Load 2009-26

So a while back I fucked a submissive piss bottom – even videotaped my fucking him a couple times. Anyway, he’s neg and wants to stay neg, but at the same time he’s a submissive bottom who generally lets the tops call the shots. It’s a bit of a Catch-22 – if he’s a good sub bottom he’ll let the tops use him how they want and won’t even ask if they’re poz or neg – but he wants to stay neg. It’s like the two sides of him are in conflict. Anyway, he didn’t like some of the things I said in my write ups in the past and got a bit mad at me. So for the longest time he’d be friendly online, but wouldn’t actually hookup with me.

The other day we’re chatting and he’s telling me how he promised himself not to let me fuck him again. I could tell part of him wanted it, so I tried to reason with him. It took forever to get him to see my point, but finally I said – “sub bottoms are supposed to be more trusting. there were no permanent scars – that’s about all you should be worried about.” And it’s true – nothing bad happened. Finally he let down his guard and he was at my place a half hour later.

He asked if I wanted him to wear anything in particular, I didn’t really care. When he got here he literally reeked of dried piss. I mean there are homeless people who smell better. He headed into the bedroom and started taking off his clothes and I started thinking – there’s no fucking way he’s going to make my bed smell like that. So I had him go into the bathroom. I needed to piss anyway…

So he got naked and got into the tub and I pissed on him. It wasn’t easy – had a bit of a boner and my PA means I piss out of two holes so I don’t have much force when I piss. But he still got soaked half way decently. He was rubbing my piss all over him and the piss got him rock hard.

I’ve always seen him as a bit of a piece of meat – just something to piss on and load up with cum. So I had him get out of the tub and bend over the toilet and I just started fucking his hole. I usually cum with the bottom on his belly, but with all the craziness in my life lately it had been over a month since I’d fucked anyone. The bottom line was I was horny and had no problem getting hard or cumming (zero need for pills).

When I came it went on and on and on… It was like it just wouldn’t stop. He got a HUGE load of cum. When I pulled out he turned around and cleaned off my dick. He was feeling his hole a bit and could tell he got a big load.

At that point I was sorta done with him. He smelled too much to keep him around the apartment much longer, so I had him dress and leave. Total thing was maybe a little over 10 minutes – pretty much a pump-and-dump.

I immediately went and opened all the windows trying to get the smell of stale piss out of the apartment. Even so I smelled it for a few hours afterwards – and he hadn’t even really touched anything… Amazing.

I walked the dogs about 30-40 minutes later and saw him coming from the park near me. He had gone there hoping for more loads, but said he didn’t get any…  Let’s see – taking anonymous loads in parks and wanting to stay neg – yeah, the guy is conflicted, but that angst is part of what makes him interesting…

Another neg, “safe sex only” bottom is on his way over to get fucked raw… Gotta say they’re fun to breed…

Load 2008-24

[For those of you who care. With this load I’ve given as many loads as I did in 2007 and more than I did in 2006. And with getting my dick in 32 new holes this year, I’m way over where I was in ’06/07 (26/23, respectively). Things seem slow this year ’cause I did so well seeding so much hole last year… But there’s still 3 months in the year and so I should give about 32 holes this year if things stay the same. Yeah, that’s half of what I did last year, but it’s still not that bad…]

So I was supposed to hookup with Jayson Park this afternoon, but that didn’t work out ’cause early in the afternoon turned out to be busy for me and he couldn’t do later. So later in the afternoon I was horny and when my bf went off to work I got online to see if there was any hole to fuck. There were a few prospects, but the Brazilian guy I’ve fucked a bunch of times was on and since he was pretty close it was easiest to hookup with him. It had been almost 10 months since I’d fucked him…

So he comes over, we get naked, he sucks my dick, and then lays on the bed to get fucked. When he was sucking my dick I was sorta having the opposite reaction you’d hope – my dick was sensitive and the blowjob was a bit awkward. But that wasn’t a problem when I went to fuck him. He had prelubed his hole and I put a little extra lube on my dick and slid right in. He’s such a regular guy, you’d never guess he likes going around getting guys to cum in his ass. It’s sorta hot… It all felt quite good, and it didn’t take me long to drop my load in his hole.

I hadn’t taken a pill, so when I came that was pretty much the end of it. We laid there and talked for a bit. A lot has changed for both of us in 10 months… Then he was off to meet someone (with my load dripping out of his ass). Wonder if the guy he’s meeting will fuck him and use my cum for lube?

Load 2009-18

There’s a Latino who’s been hitting me up for a while. He doesn’t have any pics on BBRT so I sorta told him I wasn’t interested unless I could see pics. So apparently he searched for me on Adam4Adam until he found me. He’s got pics there and so I liked what I saw and was interested in hooking up… Once again he was really persistent in sending me messages, but he finally got what he was looking for 😉 and we hooked up last night.

I didn’t realize where he was located. I asked him if he could get here by 7 or so ’cause I really didn’t want to hookup much later. He made it sound like he’d leave soon, so I waited. He got here closer to 8 and had to take a car service to get here. On the good side, when he did show up he was pretty much exactly like his pics.

Anyway, we kissed a bit and then he went down on me and sucked my dick. I hadn’t taken a pill that day – the partial pill I took the day before was still having an effect – though the effects were waning… He got me pretty hard and like the guy the night before liked forcing my dick down his throat.

Before he did much more he asked if I was neg. I said ‘yes’, and he asked “are you sure?”, and I said ‘yeah’ (my last test was late may – so I’m about as certain as anyone will be answering that question). It’s been a long time since a bottom asked me if I was neg. Most “neg” bareback bottoms don’t really care or don’t want to think about it… I wonder what the guy would have done if I had said “probably” or “I think so” or “not sure”… Would he have left? I’m guessing he would have asked for a rubber. Then what would he have done when I had refused?

When I was nice and hard he jumped up, pulled out his camera and asked me to take pics of my dick in his ass. He wanted to have pics he could put on BBRT. Taking pics was fine with me – especially if it will help a neg bottom get more cum in his ass! Long story short at first I thought I was taking pics, but wasn’t actually taking any. Then he wanted me to take them differently. I’m not sure if his objective was to get fucked or have pics taken…

Either way I did finally get my dick inside him… He had a nice hole with one exception – he had recently shaved ass and there was stubble. Now mind you, his “smooth” ass looked great in pics, but personally I would have preferred a hairy ass that was less like sandpaper – but it was a small distraction. Honestly I’ve fucked asses that were a lot more stubbly – it wasn’t really that bad.

I fucked him bent over the bed for a bit, then pushed him onto the bed and fucked him doggy style and finally more on his belly with me at a bit of an angle and then with me lined up with him.

Of course, he had to interrupt things for more pics, but then we got back into it. At one point he asked if I’d pull out and cum on his hole. I get SO tired hearing neg bottoms ask for that… I know they’re trying to avoid getting cum in their ass. So I just kept fucking him knowing I’d probably have to cum quietly so he wouldn’t squirm away from my dick as I’m about to cum.

As I got really close I had a bit of a dilemma… Usually I have to stop (or slow down drastically) and then I cum, but if I stopped he’ll pull off my dick. Just as I’m about to cum he detects things are different for me. He tries to turn around and I’m thinking to myself – fucker! he’s going to screw up my orgasm, but actually it worked really well… He turned around a bit and asked me if I just came. As he’s asking the question I hadn’t, so I say ‘no’, but right at that moment I feel myself unloading in him. So I correct my answer and say he just got my load. He didn’t seem all that bothered by having just taken my load. He might have just wanted a pic of s cummy hole – don’t really know. But if he wanted a pic of a cummy hole he should have said so – that I would have been up for 😉

The bottom line is that he was a bit of a controlling bottom and likes things his way. That doesn’t always work for the top. In this case it lead to a hookup that was OK, but not as good as it could have been. I did cum, but it was sorta anti-climatic. Afterwards, we rolled over and he had me shove a few fingers in his now cummy ass as he jacked off. When he came I licked some of it up – it was nice and tangy… 😉

He took a shower and then left. He seemed like he was in a bit of a hurry, or he was nervous or something. Not sure what was going on… He asked me to call a car service. They quoted $15 to get to his place, but then he texted me and said the driver charged him $20. Oh, and on the way down he lost the stylus for his phone in the taxi on the way here. So he spent close to $40 and lost a stylus, all for a so-so hookup. But he got his pics and wants to hookup again. Maybe next time he’ll be less nervous.

Load 2008-11

About a week ago (the day of the Gay Pride Parade) my boyfriend had gone out to march in the parade. I was mostly over being sick, but didn’t want to push it so I stayed home. I thought maybe I’d take a nap, but figured I’d look and see if I could find someone to fuck. The hairy Italian daddy I’ve fucked a bunch of times before had e-mailed me a day or two before so I e-mailed him back and told him I was available. Like the other times he rushed right over. It’s like he lives to get fucked and take loads – like he’s an easy on-call cumhole. Why there can’t be more bottoms like that, I don’t know.

He comes over and asks if he can clean out a bit more, so I say sure and lay on the bed and start jacking my dick. He comes out and starts giving me a blowjob and then has me take off my clothes. He’s not a very good cocksucker – doesn’t keep his teeth away from my dick. So after a little bit I tell him to sit on my dick. He rides for a bit, but it’s just not doing it for me, so I have him pull off to switch positions I hear a bit of a noise, look down and there’s a wet shitty smear sorta dripping on my leg to the side of my pubes. UGH!!! Once again he’s failed to clean out properly. He apologizes and we both go into the bathroom to clean up. I had my glasses off but I notice there’s water all over the floor. I clean off, come out while he cleans out some more, get a new towel to put over the one that luckily I’d put on the bed and try to get myself back into the mood to fuck. Often a dirty hole just puts me off my game and it doesn’t happen at all.

When he comes back out of the bathroom I figure I’d have him lay on his belly. At least that way gravity will be working in my favor if he’s not clean. I do manage to get hard again and go back to fucking him. I think tops will understand what I mean when I say his hole felt uncomfortably wet – it was wet, but not lubricated. I tried putting a bunch of lube on his ass to improve the sensation and it helped a bit. What he was lacking is anal mucus – he’d washed it all out of his ass, and his ass was so wet it diluted the lube when it was applied.

I kept fucking him, but started wondering whether I’d be able to cum with him. At this point he was a piece of meat to me – a hole to fuck. As long as my dick stayed hard and he didn’t tell me to stop I was going to fuck him however I felt like fucking him. I wasn’t able to cum, but thanks to having taken a pill I was staying plenty hard.

So I fucked him and fucked him and fucked him. I could tell I was sorta wearing him out, but like a good bottom he just laid there and took it. I’m not sure if he enjoyed it or if it was uncomfortable for him – I honestly didn’t really care. The funny part was he kept telling me “You’re the best” which I found a little funny. I wasn’t sure whether that meant he was enjoying himself or whether he was just thinking that stroking my ego would make me cum and it would be over.

Finally his ass started producing mucus again and it started feeling better, and I changed positions a bit so one of my legs was between his and the other outside of his – so I was fucking from a bit of an angle. One way or the other I did finally cum in his ass.

He was worn out as well. He was going to jack off, but then we got to talking and finally he just got up and gathered his things and left. As he was gathering his things he noticed one of his new bottles of poppers was nearly empty and he realized he’s manage to spill the poppers in his car on the way over. That’s gotta make your car smell like shit – not sure how he’s going to explain the smell to his kids if they ask what it is. But he had brought the bag into my apartment and so now my bedroom reeked of poppers.

But the worst part was when I finally went into the bathroom and saw the mess there. He had managed to get shit EVERYWHERE. It was all over the toilet, but it was on the bath mat, and there were small brownish spots on the towels that were hanging on the wall, and all over the walls. It’s like shit-infused water had spattered all over the bathroom. It was disgusting.

It’s really too bad. He’s so eager, so dependable, but not being clean is a reoccurring theme with him. I’m pretty sure what he’s doing is trying to hard – using too  much water with too much force and getting water too far up into his colon. And I don’t think he’s careful enough to sit properly on the toilet – I think he squats and aims (and misses).

So unfortunately I had to bring up the issue with him in e-mail after he left. He’s such a nice guy and he’s going through such a rough time – he’s been unemployed for months and his ex-wife is insisting he pay child support when he has no money – he’s literally worried about becoming homeless. So it was really awkward to tell him he’s failed in yet another thing as simple as cleaning out his ass.

What I need is a bottom as eager, dependable, and available as him who’s squeaky clean every time they show up.

Load 2009-3

Monday night I had the place to myself so I figured I’d fuck someone. Thankfully, there were a few options. For starters, the older muscle daddy who I fuck pretty regularly e-mailed me asking if I was looking. Then there was this hot young guy on BarebackRT who had said earlier in the day he was interested (and was sorta pissed when I didn’t follow through). Then there was this this guy I’ve been wanting to fuck for a while who’s in my neighborhood, short, lean and tattooed (just my type). But the short tatttoed guy wanted to hookup right away at his place and I needed to walk the dogs, etc. Also, I was in a weird mood. I just wanted to kick back, watch some porn, and have someone suck me and get me hard and then fuck them. When it came down to it the older guy fit the bill perfectly even if he wasn’t as hot as the little tattooed guy…

PigMaster from BarebackRT had sent me the video from their weekend in Palm Springs the week before and I figured I’d watch it while I was with the older guy. He was a little late getting here due to traffic, so I popped it in and started watching it – the first scene (I think it might be the whole video) is a big orgy scene. It wasn’t long before I was about to cum, which was bad since I had someone on the way over, so I managed to stop from cumming and turn off the video.

When he arrived I got the video back running while he stripped down and then I just sat back on the couch and watched the video while he gave me head. He wasn’t being careful enough with his teeth so it was a little painful and far from the best blowjob I’ve gotten, but it (plus the video) was good enough to get me completely hard, so I told him to get on all fours and I fucked him while watching a guy get fucked on all fours in the video.

I don’t think my bottom really liked the video. He definitely didn’t get into it – he barely looked at it while I was fucking him. I think part of it was that the video was obviously a poz fuckfest where he’s neg and is the type that doesn’t want to think about that side of things, even though he loves getting loads in his ass…

Before long I was about to blow I felt it churning in my balls and asked him (rhetorically) whether he wanted my load. He said to spank his ass when I was cumming, which I did… I hadn’t cum in days and he got a huge load up there… He then started jacking his dick and I continued to fuck him until he blew his load. When I pulled out he wasn’t completely clean (but pretty close) so I didn’t try felching him or anything…

We talked a bit about things and then he left and I got back to some tedious work I was doing before he got there…

Load 2008-66

If you remember it wasn’t that long ago that I thought the Brazilian was upset with me. Last night I had seen him online on BarebackRT, but was sorta tired. I knew he was available today, so we said we’d look for each other and fuck during the day. Then I wound up fucking the other guy last night and hoped that didn’t make it difficult to cum with the Brazilian today.

So I see him online and we arrange a time for me to go over to his place. I have to run a few errands before I go over and when I get there and buzz his bell a few times but he doesn’t answer. I try both of his phone numbers – no answer. A while back he had fallen asleep and a similar thing had happened. Needless to say I was pissed and wondering whether he was jerking me around, but there was nothing I could do and I just went home.

When I get home I see there’s a message from him saying something came up, he had to run downtown, and could we hookup at 1pm. If I had checked my e-mails before going out I would have seen it, so I stopped being angry at him, though a text message or call would have been nice.

So he gets over here a little after 1pm and we get naked (well, I kept my shirt on), and he gave me a blowjob. I think he was enjoying the blowjob, but it wasn’t all that great from my perspective. What I really wanted was to fuck. He had lubed his ass before he came over, so when he finally stopped, got up and bent over the bed it was easy to get in him.

I fucked him bent over the bed for a while, then pushed him onto the bed and fucked him on his belly – which is my favorite position with him. For a while I was wondering whether I could cum, but then I could feel it building and blew my load in his hole.

We rolled over made small talk for a couple minutes and then he had to be on his way and I needed to get back to work. I think he had another top scheduled for today, so who knows what he was off to…

All in all I think he’s getting fucked a lot these days. He’s finally discovered BarebackRT and he posts ads on Craigslist constantly. I commented on how many ads he’s placing and how he must be getting a lot of action. He just smiled and said something like “yeah, my butt is pretty happy”. What’s curious is that even though his profile still says he’s neg, his Craigslist ads never mention the word ‘neg’. We haven’t discussed it, but I wonder what point of the process he’s at these days…