OK, this has nothing to do with gay sex, but it’s the funniest thing I’ve seen in a while. It’s three of The Real Housewives of Orange County trying to answer questions put to them by Jay Leno…

That’s the official version, but the full version is on YouTube and is much better…

I knew I liked Jeana best – at least she got some of the questions right. But stop and think for a moment that these women are incredibly wealthy and yet they have no understanding of history or current events, but they do vote. (I know Vicki is a staunch Republican).

And we wonder why America is in the condition it’s in…

Load 2008-24

[For those of you who care. With this load I’ve given as many loads as I did in 2007 and more than I did in 2006. And with getting my dick in 32 new holes this year, I’m way over where I was in ’06/07 (26/23, respectively). Things seem slow this year ’cause I did so well seeding so much hole last year… But there’s still 3 months in the year and so I should give about 32 holes this year if things stay the same. Yeah, that’s half of what I did last year, but it’s still not that bad…]

So I was supposed to hookup with Jayson Park this afternoon, but that didn’t work out ’cause early in the afternoon turned out to be busy for me and he couldn’t do later. So later in the afternoon I was horny and when my bf went off to work I got online to see if there was any hole to fuck. There were a few prospects, but the Brazilian guy I’ve fucked a bunch of times was on and since he was pretty close it was easiest to hookup with him. It had been almost 10 months since I’d fucked him…

So he comes over, we get naked, he sucks my dick, and then lays on the bed to get fucked. When he was sucking my dick I was sorta having the opposite reaction you’d hope – my dick was sensitive and the blowjob was a bit awkward. But that wasn’t a problem when I went to fuck him. He had prelubed his hole and I put a little extra lube on my dick and slid right in. He’s such a regular guy, you’d never guess he likes going around getting guys to cum in his ass. It’s sorta hot… It all felt quite good, and it didn’t take me long to drop my load in his hole.

I hadn’t taken a pill, so when I came that was pretty much the end of it. We laid there and talked for a bit. A lot has changed for both of us in 10 months… Then he was off to meet someone (with my load dripping out of his ass). Wonder if the guy he’s meeting will fuck him and use my cum for lube?

If you’re not familiar with PrEP you should read the article in The Daily Beast. The guy who wrote the article contacted me a couple weeks ago, but I didn’t have much of anything interesting to say other than the fact that I’m completely against it…

If you’ve never heard of PrEP here’s a little history… It comes out of the concept of PEP (Post Exposure Prophylaxis) where they give people who are exposed to HIV drugs for a month after exposure to prevent HIV from taking hold in their bodies. It’s a particular mix of the same anti-retroviral drugs (ARVs) that people with HIV take. It was proven effective in hospital workers and then they started giving it more broadly to guys who had guilt after a night of raw sex.

Well, PrEP takes that a step further and thinks if ARVs are good after exposure then maybe negative guys who are barebacking regularly should just be on ARVs all the time. It’s PRE Exposure Prophylaxis.

Let me put this bluntly – you should only take powerful drugs like ARVs when you have a serious medical problem and you have no other option. Taking highly toxic drugs when you don’t need to take them is just stupid. Think about all the side effects and the damage they can be doing to your body. Developing a resistance to ARVs before you need to be taking them is stupid as well. Don’t be stupid.

Personally I think that PrEP is a product of guilt and fear. Guilt from having unprotected sex, and fear of HIV. It’s never smart to make decisions based on guilt or fear. You need to live a life where you don’t regret your decisions. If you’re going to bareback (especially if you’re bottoming), be honest with yourself and accept the risks. Barebacking is a risk/reward situation like all of the others you encounter in your life. If you can’t deal with the risk, don’t bareback. It’s really that simple. If you’re living a life you’re ashamed of, taking loads and then regretting it the next day – then I pity you… You should be getting off on the loads that are leaking out of your ass… 😉

It’s really a choice of a long life filled with fear and shame or a somewhat shorter life where you feel good about yourself and your choices, and you make the most of every moment – including every moment of your sex life. To me it’s not even something I have to think twice about. I’d rather live to 70 and enjoy the moment than live to 85 and feel like I missed out.

I’ve heard poz guy after poz guy say that becoming poz changed them for the better. While they wish they were still negative, finding out they were poz changed their outlook on life and they get more joy out of their life now than they did when they were neg. My boyfriend who died of AIDS years ago had a note on the fridge that said “Don’t Postpone Joy”. That is how you should be living your life – whether you’re neg or poz.

For some of you a life of no regrets means a life using condoms. That’s fine if that works for you. For the rest of you – embrace the risk (don’t fear it), and understand that it’s what comes with the reward of a fulfilling sex life – find the right balance of risk and reward, go forward and don’t look back… And for god’s sake, don’t fuck up your health by taking toxic meds you don’t actually need when there’s nothing wrong with you (other than guilt).

Load 2009-24

So I was sitting here this afternoon writing up those hookups I just posted and it got me boned. I hadn’t really thought about hooking up today. I jacked off 3 times yesterday and didn’t know if I could even cum today. In fact I had tried to jack off earlier in the day and couldn’t cum. And if you had asked me earlier in the day if I’d be up for hooking up I would have said ‘no’. I was recovering from having 5 rather strong margaritas last night and not particularly horny. But still when I got boned I figured I’d see what was out there.

And what do you know – when I looked in the new member list there was a guy that showed he was 0 miles from me. He had about 20 views of his profile and he was online, so I said ‘hi’ and one thing led to another and he wanted me to come over for a blindfolded hookup. His pics weren’t all that great, but anonymous holes always get me going so I decided to head over.

I delayed it a little ’cause I had just taken part of a pill and wanted it to kick in. Also, my boyfriend had a trick in the bedroom so I couldn’t get in there to change my clothes. I waited and waited but my boyfriend never came out of the bedroom (he spent over 3 hours with the guy). I looked like hell. I’m way overdue for a haircut and look messy. On top of that I had thrown this a t-shirt from Uniqlo that I literally put on ’cause it was Saturday and I didn’t think I needed to look good ’cause I wasn’t going anywhere. And I didn’t have any socks and didn’t have a cockring. But I went anyway ’cause I figured the guy would be blindfold and never see me anyway – so what I looked like really didn’t matter.

He was just a few blocks away. I head over and the door is open and I just push in. It’s an alcove studio and he’s on the bed on all fours with his hole in the air. Sweet. He was naked except for running shoes and a blindfold. For some reason I kick off my shoes but otherwise stay dressed. I pull my dick out and get on my knees and eat out his hole. Nice hole. He just lays there and moans contentedly.

I get him lubed with spit and stand up and start to fuck him, but he wants a little more lube, so I oblige. All I could see is his back ass and legs. I’m not quite sure the best words to describe it, but he just looked like a sweet piece of meat – a great piggy hole.

Curiously, it didn’t take long at all to cum in his ass. It’s weird. I sorta expected problems, but didn’t have any. Since I had taken a pill I stayed hard after I came. I just slowly fucked his hole. He liked it when I’d pull almost completely out and push back in. That felt pretty great as well – it was like he had folds in his ass that would flop one way and then the other and massage my dick in the process.

He liked it when I’d put all my weight on him. I was just thinking it would be a quick pump-and-dump but it was turning into more than that. When we rolled over on our sides and I continued to fuck him I noticed that he had these wonderful hairy runners legs. I also really liked his little hands – they were small but masculine. Given his little hands I was expecting a little dick, but that wasn’t the case at all. He wasn’t hard but it was clear he had this big meaty uncut cock… Beyond that he has this tough piggy look to him. He had a closely clipped head. He was balding, but it worked on him. His face was pot marked from acne, but somehow it was hot on him (like the guy in Connecticut I used to fuck)… All in all he reminded me of the guys from Bareback That Hole – they’re regular guys with plenty of “imperfections” but somehow those imperfections just make them hotter and piggier.

He also wanted me to piss in his ass, but I just couldn’t manage it. And I could tell he wanted me to hang around a bit, and I did for a little while. We kept stopping and he’d give me awesome blowjobs. But finally I had sorta had enough and didn’t want to draw it out to the point where a great hookup became unpleasant, so I ate his well fucked ass a little and then headed out.

Load 2009-23

An Asian guy I fucked three years ago contacted me and said he was in town again and wanted to hookup. The last time hadn’t gone all that well and I hadn’t cum in his ass. I sorta knew it wasn’t going to be the best fuck, but something in me wanted to finish was I had started and give him my load, so I arranged a time for him to come over. [This actually happened over 3 weeks ago.]

The funny part was the guy who was working for me was over that day. I didn’t tell him I was hooking up with someone. The Asian guy called me when he was outside and I buzzed him in. He didn’t ring the bell, so I don’t think the guy working for me knew I was fucking someone in the other room. I was just gone for a little while and then I was back…

He arrived and was pretty much what I remembered. Let’s just say I think he was more into me than I was into him. It’s been so long now I actually forget some of the details. If I remember correctly he seemed a little reluctant to suck my dick. We got down to sex pretty quickly and at that point he was just a hole to me. My goal was just to finish what I started and make him take my load.

In the middle of fucking him he said he wanted me to pull out and give him my load in his mouth. I don’t do that – if a bottom gets my load it’s always in his ass, so I just didn’t say anything and kept fucking him. He’s ex-Military so he does what he’s told and takes what he’s given and likes a little force. I just pinned him to the bed and fucked him with zero tenderness. I could tell he sorta wanted it a little more gentle, but also liked it the way it was… When I was ready, I came in his ass. I came pretty quickly and I knew he wanted me to fuck him longer, but it just wasn’t going to happen.

Then he wanted to be kiss and be all tender but he had really bad breath and I just couldn’t deal with it, so I told him I needed to get back to work  and wrapped things up. He texted me a few days later wanting to hook up again, but I wasn’t feeling the need. He’d gotten my load and I wasn’t really looking to give him another one…

This past Monday I was pretty horny and kept looking at the hookup sites during the day. One of the guys who works for me (porn name Brad Ramsey – he’s only done photos so far – no video) was over and I figured I’d hookup after he left for the day. I took part of a pill and the funny part was my boyfriend told me I looked flushed and asked if I were hot. I didn’t want to discuss the fact that I was planning on hooking up in front of Brad, so I just brushed off the comment.

One of the guys who was looking to hookup was the guy who had 3 tops over and then came before the tops got off. I wouldn’t have really bothered with him except for the fact that Brad told me a while back that the guy was one of his friends/fuck buds, so I figured maybe we could do a 3way… I first checked with the bottom and he seemed up for it – sorta maybe. I’ll sorta cut to the chase and say he was non-committal and seemed a bit flakey. But then I asked Brad about it and long story short he convinced the guy to come over. (By this time my bf had left for work).

The bottom arrived and for reasons I won’t go into I figured we’d hookup in the bedroom we use as an office. There’s no bed there, so I went and got a towel, poppers and lube so we could do it on the floor… Brad stripped down and I was surprised – he had a THICK cock. The two of them were totally into each other – you could tell they liked each other and had good sexual chemistry. I figured I’d concentrate on the bottom’s ass, so I rimmed him a bit.

When I was hard and he was wet I lubed up some more and started fucking him. I did notice that he jacked his cock constantly and I was worried there would be a repeat of last time where he would come before we would and that would be the end of it. But I figured Brad knew him well enough to prevent that, so I didn’t say anything.

Then we swapped and Brad fucked him. Then someone suggested he get double fucked. So I laid on my back, the bottom sat on my dick, and then Brad got behind him and pushed in. I swear the bottom was really irritating me by this point. He didn’t seem to understand the fact that if he went forward I’d pull out of his ass. I had to push back on his hips with all my might to keep my dick in him.

Meanwhile he’s jacking his dick and then he cums and wants it to stop! Brad and I looked at each other with this “you gotta be kidding” sort of expressions on our face. But that was it.

Needless to say, there won’t be a 3rd time with that bottom. I might make an exception if Brad presents the bottom with his hands tied in a way that he can’t jack off, but seriously – I’m so over fucking him. He’s literally oblivious to the fact that the top needs to enjoy the hookup as well.

So that was over and everyone left and I was looking for someone to fuck. I didn’t really feel like traveling – at least not very far. Eventually a guy wanted to hookup who I’d hooked up with a few times before. He’s an interesting case… I won’t go into that much detail but lets just say there are things about our lives that are similar to the point that I even introduced him to my bf earlier this year and then we ran into him again later. I should also mention that thanks to the fact that there’s way too much information about people online I’m pretty sure the downturn in the economy has hit him pretty hard.

So I go down to his place, but by this time I haven’t eaten enough and I’m starting to get a little headachey. On top of that I left quickly and forgot to bring my cockring. It wouldn’t have been an issue a hour or two before, but the bottom line was I wasn’t 100% “there”…

I show up and there’s basically no chit-chat, even though we now know each other on more than a sexual level. That’s fine – figured he wanted to stick to sex. I take off all but my shirt and socks and start eating out his ass. I gotta say his hole was sweet. Frankly a lot better than the other bottom from earlier that evening. I was enjoying myself, so I took my time. Eventually I was ready to fuck and I got him up on the bed and started fucking him.

The blow by blow isn’t as interesting as the fact that the whole time we were having sex he avoided looking at me – even when we were face to face and he was riding my cock. It didn’t take long to realize he just wanted to get fucked. He probably would have preferred someone random anonymous top who he’d never met and would never see again. I gave him a pretty good fuck, but he needed a lot more and a lot harder fuck than I was up for.

The room was warm and I was literally dripping with sweat. After I got his bed all wet at one point by laying on it I was a bit self-conscious and didn’t want to keep getting his bed wet with sweat. The little things I’d do that were a bit tender he never responded to. All he responded to was getting fucked and used like a hole. All in all the chemistry got to the point where it was just off, so I wrapped things up and left. For a variety of reasons I never did cum…

So yeah, it was a bit of a bummer of an evening, but that just is what it is. There’s been a lot on my mind lately. It looks like we’re going to be moving in a month – and all the decisions around that are really distracting. I’m not sure we can afford to buy what we’d really like and we’re not sure about the compromises in what we can afford. It’s a major decision and pretty complicated with no clear choices. On top of everything else, it looks like we’ll be in a rental for a while between places and I’m not looking forward to moving twice or living in a rental I don’t really like.