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Not sure why I didn’t figure this out sooner, but I’ve come to the conclusion that sex with friends just doesn’t work for me. I like things anonymous. When I get to know someone my dick just doesn’t respond. I mean my boyfriend and I don’t have sex anymore – we’re joined at the hip in many ways, but it’s not really a sexual relationship. I tried fucking a good friend a few years ago and that didn’t go so well – just couldn’t cum with him. I have a really bad track record with Jayson Park even though I think he’s incredibly hot – but we’re friends and hang out socially sometimes. There was the anonymous Latin bottom I used to fuck, but I got pretty unpredictable with him as I got to know him. There was the hot black athlete a few months ago who hung out with me and my bf a few times after we’ve hooked up – only came the first time with him despite the fact that he’s really hot. The list goes on and on…

But most recently is the black fuck bud from the neighborhood. I used to cum every time with him. Now I’m hit or miss. Fucked him again on Saturday morning. While we were stripping down he started asking me about how my Thanksgiving was and I just shut down the conversation with a “it was fine”. I knew if we started into personal chit chat that it wouldn’t go well. We fucked and I did give him a load, but I almost didn’t. Things weren’t working quite right in part because he kept bucking back but I finally got into this one position where the head of my dick was getting massaged just right and I finally did cum – but it almost didn’t happen.

Compare that to the muscular little Latino who I fuck. Been fucking him for years now and still don’t know his name. We never have substantive conversations. And I cum every time with him. And I love sex parties and bathhouses. I don’t always cum but they’re tons of fun and my dick has plenty of energy. And dark room pump-n-dumps are some of my favorite fucks. The more anonymous, the harder my dick and the bigger my load.

So the moral of the story is, if you want to be my fuck buddy, just stick to sex – be a hole for me and nothing more. Or, if you really want to get to know me, that’s fine – just realize the sexual part will probably die.

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Had a nice quickie on Monday with the little muscular Latino I breed now and then. It had been 2-3 months since our last hookup. Always love fucking him. Not sure why we haven’t fucked sooner.

The hookup was pretty much like all the others – get naked, suck cock, rim him, fuck him, dump in his hole. He always feels good under me.

Then we got him off – he always cums SO quickly – but that’s fine with me – I hate having to wait forever to get someone to cum. And I sorta like how his hot little guy likes pump-n-dump quickies. I mean it probably took less than 10 minutes for both of us to bust our nut.

Slam, bam, thank you ma’am… 😉

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After yesterday’s let down where I didn’t feel my cumshot (and may not have cum), I was determined to have some decent sex today. I got online this morning. Didn’t really want to hookup up right then, but figured I’d see what might be available later. I had a bunch of guys interested (at least casually), but the one that caught my eye was this masculine little Latino. When I say little I think his profile said 5’4″ – but he might have been stretching it a little. I’ve got a weakness for little guys so we exchanged numbers and soon we were texting.

I had a call scheduled with my accountant but then that got delayed, so hours passed, but we kept texting and he was still interested when I got done with my call. We decided I’d go to him. He was in a bit of an awkward location – sorta close and sorta far away. At first I was going to take the bus, but I decided walking would be just as fast. After all the delays he seemed eager for me to get there.

Of course, after a long walk he’s in a 5th floor walk up. I was out of breath when I got up to his place. He said something like “Well, this is my place…” like he was expecting a reply of “Great place”, but I didn’t know what to say – it was rather barren and the walls were painted funky colors. Only as I was about to leave did he tell me that he had just moved in. At that point I was able to give an honest, encouraging, “Oh, yeah, this is a lot of space for one person…”

The other thing he told me when I walked through the door was that he had just gotten hit by a car. He pointed to his knee which was totally swollen. It looked pretty painful. But clearly he was still up for hooking up. In hindsight I gotta give the guy credit – he gets hit by a car, but still drags himself and his bike up 4 flights of stairs and waits around for a hookup before going to the hospital to get checked out. Gotta love a pig who puts sex before semi-urgent medical care.

I was sweating from the walk and he had no A/C and no fan. I start stripping down and was worried about overheating. He dropped to his knees and started sucking my cock – oddly putting the bulk of his weight on his swollen knee. If you read this blog very much you know blowjobs aren’t really my thing, so I had him get up on the be. I was intending to rim his (furry) ass, but he laid sideways, so I gave him a blowjob while I fingered his hole.

Playing with his ass was enough to get me hard, so I got up and let him suck on my now hard cock. I think he was expecting me to be smaller. He didn’t seem all that happy that I was as big as I was. After less than a minute of sucking me he told me to get on my back. I thought he was going to suck me some more, but he only did that for a few seconds to get my cock wet with spit and then he put some spit on his hole and proceeded to sit down on my raw cock.

I had violated one of my rules in hooking up with him – we hadn’t actually discussed whether he was OK with bareback – and then I had just walked a really long way for the hookup. If had wanted a condom it would have been a disaster. But luckily he was a good little pig and thought nothing of sitting on a strangers bare dick.

I remember back when I used to be a young vers twink – that sitting on a cock is a great way to get accustomed to getting fucked. That’s pretty much what he did… He sat on my cock just long enough to open up for me, then he said “I want you to fuck me for real” – he got off and got on all fours. For a little guy he had really long legs and his hole was well above my cock, so I told him to get on his belly. As I shoved in he kept saying “go slow”. I did go slow, but then I hit bottom pretty quickly in his ass and he tried to pull off from the pain of it.

I gradually increased my speed, but every time I hit bottom he’s flinch in pain and complain, so I started doing shorter strokes. It wasn’t all that easy for him, but he took it like a good bottom. He was probably also in pain from his car accident injuries. Anyway, he couldn’t take that much then he asked me to stop. I think he wanted me to pull out, but that wasn’t going to happen so I slowed down and didn’t go in so deep. But he really wanted me to stop. I still didn’t pull out but I stopped pumping his ass for a bit, but then I slowly started going in and out again. I could tell he really didn’t me going deep so just fucked the head of my dick in an out of his hole.

I should stop and say I had him legs together on his belly and being so much bigger than him I sort of enveloped him. I was really sweaty too – my belly and his back were drenched with sweat. The short break helped me catch my breath and then I gradually started fucking him again – but I didn’t go deep at all. But the sensations still worked the sensitive tip of  my dick so I could tell I was going to be able to cum. And cum I did – my orgasm came, then a few seconds later I felt spurt after spurt of cum going into his ass.

For some reason after I came he wanted me to pull out. We laid there for a few minutes talking. I noticed his elbow was all skinned from the accident as well (poor guy must have been in all sorts of pain). Then he got up and went into the bathroom and as best I could tell shit out my load 🙁

Then I went to the bathroom, tried to piss, but only a little came out. I tried to find a towel to dry myself off but the only one I could find was  damp one on the floor – so I used that. I put on my clothes, we chatted a little more very briefly and then I was on my way. He apologized a bit for rushing me out the door, but he said he wanted to go to the hospital to get checked out. In hindsight I should have told him to go to an urgent care place – they’re far better than the ER when you’re not dying.

Hopefully we’ll fuck again. Just wish he were a little closer.

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Earlier this year I started experimenting a bit. Even though I’m a top I’ve found the idea of getting cum in my ass is a huge turn on for me. Problem is there’s a lot about bottoming I just don’t like and you sorta have to bottom to get cum in your ass. For starters I don’t like having to clean out. On top of that I find the actual act of getting fucked painful and unpleasant more often than not. And being dominated isn’t really compatible with who I am 90% of the time, but I’m never going to be a pushy bottom – in my mind getting fucked is an act of submission. And I absolutely hate getting spit-roasted (I feel completely out of control). I’m not going into details about how I’ve come to those conclusions, but let’s just say I’ve experimented enough to figure out that I’m still very much a dom top…

But in my experimentation I found I sorta love having cum in my ass. I’ve even frozen my own cum and then shoved up my ass before going out. There’s just something incredibly hot having cum in your ass – especially when you got it from some anonymous stranger. So the question is how does someone who doesn’t want to get fucked manage to get cum in their ass? After thinking about it – it’s actually sorta simple – have the other guy jack off and then put the head of their cock into your hole just as they cum. I mean plenty of guys jack off after I fuck them – why waste the load? The load doesn’t get dumped nice and deep, but I still walk away with a cummy ass!

A week and a half ago I hooked up with the black guy in the neighborhood who I fuck on a regular basis. I was having a low-libido day – my dick just wasn’t performing the way it should. I noticed my fuckbud was pretty hard, so I told him to jack off and cum in my hole. As soon as his load was in me my dick jumped to life and I put him on his stomach, fucked him and dumped a load in him.

Then a few days ago I was super horny. I hadn’t cum in 3 days. I was supposed to shoot a scene for Bear Film’s Hairy & Raw, but it got canceled a few hours before it was supposed to happen. I had taken an herbal pill the day before and a Cialis that morning, so I was rock hard and ready to blow. The black athlete who I fucked a few weeks before was online and came over. I think he’s incredibly hot but there’s something about him… I have a really hard time cumming with him. The first time we fucked I gave him a load, but the second time I just couldn’t manage it. This time the best way I can describe it was that I felt the orgasm (throughout my body), but I didn’t feel the ejaculation. He clearly wanted to cum, so finally I told him to jack off and put the head of his dick in me as he’s cumming. I don’t think he quite understood ’cause he put it in a little, then pulled out started and cumming on my taint. At that point I had to tell him to put it in a little and finish cumming in my hole. I then pushed the cum on my taint down so it went into my ass.

That got me hard enough to fuck again, but I wasn’t rock hard and no orgasm came. So that tells me I did indeed seed him earlier – I just must not have felt it for some reason. I had my big PA in earlier that day – I’m thinking that’s the issue. I think I’ll go down to rings that are no bigger than 2ga. Bigger seems to mess up my orgasms. And I texted him asking if a load came out. He said, ‘no’, but some soap had come out. Ummm… That wasn’t soap! (That was only the 2nd load he ever took, so I’ll excuse him for not knowing it was cum).

I need to find a clear way to tell guys I want cum in my ass, but don’t want to get fucked. Like the athlete, guys just don’t understand the concept. And if I’m briefly getting a little bit of dick in my ass I guess this means I’m a “vers top” now.

If you’re in NYC and like breeding tops, get in touch. Just realize there’s not much of a chance I’ll actually let you fuck me. Still, a quickie jack off into my ass would be perfect when you’re out at a place like The Eagle.

Don’t think I have the energy to do a blog post on each of the other 5 guys I fucked while I was playing hookie from blogging. So let me just do a quick rundown…

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After getting over being sick I hooked up with the hot little muscular Latino who’s become a bit of a regular. I can’t tell you how much I LOVE fucking him. Besides being really hot, his hole just feels incredible. He was the perfect way to break a 3 1/2 week dry spell.

Then there was this hot otter I fucked off Scruff. I fucked him the day after the hot little muscular Latino and I was frustrated because I couldn’t cum. Luckily he was in it for the fuck, not the load (he had wanted me to pull out when I came but I told him ‘no’). But I did manage to give him a decent fuck so he went home happy.

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The next day I fucked the twink who had gotten upset last time when I didn’t pull out like he asked me to. We had had a few exchanges back and forth on A4A and I was thinking he wasn’t really into me, but he came back for more. Something had changed in him since I fucked him a few months before – he was there specifically to get the load. I think he now may actually like getting abused a bit when he’s getting fucked. Glad he learned his place and I hope he’s getting a lot of cum in that skinny little twink ass of his. 😉

It was after him that I got what I thought was food poisoning and what my boyfriend thought was something I picked up from rimming some guy’s ass. If my boyfriend was right it was the twink who gave me whatever it was (it only lasted a day or two). Maybe he knew he had something and wanted to get back at me – who knows. Or it could have been food poisoning.

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A week and a half later I fucked this incredibly hot black guy. Short, young, beefy, and muscular. As I was fucking him I thought he probably had been an athlete (and recently at that). Later I found out I was right. Anyway, he was pretty nervous. He almost never barebacks, and he takes loads even less often. I guess we had talked about me being on PrEP so he felt safe, but he reconfirmed I was on PrEP like 2 minutes after I came in him. He’s a sweet kid and he wants to see more of me and even hang out and be friends. He might come over today – we’ll see. Would love to have him as a regular butt boy.

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I followed the hot black athlete with a Latino who was equally hot in a different way. When I saw him I thought he was probably a dancer. He didn’t confirm that exactly, but what he said indicated that I was probably right. He had the most incredible lean muscular body and a really muscular ass. I had worn my little curved barbell PA and didn’t think it would be a problem, but then I had a problem cumming. Or maybe I came and didn’t feel it. After a while my dick started acting a bit like I had cum. But after taking a breather I took out the PA and went back at it. This time I came – and not just a little – it was a huge load.

Actually, looking over those 5 fucks they were pretty incredible. All of them were really hot bottoms – each in a different way. Now I just need more fucks like that!

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I’m WAY behind on doing blog posts. There have been 7 hookups since my last post a month ago.

But first – why the delay? Well, there were a few reasons… First I was sick for a while there, then I hooked up a little, then I got what seemed liked food poisoning (my bf thinks that sickness was from me eating ass – lol). Then I managed to get my dick caught in my zipper and had a huge blood blister on the tip of my dick which was ugly as hell. Then there was some drama in my life. Without going into detail some crazy people did stuff that put my safety and my boyfriend’s safety at risk. Police were called, etc. It’s sorta calmed down for now so it’s back to work. All I can say is I hate drama like that. And if you’re wondering – it had nothing to do with my business.

So I fucked a little in between all those things, but not as much as I would have liked. And as you might expect – with all the drama in my life I’ve just been wanting simplicity in my hookups. 4 of the 7 fucks were with guys I’ve fucked before – like the fuck earlier this week when I fucked my semi-regular black guy from the neighborhood. I’ll start with that fuck and work backwards… It was completely low drama – I didn’t even have to go online to find someone to fuck. He texted me in the morning, I said the afternoon should work, but then when he pressed for a time a couple hours later I was on a roll with work but I figured I’d want to take a break in a little bit so I estimated that time and he came over.

When he got here things were equally as low-key. I buzzed him in and he found his own way to the bedroom. He was wearing a ratty old jockstrap, so when he stripped down I didn’t even see his cock. While he’s got a HUGE black dick it’s sorta wasted on him ’cause I think he’s 90% bottom. He needed to take a leak or something so I laid on the bed and started jacking my dick. When he came out he started sucking me. I had him reposition so I could rim him while he sucked me. Was fun for a bit, but then I sorta got tired of rimming him. So I repositioned, lubed up and pushed into his ass.

This particular bottom is fine with race play – with me degrading him and calling him a nigger. It’s just sex play… So as I was fucking him my mind started wondering. I wondered what it would have been like to go back 200 years and live in the South and own some slaves. I could totally see myself having a few slaves that did housework during the day and serviced me sexually at night. I’m horrible at rape – so the slaves would need to be into it. But it would sorta be fun to have a house of black boys I could fuck whenever I felt like it. 😉  [When I get some free time I want to take that concept and develop a full-fledged story around it for Breeding Zone.]

Anyway, that fantasy got me to cum relatively quickly. It did take a bit to actually cum – but this bottom’s hole always feels good and gets me to cum. After I came we rolled over on our sides and I continued to pump his ass for several minutes until I got soft and pulled out.

He then got dressed, we chatted a little bit and then he was off with a nice big load up his hole 😉

And BTW, the slavery thing does get me off. If anyone is in NYC and wants to be a slave for a weekend (or even during the week – which could actually be better), let me know.