This teen contacted me a few weeks ago…

hi, sir. i dont know if you got my message on xtube. im the 18 yo bottom from san diego who sees himself as a total cumhole but doesnt really know where to begin. your blog is so fucking hot to me and i would be honored to take your load. if you want some pics for your own viewing pleasure just email me. i’m very slim and very cute and i know what kind of boys you like. i think im a good match for you 🙂

I got back to him with a few pointers on how to get loads – things like looking for sex parties, going to a bathhouses (and laying face down), and how to be assertive about getting dick but not aggressive. He then got back to me and (among other things) told me a little more about himself…

a little about me. hmm. well i’m a senior in hs, 18 years old, into some sports, movies, just having fun i guess. but i also have this other side of me which seems to be an insatiable cum whore haha. which is why i respect you so much and love your blog. i feel the need to be used in every sense of the word and have my hole stuffed and filled with sperm. the sheer idea of having a man’s sperm inside me drives me crazy because, in a way, it makes him a part of me and it makes me his subordinate because i’m taking his load. it’s like an act of submission. i’m saying all this because i think you understand…

At this point I wasn’t sure if he was actually taking loads or not. It sorta sounded like he was just fantasizing about it. So I sent him a message and asked how he was thinking about getting started…

well i’m already on adam4adam but i’m getting dozens of messages every 20 minutes. it’s kind of difficult for me to figure out how to go about setting things up with tops because i can’t possibly take all of their loads…not enough hours in the day haha. the thing is, i don’t want to be picky. i just want to be a cumdump. and i feel like part of being a sub cumhole is to not tell guys “no” because one looks better than the other. am i right or is that just a misconception?

I STILL wasn’t sure if he was taking loads so I asked directly and suggested that he try hosting so he could schedule a bunch of tops and get one load after another.

yeah, i have been taking loads from this guy who lives one freeway exit away from me. it’s convenient so i havent branched out yet really. that’s why i wanted to talk on IM. i’ve got some questions that you might be able to answer. is there such thing as a sub bottom who loves taking loads but just prefers the neg ones? i’m not looking to be pozzed by any means so i feel like i’m sort of a walking paradox.

At this point I figured he needed me to be pretty direct, so I told him…

basically, cumdump bottom = poz bottom… you’ll be really conflicted until you accept that… you can try serosorting, but it will fail eventually. serosorting sounds like a nice idea, but it just doesn’t work long term unless you’re the relationship type who really gets to know his tops and even then i can say from personal experience that you don’t really know what risks your tops are taking…

He got back to me and told me that “made sense” and that was sorta the last thing we discussed on the poz issue other than the fact that he mentioned he’s never been tested for HIV and doesn’t plan to get tested for a while.

A few days had gone past and I had been busy and hadn’t gotten back to him. So then he tell me how “his top” took him to a bathhouse that had a lot of older guys and took him into the sauna and fucked him raw in front of the guys who were there. He pulled out and let two anonymous tops fuck him no questions asked one after the other. They both unloaded in his ass and then “his top” gave him a 3rd load. So he got 3 loads in 20 minutes and two of those loads were from complete strangers. Pretty hot, eh?

At this point I knew the guy was pretty serious so I asked him if he’d be interested in doing a blog to record his journey. He’s at this critical stage where he’s making major decisions and experimenting. Luckily he was up for it. I checked and TeenCumhole.com was available so I bought it for him and set it up a few days later. One of the things I was thinking as I bought the domain for him was that when you give someone a label, they usually live up to it. Call someone smart or stupid or “hot” or ugly and that’s how they see themselves and they tend to live up to the labels other people give them. In this case I was giving him a label – Teen Cumhole – and I fully expect he’ll adopt it and become a full-fledged cumhole.

In the past week he’s branching out, going to the bathhouse on his own, finding other tops to hookup with. I get the sense that this is the beginning of his sex life and he’s not doing it timidly – he’s learning to swim by jumping in the deep end. Not bad for a guy who only turned 18 a few months ago…

Needless to say, make sure you check out his blog – TeenCumhole.com. Give him encouragement and if you’re in the San Diego area and want to give him a load, contact him and make it happen. Or better yet, organize a gangbang for him…

Jayson Park texted me around 3:30 and asked if the gangbang was over and if I wanted to go down and see the puppy play in the lobby bar which was ending soon. The last of the tops had left just after 3pm so we officially called the gang bang over and headed downstairs to get a drink and watch the puppies.

The puppy event was pretty much over by the time we got there, but we saw the tail end of it. Speaking of tails – I love how the puppy tales wag. If you have no clue what I’m talking about, “puppies” are bottom who identify as dogs. In some cases it’s just play, but often we’re talking about guys who see themselves as dogs in male bodies. So they dress up as dogs. There’s a collar and leash (of course), “puppy mitts” (which are basically small leather bags that they put their hands in – a lot like the booties they put on the paws of real dogs in the winter), then they often wear puppy hoods that have ears and a snout (very cute), and then there’s the puppy tail – which is basically a butt plug with a rubber tail coming out of the end. The tails wag when the puppy moves and it’s all very cute…

Then we headed over to the leather mart. Unlike IML, the leather mart at MAL is shoehorned into this really small space and it’s absolutely packed with people. One of the only video companies that was there was Dick Wadd – they had actually shot an 8  person scene the first night in which my friend/fb Jayson Park got fucked by 3 guys. One of the other guys in the scene was Jake Wetmore who I have a total crush on. Luckily he was at the Dick Wadd booth when Jayson, me and my bottom went up. He’s a total sweetie – almost goofy. We talked for a little bit which was really nice. And I gotta say – he’s MUCH hotter in person than on film (and I thought he was hot before seeing him).

We continued around and did some shopping. I was trying to keep on a budget so just bought some lube, some boot socks and a couple hankies. There was a CODE party at a bar nearby that night so I bought tickets for that as well.

We then went back to the room. My boy was tired so he surfed the web a little and then wanted to sleep. There had been a really hot pretty boy vers top at the gangbang and the boy figured out who he was and started corresponding with him. That connection turned out to be significant a day later – but more about that in a later post.

I was hungry, so I met Jayson Park in his room to look at what he was wearing that night and to head off to dinner. But of course hot nearly-naked guy… We fucked first and then figured out what he was going to wear 😉  When I fucked I was too lazy to take off my chaps, so it was a bit of an awkward fuck since I didn’t have much flexibility and with all the clothes on I didn’t cum. But Jayson always gets me rock hard, so it’s never a problem to just whip it out and fuck at a moments notice…

Anyway, we finally went down to the restaurant to grab a bite to eat. Jayson was thinking of continuing not to eat, but decided to eat a house salad. Food goes through him in 12 hours, and he doesn’t get fucked in the morning, and salads are as safe as you get in terms of staying “clean”, so it was a safe bet and got something into his system.

I was so tired by this point. I had gotten very little sleep the night before but the day kept going… I was so tired that I knew it was pointless to try to arrange a hookup… So it was off to the CODE Party.

The CODE party was in the same place as the bear event the night before only this time the place was packed. You had to be in proper “gear” to get in – could be leather, athletic gear, motorcycle, etc. There was everything from leather daddies to twinks just in jockstraps and tennis shoes to bikers in full biker gear and helmets. It was a pretty great crowd.

I’d been trying to get a “read” on my bottom since he’d arrived and was having a really hard time of it. However, I could tell he was liking the CODE party. For one he said “I’m in heaven right now”, and when they did the bondage demonstration and hog tied a hot muscle daddy he couldn’t get his eyes off it (pic below – personally I couldn’t get my eyes off the young Asian cutie next to the demonstration)…

HOWEVER, he was totally not interested in the dark room area which surprised me. I thought he was there to be a cum dump. Every cum dump I know would have spent pretty much the whole night in that one room hoping for loads. So I knew something was up. He was enjoying himself – but not in the way I expected or intended.

Jayson Park went with us and I haven’t mentioned yet that he was wearing these crazy outfits all weekend. Most of his shirts didn’t go much below his nipples and he’d wear these little shorts that showed off how fuckable his ass was. The last day he was there a total stranger walked up to him and commented “So, you really do have full t-shirts”…

The outfit he wore to the CODE party was the most revealing of all of them… He had white boxer shoes on, tall white socks with black bands at the top, a tiny t-shirt that just barely went below his nipples and then he had “a sock” jock on. Sock jocks have a waist band and then a cock ring thing in the pouch so they don’t have any straps going down in the back (pics below, courtesy of Shutter Pup who was so enamored with Jayson that he actually rimmed him right in the middle of the club at one point).

Jayson also brought a bottle of Gun Oil which I held onto for him, but which he (unfortunately) never used. It was a total “Fuck Me” outfit, but he’s not into anonymous sex and didn’t make a connection with anyone there, so the point of it was sorta lost. But it was hot!

We had gotten there pretty early and we left pretty early, by that I mean it was probably like 12:30 or 1:00 when we left… We got back to the hotel and I was just dead tired. My primary objective was to get a decent night’s sleep so I’d be up for fucking on Sunday. The bottom was tired too and a bit worn out from the gangbang and generally tired. I would have liked it if he had walked the halls looking for loads. A real cumhole would have, but as I went to sleep he was on his computer – I thought he was looking for tops, but the next day I found out he was IM’ing until 3 in the morning with the pretty boy vers top from the gangbang…

Load 2010-1

UPDATE: Remembered a few more details, so I changed the post…

A lot as happened since Saturday morning, but I’ll try my best to remember the details. My bottom had taken three loads in pretty rapid succession the night before and we had a gangbang scheduled for 2pm on Saturday with over 100 tops expressing an interest in coming. However, the gangbang of another cumhole the night before was a bit of a dud, so I wasn’t sure how things would go…

I didn’t sleep well that night and got up feeling tired. One of the lessons I learned at IML was to eat properly so you don’t get run down, so I went to breakfast (the bottom said he didn’t want to eat). I had a full breakfast with cold runny eggs, cold french toast, etc. – it was pretty lame, but it got food into my system.

I wanted to videotape me fucking the bottom, so I set up the lights and got the camera ready… For a few reasons my dick just wasn’t into it. It was hot, I was tired, and I think my digesting food didn’t help either. So we took a break. However, I did notice a certain hesitation on the part of the bottom about being videotaped. I couldn’t have been more clear when we were discussing the weekend. I was paying the room charges and finding tops to fuck him in exchange for him letting me videotape him. I was fine with him wearing a hood, but me videotaping him was a given (so I thought)…

The bottom then decided he was hungry so he went for breakfast. While he was downstairs eating there was a knock on the door. I had been giving out the room number and wondered who the guy was here for. He was young and lean and pretty hot so I had him come in. We started playing together and he just wasn’t responding when I touched his ass, so I asked if he had been chatting with a top or a bottom and he said a bottom. Now mind you, I looked nothing like the bottom – I’m not sure why he didn’t say something sooner. So I texted my bottom and told him he had a top waiting for him and then I played the role of cocksucker to keep the guy happy and in the room while the bottom got back. Frankly, I did a lot more cocksucking than I’m usually comfortable with and he said he almost blew his load a few times, but I was purposely just trying to edge him and not let him cum since while I love the taste of cum, I wanted the load up my bottom’s ass, not down my throat.

Finally the bottom got back and it was just in time ’cause the guy was literally ready to blow. The bottom started giving him a blowjob but I told him he was ready to blow so the bottom just bent over the bed and took the guy’s dick and since I had been edging him for 15 minutes or so he blew in the bottom’s ass pretty quickly.

After that another top came by and fucked him and blew in his ass. I was sitting and jacking my dick and seeing him take a load got me boned. So now that he had 2 loads in him I got up and started fucking him. I suggested putting our hoods on and turning on the video camera but he talked me out of him. Later he said he was worried it would interrupt the flow and I accepted the explanation, but now I wonder if it was just avoidance…

So I just kept fucking him. His hole felt good and it was getting me off that he was taking loads… It wasn’t long before I blew my load up his hole. The last time I came had been Thursday, so it was a big load. When the other top had gone the bottom seemed really happy.

Then another top came by a little while later and the bottom took a 4th load – all before the gangbang… So now he was up to 7 loads.

IMPORTANT: This poll is only for guys who are sexually active with a bunch of different guys. If you don’t bareback or you’re generally monogamous, or you just don’t hookup much, DON’T FILL OUT THE POLL.

My 2010 is starting out with a leaky dick, so no sex for me for a bit. Callen-Lorde’s Saturday drop in clinic was closed for the holidays when I tried to go this weekend, but luckily I was able to get an appointment for today, so I’ll be back in the saddle by Wednesday or Thursday… Which seems sorta pointless since I know I’ll have to go back in a couple weeks to clean up what I catch at MAL. But that’s just how it goes…

But that made me wonder how common STDs are for those of us who bareback. Mind you, I managed to get HEP B years ago back when I was playing safe, so condoms aren’t totally effective, but they do help a bit. But I know for me I’ll get something when I go for weekends like IML or MAL (I can just count on it), and then I’ll probably get an STD 2-3 other times in the year depending on how much I fuck. So I’m at 3-4 times a year on average.

What’s your experience?

IMPORTANT: This poll is only for guys who are sexually active with a bunch of different guys. If you don’t bareback or you’re generally monogamous, or you just don’t hookup much, DON’T FILL OUT THE POLL.

UPDATE: So I went in and got meds to clean up whatever it is I’ve got. Also got an HIV test – and once again it was negative. The funny/frustrating part was how the HIV testing counselor kept trying to talk me into safe sex. Finally I just had to be abrupt and tell her I’ve been around the block, understand the risks and I’m fine with them. She got all weird after that, but I was just there for the test – not a lecture.

Every now and then this guy IMs me. Usually I just say I’m busy (’cause I am), but his first line got me interested in what he had to say…

slave boy:  I have been stealthed again……was really hot
rawTOP:  tell me details!
slave boy:  a hot muscled top hit me up on manhunt
slave boy:  his HIV status was left blank
slave boy:  and I could already smell something
slave boy:  after exchanging a few messages……..I went to his place
slave boy:  he claimed he was neg
slave boy:  but he asked if I was into bareback
rawTOP:  did you ask before going over?
slave boy:  yeah
slave boy:  I asked before going
rawTOP:  so why do you think he’s poz?
slave boy:  poz or not sure at least
slave boy:  mainly because he didn’t list his status
rawTOP:  does he take loads?
slave boy:  didn’t ask
slave boy:  he made me strip down to my jockstrap
slave boy:  and finger me really roughly
slave boy:  he agreed to play safe before I came
slave boy:  so he put on a condom
slave boy:  but he would enter me
slave boy:  and then pull out
slave boy:  I could see that he was inching the condom off bit by bit
rawTOP:  were you face down or on your back?
slave boy:  on my back
slave boy:  I was a bit nervous
slave boy:  so I asked if I could ride him
slave boy:  that way I would have more control
slave boy:  but he said no
slave boy:  and pinned me down
slave boy:  after a few more enter and re-enter
slave boy:  at that point I could not see if the condom was still on
slave boy:  then he started pounding me really hard
slave boy:  I was a bit scared…..because I knew what was happening
slave boy:  I said I wanted to change position into doggie…..so that there is a chance that I could see if the condom was still on
slave boy:  but he flipped me over with his cock still inside me
slave boy:  so I could just take it
slave boy:  then his breathing quickened and somehow his grip on me loosened
slave boy:  at that point I pulled away
slave boy:  and I saw that his cock was bare
slave boy:  and he stroked his cock, but only a few drops of cum oozed out
slave boy:  probably he has already shot his load up my ass
rawTOP:  did any cum come out of your ass after the hookup?
rawTOP:  usually within a couple hours you know if you got a load ’cause it leaks out
slave boy:  not that I notice
slave boy:  does it always leak out?
rawTOP:  depends on the size of the load i guess
rawTOP:  so what happened then?
slave boy:  he somehow then produced a condom in his hand….sort of made it looked like it slipped out when his cock pulled out from my ass
slave boy:  I haven’t cum at that point
slave boy:  and so I asked if I could kiss him while I jerked off
slave boy:  and after that I came……..and then I took a shower
rawTOP:  funny you wanted to kiss him after you thought he was stealthing you…
slave boy:  yeah……he was hot and the scene turned me on
rawTOP:  so do you want to hook up with him again?
slave boy:  maybe….. but he seemed not that into me
slave boy:  maybe he just wanted a hole to breed at that time
rawTOP:  why not contact him and tell him he can go raw this time if he wants… maybe he’ll be more interested in you if he knows he doesn’t have to hassle with a condom…
slave boy:  ah….. I’m still not willingly accepting raw loads yet
slave boy:  I get off on the idea of being stealthed or raped raw
rawTOP:  when was your last test? like how sure are you that you’re neg?
slave boy:  Nov last year
rawTOP:  so recently…
slave boy:  and everything is safe since then
slave boy:  except with this guy
rawTOP:  mind if i make this into a blog post? (i’ll take out who you are)…
slave boy:  ok….sure. I’d be honored

Admittedly, the guy calls himself a slave, so his getting off on being stealthed is an extension of his liking tops that take control. But it’s definitely an interesting combination – avidly safe sex, but secretly hoping the top takes off the condom and blows in his hole without his consent…

With the New Year we should all try to make resolutions to have more sex (and never use a condoms). We all know barebacking is hot, but what exactly about it turns you on personally? (Pick up to 3 answers)

I know for me it’s a combination of a few things. 1) It feels SO much better, 2) the risk the bottom is taking is a total turn on, which is an extension of 3) the power/control side of bareback sex. If a poz top wants to breed a neg bottom he can – there’s really nothing stopping him. And the bottom can even be in control by taking the initiative to get loads from poz tops (who may not be intending to poz a neg bottom). In my case if I’m poz and don’t know it, then there’s a decent chance I’m pozzing all the neg bottoms I fuck.

But I’ve heard a lot of other reasons… What are your reasons for barebacking? Did I miss any big ones?