Load 2012-38 & 39

So with life settling back to normal I’ve wanted to be a little more experimental sexually. I saw an Oxballs cock sheath advertised and it looked cool – figured it would make my cock thicker so I could give bottoms a harder, rougher fuck. So I ordered it and it happened to get here yesterday – 4 days before they said it would – literally a few minutes before the black guy from the neighborhood arrived to get fucked, so I figured I’d try it out on him…

I was little worried I wouldn’t be hard enough to use it, but that wasn’t an issue… It fit right over my half hard cock and I had no problem pushing right in his ass.

I was actually a little disappointed – here my dick just got A LOT thicker and the bottom just took it like it was nothing – like it was my regular cock. I hadn’t told him I was going to use it on him or even shown it to him. You’d think he’d reach around to figure out what I was fucking him with – I mean that can’t feel like a normal dick.

I fucked him pretty rough (that is the point of toy like the cock sheath), and while I was fucking him I was calling him my “nigger boy”, etc. And just to be clear – this is a black bottom who is only into white guys and likes race play. But I gotta say the whole nigger/slave thing – just wasn’t fitting somehow… I mean it was fine, but it didn’t feel like the edge of the N word was doing it’s trick. I think part of the issue is that he wasn’t saying anything back that built on that theme… Even, “Yes Sir, thank you Sir” would have been good. Or better yet “Yes Massa”. But anyway…

I was thinking when I ordered the cock sheath that it would decrease my sensitivity and it would take longer to cum as a result. Wrong. I came just as quick. Yes, the sensitivity was less, but it was also a different sensitivity. The cock sheath really squeezes your dick – and that’s always helped when I used to jack off, etc. So so much for getting me to get the fuck to take longer.

Unlike the other cock extenders that Oxballs has, the whole point of this one is that it’s open at the end, so when you cum, the bottom gets your load. After I came I fucked slowly in and out a bit and then pulled out and took off the cock sheath. He never did ask about it. Go figure. Probably has to do with the fact that he was “a little high” when he stopped by.

This morning I figured I’d play with it a bit and take a few photos. What I realized is that it’s quite good with semi-hard cocks. I can see why the PNP crowd would probably like it. As you get soft your dick just recedes into the sheath a bit like this…

But because it holds your dick so tightly you actually stay pretty hard. I could actually see wearing it at a sex party ’cause you can fuck when you’re half-hard. It’s like your cock is inside a dildo and you’re fucking the bottom with a dildo. When you do finally get hard, you’re all there and you can dump your load in the bottom.

Today the same bottom texted me saying he just took a 2 week load, so while I try not to fuck the same guy twice in a row, I told him to come over. Unfortunately I couldn’t taste the load when I rimmed him, and his ass didn’t feel all that silky when I fucked him. 🙁

What’s sorta funny is this time I didn’t use the cock sheath and he had a problem taking my dick – took me a while to get in and the ball on the underside of my dick (from the curved barbell in my PA) was a bit of a problem. The day before he was a bit high and doing poppers – what a difference those two make!

Anyway, it was a 9 minute pump-n-dump including taking clothes off, chit chat and cleaning up, and then he was on his way… It is handy to have someone a few blocks away who is practically on-call when I need a hole.

Load 2012-33

Went to a sex party last night. It started at 7pm. From (limited) experience I knew that the first hour at a sex party is pretty dead, so I didn’t rush to get there, but I got tied up with something else and didn’t get there until 8:45. The doors closed at 9. I had been there before and when there were 3 of us arriving at the same time I figured it would be busy. It wasn’t. I counted and there were just 9 guys there. It was sorta sad.

What was a little weird was the host and I had talked. In the past he knew I was rawTOP, but there was zero recognition this time. His only comment was “you’ve been here before, right?”

Anyway, this stocky Latino was eyeing me up, and even though I’m not generally into stocky guys, he was OK… We started feeling each other up. Even though I had taken a Cialis an hour and a half before, my dick wasn’t all that excited to be there. I had to spin him around and have him bend over so I could rim him. His asshole was really deep in his ass cheeks – I never was quite sure if I was hitting his hole with my tongue or not, but that got my dick hard 😉 and we were off and running. He sucked my dick a bit and then we fucked. He was a bit obsessed with lube – but it did make the fuck better.

When a spot opened up on the couch we moved over there. He bent over and I fucked him. Then he had me sit down and he rode my dick. While he was doing it he was saying stuff. At one point I could swear he said “Fuck me rawTOP”. It’s possible he recognized me. Then he turned around and rode my dick with his back to me. Then I had him get on his knees on the couch and I fucked him that way. That position was the best of all of them. The other positions felt like pretty weak fucks. I never could get the position quite right. His hole just wasn’t rubbing my cock the right way and I never did feel an orgasm coming. He asked if I was going to cum and I said not quite yet.

As soon as I pulled out of his ass this Asian who was sitting next to us started sucking on my dick (ATM). We had come in together and he was the guy there who I most wanted to fuck. I had seen him getting fucked by some black guys, but hadn’t been paying total attention. We changed to fucking pretty quickly. His hole felt great. I learned later that he had two loads in there by then. Multiple loads always make an ass fun to fuck. Anyway, before long I felt a HUGE load blasting into his guts.

The huge load worried me a bit. Last time I went to the party I blew smaller loads and managed to cum 3 times. I took a breather after cumming and stood around hoping to regain my wind for a 2nd round. This black guy wanted to suck my dick while he was fucking this white bottom. I let him for a while, but he was more concentrated on the fuck and sorta just held my dick in his mouth. Having just cum, my dick was pretty sensitive and even that was too much, so I pulled off him.

The stocky Latino wanted me to come up behind him and fuck him while he was fucking this little chub. But my dick wasn’t ready to fuck yet.

After I was ready to fuck I did briefly fuck this white guy on the futon (I think he was the one the black guy was fucking). But I just couldn’t get the position right, so I gave up.

Then stocky Latino left. He was the person I was hoping to give my second load to. No one else there was really even close to my type. I mean if my dick had been hard I could have fucked them, but it would have been an uninspired fuck.

After that my dick was just barely cooperating. I tried to fuck this other white guy. I rimmed him, but just never got hard enough. However, when I went back to rimming the Asian guy he pushed some cum out of his ass. The felching got my dick up enough to fuck. I fucked him for a bit, but my dick was more thick and spongey than hard. We fucked like that for a bit and then gave up.

At that point no one else was going to arrive. My dick wasn’t cooperating. And there wasn’t really anyone there I wanted to fuck, so I left. The Asian guy left at the same time. I should have asked for his number, but I didn’t. He clearly did like me…

So in hindsight I shouldn’t have gone. There was this black guy I fucked a while back who’d taken multiple loads that day who wanted me to fuck him again. In hindsight I could have fucked him and saved the $20. Not only that, but he would have been a fun fuck. Could have fucked him with my PA, called him nigger, restrained and gagged him, etc. Oh well… Lesson learned – I should just stick with 1-on-1s…

Load 2012-29

I had a really bizarre hookup on Friday… I hadn’t cum in 10 days and needed to cum really badly. I thought I had to go downtown for some bureaucratic stuff I had todo, but when I looked over the papers I needed to take down they were a mess, so that changed my plans and I looked for a hole uptown. This black guy contacted me who lived in the Bronx, so I figured I’d go.

I thought, since I hadn’t cum in so long, that I’d have two loads in me, so I even scheduled a second hookup – with a guy who used to be one of the guys you saw when you logged into BBRT. I know his boyfriend who I fucked and my bf and I have hung out socially with the two of them a few times…

Anyway, I get over to the Bronx and the guy lives in a pretty run down building in a completely sketchy neighborhood. I got all these weird looks when I parked my car – like I didn’t belong there. It made me worry a bit about whether my car would get broken into, but I was horny and ignored the warning signs…

I called him when I got to his building and he came down and got me. He was shirtless, his track pants were hanging down and when he turned around anyone on the street who was looking would have seen his ass crack.

The other thing that struck me about him was that he didn’t look like his pics. There was a vague resemblance, but I think the pics were pretty old – or maybe it was just that he had a completely different haircut. Anyway, he was still hot, and I was horny, so on I went…

The building was possibly the most run down building I’ve ever hooked up in. It was a smallish house (by NYC standards) where people rent rooms. Bathrooms and kitchens were shared. When I walked in the hallway was dark – I could barely see the stairs that we went up. His room was in the attic and it was filthy and smelled a bit. I mean I’ve been in bad buildings before for hookups, but usually the guys are good fags and have at least cleaned their room in the last week or two. I won’t go into too many details, but I was rather repulsed by the whole situation – the place was filthy. But I was horny so I stayed…

Thinking back I’m not sure why I stayed given how things were. I should have just texted my friend/fuckbuddy’s boyfriend and fucked him. But hindsight it 20/20.

We both strip down (for him that just means he took off his track pants). He then goes and gets a condom. I was a bit confused – I told him I was expecting to fuck him raw. He said he was just going to use it as a cock ring… That’s the one use for a condom that I’m fine with. Thing was I already had my trusty rawhide string around my cock and balls – I didn’t really need a cockring.

He tells me to sit on this plastic & metal chair – he wanted to suck my dick. I sat down and then he fussed for a while trying to get just the right position. He had me sit on a pillow. Then he put a pillow behind me, etc. You could tell he was settling down for the long haul. He also put the condom cock ring on me at this point. I didn’t really need it, but he liked it on me, so I was fine with it. It wasn’t all that tight – it actually made a decent cock ring…

He then proceeded to suck my cock, then he’d play with my cock a bit bouncing it around in his hand. Then he’d go back to sucking it, then he’d play with it some more. I had my Prince Albert in and he wasn’t being careful about it at all. Not that he can hurt me – but there were a few times when he was wagging my dick around that the PA hit him in the mouth and I could feel it hit his teeth. You can chip your tooth that way… I was a little concerned but didn’t say anything. I pretty much just sat back and let him do his thing.

If you read this blog much you’ll know blow jobs aren’t really my thing. Often they don’t get me completely hard. Usually I’m pretty self-conscious about it and I’ll move to rimming to get hard so the bottom doesn’t think I’m not into them. I didn’t do that with this guy and he didn’t seem to mind sucking on a soft dick. Gradually it did get to half mast, and then more or less hard. One thing he did that was a little distracting was he wanted me to play with his nipples while he sucked my dick. I did it, but only half heartedly.

The other thing that came out during his cock sucking was that he literally worshiped me. It was one of the reasons why I put up with the whole grimy surroundings. You could tell he was a kid in a candy store and I was his candy. As odd as it sounds, he seemed to be treasuring every moment. Given that he was clearly dirt poor, dark skinned black, and a complete worshipful sub there were overtones of slavery. I could envision some white slave owner going to the shack of one of his field slaves and having the boy worship his dick and then fuck him… I didn’t “go there” with him – not sure if he’d see the situation the same way I did, but the thought kept going through my head.

The guy was also a bit hyper – sort of too eager to please. When we finally got to rimming and fucking he kept suggesting different positions. But to his credit he did finally just quiet down and bury his head in his pillow once he knew I was in a groove.

When it came to fucking I tried to push in with my PA, but he had warned me he was tight and it was no joke. His ass was a bit like a vice, so the PA had to come out. When I did finally get into him it hurt him and he wanted me to pull out, but I just held it in and told him to get used to it. I knew 15 seconds later he’d be fine and indeed he was.

Given that I had a 10 day load in me it only took 2-3 minutes of fucking before I blew my load – and that was with me trying to stretch it out a bit. When I came my dick felt like a garden hose and I could feel this big thick stream of cum jetting out of my dick – and it just kept going for a while. He got a BIG load…  🙂  After I came he wanted me to lay on top of him.

When I pulled out I had him clean off my dick. Then he wanted to go back to sucking my dick. I had to have him go slow – after I cum my dick is really sensitive. And my dick started deflating pretty quickly, but he just kept sucking my soft cock – he really didn’t seem to mind it being soft at all. After a while he put me back on the chair and I just sat there while he worked my dick. He did keep wanting me to play with his nipples and by now that was getting a bit irritating. I sorta just wanted to go. I mean I had blown my load, and I was past the wind down period.

Finally when I thought I had been polite enough I said I needed to go. I started getting dressed and he kept trying to suck my dick while I was getting dressed. Then he offered to get me a glass of water and he ran downstairs (into the common area of the building) stark naked. I wasn’t quite sure where he was so I went downstairs – I wanted to say goodbye and leave.

Then he wanted to walk me out or something so he ran upstairs and put on a different pair of track pants – these were pink and he threw on a t-shirt shoes some sunglasses. I have to say he looked really hot dressed like that. But then he realized I wasn’t walking to the subway, so he didn’t wind up walking me.

In hindsight, I’ll never go to his place ever again. It was just a bit too weird and disturbing for me. But I’d definitely fuck him again.

Load 2012-25

A couple days ago I fucked this black guy who I’ve fucked a couple times before. The first time we fucked it was a little awkward – we started fucking on his couch and I couldn’t get the position right (eventually we moved to his bed and it was all good). The next time I fucked him I videotaped it actually. It was in my place while it was under construction. Problem was I just couldn’t cum.

This time he got here – hot as ever – tall, skinny & young – even already had a load in him. Problem was when I fucked him I never felt like I was completely hard. Usually I can start before I’m fully hard and the sensation of fucking gets me the rest of the way. This time the position never quite felt right and there were times I felt like I was about to slip out. At one point I pulled out and thought I saw shit on my PA, but I didn’t smell anything and wasn’t completely sure (I wasn’t wearing glasses) – so I just continued on. For a while I didn’t think I could even cum, but then, somehow, the feeling came and I was able to cum in his ass. And when I pulled out he did seem clean – so that was a false alarm.

Next time we fuck I owe him a good fuck. I’ll take a Cialis ahead of time, etc. And since he’s up for video – I’ll see if I can videotape it.

Load 2012-24

Yesterday there was this guy who was hitting me up saying he wanted to take my load – he said he was neg but poz friendly. He kept practically begging me to tell him my status, but I just wanted to mindfuck him and make him wonder so I told him I’d tell him after he got my load. In the meantime I planned on teasing him a bit while I was fucking him – asking him if he wanted a poz load in his ass and then when he said ‘yes’ I’d razz him for being a bug chaser. Then when I was done I’d tell him chances are I’m neg…  (Sorta due for a test, but I’d be really surprised if I test poz). I know it’s a bit callous, but honestly, if he’s taking poz loads, what’s the harm? It’s all about mindfucking him and getting him to face his fears – and even be turned on by his fears…

Anyway, as we talked he started to seem like he was the type who’d flake – there just seemed to be too much fantasy. It went over the top when he said he was into bondage and wanted to be tied up. At that point I just sorta wrote him off. Maybe he was for real, but it was looking less and less likely… I mean a neg guy wanting to get tied up and fucked by a potentially poz top? IF he showed up, chances are he was going to start wigging out in the middle of sex. But he did come back online in the evening when he said he would – problem was when I asked if he was cleaned out and ready to go, he said he couldn’t douche where he was. Not only that, but he didn’t really say how he was going to clean out. I just told him I hated dirty bottoms – and ignored him.

So that meant I needed a hole to fuck. There were a couple options on BBRT, but I didn’t feel like traveling, so I went with this black guy who lived a few blocks away. He’d been hitting me up pretty intensely since I moved to Harlem. He said he was cleaned out and could be over in 20 minutes. He gave me his number and told me to text him. I texted him my address, and he came over right away.

When he got here he looked older than the age on his profile. I’m not sure if he was older, or if he’s the PNP type (drugs age you pretty quickly), or if that’s just his genetics… Even though he looked older it wasn’t a big deal to me – he was still pretty hot.

How he was dressed was actually really nice – simultaneously really casual but refined – it’s a look I always want to achieve and never manage to pull off.  But even though he was dressed well, when he took off his clothes he got even hotter. He was skinny as a rail, but still had definition and muscle (washboard abs, etc.), and while he didn’t have an ounce of fat on his body, he had a HUGE fat dick. Literally the only place on his body that had any fat was his dick – it was soft and looked like it would be a third leg if it got hard.

Anyway… Getting to the sex… He dropped to his knees pretty much immediately and started sucking on my cock. I had a curved barbell in my Prince Albert – not a full ring. I could feel the metal hit his teeth a couple times, but he got the hang of it pretty quickly. Usually I don’t get hard all that quickly when a guy sucks my dick (that’s why I rim their ass almost immediately). On top of that it was well over a week since I’d taken a Cialis in over a week. But despite all that I could feel my cock slowly begin to grow. He managed to get me hard – which hasn’t happened so easily with a blowjob in a long time.

I then have him get on all fours so I can rim him. When he gets up on the bed his big dick is swinging between his legs – it’s sorta hot – but I ignore it ’cause I want his hole, not his dick. I go to rim him and he’s pre-lubed. The taste of the lube was a little distracting so I didn’t spend too long down there or get into it too much.

Then when I stood up to fuck he curls up in a way to sorta make his body compact and just be a hole. It’s hard to describe but I hadn’t seen a bottom do that before. Or maybe it was just that because he was so skinny he was able to get into a position other guys aren’t able to do.

I went to push in and it seemed like his hole was really tight, but then I stated wondering if I was just messing up somehow with my PA and it was getting in the way. I don’t remember fucking with the curved barbell before. I think it may have been sticking out from the underside of my dick or something. But I did finally work it out. It didn’t go in easily, but I did finally get inside him. The sensation on my dick was a little uncomfortable. It didn’t feel like the ball on the underside of my dick ever made it past his sphincter.

I stood behind him and fucked him like that for a little bit and then pushed him forward onto his belly. His body and hole felt SO good that way… It’s hard to describe exactly, but it everything was just in the right place and our positioning seemed absolutely perfect. And yeah, didn’t take long for me to unload, but before I did I gave him a decent pounding (I’m never sure how much a new trick can take).

When I was done he did a motion that made it clear he wanted me to lay on top of him, which I did – but I did it in a way that didn’t put all my weight on him. Then, after a little of that, with my dick still in him, I rolled him onto his side.

What was cool was when he looked around at me he had this HUGE grin on his face. It was like he was a little kid who just got the bike he wanted for Christmas – and the grin didn’t go away. It was sorta sweet. I don’t know if he grins like that a lot or he was just really happy to get my load. He did say “I’ve been wanting that load for a long time” – and said it twice. And later he said “do you still blog?” – so it’s not like he’s just seen me online for a while – he knew I was rawTOP. Either way, he was a really good fuck – he liked it and so did I… Since he’s so close, hopefully we’ll fuck on a regular basis.

Load 2012-18

In my write ups I skipped a fuck that happened early last week. It was pretty simple though… The black guy who I’ve fucked fairly regularly over the past year or two came by for a load. It was a good fuck, but there wasn’t anything all that remarkable – I didn’t call him nigger (like I have in the past), it was just a simple fuck and dump.

He came over, he was a bit freaked out by the fact that we still don’t have blinds on the windows, but he got over it. He got on the bed on all fours, I ate him out and then shoved in. His hole felt good as usual, I came relatively quickly and he got a 3 day load.

One of the issues with him in the past is that he wants to be serviced after I cum while he jacks off. This time it wasn’t so bad – I just held my dick in him and tweaked his nipples while he jacked off. He came pretty quickly (on the towel I had on the bed).

Once we both had cum he decided it was time to leave – short and simple. He mentioned that right after he confirmed with me another guy in the neighborhood had wanted to fuck him. He was going to ask if I wanted to do a 3way, but didn’t – which was good, I wasn’t really in the mood for a 3way. I suspect he went over there after me and got a second load.