Load 2022-3

I really need to up the number of loads I’m giving. Three in a month isn’t great at all… But part of it is my dick being unpredictable for some reason.

A couple of weeks ago I hooked up with this clean-cut muscled jock guy who I fucked last year. Back then he was a bug chaser, now his BBRT profile list him as “positive”, so his efforts were successful 😉. I got hard enough to fuck him and he was loose enough I could fuck him with my PA in, but I pretty quickly I could tell I wasn’t going to be able to maintain it and definitely wouldn’t be able to cum – so I gave up. Meanwhile he had been rock hard the entire time, so I asked if he wanted to jack off and put just the head of his dick in my hole as he came. He quickly said yes, and like 15-20 seconds later he was blowing his load in my ass. Even just taking the head was painful (he’s got a pretty big dick for a bottom), but it was hot. I was then rock hard and wanted to go back to fucking him, but he said he can’t get fucked after cumming 🙁. I need to do another session with him. He’s a great piggy fuck. I’ve since learned he gets into fisting – so that could be fun. I feel like I need to get back into the other forms of raunchy sex – BDSM, fisting, piss…

Then a week ago I went over to fuck this black guy who’s a few blocks from me. We hadn’t really talked about how it would go… I knocked on his door and then I think I heard him say “come in”, so I tried and the door was open. I go in and there’s this gorgeous black muscle guy, blindfolded, ass up, face down on the bed. Long story short I rimmed him for a LONG time, then fucked him for a LONG time (like 20-30 minutes) – occasionally pulling out to rim him some more. BUT I was never quite as hard as I wanted to be and I couldn’t cum. He was really into my PA. For part of the fuck I did keep my PA in, but then took it out. When it was all over I apologized for it not being my best fuck and not cumming, and that didn’t seem to bother him at all. He wants hookup again (hit me up yesterday saying he was available on Saturday – but I’m not available then unfortunately). Anyway – he’s another one I need to hookup with again…

Then a day or two after that fuck I came across a guy on Sniffies who was really close to me. I couldn’t tell much from his pic, but figured he was so close it was worth a shot. He turned out to be this cool, young, mixed-race, scruffy guy. But there wasn’t really a good place to fuck at his apartment and he was really oral and didn’t like being rimmed. Oral does nothing for me and my dick chose that moment to go to sleep so I couldn’t get hard enough to fuck him. And I would have had to be hard as a rock to get in his ass – he was super tight. So we gave up and chatted a bit instead…

After fucking the first guy I had jacked off the next morning, but then told myself I was going to try (once again) to not jack off and only cum when I was fucking some bottom. But after repeated failed attempts I gave up and jacked off the morning after hooking up with the oral guy.

Yesterday I FINALLY managed to breed someone. A couple of options didn’t work out, but there was a guy who was in the general neighborhood who said he was free and could come over. He used to be one of my regulars. I first fucked him 10 years ago, but haven’t fucked him in 6 years. In the past he was one of the guys who’d gotten into “race play” with me, but we didn’t “go there” this time. He used to have a really tight body – now he’s still lean, but not “tight” – which is no big deal. I was a bit wary of how clean he was so I figured I’d finger him before rimming him. When I fingered his hole the inside of his ass was felt rough / beat up. I’m guessing he’s got anal warts.

[70% of gay guys between the ages of 16 and 30 have HPV, and that number just goes up as they get older. Once you’ve got HPV you can’t get rid of it, but you also can’t get reinfected. So if you’ve gotten HPV it’s safe to play with other guys who have HPV. There is a vaccine available. If you don’t have HPV – get vaccinated!]

Anyway the condition of his ass put me off wanting to rim him. So I just used spit and a little lube and fucked him as soon as I was hard enough to fuck. I initially tried fucking him with my PA, but couldn’t get it in his ass easily, so took it off and went back to fucking. The guy’s a sweet guy, but in that moment he was just a piece of meat with a hole in it that I could use to cum. I couldn’t quite get into a position that felt great, and I was starting to think I might not be able to cum, but then I felt it building up and a few moments later I was blowing a load in his ass.

I think part of the reason why my dick isn’t completely cooperating is my choice of ED meds. A few years ago the meds were all branded but the clinic I go to had a great deal on Levitra – so I used that. But I had always liked Cialis better, so when they went generic I went back to Cialis. I thought 5mg would be enough – so that’s the size pill I asked for. I’m now thinking it’s not enough, or that Levitra is actually better for me. The last hookup I took 5mg of Cialis and then took part of a Levitra as well – and I had no problem cumming even when things were less than perfect. So I need to experiment a bit – see if a higher dose of Cialis will work or whether I should go back to Levitra (or do some blended approach like yesterday).

So while I only gave 3 loads this past month, I have fucked 6 guys which isn’t too bad. I’m hoping to fuck a couple/few guys this weekend since it’s Pride, but then I have a family trip with no chance to fuck. When I get back I hope to do a lot more fucking. I wouldn’t say the pandemic is over, but it’s time to get back to being a slut… 😈

Loads 2022-1 & 2022-2

There’s a lot I could say about what’s been going on with me, but not quite ready to share all the gory details quite yet. One thing I will say is that I really miss the risk there used to be with barebacking – back before there was PrEP. I used to really get off on a neg bottom just trusting/hoping I was neg. It always amazed me that a bottom’s desire to be bred was stronger than their desire to stay neg. I mean I came out in 1989 – so for the first 7 years of my gay life sex was synonymous with risk – and bareback fucking was extremely high risk – it could literally kill you. So for me sex has always been a game of calculated risk.

Now with PrEP there’s basically no risk – other than with run-of-the-mill STIs that can be cured it’s all pretty much safe sex these days – which isn’t nearly as fun. 😈 Mind you, the “safe sex” feels 100x better these days than it did back in the day with condoms, but it’s lacking the edge. Among other things, I’m wondering if I should get back into BDSM and find a pain pig…

Suffice it to say COVID didn’t help my sex life. After having gone through the whole AIDS epidemic I’m wary of deadly infectious diseases that aren’t well understood. Plus, being 50-something with hypertension puts me at a bit of risk. So I just stepped back for a while. I did do some hookups last year, but not nearly as many as I would have liked. And this year Omicron made the infection rate shoot up really high. Just when it was getting low enough for me to feel comfortable it went up again.

That said, this isn’t two years ago, or even a year ago. They do understand the basics of COVID now and I’m probably really low risk since I’m 4x vaxxed. So can’t say I’ll be going to crowded bars or sex clubs any time soon, but I’m gonna start trying to do more one-on-ones, and maybe mix it up with quiet nights at the Eagle on the off chance it’s cruisy.

A couple weeks ago I fucked a few guys…

First guy was a gangbang at “that hotel” everyone’s using these days for gangbangs. There was another top in there fucking the guy when I got there. Both the top and the bottom were really verbal in a way that seemed forced and weird. The top was good about letting me step in and fuck. It seemed like he had been there for a while and was in no hurry to leave. I started fucking the guy with my PA in. But the room was really really hot and it was clear I couldn’t cum. So I took a break, took my PA out, and jacked a bit while trying to cool down. Then I went at it again, but I was overheating and could tell I’d never cum. So I gave up, went into the bathroom and tried to dry myself off with paper towels and then I left.

The next day I still needed to cum so I had this black guy over who I’ve fucked before (9! years ago). He’s aged, but he still had a great body – short, muscular – just how I like my bottoms 😉 I needed to cum so badly I didn’t last long. I felt a little bad about it. But I continued to pump his ass until I went soft, then we laid kinda spooning while I felt him up – which he seemed to like. For family reasons he’s in my neighborhood pretty regularly, so I’m hoping he’ll become a regular fuck buddy.

Then a few days later I was out in the Pines for Memorial Day weekend. I was supposed to hookup in the Meat Rack with this bottom off Twitter (who’s neg and not on PrEP 😈), but the Meat Rack is basically a huge maze and I wasn’t specific enough about where to meet, so about when I needed to get back I came across this bottom (fairly lean, probably 40-something with really short salt-n-pepper hair) bent over taking dick with one or two other guys waiting to fuck him. I joined the cue, the top who was fucking him came in his ass, and an older top started fucking him. But the bottom wasn’t really into the older guy (even though he had a nice dick), so he turned and planted his ass on my dick. Given the scene it was no big deal that I came pretty quickly. Problem was when I pulled out there was shit on my dick. Luckily I had brought some paper towels to clean up with. When I said “Shit, he’s dirty” all the tops except the older guy left. Either the older guy didn’t hear me or he didn’t mind fucking a dirty hole.

Hopefully tomorrow I’ll fuck the hot bug chaser I fucked last year. Thing is with bug chasers I’m often not sure if they’re actually bug chasers or just pretending to be a bug chaser. His profile now says “positive” (not “undetectable”) – not sure if that means he’s actually tested poz or that he hasn’t tested and he’s just assuming he’s poz. I’ll ask after I breed him. I like the idea of fucking a toxic ass – especially on a hot guy – it give me the element of risk I’ve been missing… 😈

Load 2021-3

Well, since I did my last blog post I fucked three guys (all Latino), but only came with one of them.

First guy turned out to be super close to me. Small, skinny guy (my type). Had a super clean hole I spent a lot of time rimming, and for a while I gave him a decent fuck. But the chemistry and positions were off. When I first arrived he seemed more into jacking his dick than getting fucked. He just seemed hesitant. I’d try to push him this way or that way to get into a better position with him, but he’d resist. At one point he mentioned that some positions were difficult due to a previous injury. He so close and so much my type he’s worth a second try one of these days. Maybe at my place instead of his. And the interpersonal chemistry thing improved vastly as we talked while I was getting my clothes on. Some of my first impressions were off with him.

Second guy was a 20-something cumdump who was taking loads in a tiny little hotel room in midtown. His status on his profile just said “negative”, so not sure if he was on PrEP or bug chasing. I gave him his “10th or 12th” load (he had lost track). He was a lot heavier than I usually like, but his hole felt great and he followed directions (so no problems with position).

The third guy had a profile name that suggested he was pretty experienced, but in person that didn’t carry through to action. He was also significantly heavier than some of his pics, though in his profile he did call himself a chub. He wanted to have sex in his living room – on the coffee table with the blinds open (his neighbors, not mine, so no problem there). There was no bed and the couch wasn’t big enough to be useful. He was very oral. He expected his blowjob (with teeth!) to get me fully hard. It got me about 80% of the way there. I was hard enough to fuck, but he was really tight. When I finally did rim him I did taste some cum – he said he’d taken a load before I got there. Finally I tried to put him on his belly on a pillow on the floor, but that just didn’t work, so I gave up and went home.

No not the greatest experiences, but not horrible either.

I went to the CumUnion / Milk Chocolate party this past Friday. The blizzard was scheduled to start during the party so I wasn’t sure how the turnout would be. Long story short, it was a decent party but not as good as most Friday CumUnions. Some Friday CumUnions get like 150 guys at them. They’re a lot of fun. I’d guess this one got 80, maybe a little more. I asked at one point and they were up to 50 and then more arrived.

I stayed about 3 1/2 hours and fucked 14 different guys before my dick became uncooperative. But that’s still a pretty good tally for a night. The place where it’s held doesn’t have any beds, so I almost never cum when I’m there, so it wasn’t a surprise that I didn’t cum this time.

I honestly can’t remember all the guys I fucked. So here are just a few highlights.

There was this one Latino early on who I fucked briefly who’s hole felt really good on my cock. But he was generally pretty picky and that was the only time he let me fuck him. His hole was the only one that might have gotten me to cum standing up. It’s too bad he didn’t let me fuck him again.

A fuck buddy / friend of mine was there. He’s black with a hot athletic body. Fucked him for a while. His hole felt nice and tight.

There was this really little versatile black guy had a leather collar and harness on and was maybe 5 foot tall with a tight little body. Fucked him a couple of times. One time there was a literal line for “the hot bottom” and I was waiting my turn with a hard dick and he backed onto my cock and then bent over the hot bottom. It was a hot scene.

I don’t think I ever got to fuck “the hot bottom” everyone was queued for. I kept giving up and wandering around looking for easier hole. Then when I finally got my turn he was exhausted and quit right as I was gonna fuck him.

Usually the stereotype is big guys as tops and little guys at bottoms, but there were at least two really tall/big bottoms who were going against that stereotype. One was a black guy. I usually don’t go for taller guys when I’m looking for bottoms since I almost never cum with them, but a sex party, why not? One of them was this hairy black guy. His legs were really long and since mine are fairly short (30″ inseam), there was no way I was going to be able to fuck him standing up, so I had him get on all fours on a bench thing. Even then I had to stand a bit on my tippy toes.

The other big/tall bottom was this white guy who was clearly a take-all-loads cumdump. Fucked him two or three times I think.

Oh, that reminds me, there was this one guy early on, had a body that was on the hot side of average (with a hairy back), but what was really notable about him was he was drenched in sweat when no one else was sweating. Clearly on drugs. He was vers and there were times when he was literally dancing around as he fucked bottoms.

Then there was this one tall skinny sub who was so submissive he just waited to be told what to do. I wanted to fuck him, but he was so withdrawn that he was hard to approach so I gave up trying since he never seemed to take the hint that I was interested.

The only sorta negative experience of the evening was when I fucked this one older pig who was bent over the fuck bench in assless rubber shorts. Things smelled a little off when I was fucking him and then when I smelled my dick afterwards it seemed “a bit too musky”, so I had to go wash.

In terms of other guys who were memorable – there was this one guy with a small pierced dick and tattoos. Fucked him for a bit.

And one note – if you’re a chub bottom who’s thinking of going, it’s probably not a good party for you. There was one big chub there. Seemed like a nice guy but he was getting zero attention. I’m not really into chubs, but I sorta felt sorry for him, so when he got on his knees to suck my dick at one point I just went with it. Unfortunately I didn’t see him getting much attention from anyone else.

There are actually so many bottoms that my impression was that it’s fairly competitive for them. I think the party is most enjoyable for tops and vers guys. (If the chub had been a top I think he would have gotten some action.) Usually at the parties bottoms just bend over something and wait for tops to fuck them, but for some reason there wasn’t much of that at this party.

And while it was competitive for bottoms it was also a little weird for tops. There were times when I’d be wandering around with a hardon ready and willing to fuck and couldn’t find a bottom. There’s a definite segment of the crowd that’s inhibited / picky / mostly oral / or a voyeur (pick one). Still, 14 holes in 3 1/2 hours isn’t bad. Imagine if there had been a full crowd with double the number of guys.

When I left it had started snowing. I went over to The Eagle to have a few beers with @PORTaURINAL and nearly landed on my ass several times since my boots have zero traction. But I got there. It was also quieter than usual, but still pretty busy. There was a little sex going on, but not much. By that time my dick was done for the evening, so I didn’t look for guys to fuck… 14 was enough for one night. 😉

Loads 2015-1 & 2015-2

One of my goals this year is to go to more sex parties, bathhouses, etc. Basically more “public sex”.  To that end I’ve been to three sex parties so far. I already wrote up the first sex party – a Friday night CumUnion where I fucked 17 guys. It was a lot of fun, but I didn’t cum.  A week ago now I went to another sex party where I fucked 6 guys, but I still couldn’t cum. Or, if I did cum, I didn’t feel it (that happens more often than I’d like).

Then last weekend I went to another party and this time I just needed to cum. The first bottom I fucked was this lean guy with a beard. He had a nice body on him and a sweet ass. I think he already had some loads in him when I fucked him. Part of the problem at the other parties was the venue doesn’t have beds, so I can get bottoms down on their bellies like I like. But this place did have a bed, so I got him on his belly and once I figured out his hole was feeling good on my dick, I just concentrated on giving him my load and I came a couple minutes later. There were several strong spurts so I think he got a pretty nice big load. Of course, once I had cum my dick wasn’t super cooperative, but I still managed to fuck 4 other guys.

This week I’ve concentrated on getting work done, not sex, but once I had a 4 day load in my balls I needed to fuck someone. The black guy in the neighborhood hit me up. I warned him I hadn’t taken a Cialis, so wasn’t sure how hard I’d be, but I needed to cum and I was getting hard looking at porn – it just wasn’t the instant and thick boner I sometimes get with pills.

He came over and I stroked my dick while he did something in the bathroom. When he came out I was pretty much ready. I rimmed him briefly and got completely hard. Then I lubed him up with spit and tried to shove in. He was surprisingly tight. Took a couple tries to get in, but I finally managed. Then I put him on his belly and just concentrated on giving him a load.  His hole feels different ways depending on how much sex he’s had recently. This time it was pretty tight and was gripping my shaft really nicely. It only took a few min before I blew a nice big load in him.

After I came we had a bit of a quiet moment sorta cuddling. Then I asked if he wanted to cum. He said yeah – apparently he hadn’t cum in a week… His dick was HUGE and rock hard. He jacked off and then put the head of his cock in me as he blew his load. Then he kept jacking ’cause his dick was staying hard and he thought he could beat out another load, but he never did manage to cum again. Still it was nice to go back to work with a load in me without having to really get fucked. The Bareback Brotherhood is about sharing DNA with each other, right?

So we’re two weeks into the year and I’ve only given two loads. I’m a little disappointed. Sorta wish I were at double that number, but I’m having fun. I mean I’ve fucked 30 holes this year many of which were nice and cummy… So my dick is seeing a fair amount of action. Now I just have to try to cum more often.

Load 2014-9

There was one fuck a few weeks ago I never got around to writing up. Then I was sick for two weeks straight with a bad head/chest cold, but finally I’m back in the land of the living with just an occasional cough.

Yesterday I was pretty horny. I hadn’t cum in a few days. I felt like I wanted to fuck in the morning just so I could focus on work, but then I had a semi-unproductive day since I hadn’t cum. Oh well. I knew there was a gangbang in the evening and that was sorta my fallback plan. Thing was, the bottom was sorta borderline my type.

Then one of my favorite bottoms hit me up. He comes before just about anyone else. I mean he’s totally my type – Asian, short, compact body with a little muscle, and he’s cute, and a genuinely sweet guy. In the meantime I was chatting with one of my fuckbuds and he said he had fucked the bottom who was getting gangbanged and that the guy had a nice hole. But I really wanted to fuck the Asian guy. I’ve been in a mood lately where I prefer familiar over new.

The Asian guy and I met up, but things just didn’t go as well as usual. I’m not quite sure why. Maybe my blood sugar was low. Maybe there was too much chatting before sex (I do prefer things a bit anonymous – at least initially). The first few positions we fucked in were a little weird, which didn’t help. But the bottom line is that I just couldn’t cum with him even though he’s totally my type, something was off with him last night.

As I was leaving I was a little demoralized – I felt like I just failed with him. The gangbang was just 8 blocks away. I figured I’d give it a shot, but I wasn’t hopeful – I mean I was rather worried about my performance. I did pick up a Coke just in case blood sugar was the issue.

I got over to the gangbang and there was the host (with a big thick dick), and the bottom was on the bed getting fucked by some other top. I took off most of my clothes and the other top pulled out and offered the guy’s ass. I wasn’t hard yet, so the host ordered the bottom to suck my dick, but honestly I wanted to rim the guy. He had 5 loads in him already. I knew if anything was going to get me hard it would be a cummy hole.

I was right about one thing – physically the guy just wasn’t really my type, but once I was rimming his cummy hole none of that mattered. It tasted really good. Needless to say after a few minutes I was hard enough to fuck. He was still sucking the other top’s cock, so I fucked him doggy style.

Doggy style usually isn’t a position I cum in very easily, but his hole just felt right on my cock. After my earlier performance issues I was a little surprised when I felt my load cumming just a couple minutes after I started fucking him. Why couldn’t it have been that easy with the Asian guy? My load was pretty big – definitely gave him more than I took when I felched him.

So my dick is weird sometimes. I can’t really say exactly why things didn’t go right with the Asian guy, but at least I gave a load to someone.