Load 2012-41

Sorry for writing this up a week late – I’m on my 5th day of being sick as a dog with viral gastroenteritis…

So last Saturday my “nigger” fuckbud came over. I know he’s versatile and always wants to top me. It’s not like I was going to let him, but I’ve hooked up with him enough I didn’t mind if he fantasized about it… 😉 So I tried to douche a bit – I wasn’t shooting for 100% clean, ’cause I had no intention of getting fucked – just clean enough that he rimmed me or something it wouldn’t be disgusting…

He gets here, we strip down, he asks how things are going and we actually get into a rather involved conversation about the problems white folks face in Harlem, but we eventually wrap that up and get down to playing… I rim him to get me hard, then let him suck my dick. Then while he’s sucking my dick we get into sort of a 69 position and I start rimming him some more. I spread my legs and make it clear he can play with my ass (I know from experience he wants to, but usually I don’t let him do anything down there).

All of a sudden something felt a little weird down there and he tells me I just expelled a bunch of dirty water all over the bed. UGH! I really am not made out to be a bottom! There was still a little water up inside me and it came out at the wrong moment. So I get up, pull the sheets off the bed, go into the bathroom and clean them a little bit, and then come back and we try to resume. It took me a little while to get back into the swing of things but we get there.

It’s just he always wants to cum when we hookup and I find it’s hotter for me if he cums before I do. I figured he could get off playing with my hole and thinking about fucking me… So I lift my legs, show him my hole, and he jacked off while I taunted him about how he’d like to cum inside me… He kept wanting to fuck me – said he didn’t care if I was a little dirty… He just wanted to be inside me. But getting fucked wasn’t something I was interested in. I mean while the idea of taking loads is hot, 1) I hate getting fucked, 2) he has a big black cock which would make me hate getting fucked even more, and 3) I was dirty and I hate shit. Instead I tweaked his nipples while he came about as close to fucking me as you can get without actually fucking – and that was enough to get him to cum.

I then put him on all fours and shoved my pierced dick in his ass. I may not get fucked, but he most certainly does. I fucked him briefly on all fours and then pushed him down on his belly. He really wanted to jack his dick, but that just wasn’t going to happen. He’s a pretty well built guy with a big hard meaty ass so finding the right position took a while, but I finally got there. I was telling him he was a good nigger hole – made for breeding, he told me to fuck him hard. Happy to take that queue I slammed in and out of his ass and pulled out longer on each stroke so the ball on the underside of my dick would tear up his hole a little each time I pulled out.

As I got close to cumming I changed things up a bit – “You really wanna poz me don’t you? You want your poz load deep in my neg ass, don’t you? I know you wanna be my poz daddy…” I knew he’d like talk like that but he responded even more strongly than I thought he would. I came a few seconds later and then he was so worked up from the poz talk he wanted to jack off again. I’d cum, so this time it wasn’t going to be about my hole. He just laid on the bed and jacked off and asked me to suck on one nipple while I played with the other. This was what I was trying to avoid by letting him play with my ass in the beginning, but he was a bit in a frenzy so I knew it wouldn’t take him long to cum, and it didn’t – he blew a decent sized load all over his belly a few moments later.

All in all it was a hot hookup… It’s fun to see a guy get so into it…

Load 2012-38 & 39

So with life settling back to normal I’ve wanted to be a little more experimental sexually. I saw an Oxballs cock sheath advertised and it looked cool – figured it would make my cock thicker so I could give bottoms a harder, rougher fuck. So I ordered it and it happened to get here yesterday – 4 days before they said it would – literally a few minutes before the black guy from the neighborhood arrived to get fucked, so I figured I’d try it out on him…

I was little worried I wouldn’t be hard enough to use it, but that wasn’t an issue… It fit right over my half hard cock and I had no problem pushing right in his ass.

I was actually a little disappointed – here my dick just got A LOT thicker and the bottom just took it like it was nothing – like it was my regular cock. I hadn’t told him I was going to use it on him or even shown it to him. You’d think he’d reach around to figure out what I was fucking him with – I mean that can’t feel like a normal dick.

I fucked him pretty rough (that is the point of toy like the cock sheath), and while I was fucking him I was calling him my “nigger boy”, etc. And just to be clear – this is a black bottom who is only into white guys and likes race play. But I gotta say the whole nigger/slave thing – just wasn’t fitting somehow… I mean it was fine, but it didn’t feel like the edge of the N word was doing it’s trick. I think part of the issue is that he wasn’t saying anything back that built on that theme… Even, “Yes Sir, thank you Sir” would have been good. Or better yet “Yes Massa”. But anyway…

I was thinking when I ordered the cock sheath that it would decrease my sensitivity and it would take longer to cum as a result. Wrong. I came just as quick. Yes, the sensitivity was less, but it was also a different sensitivity. The cock sheath really squeezes your dick – and that’s always helped when I used to jack off, etc. So so much for getting me to get the fuck to take longer.

Unlike the other cock extenders that Oxballs has, the whole point of this one is that it’s open at the end, so when you cum, the bottom gets your load. After I came I fucked slowly in and out a bit and then pulled out and took off the cock sheath. He never did ask about it. Go figure. Probably has to do with the fact that he was “a little high” when he stopped by.

This morning I figured I’d play with it a bit and take a few photos. What I realized is that it’s quite good with semi-hard cocks. I can see why the PNP crowd would probably like it. As you get soft your dick just recedes into the sheath a bit like this…

But because it holds your dick so tightly you actually stay pretty hard. I could actually see wearing it at a sex party ’cause you can fuck when you’re half-hard. It’s like your cock is inside a dildo and you’re fucking the bottom with a dildo. When you do finally get hard, you’re all there and you can dump your load in the bottom.

Today the same bottom texted me saying he just took a 2 week load, so while I try not to fuck the same guy twice in a row, I told him to come over. Unfortunately I couldn’t taste the load when I rimmed him, and his ass didn’t feel all that silky when I fucked him. 🙁

What’s sorta funny is this time I didn’t use the cock sheath and he had a problem taking my dick – took me a while to get in and the ball on the underside of my dick (from the curved barbell in my PA) was a bit of a problem. The day before he was a bit high and doing poppers – what a difference those two make!

Anyway, it was a 9 minute pump-n-dump including taking clothes off, chit chat and cleaning up, and then he was on his way… It is handy to have someone a few blocks away who is practically on-call when I need a hole.

Load 2012-37

There’s a bottom who I’ve been in a lot of contact with lately, but timing always sucks. Well, Saturday morning things worked and I went over to his place. He told me he’d have the door unlocked and he’d be on the bed face down, ass up. It all sounded pretty good, but honestly I was sorta in the mood for something a little more relaxed. Still, anonymous is always a good way to start…

I got to his place, the door wasn’t ajar, but since the doorman had just called his number and he had told me he’d be waiting on his bed, I tried the knob and it was unlocked. Usually in anonymous pump & dumps the lighting is pretty low, but all the blinds were open and there was tons of light (not a problem – just more of an observation). He had an alcove studio, so I went over to the alcove and there he was just as he said he would be.

I wasn’t in a rush so I took off all my clothes and got down on my knees to rim his hole. The hole was a little musky, but seemed pretty clean so I had some fun with it – sucking on it, etc. Too bad there weren’t other loads in there. I love when I suck on a guys ass and he can push out cum from other tops. That got me hard, so I stood up and went to fuck him. There were several bottles of poppers around, but I didn’t see any lube, so I got things as wet as I could with spit and pushed in.

Long story, but I had pushed stretching my Prince Albert too far to quickly (ball stretching & PA stretching at the same time is a bad idea) and then slept in the bigger ring which irritated it, so I had to take it out, give it a few days of nothing and then start all over. I had just put the curved barbell back in the day before and even it was pretty sore and irritated. But he took the extra ball on the bottom of my dick without a problem.

He had a nice tight hole – I almost wonder if he was clenching to give me a good fuck. But what was interesting was that I seemed to hit bottom in his ass really easily. That doesn’t usually happen unless the guy is around 5’4″ and this guy was maybe 6 inches taller than that. Usually I love hitting bottom but every time I did my PA would shoot out a bit of pain. It wasn’t particularly happy about fucking when it was so tender.

I lasted maybe a little bit longer than usual, but still came pretty quickly. It was at this point that the bottom said “stay inside me” – which I intended to do anyway, but the problem was one of position. I tried briefly to lay on top of him, but I’m a big guy and didn’t know whether my weight was too much for him. I went to roll us over one way but didn’t want to be looking into the mirrored all (too much looking at each other for an anonymous fuck). So I rolled the other way, but it was a little awkward – like he didn’t really want to or he wasn’t expecting it or something.

There was just something a little off with the chemistry at this point. Best I can describe it is the bottom wasn’t relaxing and just being in the moment. Still, I pumped my dick in an out of his hole. Since I had cum I wasn’t 100% hard, and with the position we were in my dick was a bit bent. But I found if I pushed with my fingers where the bend was that I could continue to fuck him pretty well.

One thing I did was pull my cock so it would almost come out. This was the thing that caused the bottom so much pain a could weeks before – when the ball on my PA repeatedly gets inside the sphincter it can be painful. Though a couple weeks ago i was really slamming into the guy’s ass – this was just a relaxed, slow fuck. I chatted briefly with him afterwards and he didn’t mention any pain – so I don’t think that was the case this time. Still, I imagine he got the sensation of feeling the ball on the PA every time I pulled out.

As I was starting to get soft I pulled out. I really wanted him to clean off my dick, but he didn’t volunteer and I didn’t force the issue. I got up and felt his cummy ass.  I couldn’t resist so I licked some of the cum up (tasted good!). All in all the bottom seemed to want a quickie pump-n-dump, so I figured I’d leave. He said I could take a shower or whatever, so I went into the bathroom and tried to clean my dick – not because he was dirty, but because I knew my PA needed the cleaning. I pissed a little in his sink and then used soap and water for the rest.

When I came out he said I could stay longer, but I wasn’t really feeling that vibe. Honestly I think he read the blog saw some of the pump-n-dump hookups I’ve been having lately and tried really hard to give me what he thought I wanted. You can’t fault a bottom for that, but I sorta wish he hadn’t tried so hard.

As I was dressing he apologized – he had looked back and seen me. Clearly he was trying to live by a rulebook he got off the blog. Guess he missed the part about how I like to start pretty anonymous, but the ending doesn’t have to be. Then I realized my keys weren’t in my pocket, so we looked around for them a little (turns out I had left them at home). Then I was off.

All in all a good fuck…. While the bottom tried to hard to please, what he proved to me is he’ll probably give me whatever I want. I could probably rough fuck him with my big PA, or even get into BDSM with him and he’d take it light a champ – ’cause he works so hard to please. So in the end it’s all good…

There was a little funny incident as I left the building. As I came in I saw what I thought was an older leather queen on his Harley outside the building. He had the leather vest on with pins all over it – very old school leather bar. Then as I was coming down the elevator these two guys were talking and by the conversation it seemed one was the coop board president. I walked behind the president as he left the building and the old leather queen was still outside and they started chatting about how he didn’t know if he was going to go for a ride upstate because it might rain. I just thought “only in New York” are regular people so accepting of difference. I mean there’s a chance the guy wasn’t gay – that he was straight and part of some aging motorcycle club, but it was the West Village and the guy looked 110% like the old guys you used to see at the LURE on a Saturday night. I mean full leather with all the pins stuff to prove their track record in the community. And here was this older (probably) Jewish guy who probably had 2 kids, 4 grandkids treating the leather queen and his issues like they were completely normal. THAT is why I live in New York.

Load 2012-36

This morning started pretty well, I had nice morning wood (see pic to the left), but the last few days my sex drive has been low. I’ve been spending a lot of time on Tumblr – I feel like I’m almost oversexed – looking at porn literally all day. Bottom line is I haven’t getting getting good stiff hardons the last few days – just lazy semi-chubby ones. Case and point yesterday I was laying out tanning – the bulge in my underwear was nice, but it would have been a lot nicer if I had been at least semi-hard, but my dick wasn’t cooperating.

Anyway, this morning I was encouraged by my morning wood, so when a fuckbud from the neighborhood (the one I videotaped a few weeks ago) hit me up I asked how quickly he could be over for a pump-n-dump. About 40 minutes later he was at my place…

He wanted to be abused, degraded and fucked roughly, slapped around, etc. I took him down to the cellar in my building. There’s a dark storage room – it’s filthy dirty.

I had told him to wear shorts and no underwear. He had complied. I pulled down his shorts, bent him over and rimmed his hole. Usually that gets me hard pretty quickly. I got a bit of a chubby, but wasn’t getting fully hard. His hole tasted good – tasted like ass, but clean ass…

Long story short on the next bit – I keep trying to fuck the guy, but my dick just didn’t cooperate. I wasn’t getting hard enough to fuck properly. It was really frustrating. I’d pull out and finger his hole. He’s so loose I think he could get fisted. I’d shove two, sometimes three fingers in his hole and he could take it no problem. Thing was, there was just something about that day/environment/whatever that my dick wasn’t fully cooperating.

The only time things went sorta well was when I had him on all fours and I was fucking him doggy style. I wouldn’t say it was a good fuck – far from it, but it was a fuck. At one point I was jacking trying to get myself hard enough and I started feeling my orgasm building. Weird… Seemed like it was going to be one of those days when I cum without being fully hard… So I get him on all fours and fuck him semi-hard and managed to blow my load without a problem. Go figure. It was a decent, 5 day load.

We got up, cleaned off a bit, and left.

All in all it was a bad fuck, but totally my fault. The bottom was wonderful – he did his part and was even nice about it afterwards saying he enjoyed it (believe it or not) – that being put flat on his belly on a dark dirty cellar was hot and while it wasn’t the best fuck, he did get my load which tweakers (who can fuck for hours) often can’t achieve. That’s looking on the bright side of things I guess, but hey at least I gave him a load…

Now that the stress of renovations is over I’m starting to relax and get back in the groove. Sex is less mechanical and I’m experimenting a bit more. I’ve got the big 0 gauge ring back in my PA, and this morning I put my old ball stretcher back on my scrotum…

I’d sorta like to have nice low-hanging balls… I got the ball stretcher YEARS ago used it a little back then and then just put it away and didn’t use it.

So I’m wondering if any of you have experience with stretching your ball sack?

For starters can the stretching be permanent or semi-permanent or do you shrink back to where you were over time?

How long does it take to stretch your balls to a point where they hang lower without the stretcher on them?

Do you have to be rather extreme with the stretching (parachute stretchers with heavy weights), or will a ball stretcher like the one in the pic do the trick over time?

Actually, when I get my sling set up I should get a parachute ball stretcher and fuck with weights on my balls… Standing and fucking a guy in a sling would be perfect for that sort of stretcher.

Actually there’s a funny story about that ball stretcher… I took it on vacation with me to Puerto Rico years ago. When I was coming back they saw it as a suspicious dark spot when they XRay’d my bag. A rather cute Puerto Rican agent dug around, found it, and examined it carefully. When he couldn’t figure it out he asked what was inside it. I said “sand”. He examined it a bit more, and finally said “What’s it for?” I smiled and said “You don’t want to know”. He put it down faster than a hot potato and told me to have a nice trip.

So if any of you have advice on ball stretching, please put it as a comment below. It’ll be much appreciated.

One last thing – think Abercrombie might have an ad like that (notice that my boxers are Abercrombie)… They do push the envelope… Would be cool if they’d push it that far… 😉

Load 2012-35

Unfortunately I haven’t been able to fuck much this week, and it will probably be like that next weekend too. Long story, but my bf is stressed and he doesn’t want me having fun while he’s crazy busy. Wish it weren’t like that, but it is. But finally he told me I could hook, but said he didn’t want it to take long – no problem… The black cumhole from the neighborhood said he’d come over, but then admitted a little later that he didn’t feel well – he’d been in bed all day. So I got on BBRT and couldn’t find anyone. Then I got on Adam4Adam and a little Latino from Washington Heights said he’d stop by on his way to work.

He got here exactly on time. We went to the bedroom, stripped down, I closed the blinds and took out my PA (it was still too sensitive since it had only gotten the big ring in it a day before). He went to suck my dick, but I told him to get on the bed – I wanted to rim him. He had a decent ass & hole – got me hard pretty quickly. I figured I’d let him suck a little, so I got up on the bed, but while he was giving me a blowjob I reached over and got the lube and started lubing up his hole. When he was lubed he stopped sucking and got on his back with his legs up.

I’ve been sorta boring about fucking lately – always push the bottom down on his belly, but this time I figured I’d try something different and fuck him missionary style. I shoved in and could feel the head of my dick get past his 2nd sphincter (I love little guys exactly for that reason). He was in pain, which I sorta liked, but he wasn’t so fond of. He asked for more lube, which I supplied and kept fucking him. I could get in nice and deep in this position and it felt good. Usually I associate missionary with kissing, but he wasn’t the kind of bottom I wanted to kiss. He was a hole that was there so I could finally cum after 7 days of holding it in. On the plus side he didn’t seem to want me to kiss him – so it was all good…

He jacked his dick as he was getting fucked. I’m wondering whether he reads the blog and knows I cum quickly ’cause it wasn’t long before I was blowing my big, 7 day load up his hole and he came at the same exact time (more exciting for him than me). He didn’t cum much – it was sorta watery and clear – but some of it nearly got up to his nipple.

We laid next to each other on the bed for a little while afterwards. I was hoping he’d clean off my cock, but he didn’t. Usually after a fuck I’m pretty tender with the bottoms, but it was awkwardly not that way with him. Maybe I should have shoved my dick back in his cummy hole or something (hindsight is 20/20). Finally it sorta just became apparent it was time to go. I had told him I just wanted a quickie and he needed to get to work, so it wasn’t awkward or anything.

Then he asked to use my bathroom. I went in with him – I wanted to wash off my dick. That’s when he sat on the toilet and shit my cum out. Dude… You’re supposed to keep them in there. Having my load leak out of your ass while you’re at work is half the fun. Or bring a butt plug…

Sigh. Oh well… I just hope it was a big enough load that he didn’t get it all out. I mentioned it on Twitter and someone reminded me – I should have felched the load as he was pushing it out… I’ll remember that next time…