but I went to the bathroom to piss and clean off a bit, and then left.

Total time for everything – about 12 minutes. Coulda been less if I had tried, but that’s not a bad amount of time…

Turns out my bf hadn’t left yet, so I had some time to kill so I went to Gym (a bar) for a beer. Talked to two guys – one “big” guy who literally walked away from me in the middle of a conversation (about Baltimore, of all things). It was to get a beer, but he didn’t say “just need to get a beer – be right back”, so it was weird, and then I was talking to someone else by the time he got his beer. The second guy was a Latino I had seen and thought was hot. He came up and we started talking, but after exchanging names he asked who I was married to (he saw the ring). We were a little flirty with each other, but when we figured out we were both tops, he went off to smoke a cigarette.

Curiously enough, I was recognized by someone who reads the blog who I’ve been meaning to fuck. When I got home there was an e-mail from him asking if I had been at Gym. He’s actually someone who had me put a listing on my cumhole directory, but then asked me to take it down.

So after a quick bite at Better Burger, I went with my bf to the art opening. OMG… It’s like New Jersey and Long Island had invaded Manhattan… It used to be that “bridge and tunnel” people weren’t so prevalent in the City, but these days it feels like they’re everywhere. Almost everyone at the opening was straight, there were more women than men there, and while the women looked fabulous, the sensibility was very cheesy. Lots of blonds… They were like young versions of Alex on The Real Housewives of New York City. It was a bit disturbing actually. I don’t want people like that taking over New York. It felt way too much like LA… Ich! (LA is OK, but Manhattan should never feel like LA – it’s just wrong).

Then we needed to be around gay people so we went to Chelsea for dinner. Even though it’s been there for years, we’d never been to Nisos – so we tried it out. We were plastered from all the drinks we had and I managed to order a soft shell crab salad without realizing it was $21. Oh well… As we were leaving I had to go to the bathroom. They were busy and when a guy came out of the women’s room, I figured what the hell, it’s Chelsea… Later I told my bf if a woman had said something I would have told her she’s in Chelsea – get used to it… Hell, stay on the Upper East Side or Staten Island if it bothers you that much. He thought that would have been rude (he was drunk and just being difficult), but honestly, when you look out the window at that restaurant you see a huge sign across the street for Nasty Pig. Where do they think they are?

Just when I was thinking I had more than enough political stuff on the blog for one day, I read another post on Joe. My. God…

Get this… The ACLU, Lambda Legal, NCLR, The Human Rights Campaign, The National Gay and Lesbian Task Force, Glaad, and a few other groups have issued a joint statement (PDF) telling queers not to sue the federal government or other states to win rights.

I’m sorry, but there is never a right time to just shut up and be discriminated against. It’s demoralizing to think that all of those groups won’t stand up and fight for my rights as a US citizen who’s married to another man (in Canada which is sorta now recognized by New York). Believe me – I’ve thought about it… You don’t want to know the thousands of dollars we’ve had to spend in lawyers fees ’cause we’re gay and my boyfriend/husband isn’t a US citizen. I would LOVE for us to sue the government and challenge DOMA. At the same time I know a lawsuit would be a lot of work, and for us it isn’t urgent. We have the money for the lawyers and there’s no risk of deportation.

Still, if someone else like us wanted to challenge the law they should. I would love Antonin Scalia to rule on gay marriage. He’s always said he was a strict constructionist. If he really is, then he has to rule in our favor. One of the absolute foundations of our constitution is that contracts which are valid in one state are valid in all states. You can’t call yourself a constitutional conservative and not back gay marriage. It’s black letter law.

I was about to finalize my will and leave money for Lambda Legal. This changes that. It’s truly a dark day when all of those groups won’t stand up for what’s right.

Activism is a funny thing. You need the people who yell, scream and kick to soften up people so the moderates can get heard and work out a compromise. In this case no one is willing to be the activist – everyone wants to be the moderate. Nothing happens that way… It just won’t work.

Would someone please rip the rainbow flags out of these people hands and teach them about pink triangles?