Woke up Saturday morning a bit boned, wanted to fuck, but I wasn’t sure whether I was going to be able to cum. I was just one of those feelings… Anyway, the fact that the poz guy I fucked the other night had fucked Christian (from Treasure Island), and just a couple weeks before Johnny Miles from Horndawgz had fucked him, I was feeling a little left out. There was a point in time when Christian had shown some brief interest in hooking up with me, but ever after that he sorta ignored me. I figured IML was my chance to get in his hole. I saw him online and asked if he was looking and he said sure, but he wanted a blindfolded pump-and-dump (as if that would be a problem for me).

Bottom line I showered and was at his room about 15 minutes later. I gotta say, he’s totally my type – short, thin, skinny waist, hot ass… He sucked me a bit, but my dick wasn’t really in the mood for a blowjob, so I had him get on the bed on all fours and I rimmed his ass. His ass tasted a little funny, and before I even asked he said he had put a booty bump up there and I might taste it. I usually don’t like fucking guys who are PNPing, but he didn’t seem all that high. But I didn’t eat out his ass as vigorously as I usually do ’cause I didn’t really want anything in my system. Nice hole though…

When I went to fuck him he asked me to take out the curved barbell I had in my dick ’cause he was filming later that day and needed to be in good form. He mentioned he liked PAs, had one himself, but just couldn’t take jewelry up his ass right then. First I fucked him on all fours and then on his belly. I gotta say it was one of the most wonderful holes I’ve ever fucked… Imagine a thick silky muscular ring – that’s his sphincter. Maybe he had just lubed really well, I don’t know, but it felt like putting your dick in a silky bag that was tight at the top and then just a big chamber.

Thing was, I’ve come to the conclusion that what gets me to cum is when the underside of the head of my dick is rubbing against something when I fuck. It’s why fucking a guy on his belly is usually what gets me off. Thing was the only point of pressure in Christian’s hole is the first part of the sphincter. It may feel incredible, but for me at least it wasn’t rubbing the right bits of my dick. I know some of you will say I’m a lame top, but it’s just how my body is built. On top of all that I hadn’t eaten a meal in 24 hours – just Ensure and some small granola bars, so my energy level wasn’t where it should have been.

Bottom line, I didn’t cum with him (like I didn’t cum with Jarod Steel at last year’s IML), but it was still a good fuck.

A couple guys had given me their phone numbers and told me to call if I needed someone to drink piss. After going to bed at 9:30, I woke up at 2am and needed to piss, so I figured I’d call one of the guys. Unfortunately, I sorta forgot that the guy I called had said he liked watery beer piss. I had had 2 beers that night, but it was hours before. Actually it was 1 1/2 beers – I finished the second beer when I woke up.

Anyway, I texted the guy and he was over in about 5 minutes (you gotta love IML – urinals on call…) He arrived and asked if I wanted to use his portable urinal (a small plastic urinal with a hose that he had in his backpack), or have him drink it direct. I opted for having him drink straight from the tap.

He got on his knees, put my dick in his mouth and I started pissing. After the first mouthful he started gagging. I stopped and he told me that was possibly the worst piss he’d ever had. Mind you, he had had 12 loads of piss in the last 8 hours – he’s an expert piss drinker, so that’s quite a statement. Long story short, he did push through it and drank every drop of piss I had (and I had a lot to give), but it was really really hard for him.

In thinking about it afterwards, it was like the perfect storm of piss…

• Since I had just woken up after sleeping a few hours, it was a bit like first piss of the morning, which is always stronger. The beers I had had were hours before.
• I had taken “a pill” earlier that evening and that stuff tastes awful.
• I had come across my blood pressure meds earlier that evening and taken one of those. From experience I know when the coating gets off the pill the taste is almost unbearable.
• And ditto on finding and taking a multi-vitamin, which he said makes for bad tasting piss as well.

I feel SO sorry for the guy. He was such a good trooper to put up with my piss at that moment. He did it and he thanked me for it afterwards (with a text message). But honestly I’m once again reminded that being a piss top really isn’t as easy as you’d think…

So after giving two loads by 1pm on Friday I didn’t really feel the need to fuck. I spent the day wandering around the leather mart where I bought two good quality floggers – a soft thuddy moose one from Jeanette Heartwood (of NYC), and a general all-around cowhide one from Master André (of Montréal). Also pertinent to this story is I bought a curved barbell for my PA.

When the evening came I went and had a drink down in the lobby. I was just standing there when these two guys came up to me and were all over me. Both were beefy – built a bit like me, maybe a bit thinner. One had darker skin, the other was a white boy. I’m guessing the darker skinned guy was middle eastern, but I’m not quite sure. They were from a place that has gay marriage, but were not wearing wedding rings, so I wasn’t quite sure what their story was…

Anyway, within about 5 minutes we were on the way up to my room. The white guy was flagging top, the darker guy was flagging versatile. Other than that and what I could see, I really didn’t know much about their interests. We get to the room and they instantly start taking off their clothes. I was taught a long time ago that leathermen keep their leather on when they have sex – leather isn’t decorative. They took my leather vest off, but when it came to my chaps and jeans it was just a practical matter to keep them on since it’s not easy to get in or out of them – the chaps are custom made and fit like a glove – a very tight glove.

When they got naked I saw that the white guy had a PA and he said he had just gotten it a month ago. After they took turns sucking dick, I took a turn. It had been a long time since I’d sucked a pierced dick. What I remember from years ago was how the metal would hit my teeth, but I didn’t have much of a problem at all with this guy ’cause his ring was so small. The darker guy had this big fat uncut cock – it was a beautiful cock…

Given that I had just bought floggers, I tried them out on the guy’s asses. The white guy was more sexually aggressive, the darker guy was definitely in the moment but a bit more passive. The odd thing was the white guy, who was flagging top, seemed to really like his ass played with. He was the one who was sticking his ass in the air so I could hit it with the flogger. One sorta funny incident was I was flogging the white guy when the darker guy came over. He didn’t really watch and think and got in the way as I put the flogger behind me to prep for the swing and managed to get hit in the face with the flogger. Luckily it was the soft thuddy one and so it wasn’t a big deal…

Long story short the darker guy who had been flagging versatile wanted to get fucked, and the white guy started fucking him raw. It was the first time the white guy had fucked with his PA. I don’t know if the PA was completely healed or not – I remember with mine it wasn’t healed even after 6 weeks, but I think his was further along than mine. He didn’t fuck the guy long, then they wanted me to fuck him so he could feel my curved barbell up his ass. I was sorta eager to get into his hole so I could try out the new jewelry to see what it was like to fuck with, but then the regrettable words were uttered – “do you have a condom”. Of course I said ‘no’, but then he looked at the white guy and asked if he had one, unfortunately he did and he went to grab it. Needless to say I had to put a stop to where this was going, so I said don’t bother, I get soft with condoms…

We played a bit more, but typical to past experience, just the mention of condoms and now knowing I wasn’t going to fuck, my dick sorta lost interest in what was going on. I had taken a pill earlier so I stayed pretty chubby, but never went to full mast after that.

Now the surprising thing was the “top” suddenly became a big bottom and wanted the darker guy’s big uncut cock up his ass. The darker guy fucked him a bit, but his dick wasn’t fully hard and after a while he just stopped and that pretty much ended it.

I asked how they knew each other and they said they were partners… I wonder if either of them would have taken me raw if the other wasn’t around…

We then went down to the lobby and I got another beer, but when I was half done with that one I just wasn’t in the mood to be there, so I came back up to the room. HotBttmTO was in next door. We chatted a bit, I told him the story and since I wanted to try out fucking with my new curved barbell it didn’t take much convincing to get him to let me in his hole. It wasn’t a proper fuck though – just a bit of playing around…

Then at 9:30 I decided to go to bed. I was tired…

Load 2009-7

When I woke up on Friday I had to get some porn blogging stuff done. Just as I was about to finish that there was a knock at my door. I opened the door and there was an attractive guy, mid-40s, in business attire. He looked horny. I asked if he was looking for something and he said he was talking to someone online and they said he should come to this room – that it was where things were happening so he figured he’d come here on his lunch break. I was thinking, well, OK… I told the guy I was in the middle of something, but would be done soon – just come in and hang out for a few minutes. He came in, pulled out his dick, laid on the bed and slowly jacked…

I hurried and finished what I was doing and a few minutes later I was done and went over to him on the bed and asked what he was looking to do. He said whatever and asked what I liked. I said I was a top, so which he said “Oh, OK, we’ll you can fuck me then…” and then he proceeded to pull down his ass and present it to me by getting on all fours on the bed. He had blond hair all over his ass – I’d call it hairy, but not furry… Nice ass too, especially for a corporate type… I got down on my knees and started eating out his ass.

I got him pretty wet with spit, but he looked like he was going to be tight, so I ran and got a little lube and shoved in. I was a little worried that he might be dirty since he was at work and may not have been expecting to get fucked, but that wasn’t a problem. We fucked with him on all fours for a while. He was still wearing his well starched dress shirt so when I finally pushed him down on his belly I was careful not to wrinkle (too badly) since I knew he had to go back to work.

His hole was working my dick perfectly and it wasn’t long before I blew a huge load up his ass. It’s times like that when some cleancut guy takes my load with zero conversation that I wonder what his story is? Does he have a wife and kids or a boyfriend, is he poz or neg?

He then got over me and jacked off and blew the BIGGEST load. It was really thick and there was a ton of it. When I stood up it was like cum was covering my chest. I sorta wished I had taken a picture of it or something…

As he was cleaning up and getting dressed I asked him how exactly he heard about me (or the room)… He said he was chatting with a guy on gay.com who said he had been to the gangbang the day before and that he could find sex if he came here. I didn’t even know many guys still used gay.com – and definitely not guys who go around on lunch hour taking loads from complete strangers…

He was a good fuck though… I’d definitely do him again.

Load 2009-6

After the gangbang on Thursday I was wiped. I just hadn’t had enough sleep. After missing the one and only contest event I planned on going to last year, I had promised myself I’d go to the three big events this year – opening ceremonies, “pecs and personality” and the main contest Sunday night. So after the gangbang I headed off to opening ceremonies. Did you know IML is Chicago’s 4th largest convention?

When I got back from opening ceremonies I decided to just go to bed. At 4am I woke and as I expected I had a hardon and wanted to fuck. I got online and sent a few messages to guys who were online and in the hotel, but nothing came of it. But right before I was about to go back to bed a versatile guy who was supposed to come to the gangbang contacted me and it turns out he was in the hotel – just had entered his zip code wrong so he wasn’t showing as 0 miles away. Long story short he was at my room in about 5 minutes.

When he arrived he was a little shorter than me, thin, and attractive. He stripped down, sucked on my dick a bit and then I had my cock up his ass pretty quickly. To me this was pretty much a pump-and-dump. I hadn’t cum in days and just needed to unload. The only real distraction with him was he had shaved all over and there was stubble – not a big deal ’cause what I really wanted was a good hole and he definitely had that…

I didn’t last all that long – maybe 5 or 10 minutes then I blasted a huge load up his butt. Since I was still hard we changed positions and he rode my dick while he jacked off. After a while it was clear he wasn’t going to be able to cum, so we stopped and chatted…

One of the things he had told me before was that he was high viral load poz… His numbers are still good enough that he doesn’t need to be on meds. Because of that he’s gotten a number of bug chasers who want to hookup with him and he’s converted three guys that he knows of, plus however many who throw their legs in the air and never ask questions when he fucks them. Weirdly, one of the guys he converted since died – he was something like 21 and committed suicide. It would seem in at least his case that his bug chasing was part of his generally destructive tendencies.

After he left I went back to bed and didn’t wake up until 11am…

Well, I had the gangbang I was planning… I didn’t really know how many guys would show up. All in all I’d estimate about 180 guys said they were interested in coming, but some of them signed up a month before, others flights got in late, or they got stuck in traffic or whatever – and on top of everything else IML is a busy and competitive place sexually. The fact that 30 came isn’t – that’s 1 in 6. On regular gangbangs I think 1 in 3 is sorta the norm…

There was one top who came really really early – over his lunch hour, he was hot as shit but no bottoms were available. But that made me think turnout was going to be really good.

I’m not going to go into all the details, but the first detail is Tonynside didn’t show up after promising me he was totally into it, etc. For a bottom not to show up to a gangbang is sorta inexcusable. So, since I thought I could have easily had 60 guys here I went scrambling for another bottom and found Keiffer1 who said he was cleaned out and ready.

A 20 y.o. journalism student contacted me a couple months ago – said he was working on a story about barebacking so since he was in Chicago I suggested he watch the gangbang. He arrives early and it’s almost comical how he’s dressed. He looks like he thought he was going to a party at a yacht club or something… He’s got a buttoned down shirt, jeans that have the bottoms rolled up a bit showing his ankles, and trendyish white shoes… It was ALL wrong for an IML gangbang. But he was a sweet guy and the contrast was almost funny.

The first guy to arrive was about 20 minutes early and seemed high as a kite. He pulled out his dick and it was huge and thick. He started fucking the one bottom that was there – the guy in the adjoining room to mine – HotBttmTO. Then it started getting busy. The other bottoms showed up and quite a few tops.

The first guy who showed up (the guy who was high) seemed to want to bottom and since there were more tops than bottoms I let him get fucked for a while – until we realized that he wasn’t completely clean at which point I had to tell him to stick to topping or leave at which point he left.

Keiffer1 left early. He had come with a top and they said they wanted to take a break. Later he said he went to his room and fell asleep. I tend to think he got a bit overwhelmed by being the focus of a gangbang. But it was a last minute thing on his part and he was there during a critical moment when I needed bottoms, so no big deal.

When Keiffer1 left I was a bit panicked ’cause I was down to two tops and had lots of tops in the room, so I went online to find another bottom in the hotel. Didn’t find one but that was OK ’cause things sorta went down to a more manageable level shortly thereafter. There was even a couple of lulls where it was just the four of us – me, the two bottoms, and the student.

As far as loads, I think Blt2BFckd got the first load, but then it was neck and neck for a while there with Blt2BFckd and HotBttmTO. I think Keiffer1 got three loads before he left. But then HotBttmTO was the first to get a truly cummy ass and at that point more and more tops started cumming in him and Blt2BFckd started getting sorta jealous. I also sorta wonder if part of it was racial. Blt2BFckd is mixed race, HotBttmTO is white. I see a subtle form of racism all the time in how easy it is for me to hookup and how difficult it is for my boyfriend…

There was one top who came in at a point where HotBttmTO was way ahead. The top was mostly interested in Blt2BFckd, but HotBttmTO was REALLY interested in him to the point where he was trying to get the attention of the top as he was fucking Blt2BFckd. But the thing is, HotBttmTO had another top fucking him and a completely cummy ass. I was thinking “dude – don’t be so greedy – let the other guy get a load for a change…” It was sorta funny to watch. I ran into the top down in the leather mart today – he was working at the Dick Wadd Fetish booth. I asked and he was just volunteering – doesn’t work for them and hasn’t been in any of their videos. He seemed really into me, and also came across as really submissive. And he was Latino, which I hadn’t realized. If I see him again maybe I’ll take it a step further and see if I can’t play with him. But his being Latino strengthens my contention that there was something racial going on – with the white tops preferring the white bottom, where the mixed race bottom was doing best with guys of color.

As far as me – early on I was just about to cum in Blt2BFckd, but I held back. I’ve told myself 1000 times to never hold back, but it was early in the gangbang and I hadn’t even fucked Keiffer1 yet, so I did hold back. That was a mistake. I had only slept for 4 1/2 hours the night before and as the temperature went up in the room and I got more tired, my ability to cum decreased. I actually sorta wonder if I didn’t cum a little in Blt2BFckd. That does happen with me when I try to hold back. But I made up for it later that night, but that’s another blog post…

All said and done about 30 tops showed up. I had the journalism student work the door and take a load count as people left. The funny part was some guys couldn’t remember forgot who they had given their load to, so tracking the load count was a little imperfect and the numbers I’m about to give are a bit conservative – some of the guys may have gotten slightly more… HotBttmTO got about 13 loads (the cum was literally pouring out of his ass – tasted really good too!), Blt2BFckd got about 9 loads, and Keiffer1 got about 3 loads. So all in all, a pretty good gangbang…