Load 2009-12

[I’m now three hookups behind in writing things up – I’m going to go in reverse order since the latest one is freshest in my mind and the first one has video that needs to be edited and will take time…]

There’s a guy I’ve seen online for a while now – wasn’t sure if he was really my type or not, but after having two guys bail on me when I tried to hookup yesterday, I figured what the hell when he send me a message on BarebackRT and was willing to travel. After the two guys yesterday I didn’t know if he’d show up or not, but he did.

When he showed up he was sorta cute in his clothes. He had a bit of a scruffy look to him and I’m guessing by his looks that he’s poz (can’t say for sure). I was very pleasantly surprised during the initial groping phase – tight, slightly muscular body – thin waist – just like I like them. He was light skinned Latino – also a plus for me – complete with a sexy accent. But with him coming in and stripping down almost immediately there was a definite sexual vibe to the encounter. I knew from his profile that he wasn’t just looking to be an anonymous cumhole – he wanted more – he wanted conversation, kissing – in other words – “meaningful sex”.

But the vibe was totally about him as a cumhole. I had my finger on his hole within like 2 minutes of him getting in the door, and a couple minutes after that (after a little cocksucking) he was bent over and I was rimming his hairy ass, and a minute or two after that my cock was up his hole. So much for his quest for meaninful sex.

Right after I started fucking him he asked if I had poppers, and then when I pulled out he asked if there was anything he could drink. So I ran and got some iced tea and the bottle of poppers. Then we were back at it… He seemed to want to be on his back (so he could look me in the eye – typical of “meaningful sex”). I wanted him face down. We tried it his way for a bit, but I knew from when I originally started fucking him that his hole felt really good when he was on his belly, so I had him change back to being on his belly.

As soon as he was on his belly I knew I was going to cum pretty quickly. I’ve been trying not to jack off, so I hadn’t cum since when I fucked a guy three days ago – as a result it’s wasn’t long before I blew my load in his hole. I know it was way earlier than he was hoping for, but it is what it is. I know from experience that if I hold back I often can’t cum at all – I’d rather cum too soon than not cum at all.

I stayed in him for a while while he tried to jack off, but he never managed to cum. The bottom line is that it was a pump-and-dump encounter that we were trying to pretend wasn’t a pump-and-dump. We talked for a little bit, then he cleaned up, dressed and left…

Load 2009-9

Yesterday I had to checkout by 11am, but didn’t have to leave the hotel until 2 or 2:30, so I relaxed in HotBttmTO’s room and we chatted about things. I had fucked 18 new holes I’d never fucked before (thanks in large part to the 9 guys at the blackout party the night before), I’d only given 3 loads. I’m usually just a one load a day sorta guy, so wasn’t at all disturbed by those numbers, but I did want to give one more load…

I was laying there on the bed doing some blogging, he was at the desk, on his computer hunting for more dick. We figured out that he will be going away from IML with nearly 60 loads (counting conservatively, so the one guy who blew up his ass 5 times in one night just gets counted as one load), and he probably had over 100 guys fuck him. Needless to say, that breaks records for him. At IML last year he was still neg and his big step was taking anonymous loads without asking the guys’ status. A year later to get fucked by 100 guys and get 60 loads says a lot about him. And for the record, his goal for the weekend was 40 loads…

I was laying there with my hard dick out and was surprised he didn’t come over and start giving me a blowjob or sit on it or something. At one point I was changing my location back to NYC on the hookup sites and editing my profiles when I read an e-mail from a hot little 18 y.o. Asian on Adam4Adam that wants me to fuck him. The kid is adorable. I showed the pics to HotBttmTO and then put the laptop down and moved his head down on my dick.

Maybe a minute later I guide him over to the bed as he’s unbuttoning his pants and letting them fall down. He lays face down on the bed and I get a little lube on my dick and shove in. He still has the 5 loads from the guy who fucked him the night before in him, though he wasn’t all that cummy…

The fuck was a lot like a pump-and-dump. Short and sweet and animalistic. He was a hole (a good one), and I was just using it to get off. It only took a few minutes to cum and then he got my last load of IML.

We went back to laying around and chatting, then he was off to the leather mart to meet up with other tops and presumably get fucked some more. I blogged a bit more and then left for the airport.

I had come up with an idea of a blackout party about a month before IML and posted it on BarebackRT. Requests for invites grew and grew and it was the IML party that had the most people wanting to come. Thing was, the more I thought about it, the more ambivalent I was about hosting it. Given that the room would be mostly dark I was worried people would steal things, or the room would get trashed. Then when I got to the hotel and saw I had a pretty small room, I knew it was impossible for me to host the party – there just wasn’t enough space.

In all fairness, the worry about people stealing things was completely misplaced. And I don’t think anyone would intentionally damage a room either. I was actually amazed how respectful and polite people were at sex parties.

So, I was relieved when someone volunteered to host the party. But then they canceled on me, but then two other guys volunteered. They had a pretty big room, so we were good…

As I was going up to the room for the party I ran into PigMaster (the owner of BarebackRT) wandering the halls wondering where the party was. He gets so many e-mails every day he didn’t see the one with the correct room number. So we went up together and got there maybe 15 minutes after it was schedule to start. There were already at least a dozen guys there and people were already fucking. The crowd was a good mix with the exception of an older creepy guy – not sure how I managed to approve him, but I must have.

I just pulled out my dick and left my clothes on. Other guys were stripping down. It was like a buffet of raw dick and ass – whatever you liked there was some of it there for you. There was a twink, some jocks, some bears, some muscle bears, some hot muscley older guys, some cubs… You get the picture.

PigMaster started off by just watching and getting a sense of the place. As he was starting to join in I happened to be fucking one of the hosts and Pig Master was in front of him. I whispered to the host that that was PigMaster and he blurted out “PigMaster?!?” and had a big smile on his face. It was sorta cute.

At first I had the curved barbell in my PA. With some of the guys I fucked the PA sorta hurt, but I couldn’t get the ball to unscrew, so I left it on and kept fucking. Finally I really wanted it off, so I went into the bathroom and used a washcloth to unscrew the ball and get it out.

I tried to keep count of how many guys I fucked. I didn’t stay there all that long – maybe 30 minutes, but in that time I think I fucked 8 or 9 different guys. You literally went from guy to guy and they’d just bend over and take your dick. It was a lot of fun.

Since I don’t do well sexually when the room is hot, I finally had to leave. I relieved one of the hosts of door duty and stood outside and let people in while chatting with this incredibly hot, muscular older guy (if only all older guys were hot like him)… Then the host came out to take a break from the heat in the room. As I was leaving the place was at capacity and the temperature in the room was stifling hot, but it was definitely a great party… 😉

Sunday morning I was horny and hadn’t cum in two days. I really wanted to videotape something so I was giving a preference to guys who said they’d be up for it. A guy responded, his pics weren’t all that great, but I told him to come over. When he got there unfortunately his pics weren’t all that far off the mark. I knew pretty quickly I just wasn’t that into him and he wasn’t going to be the one getting my 2 day load, and I didn’t even want to videotape it…

I did fuck him. On a certain level he was a nice guy and an eager bottom. Thanks to pills I didn’t have a problem with an erection and his hole did feel good and I could have cum if I had wanted to, but I held back.

Was it bad sex? Not really. It was IML and he was just another hole. He just wasn’t who I wanted to give my load to.

Load 2009-8

Yesterday afternoon was the perfect moment in my IML experience. While I have issues with how IML is run, it’s moments like this that will get me back here next year.

For starters the guys who were taking over my blackout party wanted to come by to talk to me (NotSoInnocent and BountyHunter from BarebackRT). Then while I was waiting for them a hot black bottom from LA contacts me and wants to come over. While I was chatting with him the straight married lawyer who I played around with last year called me and was in the hotel and wanted to stop by.

First the guys who were doing the party got here. One was in leather the other in street clothes. Nice guys. We chatted a bit and then there was a knock at the door – it was the straight lawyer. He came in and was curious that I had other guys in the room who were potential bottoms… After doing his forceful dominance thing with one of the guys – basically sitting on him like he was a horse or a dog or something, he saw that my gear was out on the desk from the session the day before and he picked through it and started putting a collar on one of the guys. Then he got one of the floggers and started using it on the guy’s ass…

The other guy decided he wanted to get into his leather and come back, so he left. It wasn’t long before the remaining guy was tied up and the lawyer and I were using him. I let the lawyer lead – he has this subtle but persistent energy to him where he forces you firmly but gently to do what he wants.

After a while he had the bottom on the bed pushing the bottom down with his legs as laid back on the bed. I was flogging the backside of the guy’s legs. (BTW, the “bottom” is usually a top.) After a bit I took some rope and some restraints and basically did a loose version of a hog tie with the guy on his belly and his ankles tied to his collar.

Then there was another knock on the door. I was expecting the other guy doing the party to come back, but it was the black guy. I had told him the straight guy was coming over so he asked if he was still there, and I brought him into the room… He’s not big on S/M and just wanted to get fucked. He stripped down and presented his ass to me. I ate out his ass for a while as the straight guy continued to play with the guy who was all tied up.

I started fucked the black guy with him in a doggy position, then I pushed him into the middle of the bed where he was right next to the guy tied up and the straight guy started forcing him down on the bed with his legs. That lasted for a bit but the black guy was a bit nervous and didn’t like being forced down so he pushed himself back up a bit.

The straight guy had already started feeling the scene was changing and I could tell he wasn’t 100% into what was going on. He’s about dominance and control. He seems more interested in the fact that he could fuck you if he wanted to than actually fucking. He’s simply not motivated to fuck at all – it’s all about dominance to him. When the black guy pushed himself back up that was sorta the end of his attention span. Plus the bottom who was tied up was getting to his limit as well.

The straight guy got up, we untied the bottom to the point he could get himself out of the rest of what he had on, and I went back to fucking the black guy. The straight guy then asked if he could take the whip he had left with me the year before – he wanted to go walk around the hotel. I figured that was the last I was going to see of him and the whip, and he left. Then the bottom got himself untied and he left too – wondering why his friend hadn’t come back…

At last the black guy and I were alone, which was a good thing. I can fuck when I’m around other people, but I’m better when I’m 1-on-1… Being watched makes me a bit nervous. He had a bubbly full ass (and a lean body). His ass felt good, but it was a bit of a challenge getting just the right part of my dick rubbed the right way. I was starting to think I wasn’t going to be able to cum when I had him change a bit and I fucked him on his belly with one leg bent – so I was sorta coming at his ass from an angle. That was better, but I still wondered if I could cum. Finally he was almost falling off the bed (supporting himself with his arms touching the floor) and I found the goove and knew I’d get my nut. A couple minutes later he got my 2 day load up his butt.

We talked for a bit and then he was on his way. One of the things he mentioned was that I needed new pics – that my pictures didn’t do me justice. So I pulled out the camera and had him take a few. The first couple didn’t come out very well (see pic to the right – lol) – I was backlit so the initial pics were completely useless. I tried to get the flash to work, but finally gave up and took a picture in a different location in the room.

I then laid down for a bit and thought that was a cool ending to the last afternoon at IML. But then there was a knock on the door – the guy who was hosting the party had come back in leather. I told him I had just come, but if he wanted to play with flogging or something I was up for that. He had never been flogged and was a versatile top, but was willing to give it a try.

I knew I had to be pretty gentle on him since it was his first time. He pulled out a video camera and a blindfold and so we recorded his flogging. Hopefully he’ll put it up on a tube site so I can embed it here.

It was a good session. Couldn’t go all that hard on him, but he took more than he thought he could and actually got off on the pain, which wasn’t something he was expecting. Eventually my wrist was getting tired and he was starting to reach his limit, so we stopped.

All in all, pretty much the perfect IML afternoon…

I’ve been bugging my boyfriend to buy a better video camera. Actually we’ve been wanting a better still camera (the 21 megapixel Cannon EOS 5D Mk2), but I convinced him it would make more sense to buy a better video camera since we can make money shooting porn with the video camera, where a new still camera can’t really make us more money. (Of course, it’ll be a while before we actually see a return off the porn and we’ll have to put money up to may models in the meantime, but…) Anyway, I had picked out one I thought would be good and while it was more expensive than the still camera it wasn’t completely crazy expensive. Finally he came around, and decided right before I left for IML that we should get a camera. I spent a day trying to figure out which camera was really best and chose a different one than I had initially though. When I had him review it he wanted the professional version of the camera which was even more expensive. Long story short, we got the video camera he wanted, so we’re on our way to being able to shoot HD porn…

We literally got the camera the night before I left for IML. I spent the plane flight reading the manual and I was hoping I could videotape a few people while I was at IML. But since I hadn’t made any plans, that was easier said than done. However, one guy did say he was up for it, so I had him over. He said he was up for more than fucking and when I told him I was into stuff like flogging, he seemed fine with it.

He arrives and while he wasn’t like his pics (he was bigger and beefier) he was still pretty hot – like a big piece of man meat. He had this big grin on his face which just wouldn’t go away. Since I was videotaping it, I figured I’d do a variety of things and start with stripping him down, restraining him a bit, and having him walk down the hall to get some ice. So there he is lumbering down the hall in a jockstrap and boots with his wrist bound together and it strikes me – OH SHIT – my wallet with the key card is in the room. I’ve just locked us out of the room! There was nothing I could do about it right at that moment, so I wait to tell him until we’re almost all the way back to the room. HotBttmTO had the room next door and we had exchanged key cards, so I knock on his door hoping he’s in, but he’s not. There was nothing I could do at that point except leave the bottom in the hallway and run down to the front desk. Luckily we were on a pretty private side hallway, so it wasn’t much of a spectacle.

At the front desk they tell me they’ll send security up to unlock the door since I didn’t have photo ID on me. When I get up to the room HotBttmTO had just arrived and he let me in (thank god – didn’t really want to deal with security on that one). Luckily the bottom was still all smiles and while that was a hiccup, nothing bad happened.

We get into the room and I hood the bottom and put him against the wall to flog him. We had talked briefly about limits and he said his limit was “no extreme pain”. He had also mentioned that he was a regional title holder for Mr. Drummer some years back, so I figured he had the same definition that I did for “extreme pain”.

I start flogging him (had to use the two floggers I had bought the previous day). Started with the soft thuddy moose one, and then worked up to the cowhide one that’s sorta a low to moderate pain flogger (depending on how you use it). His back was getting nice and red, but he started having problems taking it. A few times he indicated that he was about at his pain limit. I hadn’t even broken out the wire flogger/whip I had used on the bottom last year. That’s painful, but even that’s not quite “extreme pain”. Clearly this guy had a different definition of “extreme pain” than I did.

Since he had pretty much had his limit, I wound that down and put him on the bed. Now I should mention he had a 000 gauge ring in his dick (a Prince Albert). That’s absolutely huge. A 00 gauge ring is the thickest gauge that will fit in my urethra – so he was bigger than that. In addition, he had a big thick copper cockring on – the type that goes down and pushes on your perineum. His dick was all shriveled, which I discovered is his reaction to any type of hitting (flogging, cock and ball whip, etc.)

I play with his body a bit and then his hole and I’m hard so I shove my pierced dick up his hole (I had the curved barbell in my PA). I’m not usually all that into big beefy types, but his hole felt good. He had lubed up and it was all wet and slick. After a little fucking I noticed he wasn’t totally clean, but it wasn’t so bad that I was going to stop. But as I fucked him more it became more of an issue, so I stopped.

I figured I’d videotape him douching. He was still hooded, so I led him into the bathroom, got him situated in the tub and used the shower shot on him. Thing was, I could tell I was putting more water up there than was coming out, so after a while it sorta seemed counter productive.

We went back to the bed and fucked a little more, but like I expected it was now an even sloppier mess up there. My dick goes soft when shit is an issue and all of that sorta put my dick out of commission and stopped the fucking. [And for thoe of you who are critics – no that doesn’t make me a bad top.]

So since I had this big beefy guy tied up on the bed I figured I’d have some fun with him and started playing with his dick and balls. My goal was to edge him and see how much he could take. So I licked his balls and his dick. Didn’t suck his dick – just licked it. He definitely responded and got totally hard. I licked and licked and licked. Looking at the time code on the video I think it went on for about 20 minutes. He was in agony ’cause he wanted to cum, but couldn’t. I gave him permission to cum, but he really needed to be sucked not licked to cum, but what was cool to me about videotaping it was the size of his PA. I tried very briefly to put it in my mouth, but that just wasn’t going to work and I had zero interest in giving him a regular blowjob.

Finally I just gave up getting him to cum and we wound down the scene. When I took off the hood he was in a very different mood than when I had put the hood on. He wasn’t smiling, he was withdrawn and was difficult to read. I kept pushing him to talk and explain what was going on, but he was just shut down. The more I pushed the worse things got. He did mention something about being upset about not being able to cum.

He did show me photo ID and I took a photo of it, but he was reluctant to sign the model release. He took a copy with him “to look at it”. He also said he was a cop and people didn’t know he was into fetish. So frankly I don’t think he’ll ever get it back to me. Lesson learned – have them sign before you start. The weird part was he said it was OK when he started…

After he left I sent him a message. I realized I may have pushed him past his limits and there could have been a point at which the scene started going bad for him. If that was the case, I apologized. He wrote back saying I didn’t do anything wrong. I have two theories of what happened… First, he felt like he failed – between not being able to cum and having a dirty ass maybe he felt like he disappointed me. Second, it’s possible he was high and the drugs wore off. It was such a huge change in mood I sorta suspect that was the case. Or maybe I did do something wrong and he’s just being polite… Who knows? It’s too bad it ended that way though…