Not all my hookups are hot – some are actually pretty bad. There was one like that this past Monday night. It was with the bottom who I fucked in December who didn’t seem to want my cum in his ass (but I gave it to him there anyway). I should say from the outset the fact that it was a bad hookup wasn’t his fault…

A huge part of the day my bf was being really pissy with me. Put me in a really really bad mood. When he left late afternoon I was able to get pretty hard ’cause I’d taken a part of a pill Sunday morning ’cause I thought I was going to hookup with this guy from Brooklyn (but it didn’t happen). But needless to say the spat with my bf put me in a weird mood and I didn’t know how it would go if I hooked up with someone.

He got here and my dick never really got above half mast. I just wasn’t in the mood. I was hoping I’d be up for taking my frustrations out on him, but it just didn’t work that way – and he would have been a perfect bottom for it. Turns out he likes it rough – he likes being degraded – treated like a pig. I told him he was a worthless piece of shit – that all he was to me a was a piece of meat and that totally turned him on. This time instead of resisting taking my load he really wanted it. He just wanted to be my cumdump.

I had some fun with him – pushing his face into the pillow until he couldn’t breathe, choking him a bit, and I did get hard enough to fuck him a couple times briefly… But it just wasn’t going to happen so after a while he went his way…

He lives just a few blocks from me so I gotta hookup with him again. I do really like how he likes to be degraded…

I’m really horrible picking up guys when I’m just out doing stuff. But sometimes it happens. That’s how I met the heavily tattooed Latino who lives near me – back in December of ’97 I was walking down 7th Avenue in full leather and he came up to me cute as a button with red Santa’s elf hat on… Anyway, Wednesday I was coming back from jury duty (thank god I didn’t get on the 2-3 week murder trial I had to do jury selection for), and this Latino guy was sitting across from me on the subway. It seemed like every time I looked his way he was looking at me.

I saw him grab his bag the stop before mine, but then he didn’t get off – he got off at my stop. We went up the elevators and when we got on the street he said ‘how’s it going?’. Then he asked my name… 5 seconds later we were at the front of my building and he asked if I lived with anyone. I said my bf, but he wasn’t home right then. He asked if he could come up – I said sure. As we were walking through the lobby he asked me if I were Jewish – he thought the buildings around where I lived were all Jewish. I said no, but there were a lot of Jews living here when we moved in – less so now…

The thing about casual hookups is you never know how they’ll turn out ’cause you really don’t know what the other person is into. He wanted me to lay back on the bed ’cause he wanted to suck my dick, but he wanted me to strip down, so I took of my clothes, then we got him out of his then we got down to business. But I wasn’t totally hard (hadn’t taken a pill), and he didn’t seem as interested in sucking my dick. His dick was rock hard and big – like 9.5+. I sucked him for a bit, then I got him on his back and moved from his dick to his ass and started rimming him. He had been out and about, so he was all musky, when I got to his ass it was almost pungent, but not quite rank – just a really strong smell.

He seemed to like me rimming him and as usual rimming got me nice and hard. I got up, he saw my hard dick and went to sucking it… Then he got me on the bed on my back and sucked me that way. He pushed my leg apart and really wanted to fuck me, but that wasn’t going to happen.

I got up and started playing more with his body and his ass. He had a great body – lean, with a small fuckable ass (small, but not flat). All of a sudden he came – nice big load too. I got down there and started licking it up and sucking on his dick a bit more, which he liked.

He really wanted me to cum, but by that point I knew he didn’t want to get fucked (or as he put it “I don’t take dick”). I knew it probably just wasn’t going to happen. He was hot and all, but I could just tell I wasn’t up for it. About this time I asked him about his wedding ring whether it meant he had a boyfriend or a wife – he said a wife…

Anyway, we kept playing – he stayed rock hard I sucked him some more, and at one point he turned around and presented his ass to me as I was down on my knees, so I rimmed him some more. Really got into it and was as close as I was going to come to actually cumming, but still knew it wasn’t going to happen.

When I stood up he turned around (he really didn’t want my dick near his ass), and after a bit we got back to things and I was sucking him some more, but he didn’t think he could cum again, so he washed up and we got our clothes on. When he was in the bathroom I was looking at him – great lean body – probably about 30ish, and like a lot of Dominicans he had this great natural color to him. Being as pale as I am I’m always a bit jealous of guys who’ve got a nice color – and I definitely loved the color of his skin – it was dark, but not black…

After we got our clothes on he was still horny and hard so we pulled out our dicks and once again I went down on him and this time I got his load – 2nd of the session. Stood up and showed him the load on my tongue…

I gave him my number as he was leaving – not sure if he’ll get in touch with me again. I would really really love to get inside that ass of his and dump a load up that straight butt of his… Wonder what it will take to get that to happen…

[BTW, he was so ‘pungent’ I couldn’t get his smell out of my beard and my bf figured out I hooked up with someone when he kissed me and smelled his ass in my beard. And that was after washing my beard about 3 times… 😉 ]

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There’s a guy I saw a few months ago – hot little tattooed guy. I remember him telling me back then he did gogo dancing. He’s not the pretty boy type – more of a tough little guy… Anyway he resurfaced the last couple weeks and he was the one who I didn’t hookup with on Monday ’cause I wasn’t sure whether it would go well given my mellow mood…

Tonight I wasn’t really looking – just sorta bored and looking at BarebackRT for the hell of it. He said ‘hi’ and I knew he was nearby so I figured what the hell – asked my bf if it was OK, and then went over.

I got there and he was really short which was sorta cool. My boyfriend is short, but this guy was noticeably shorter. He just had a t-shirt and underwear on so I could tell he was really thin too… This promised to be fun…

We went in the the bedroom, took off our clothes (I left on my tshirt). He got on his knees and started sucking my cock. He was so adorable… So tiny, so cute…

That went on for a while, though not too long given how long a serious cocksucker would make it last. It was a decent blowjob (no teeth, but wasn’t really doing anything special for me – which is pretty typical of me and blojobs). When I was cleaning up before I went over I noticed my dick was pretty chubby – it was like there was still a little bit of the partial pill that I took a couple days before that was still active. I wasn’t super hard or anything – just thick and spongey.

I wanted to rim his ass, which I think surprised him a bit. He seemed to like it – nice hole – his ass was a bit fuzzy which was cool. Eventually I had it really wet with spit, stood up, but some spit on my dick and shoved in. I love how little guys respond. Since they’re smaller it’s a bit more intense when they get fucked. It took a few strokes for him to get used to my cock, and then we were off…

Fucking him reminded me of fucking one of my old boyfriends (the one who got me addicted barebacking and blowing load up guys’ asses). With my old boyfriend I could literally get in deep enough to hit his second sphincter. I couldn’t quite do that with this guy, but it felt like it was close.

At first I didn’t know if I could cum all that quickly, but it wasn’t long before I felt my orgasm coming – gave him a decent load, though not a huge one.

We then laid next to each other and I played with his nipples while he jacked off (it was a dry orgasm). The whole encounter was sorta passionless – it was just a fuck. I think he liked me, but I wonder if the lack of emotion wasn’t due to whatever he was smoking.

The funny part was he told me I was a lot more attractive than my pics. Guess I need one of my tricks to take some decent pics of me on of these days…

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Monday night I had the place to myself so I figured I’d fuck someone. Thankfully, there were a few options. For starters, the older muscle daddy who I fuck pretty regularly e-mailed me asking if I was looking. Then there was this hot young guy on BarebackRT who had said earlier in the day he was interested (and was sorta pissed when I didn’t follow through). Then there was this this guy I’ve been wanting to fuck for a while who’s in my neighborhood, short, lean and tattooed (just my type). But the short tatttoed guy wanted to hookup right away at his place and I needed to walk the dogs, etc. Also, I was in a weird mood. I just wanted to kick back, watch some porn, and have someone suck me and get me hard and then fuck them. When it came down to it the older guy fit the bill perfectly even if he wasn’t as hot as the little tattooed guy…

PigMaster from BarebackRT had sent me the video from their weekend in Palm Springs the week before and I figured I’d watch it while I was with the older guy. He was a little late getting here due to traffic, so I popped it in and started watching it – the first scene (I think it might be the whole video) is a big orgy scene. It wasn’t long before I was about to cum, which was bad since I had someone on the way over, so I managed to stop from cumming and turn off the video.

When he arrived I got the video back running while he stripped down and then I just sat back on the couch and watched the video while he gave me head. He wasn’t being careful enough with his teeth so it was a little painful and far from the best blowjob I’ve gotten, but it (plus the video) was good enough to get me completely hard, so I told him to get on all fours and I fucked him while watching a guy get fucked on all fours in the video.

I don’t think my bottom really liked the video. He definitely didn’t get into it – he barely looked at it while I was fucking him. I think part of it was that the video was obviously a poz fuckfest where he’s neg and is the type that doesn’t want to think about that side of things, even though he loves getting loads in his ass…

Before long I was about to blow I felt it churning in my balls and asked him (rhetorically) whether he wanted my load. He said to spank his ass when I was cumming, which I did… I hadn’t cum in days and he got a huge load up there… He then started jacking his dick and I continued to fuck him until he blew his load. When I pulled out he wasn’t completely clean (but pretty close) so I didn’t try felching him or anything…

We talked a bit about things and then he left and I got back to some tedious work I was doing before he got there…

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I know I haven’t been very good with fucking bottoms this year. That is what it is, but I’ve been really horny lately and feeling the need to fuck. Yesterday I was on BarebackRT and I was wondering whether or not I was actually going to get to hookup. But it always seems like it goes from drought to too many offers and I had a couple offers, but this one guy was super cute, hot body, 20-something Latino. His pics were pretty kinky so I knew hooking up with him could be pretty fun…

I was sorta wondering whether he was actually going to come over, but then he confirmed he was on his way. When he showed up he really was adorable. He seemed a little hesitant at first, but then he seemed to just go for it – put down his bag and started getting undressed.

Some of his pics showed him in leather gear so I asked if he was up for it. He said “whatever” (in a good way, not in a sulky way). So I dug around and got out a hood, some restraints and a few paddles. When I was ready he had stripped down to his underwear which was a stripperish bikini with studded leatherette in the front, and fabric in the back.

I put some puppy mitts on him, since he hadn’t worn them before I made sure he knew to keep moving his fingers around. Then I hooded him, and locked his hands together with a heavy padlock. I wasn’t really sure what his him limits were and didn’t want him to have a negative experience and not come back. I played with his body a bit and then had him take a few steps forward and bend over the bed.

I pulled down his underwear and went to rim him when I noticed it – a HUGE uncut cock swinging between his legs. But he was here to bottom, so I mostly paid attention to his hole. Every now and then I’d pull back his dick and give it some attention, and I did feel it up a bit. His hole looked like it had seen some serious action/abuse. I was getting the feeling I could do pretty much anything with him, but still didn’t know where his limits were.

When I got his hole wet with spit, I stood up and shoved my mostly dry cock up his ass. I figured if it hurt he wouldn’t mind much, and given what I saw of his hole I knew he’d adjust quickly enough. It felt good being inside him – it had been way too long since I had fucked.

To make a long story short(er)… Fucked him with his legs in the air a bit then rotated him around and got him on his belly. Hoods on cute guys are a weird thing – it makes the guy into this piece of meat – a total hole, not a person. I hadn’t cum in days and knew I wasn’t going to last all that long. Since he was just a piece of meat I fucked him however I felt like fucking him – I knew he wanted something pretty intense, but right then I just needed to fuck and blow my load up a hole. Eventually I came and gave him a nice load.

I had taken part of a pill and had no problem staying hard, so I just kept pumping his ass. Then I pulled out and felched my cum from his hole – didn’t go too deep – there was plenty of cum on his ass since I kept fucking him after blowing my load. Then I fucked him a little more and then felched a little more…

My cock was sorta getting “done”, so I put this small butt plug like thing in his ass and I figured I’d switch things up a bit. I started with something light – a cock and ball whip on his ass. The way he had been put down on the bed his dick was pointing down between his legs, so I started using the cock and ball whip on the head of his dick – lightly (didn’t know his limits), but I could see him getting harder as I did it… Then I switched to normal paddles and paddled his ass.

At one point I laid next to him and mentioned that I didn’t really know his limits. He said “I don’t have limits – you can do whatever you want”. My mind immediately jumped to the whip I picked up at IML (the one I have a video of me using). So I asked if he liked pain. He said something indicating that he did in fact have limits when it came to pain, but was game to try. I went over to my “toy chest” and rumaged around and found the whip.

That whip hurts like hell – I know, I’ve tried it on myself. It’s homemade – just wires with knots in them. The wire is thin enough that it really burns when it hits, and then the knots make it even more painful. I started a little light on him, but pretty quickly moved to full pretty painful strokes. I couldn’t tell how far I could go so I asked him and he said the pain was about a 5 out of 10 which gave me license to really go full out and whip him pretty hard.

As I whipped him I could see the red marks forming. I wasn’t hitting as hard as I could but still pretty hard. When I’d feel his ass between rounds I could feel the whelts forming – they were raised and his ass was starting to look like tenderized meat. My goal wasn’t to take him too far, just give him a good ride.

Eventually I stopped. We laid next to each other and I took off the leather hood. He really was so adorable and you can’t tell that when he’s got the hood on. We kissed and talked a little. I forget what we talked about but I remember his lips were really full and it was cool kissing him. Eventually I got hard again and went back to fucking him. While we were intimate a moment before I could tell when he’s getting fucked he just likes being a hole. He never really looked back – he just took the dick.

Things gradually wound down and we started talking. He had graduated recently from a really good school and has a killer internship coming up that will really jumpstart his career. The kid is going to go places. It’s sorta funny – he’s not the first no limits bottom who’s is (or will be) really successful. There’s something about people who enjoy being abused – in the right combination with other attributes they can be incredibly successful.

I hope we can meet up again. I’m wondering if he doesn’t prefer PNPing. He was telling me about a top who “got him fucked up and then fucked him and used him in a sling”. It was rough enough that he went home with a cut on his face. I’m not going to do the PNP thing, and wonder if he enjoys it as much when he’s sober. Great guy though. I really am hoping we hookup soon.

After the hookup I was SO relaxed. Felt really wonderful. I had wanted to get a little more work done, but just relaxed and watched action movies on FX instead.

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Sorry I’ve been pretty absent lately. I was crazy busy with mainstream work, had a few deadlines this past Monday, and have also gotten wrapped up in possibly selling our place and getting something bigger (we don’t have enough space). Then when I got over the stress of all the work, I just sorta collapsed out of exhaustion. And then on top of everything else, my I asked my bf the other night if it some left overs in the fridge were still good, he said yes, but they weren’t, so that meant 24+ hrs of feeling like shit…

But Tuesday (before I ate the tainted food) I did manage to hookup with a hot black guy from the neighborhood. He’s someone I’ve been meaning to hookup with for a while but I couldn’t quite tell from the pics what he’d be like, but he was actually pretty hot in person… Nice guy, lean but solid/thick, attracive…

We stripped down (I kept on my shirt), he gave me a blowjob, I returned the favor, then he blew me some more. Finally I bent him over the bed and ate out his ass. His ass was big and muscular, so I had to work to get in deep enough to get to his hole. The best way I can describe things is that he smelled like a black man and the smell was strongest (but not too strong) when I was rimming him.

Since his hole was nice and wet and I had him bent over, I figured I’d just fuck him right then and there, so I did. I almost grabbed the lube, but didn’t and turns out I didn’t need it. His hole felt good. I had been really horny all day – constantly popping a boner. Even though I didn’t need it, I had taken part of a pill earlier in the day which always helps things (except this time it also seemed to give me a little headache). I was afraid it was going to help too much and I’d cum too quickly so I took it easy.

Then I had him get on his stomach. Usually this is my favorite way to fuck and feels the best, but it didn’t quite feel as good with him, but given that I wanted to prolong things a bit that was a good thing. He just laid there taking dick. Occasionally we’d kiss or something, but despite his being versatile, in that moment he was pretty much a sub bottom who was letting me use him. He had a great body, smelled like a black guy, his dark skin was a big contrast to my lilly white skin, and was submissive. Sexually racist fantasies went through my head, but didn’t really stick ’cause that’s not something I dwell on much. (I need to find a black guy who gets into that – could be fun. Years ago I had a black guy ask me to call him the N word when I was fucking him, but I couldn’t do it back then – definitely could now…)

It took a while, but when I finally came I blew a big load up his hole. It had been days since I had last cum and I knew he was getting a nice big thick load up there. I rolled him over and kept my dick in him like I often do. Thanks to the pill it took a while to go soft so I just kept slowly pumping his cummy hole. When I did finally go soft and pulled out he got down and cleaned off my dick.

We laid next to each other talked a little bit and I just sorta slowly stroked his back, ass, and head. I could tell he really loved it. He just laid there and didn’t move a muscle. I wondered which he liked better – getting fucked or getting this pseudo massage? I could tell he didn’t want me to stop, so it went on and on.

Finally I started getting hard again, so I stopped that and went back to fucking him. His hole was all wet and cummy and felt even better than the first time, but it’s not easy for me to cum more than once, so I wasn’t able to give him another load.

Then we talked a bit more and then wrapped things up. All in all a very good fuck to start the new year…