I’m in Toronto for Christmas. I suggested to my bf that we go to a bathhouse (or “the tubs” as Canadians call them). I’d heard of a few guys going to Steamworks, so suggested we go there. He checked it out online and was good with it.

We had plans to have drinks with a couple guys who know I do porn, so we had just under 2 hours to spend at Steamworks. I wasn’t sure how I was going to perform so I took a pill just before getting there. Don’t usually take a full pill and was a little worried about it.

We get there, decent place and a fair number of people for the middle of the afternoon (which is always good). They’ve got a couple of dark mazes, a sling room, whirlpools, and dry and wet saunas – and a gym – so pretty much everything…

The first guy I hooked up with was in the sling room. He started feeling me up and he seemed to have a nice body (it was dark), but he wasn’t getting on his knees to blow me, so I left and he wound up following me. He was Asian and we wound up back at my room. There was some sucking and whatnot, but I really wanted to fuck. He finally put his ass up and I tried to push in, but I didn’t have any lube, and was sorta parched and couldn’t come up with enough spit. He wasn’t making it easy for me and seemed a bit reluctant. Then I saw him looking on the shelf by the bed for some condoms and when he didn’t find any he finally figured out I intended to bareback him and he ended things and left.

Next up was a black guy who came into my room while I was jacking my dick. He seemed to expect me to worship his “big black dick”, but I don’t do dick worship. When he said “tell me you love my big black dick” and I said nothing it was sorta clear things weren’t going to work. When I played with his ass he was into it. He let me rim him, but didn’t seem interested in getting fucked. He was into me and didn’t seem to be getting the fact that I wasn’t into him, so I said I wanted to take a break and walk around.

Next I saw this Latin (Mexican?) guy in one of the mazes, but I wasn’t all that hard so he moved on. Then I went into the dry sauna and there was this guy in there who was hungry to get fucked. Problem was there was a bit of a crowd and he jumped on someone else’s dick before I got a chance. But he wasn’t exactly a sub bottom ’cause as soon as he came it was over. The guy who was fucking him didn’t get to cum. But it was sorta funny that as he left he said “Happy Boxing Day guys!”

That got me boned so I went back to my room and jacked my dick. The Mexican guy I saw earlier came in and we played a bit, but once again he wasn’t really a bottom and things sorta fizzled.

I was starting to get frustrated ’cause I just wanted to fuck. I headed back to the dry sauna but saw my bf going in, so I figured I’d give him some space. This other guy was about to go in and he saw me and when I didn’t go in he came out and asked if I wanted to go to his room. This guy was a real bottom (finally), though a bit on the assertive side. I’m guessing he was Italian (he had a bit of an accent). He was probably upper 30s, and had a thick, but solid build.

Needless to say, after a short blowjob I had my raw dick up his ass. He was trying to direct things a bit too much but I still got my way more often than not. The weirdest part was that he was so into me he told me he loved me a couple of times. We fucked for a while, but as I mentioned I was a bit parched and couldn’t cum. It might have also been how non-submissive he was – not sure. But at least I got a good fuck in.

I had to run ’cause it was close to 5. As I went back to my room I saw a really hot young guy laying on his belly in a black jockstrap. Damn! While I might have gotten rejected if I had tried, I really wanted to fuck him, but I didn’t have time. The place seemed to be picking up and it was too bad I had to leave.

My bf didn’t have such a great time. One guy he was really into completely ignored him and then the cute guy went after a 65 year old guy. My bf knows the age ’cause he talked to the 65 year old guy later. It’s too bad my bf didn’t have fun ’cause it means when I travel with him he’s not going to want to go to the baths. Like I’d sorta like to go back today, but don’t think it’s going to happen.

Then we went and had drinks. Got to meet the guy behind Gay Porn Pig (who also does some other sites) as well as a reader of this blog who’s a flight attendant and has a couple of non-sexual blogs. The Gay Porn Pig guy gave me some great pointers about what I should do in the next year. The other guy was sorta funny – he reads this blog way too closely. There were little references I had dropped that he remembered with a bit too much clarity.

The Gay Porn Pig guy had to go so then we hung out with the other guy. We changed bars and went to the Black Eagle and managed to get kicked out of the backroom because we were talking too much and not having sex. That was sorta funny and a bit ironic. At one point my bf and the guy wanted to go for a cigarette and I wanted to stick around in the backroom (was hoping for a blowjob), but my bf wanted me to go with them. Guess I shouldn’t have gone. Having someone suck my dick would have changed the dynamics and made things more sexual. Oh well.

So all in all a good day yesterday, though I wish I had been able to give someone my load.

Load 2008-67

The last few days I’ve been wanting to hookup but it just wasn’t happening. I’ve been working really hard and only have so much energy for it right at the end of the work day before I just want to collapse on the couch with a drink.

Yesterday I went to do the final session for the research study I was in at CHEST (that study is now closed, but they have others you may want to check out). There was a guy on Adam4Adam in my neighborhood who’d wanted to hookup and said he’s be available when I got out of the study. So I texted him and went over.

When I got there he was in a bathrobe and had clothes on under that (not the sexiest presentatiion), but I could still tell he was hot. The bathrobe came off and we were kissing and I was feeling him up. He was really lea and muscular (his body felt really good).

I felt up his ass and it was possibly one of the most incredible asses I’ve felt in a very long time. IMO, it was a real “bubble butt” – no fat, muscular, and “perky”. I hear so many guys with fat asses describe themselves as having a bubble butt. A nice fat ass is an “apple bottom”, not a bubble butt, at least as far as I’m concerned…

I should mention that he had Annie Lennox playing in the background, which was sorta an odd choice given that he was Latino, but whatever…

So we move into the bedroom, take off our clothes ( I leave on my shirt). His body is just about perfect – lean, muscular, ripped, and his dick was huge – easily 9.5, possibly 10 (his profile says 8.5). He sucks my dick, I suck his a little. Then I rim him, he sucks my dick, etc…

I hadn’t taken a pill in a few days (took one on Monday when I thought I was going to hookup with someone), so I had stopped on my way to CHEST and gotten another leather cockring, but I don’t think I really needed anything with this guy – he was fucking hot!

Finally I shoved my dick in him (with him on his back). We kissed as I fucked him. Fucked that way for a while, then flipped him over and fucked him on his belly. Usually that’s the best position for me but with him it was a little difficult. His muscular ass meant there was a longer way for my dick to go before getting to his hole and his hole was pretty close to his balls so once again further to go just to get in. (Some people are built differently). He senses me having a little difficulty and gets on all fours. That goes well, but I really want to fuck him on his belly, so I push him back down. This time I get the positioning right and there are no problems.

I fuck him like that for a little bit, feel my orgasm cumming and then shoot a big load deep inside him. I do a few more strokes and then roll the two of us over and feel his washboard abs as he jacks his dick. He asks me “you came in me” and I say “yes” and he immediately blows his load. I can tell me saying I came in his ass is what got him to blow, even though he knew I had cum in him which was sorta funny since he specifically mentions “safe” in his profile. As he came his abs were literally rippled like a washboard. It was sweet.

We spent a couple minutes cuddling with a little kissing, then we got up, got dressed and I left. It was definitely a good fuck and a nice way to break a 2 week dry spell.

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If you remember it wasn’t that long ago that I thought the Brazilian was upset with me. Last night I had seen him online on BarebackRT, but was sorta tired. I knew he was available today, so we said we’d look for each other and fuck during the day. Then I wound up fucking the other guy last night and hoped that didn’t make it difficult to cum with the Brazilian today.

So I see him online and we arrange a time for me to go over to his place. I have to run a few errands before I go over and when I get there and buzz his bell a few times but he doesn’t answer. I try both of his phone numbers – no answer. A while back he had fallen asleep and a similar thing had happened. Needless to say I was pissed and wondering whether he was jerking me around, but there was nothing I could do and I just went home.

When I get home I see there’s a message from him saying something came up, he had to run downtown, and could we hookup at 1pm. If I had checked my e-mails before going out I would have seen it, so I stopped being angry at him, though a text message or call would have been nice.

So he gets over here a little after 1pm and we get naked (well, I kept my shirt on), and he gave me a blowjob. I think he was enjoying the blowjob, but it wasn’t all that great from my perspective. What I really wanted was to fuck. He had lubed his ass before he came over, so when he finally stopped, got up and bent over the bed it was easy to get in him.

I fucked him bent over the bed for a while, then pushed him onto the bed and fucked him on his belly – which is my favorite position with him. For a while I was wondering whether I could cum, but then I could feel it building and blew my load in his hole.

We rolled over made small talk for a couple minutes and then he had to be on his way and I needed to get back to work. I think he had another top scheduled for today, so who knows what he was off to…

All in all I think he’s getting fucked a lot these days. He’s finally discovered BarebackRT and he posts ads on Craigslist constantly. I commented on how many ads he’s placing and how he must be getting a lot of action. He just smiled and said something like “yeah, my butt is pretty happy”. What’s curious is that even though his profile still says he’s neg, his Craigslist ads never mention the word ‘neg’. We haven’t discussed it, but I wonder what point of the process he’s at these days…

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I was debating whether to hookup last night when this bottom contacted me on BarebackRT. Early 40s, Latino, and just a few blocks from me. His profile said he was neg, which I thought was odd for a bareback bottom in his 40s. He says he’s up for coming over and I tell him to come over in an hour. Then he’s late and I ask if he’s going to come over. He says he was vacuuming his place and wanted to finish then he’d be over. Weird response, but he does finally arrive.

When he comes in I recognize him from pics I’ve seen before (which were more accurate than the pic in his profile). He had wanted me to be in leather when I fucked him, so I was in leather chaps, leather vest and boots… We get things started and he sucks my dick briefly and then asks me how I want him and proceeds to lay face down on the bed. It was obvious he wanted to just get fucked. I tried rimming him, but the position was weird, so I just lubed up my dick and climbed on him.

As I’m shoving in he says he’s tight and he was right. Then he asked me if I liked to talk dirty. I can get into it a bit, so I tried to get into it and asked him things like “you like to get bred boy”? And he said “no, but can you pull out and cum on my face?” I just flatly said I like to cum in a guy’s ass. Then he asked me if I had my hood handy and I told him it was too much trouble to get and asked him if he liked anonymous fucks where he can’t see the guy’s face. Again, he wasn’t playing along with my attempts to talk dirty and said “no”. (Then why did he ask me to wear my hood?)

Then he started changing positions and generally disrupting things. In the course of things my dick started going soft (I don’t like bottoms trying to control the scene), but I did learn one important thing. He really liked feeling my full weight on him.

At one point I told him I didn’t think it was going to work and he asked if he had ruined the mood. I just said “whatever” and tried to pass it off. He didn’t seem to want to leave, so we laid there a bit and I jacked my dick. I asked him to suck my dick and he did a half hearted suck for 30 seconds and stopped. Finally I got hard again and climbed on top of him and continued to fuck him. He asked if I just wanted him to be quiet and I said yes…

So I’m fucking him on his belly putting all my weight on him. When I don’t have all my weight on him (supporting my upper body on the bed) he tries to get me to change things up and put my weight on his arms. It’s really clear what he wants – he wants to feel trapped and sorta helpless as he’s getting fucked. He suggests I pull out and cum on his back. And every time my breathing changes a bit or I slow down he asks if I’ve cum in him. While he never says not to cum in him, I can tell he doesn’t want it, but I can tell he also likes tops to overpower him…

So I just use all my weight and pin him to the bed and fuck him. He couldn’t have moved if he wanted to, and it was sorta like he was just a hole in the mattress. When I feel like I’m about to cum I keep my breathing and strokes steady until he’s got most of my load then I slow down. He asks if I came and I say yes. I keep him pinned to the bed for a while and slowly fuck his cummy ass (which he really seems to like).

As I expected, shortly after I get off him he starts wrapping it up and wants to go use the bathroom. I knew he was in there shitting my cum out of his ass, but he still got plenty of cum up there since he got a 4 day load up his butt.

He didn’t seem mad or anything for me not pulling out. Hopefully he’ll come back for more… The moral of the story is that if you get fucked bareback, you will get cum in your ass… Some of us just don’t pull out.

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There’s this guy who’s been corresponding with me for a while now about fucking him. For one reason or another we just never hooked up. In part I wasn’t sure he was really my type, but other times I just wasn’t in the mood to fuck, or there were scheduling problems.

Then last week I saw this ad on Craigslist saying a guy had recently turned poz and wanted to celebrate with a gangbang. I responded and the top who was organizing it sent back a pic of the guy I had been corresponding with. I didn’t go, but I did send the bottom an e-mail since I had just been chatting about hooking up with him like a week or so before. He got back saying it was him and that he had just found out he was poz and was trying to sort it all out.

Long story short, he wanted to take my load and I wanted it to give it to him, so we arranged for him to come over tonight after work. But then he sent a message this morning saying he was in sort of a funk about the whole poz thing and wasn’t feeling all that sexy. I suggested he rethink it ’cause back in the day (YEARS ago) when I used to get fucked I was most in a bottom mood when I was a bit down. He got my point and decided to come over after all and just lay there and be a hole for me.

He showed up and he was WAY hotter than his pic. When he took off his clothes he had this great body – not completely lean, but muscley in the right places and reasonably trim in others. And he had this really thick fur that knew where to stop, so to speak… He was definitely “good for his type”…

We talked a bit and he told me he’d been reading my blog for a couple years and it was one of the reasons why he felt more comfortable with raw sex and got more into barebacking. I didn’t say anything, but did the math on that and his present situation pretty quickly… 😉

Anyway, he was OK with me videotaping it (though not sure about it being pubic – so you guys may not see it). So I got out the video camera and set it up. Since it was probably going to be private, I didn’t bother putting on a hood or anything.

He gave me a blowjob while I was setting things up and then continued once I was ready to go. I had my PA in, so giving me a blowjob wasn’t an easy task. Then I had him get on the bed on all fours so I could rim him. He was a little “musky” so I didn’t exactly give it my all, but he had this nice hairy ass, and he had a piercing on the back of his balls – almost a guiche, but a further forward.

His hole seemed pretty loose, so I stood up and just shoved my dry dick up his butt. He had told me he sorta wanted the fuck to hurt, so I wasn’t too worried. There was some spit from my rimming, but still, taking a dry dick with a big PA isn’t all that easy. At least you’d think it wouldn’t be that easy, but he took it no problem.

He felt good to fuck. Nice hole. I was horny and somewhat unfortunately I came pretty quickly. But I guess that’s better than not giving him my load. I stayed pretty hard, so I kept fucking him slowly – almost pulling my dick out so it was just being held in by the PA, then pushing it back in.

Finally I pulled out, turned down the lights and we had a little quiet time when I felt his furry chest as he jacked his dick. After he came (in my mouth), we wrapped things up, got dressed and he left…

Hopefully I’ll get to fuck him again sometime soon… This time I really want to pound him and make him squirm ’cause I’m hurting him… Not often you find a bottom who wants it to hurt and I didn’t make good use of it this time – so I’ll have to do it next time. 😉

I’ve been feeling completely normal the last few days and had plans to hookup with a guy this evening but he sorta canceled on me (though it may still happen).

So I figured I’d fuck the Brazilian from the neighborhood since he has a party listing up on BarebackRT (which even states his address, though it says not to show up without being invited). But he didn’t respond to the message I sent a few days ago saying ‘hi’, and he didn’t respond to my party request. So I was wondering whether he was mad at me. I sent a message asking him pretty bluntly if he was mad at me or something. He didn’t respond to that either. It wasn’t long ago that he was asking me to come by and give him a load so I really don’t know what the deal is with him.

Next the piss bottom I fucked with my PA was online. I told him I wanted to fuck him and he volunteered that two guys had cum in him this morning, but he said he was scared of me. At the same time he was friendly, so not sure how to interpret that.

Then a early-20s guy hits me up on Adam4Adam and says he saw my XTube videos, he thinks I’m hot, etc. Turns out he’s a couple blocks from me, but doesn’t want to hookup ’cause he’s “paranoid about diseases” (I think barebacking freaks him out). So that’s not happening either…

UGH!

UPDATE: The Brazilian got back to me today, said he wasn’t mad or anything and wants to take my load (no specific time). Said he had enough tops lined up yesterday and didn’t need more. But he coulda said that yesterday, so I still think there was something weird going on yesterday…