My boyfriend has been really horny lately and wanted to go out to a sex party. He picked the party – it was one he’s known about for years. I think he hooked up with one of the organizers years ago, but never actually went to a party.

The party is advertised as “RAW” on multiple hookup sites, but when I told that to my bf (who usually rubbers up for tricks), he said that wasn’t what the promoter told him.

So we show up and I’m not really into the crowd. A lot of guys would have hated the crowd, but I gave it a shot. I think my bf had beer goggles or something, ’cause he didn’t seem to mind the crowd and usually he’s pickier than I am.

Like most sex parties there’s a relaxation room and a sex room. We go into the sex room and not much is going on. One or two guys are sucking dick and there are a few other guys standing around jacking their dicks. A few guys come up to me and play with my dick. One black guy in particular was pretty aggressive about it and got on his knees and started sucking my cock.

Long story short, there was a lot of cocksucking, but very little fucking at the party. What fucking there was all seemed to be safe sex with condoms – which was disappointing to say the least.

There was only one guy there I really wanted to fuck – nice body and an incredible ass (found out later he was visiting from Barcelona). When I first saw him he didn’t even notice me. He got fucked by a hot hairy daddy and had a bunch of other guys fawning over him. Later in the evening I saw him again and this time he was wanting me to fuck him. So after rimming him a bit (which guys seemed to think was a bit edgy), I shoved in. It took me a little while to get completely hard. The position was a little off ’cause he was standing up, so I couldn’t quite get to the point of cumming before he had some other guy fuck him. Then when he switched back to me he wanted me to rubber up. I said ‘no’ and that was the end of that.

There was one other guy there getting fucked by whoever. I think he was taking loads ’cause I heard him tell a top to cum and that he’d like it if the guy didn’t pull out. But the bottom wasn’t really my type. By the that time I was sorta over it.

In the end I was there for my bf’s benefit and he managed to fuck the hairy daddy who fucked the hot Spanish guy – so my bf had a good night, so all’s well that ends well… 🙂

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Sorry I haven’t been keeping up with the blog. There are three recent fucks I need to write up for you guys… I’ll see how many I can pump out tonight… 🙂

[UPDATE: Well, I only got part through this post when another guy hit me up and I fucked him – so that put it to 4 posts, then the next night my bf wanted to go to a sex party so now I’m at 5 posts that I’m behind…]

Part of the reason why I haven’t been blogging is ’cause I’ve been a bit overwhelmed with everything involved in the move into our new place in Harlem. My bf hates packing and isn’t very good at it anyway, so most of the packing fell on my shoulders. And the renovation work (which was substantial and took forever) still isn’t quite done, so on top of everything else I had to do a fair amount to keep that going smoothly. Once we were in the new place there was sense of relief. It’s been incredibly stressful for 6 to 9 months now and I just needed some downtime – both mentally and physically. Blogging just wasn’t high on my list of things to do.

Anyway, back to the sex…

A little over two weeks ago my bf was off at work. There were workers around the place, but I still had a little privacy, so I went on Adam4Adam and there was this beefy black guy who wanted to come over. His profile says he lives in another city, but he actually lives a few blocks from me.

After he cleaned out he came right over. He was big and looked like he used to be really well built. Still had a lot of muscles, but also had a bit of a belly now. He was pretty big and a bit imposing. If you saw him on the street you’d never know he was gay, and you’d definitely never guess he likes to get fucked.

So we strip down and I could start to get the sense that he’s aggressive sexually and versatile. He wanted me to play with his nipples – I would a little, but it wasn’t really what I was looking for. (He played with my nipples to the point they were sore). He wanted me to suck his dick. I did a little, but again, it’s not really my thing.

I should backup a little and say that after the move into the new place I started something I think I’ll try to do from here on – not jacking off. From here on out I want all my cum to go inside guys’ asses. Thing is, I was so wiped and just wanting down time that by the point this had happened it was a week since I had cum…

Anyway, after he sucks my dick a bit we get to the fucking. He lays on the bed, legs in the air. I lube up and shove in. His hole felt good, but I wanted him in a different position. Since he wasn’t a sub bottom I couldn’t just stop right there and tell him to get on his belly, so I gradually sorta rolled him over. First I fuck him with one leg down and the other vertical. Then I fucked him a little on his side, then a bit more on his belly, but not quite face down.

The entire time I was fucking him in all those positions my load was building up in my balls. But I needed him face down to actually unload. Finally I got him on his belly. It only took a few strokes to start blowing my load, but the guy didn’t like being on his belly – or maybe he knew I was cumming and he didn’t want to take my load – not sure which it was. Anyway, as I was blowing my load, he starts squirming trying to change positions (or get my dick out of his ass to avoid the load). I wasn’t going to have the cum wasted, so there I am trying to force this muscular black guy back into the position I wanted him or at least keep my dick up his ass.

He finally succeeded in changing positions, but once my load was blown I didn’t really care. At that point he was on his side and I just used the cum that didn’t get in his ass as lube as I kept fucking him. The whole thing was done without recognition that I came. Since I had taken a Cialis I was hard enough to keep fucking him for a while, but as is typical after I cum I didn’t fuck him with the same intensity.

After a while we slowed down, and I sorta held him as he jacked off. It took a while and he wanted to be serviced while he was jacking – wanted his nipples played with and his dick sucked. I did a little, but I’m not a bottom so it was admittedly half-hearted and not as good as he probably wanted.

So the first fuck in the place after the move was a bit of a mixed bag… I’d like to think I got my cum (even if it wasn’t the full load) into a butch guy who didn’t really intend to get cum in his ass. From that perspective it was hot…

Load 2012-3

I woke up this morning hoping to fuck someone. I had taken a Cialis about 48 hours earlier (before fucking “my nigger fuckbud“) and the Cialis was still doing it’s job. There were a few guys online but they were saying they wanted hour plus hookups or that they didn’t want to travel that far. I was willing to travel – it was Sunday morning and I knew I could find parking just about anywhere in the City.

This black guy wanted me to come to his place near Columbus Circle, so I took a shower and headed out (and got a muffin on the way there so I had some energy). Traffic was light and I got down the West Side Highway really quickly. I called him from outside his building and he buzzed me in. He left his door ajar. I went in and my eyes had a hard time adjusting. All his blinds were drawn, he just had this little, dim, neon light on. I’ve got Transitions lenses and they hadn’t adjusted to being indoors yet, so it seemed like the room was almost pitch black.

I navigated around the table in the middle of the room and found him on his bed, ass up, wearing athletic socks, tennis shoes, and one of those ass-cut-out sorta shorts (is there a proper name for those?). He gyrated his ass up and down as I took off my boots and my jeans.

I crawled up on the bed, and bent over to rim him, but he had lubed up with strawberry lube or something. It tasted awful so I quit immediately. I jacked my dick a little. When I was about 3/4 hard I shoved in. He had sorta of a big meaty ass. If I saw him in clothes I’m guessing I’d say he had an “apple bottom”.

All in all he was a pretty good fuck. His hole felt pretty good (not great, but definitely a good fuck). I just concentrated on the task at hand – dark room anonymous fucks aren’t meant to be long drawn-out events. I came fairly quickly, but didn’t feel like leaving right away. I rolled him onto his side and pumped his ass a minute or two until my dick got soft. Then I got up, dressed and left.

When I had texted him that I was on his block it was 9:50. When I got in the car and drove away I noticed it was 10:03. So given the walk time and (un)dressing at both ends of the hookup the actual sex took less than 10 minutes – which is about right for a pump-n-dump 😉

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Yeah, I know the N word in the title has probably got some of you guys wondering WTF? but you’ll understand in a bit…

There’s a black guy I’ve been fucking on an off for a while now. He’s got a nice body, his hole always feels good on my cock so I always cum with him. I wouldn’t call it A+ sex, but it’s good enough to make him a regular. 🙂

Last time he started getting into poz talk while I was fucking him (inaccurately assuming I was poz). Since then I had asked him once if he got into race play and being called nigger. He said he hadn’t done it in the past – just had other black guys call him nigga. I sorta backtracked on the question pretty quickly ’cause when I started thinking about it, he’s not all that submissive, and I couldn’t imagine calling someone nigger unless they were being submissive.

Friday he was on A4A when I was looking. It’s been difficult lately to find guys who will travel up to Washington Heights in the middle of the day (when I’m  typically available). He was, so I told him to come up.

When he came in we stripped down (I kept on my shirt), and while he was sucking my dick I reached over and fingered his hole. It felt a bit lubed. When I rimmed him it tasted pretty good – a tad musky, but good. He LOVED being rimmed, but I wanted to fuck, so I lubed up and shoved in. I tried to push him down on his belly, but he resisted – he clearly wanted to get fucked doggy style (as I said, he’s not submissive).

As I fucked him I kept hitting something in his ass that felt like a hard turd. I didn’t investigate ’cause I knew as soon as I saw shit it would be over. It was weird though – I knew he had cleaned out – so it didn’t make sense, but it felt a bit pointy and hard. Who knows… Never did figure it out…

Then he starts saying stuff like “yeah, fuck that nigger ass”. From that point on it was a constant stream of comments and he used the word “nigger” every time. It was a weird dynamic. I wasn’t calling him nigger, he was calling himself nigger. I’m not being good at being verbal. When I fuck I’m thinking concepts, not sentences. If I actually say what I’m thinking it sounds stupid ’cause I typically string the concepts in my head together with the wrong verbs/adjectives, or I repeat the same concept over and over in my head – which would sound boring and repetitive if I said it out loud.

So I just concentrated on fucking him, but I gotta say having a bottom call himself a “nigger whore”, etc. while I was fucking him was a huge turn on. It’s hard to describe, but it made me harder and I came really quickly as soon as he started being verbal. Usually I hate when guys are verbal – but apparently I’ve found an exception…

After I came, he sorta insisted I tweak his nipples while he jack off. I hate that – it’s sorta the reason why he’s not A+ sex. When I’ve cum, I just want down time. Plus, I don’t really like nipple play – it’s not my thing. And honestly, I don’t give a shit if the bottom cums – I’m fine if I never see their dick.

As he was dressing he said he had done a pump-n-dump with another fuckbud on the way over to my place – which explains why his ass seemed lubed. To bad I didn’t taste the load when I was rimming him.

The guy who works for me was in the other room when all of this was happening. I had wondered whether I should offer the black guy’s ass to him. I know the black guy would have gladly taken the guy’s load, but the power dynamics were all off. I wasn’t really in charge – and that sorta sums up why I don’t fuck him more often… He’s a regular, but an infrequent regular. And it also explains why the use of the word nigger wasn’t a big deal – given the power dynamic the word didn’t mean much of anything. Though I guess there could be something going on in his head – willingly calling yourself a “nigger hole” to get a load from a white guy might eventually make you see yourself as a nigger. Who knows…

I know some of you have been wondering what’s going on since updates on this site pretty much stopped… Well, it’s pretty simple actually… My bf and I bought a place a couple years ago (an old crack house), and renovations have been consuming a crazy amount of our time (even with a contractor doing all the work).

Bottom line – I haven’t had much time to fuck and haven’t even had enough time to keep up with my sites. The good news is that the end is in sight. I think the contractor will be pretty much done in 4 to 6 weeks – so hopefully we’ll be moved in by the end of February and things will return to normal. I actually miss my regular work (and regular fucks). I just want life to return to normal.

Our new place has a lot more space so there’s the possibility that I can host gangbangs and small sex parties, but there are complicating factors – so we’ll see whether I can do the gangbangs or not. Even if I can’t do gangbangs I can do a lot more videotaping of my fucks – so that’ll be fun.

One really good thing is that, while I’m still uptown, after the move I’ll be a lot closer to downtown. Where I am now I’m just on the A train. But the new place is close to 6 subway lines, 4 of which are express. So I can get to the Upper West Side, Hells Kitchen and Chelsea really quickly (and my tricks from there can get to me quickly).

I have taken a little time out for fun. I’ve fucked a few guys but there are whole months that go by when I don’t fuck anyone. Two hookups in particular stand out – both were in the new place – it’s cool hooking up in a place that’s under construction. In one case this muscle guy who’s almost always a top wanted me to fuck and fist him. It was hot even though I couldn’t manage to cum with him. In another case we had the fireplace working and this other muscle guy and I had sex in front of the fire.

Shooting Porn

I’ve tried to find porn companies to shoot in our place. I love Max Sohl (TIMFuck.com), but when it comes to adventuresome locations he’s a bit of a whimp – so he passed on shooting at our place. Dark Alley (RawFuckClub.com) has a big new expensive studio which they need to justify, so they passed too…

But BK from Forbidden Funk (BlackBreeders.com) shot a scene on that weekend when the (rather anticlimactic) hurricane hit the NYC. Unfortunately, while I did get to see the guys when they were off camera, I didn’t actually get to watch them fuck. They didn’t want people showing up in the background on the video – especially white guys 🙂

The scene featured Kane Rider getting tag teamed by two hot, big-dicked, black tops. I gotta say, I sorta fell in love with Kane. He’s a total exhibitionist. I think he stripped nude even before he was asked to. At the time there were no windows in the place and they kept having to tell him to step away from the windows so neighbors wouldn’t see him. His body was really hot. He’s a little guy (my favorite) with muscles in all the right places. He’s got these really powerful legs and from certain angles he looks particularly good – curvy in a very good way. BK oils up his models before the shoot – which made Kane look even hotter.

But the best part was that Kane seemed like a really sweet guy – sorta submissive, but not a passive sort of submissive – instead he was horny and eager to fuck – which is totally my type personality-wise. The funny part with Kane was he had hit me up on Twitter a month or so before said he was a fan, but when he was doing the shoot he knew I owned the place, but didn’t realize I was rawTOP until the end when I mentioned that he had send me a DM on Twitter.

The two tops fucking Kane were Champ Robinson (the darker top in the pics below) & Wade Stone (the lighter-skinned top). They were nice enough, and they had big dicks, but they were tops, so not really all that memorable given that I’m a top who’s mostly interested in bottoms. A top has to be over-the-top hot for me to really take note of him.

Here are some pics of the action – you can see the construction in the background… Wade started out with some pretty rough fingering while Kane serviced Champ’s dick, which of course lead to fucking…

 Wade’s fingering was so rough just after the 12 minute mark in the video you can see Kane bleeding as Wade fucks him. It’s sorta hot to think the tops’ DNA is going to get absorbed directly into Kane’s bloodstream and his dirty blood is the lube as he gets fucked. It’s not terribly clear in the picture below, but when you watch the video you see the bottom of Wade’s dick is all red with Kane’s blood. You can also see what looks like a tear in the pic below…

Moving on… Both Wade and Champ take turns on Kane’s bloody hole, then they take a breather and then they start fucking in the stairwell…

 Then they took another breather. I think it was during this breather when the guys were joking around and Kane was so horny he started bending over and sucking his own dick… Then went back at it – more or less one-on-one this time. There seemed to be really great chemistry between Wade and Kane – Kane did all sorts of acrobatics to get Wade’s load. Guess Kane likes rough tops 😉  Kane even shows off how he sucks his own dick… That’s one limber fuck boy!

 Of course, after that cum shot Wade sticks his cummy dick up Kane’s well-fucked hole. Given that Wade had Kane bleeding earlier in the shoot – Kane definitely got the full impact of the load 😉  Then when Wade was done with Kane’s hole, like a good slutty bottom boy Kane cleaned off Wade’s dick – making sure he absorbed every last drop of Wade’s dirty load.

Then Wade retired and Champ took over. Doesn’t seem Champ and Kane did much of any fucking – Kane gave Champ a blowjob and then they snowballed the load.

Then Kane jacked off. Kane’s a top in some other videos – but he was just a cumhole in this video.

While Champ and Kane were fucking I learned more about Wade – seems he’s in a serious committed relationship. I got the sense he’s a pretty stable / level-headed / professional sort of guy… Seems like he’s that ideal top so many bottoms want to have for a boyfriend – and he’s got a kinky sexual side to him as well.

You can see the full scene at BlackBreeders.com – it’s titled “Hard Labor”

Best part is, it looks like they’re going to do another, full-on 4 or 5 hour gangbang at our place in a few weeks – once again featuring Kane Rider as the cum dump bottom. I’d love to felch and fuck him after he’s taken all those loads – his ass will be so silky and wonderful, but I’m not sure the circumstances will permit that – but it would be sweet if it happened.

Dick Wadd (RawAndRough.com) has also inquired about shooting at our place this coming month. Given all the piss and other fluids that go flying in their videos I wasn’t quite sure I wanted them in the house until all the floors are sealed, etc. But apparently the sex just looks messy – they actually do a great job cleaning up after themselves. So hopefully that will happen as well.

2011 – Year in Review

Needless to say last year was slow. In fact the numbers were almost the same as 2006 (the first year I started tracking all my fucks) – which is pretty sad… I only had 36 hookups – 27 of them were with guys I hadn’t fucked before. And I only gave 23 loads. One load every two weeks is not good at all… But I knew the year was going to be like that. Unfortunately 2011 was the year when other things were more important than sex. That happens sometimes.

Going Forward – 2012

I was supposed to start the year on January 1 by fucking this guy who was visiting NYC, but the timing didn’t work out. It would have been fun – he’s a young guy who’s only recently started barebacking and he’s conflicted about it – he’s actually turned on by the idea of bug chasing, but also really scared about all the risk. It would have been a lot of fun to do mind fucks on him while fucking him, but it didn’t happen…

Unfortunately I’ve got another two months of chaos before I can get back in the swing of things. I’ve got a hotel reservation for MAL that I made months ago, but it looks like I’ll have to cancel (anyone need a nice corner room?). Even if I found the time to go I’d be too tired to really enjoy it. In late March I’m going to Phoenix (Tempe) for a porn conference – I’m thinking of organizing a gangbang or two while I’m there. And I’ve made a hotel reservation for IML – but I don’t know if I want to fly or drive. Flying was sort of a disaster last time – the police were called when the TSA agent thought my sex toy was a weapon. lol  The time before that I drove, but it’s a long two day drive. It’s relaxing at first, but then it gets sort of boring – especially on the way back. If someone wanted to do the drive with me, it would make it more interesting (any volunteers?)

In terms of the sites, once the chaos is over there’s a whole bunch of stuff I want to do. I think you guys will really like the enhancements – a couple quality bareback tube sites, plus enhancements to Breeding Zone to make it easier to find and hookup with other guys.

Load 2011-15

There’s this black guy I’ve been fucking on and off for a year or two now. A couple weeks ago he came over and we fucked again. He’s a nice enough guy, pretty tight body, and I always cum with him…

What was different this time from the other times was that in the middle of sex he started saying stuff like “Yeah, give me that poz load…”, “Charge me up…”, etc. That was new for him. When I first met him he was really unclear about his HIV status. One moment he’d say he was neg, then he’d say he wasn’t sure, then he’d say he was poz and not on meds… He told me just about everything to the point where I had no clue. So here he was begging for a poz load. Thing is, I’m neg… But the middle of fucking someone is not the time to go into status, so I just didn’t say anything. If he was getting off thinking I was blowing some big toxic load in his cunt – well let him have his fantasy…

Afterwards I asked if he was poz and if so were he on meds – he said yes he was poz and he was on meds. But thing is he seems to tell people what he thinks they want to hear – so I still have no clue about his status. But I do know he likes the idea of taking dirty loads…

Like the last guy I wrote about, I didn’t last long fucking him – I came after just 2 or 3 minutes of fucking. I didn’t even have him down on his belly – he was on all fours in a doggy position. But that’s the thing about his ass… Always feels great and always gets me to cum.

After I had cum he wanted to cum. That’s always the part of sex I sorta dread with him… He turns into a bossy bottom and tells me to do specific stuff – “play with my nipples”, “no, harder”, “now play with my hole”, etc. After I’ve cum is the last time I wanna be bossed around sexually – especially when it takes him a while to cum. But whatever – at least I cum consistently with him..