I wasn’t really planning on hooking up today. I knew I wasn’t at a 100%. When I got on BBRT & A4A I set my status to “Not Looking”. Despite that a Latino who’s been hitting me up a lot lately convinced me he should come over. I told him I might not be 100%, but he wanted to come.

He got here a bit late, ’cause he had sent a confirmation e-mail and I didn’t see it until just before he was supposed to be here and he didn’t leave until I responded. [That’s the sort of think I gave him the cell number for – but whatever…]

He gets here and he’s come from work and needed to clean out. I jacked my dick a bit and was a little concerned – “junior” wasn’t really responding.

He came out and wanted to suck my dick, and he did for a moment, but I knew the only way to get hard was to rim him. He wanted legs up, which was fine, but the problem was he didn’t seem 100% clean. I was rather “delicate” in my rimming. On any other day he would have been just fine, but today he wasn’t quite enough to get me going.

Well, he did get me just hard enough that I could fuck him, but I wasn’t completely hard. I wanted him to roll over on his belly, but when he pulled off my dick to do so I just wasn’t hard enough to go back in.

He sucked on my dick – which considering that I didn’t think his hole was perfectly clean was a bit daring – nothing like a little ATM where the dick isn’t quite clean… (yuck!)

Bottom line, we never really got back in the swing of things. At one point he was hard and I could see he was thinking of jacking off – but I think he was bugged by my not being hard. For god’s sake – I told him it was day #7 of being sick…

Another part of it was I haven’t taken Cialis in forever. When I feel better I’ll take one and fuck like a bunny for a few days 🙂

So my 9 day load is still in my balls. Tomorrow it’ll be a 10 day load. Maybe I’ll feel good enough to hookup tomorrow…

Load 2012-35

Unfortunately I haven’t been able to fuck much this week, and it will probably be like that next weekend too. Long story, but my bf is stressed and he doesn’t want me having fun while he’s crazy busy. Wish it weren’t like that, but it is. But finally he told me I could hook, but said he didn’t want it to take long – no problem… The black cumhole from the neighborhood said he’d come over, but then admitted a little later that he didn’t feel well – he’d been in bed all day. So I got on BBRT and couldn’t find anyone. Then I got on Adam4Adam and a little Latino from Washington Heights said he’d stop by on his way to work.

He got here exactly on time. We went to the bedroom, stripped down, I closed the blinds and took out my PA (it was still too sensitive since it had only gotten the big ring in it a day before). He went to suck my dick, but I told him to get on the bed – I wanted to rim him. He had a decent ass & hole – got me hard pretty quickly. I figured I’d let him suck a little, so I got up on the bed, but while he was giving me a blowjob I reached over and got the lube and started lubing up his hole. When he was lubed he stopped sucking and got on his back with his legs up.

I’ve been sorta boring about fucking lately – always push the bottom down on his belly, but this time I figured I’d try something different and fuck him missionary style. I shoved in and could feel the head of my dick get past his 2nd sphincter (I love little guys exactly for that reason). He was in pain, which I sorta liked, but he wasn’t so fond of. He asked for more lube, which I supplied and kept fucking him. I could get in nice and deep in this position and it felt good. Usually I associate missionary with kissing, but he wasn’t the kind of bottom I wanted to kiss. He was a hole that was there so I could finally cum after 7 days of holding it in. On the plus side he didn’t seem to want me to kiss him – so it was all good…

He jacked his dick as he was getting fucked. I’m wondering whether he reads the blog and knows I cum quickly ’cause it wasn’t long before I was blowing my big, 7 day load up his hole and he came at the same exact time (more exciting for him than me). He didn’t cum much – it was sorta watery and clear – but some of it nearly got up to his nipple.

We laid next to each other on the bed for a little while afterwards. I was hoping he’d clean off my cock, but he didn’t. Usually after a fuck I’m pretty tender with the bottoms, but it was awkwardly not that way with him. Maybe I should have shoved my dick back in his cummy hole or something (hindsight is 20/20). Finally it sorta just became apparent it was time to go. I had told him I just wanted a quickie and he needed to get to work, so it wasn’t awkward or anything.

Then he asked to use my bathroom. I went in with him – I wanted to wash off my dick. That’s when he sat on the toilet and shit my cum out. Dude… You’re supposed to keep them in there. Having my load leak out of your ass while you’re at work is half the fun. Or bring a butt plug…

Sigh. Oh well… I just hope it was a big enough load that he didn’t get it all out. I mentioned it on Twitter and someone reminded me – I should have felched the load as he was pushing it out… I’ll remember that next time…

Load 2012-34

Friday night I had just a little time to fuck before I needed to do something with my bf. Just at the right time an old fuckbud texted me saying he was in Harlem and asking if I wanted to fuck him. He was 20+ blocks away, but I said yes.

He got down here and looked really good. What he was wearing made him look sorta sporty & hot. Last time I had fucked him was December ’09 – so a long time ago. Last time was actually a video shoot where another top and I tag teamed his hole… Here he is getting fucked by the other top…

He comes in, we go to the bedroom and he immediately starts stripping naked – even before I had a chance to draw the blinds. Somehow standing there naked he looked better than I remembered – tighter, leaner, a bit more muscular.

Once I got my clothes off he sorta went to suck my cock, but I took control and positioned him so I could rim his ass. His hole is naturally hairless and it seemed squeaky clean – my favorite type of hole to rim. Needless to say, I enjoyed it, and it got me hard pretty quickly.

I lube up his hole and my dick and left my Prince Albert in (I was wearing a 2 gauge curved barbell). I slid in and the first thing I noticed was his ass was more muscular than before. Some guys have soft cushy asses. He had this hard muscular ass – again, not something I remembered before. Seems he’s been working out his ass (and not just by getting fucked).

He had put a pillow under him which I pulled out. I wanted him flat on his stomach. I tried a few different positions – legs together, legs spread, and finally a bit sideways before I found the way that felt “just right”. At one point I said “you gotta good poz hole there boy” in his ear. He didn’t hear me clearly and asked “What?”. When I first started fucking him years ago he said he was neg, then he was sorta proud he had turned poz. But when he said “What?” it was in a way that made it sound like he might be objecting to the whole poz reference, so when I repeated myself I left out that word, and just stayed pretty much silent from that point on…

He then said “fuck me harder!” and I figured the best way for me to give him a rough fuck was to make use of my PA. I did long strokes – making sure that the ball on the underside of my dick went into his sphincter on every stroke. I figured that would rough up his hole a bit. Then I’d slam back into him with as much force as I could (without overdoing it).

Riding his muscular ass felt really good, and before long I came in his ass. In hindsight I should have felched his hole. I mean is was a pretty excellent hole, but I didn’t. He sucked me clean and then wanted to take a shower. He seemed a little disconnected and scattered. I mean usually with someone like him who I’ve fucked before we’ll lay there for a little while, talk, and catch up. But he just seemed jittery. It was like the “got a load” checkbox was done and so it was time to leave. His wanting to take a shower, and the fact that he was dressed really nicely, and how he wanted to leave so quickly, made me wonder if he was going home to a boyfriend who didn’t know he was taking loads.

The next day he texted me and said he was high when he got here. That made things make sense – why he was so scattered, distracted and disconnected. He also said he got 3 more loads that night, and that his hole was still sore from me rough fucking him with my PA. Apparently the soreness lasted for quite a while. But it was what he asked for… [If you’re wondering, if I stay deep I don’t really cause much hurt – it’s only when I do long strokes and get the PA into the sphincter on the upstroke that it hurts so much.] But apparently it didn’t hurt so much that he couldn’t continue to get fucked. Or maybe he was just too high to notice the pain.

Anyway, now that I see how his body has improved, I gotta get in his ass on a regular basis – maybe next time I’ll be his 4th load rather than 1st of 4 and get to felch some loads out of his ass…

Load 2012-33

Went to a sex party last night. It started at 7pm. From (limited) experience I knew that the first hour at a sex party is pretty dead, so I didn’t rush to get there, but I got tied up with something else and didn’t get there until 8:45. The doors closed at 9. I had been there before and when there were 3 of us arriving at the same time I figured it would be busy. It wasn’t. I counted and there were just 9 guys there. It was sorta sad.

What was a little weird was the host and I had talked. In the past he knew I was rawTOP, but there was zero recognition this time. His only comment was “you’ve been here before, right?”

Anyway, this stocky Latino was eyeing me up, and even though I’m not generally into stocky guys, he was OK… We started feeling each other up. Even though I had taken a Cialis an hour and a half before, my dick wasn’t all that excited to be there. I had to spin him around and have him bend over so I could rim him. His asshole was really deep in his ass cheeks – I never was quite sure if I was hitting his hole with my tongue or not, but that got my dick hard 😉 and we were off and running. He sucked my dick a bit and then we fucked. He was a bit obsessed with lube – but it did make the fuck better.

When a spot opened up on the couch we moved over there. He bent over and I fucked him. Then he had me sit down and he rode my dick. While he was doing it he was saying stuff. At one point I could swear he said “Fuck me rawTOP”. It’s possible he recognized me. Then he turned around and rode my dick with his back to me. Then I had him get on his knees on the couch and I fucked him that way. That position was the best of all of them. The other positions felt like pretty weak fucks. I never could get the position quite right. His hole just wasn’t rubbing my cock the right way and I never did feel an orgasm coming. He asked if I was going to cum and I said not quite yet.

As soon as I pulled out of his ass this Asian who was sitting next to us started sucking on my dick (ATM). We had come in together and he was the guy there who I most wanted to fuck. I had seen him getting fucked by some black guys, but hadn’t been paying total attention. We changed to fucking pretty quickly. His hole felt great. I learned later that he had two loads in there by then. Multiple loads always make an ass fun to fuck. Anyway, before long I felt a HUGE load blasting into his guts.

The huge load worried me a bit. Last time I went to the party I blew smaller loads and managed to cum 3 times. I took a breather after cumming and stood around hoping to regain my wind for a 2nd round. This black guy wanted to suck my dick while he was fucking this white bottom. I let him for a while, but he was more concentrated on the fuck and sorta just held my dick in his mouth. Having just cum, my dick was pretty sensitive and even that was too much, so I pulled off him.

The stocky Latino wanted me to come up behind him and fuck him while he was fucking this little chub. But my dick wasn’t ready to fuck yet.

After I was ready to fuck I did briefly fuck this white guy on the futon (I think he was the one the black guy was fucking). But I just couldn’t get the position right, so I gave up.

Then stocky Latino left. He was the person I was hoping to give my second load to. No one else there was really even close to my type. I mean if my dick had been hard I could have fucked them, but it would have been an uninspired fuck.

After that my dick was just barely cooperating. I tried to fuck this other white guy. I rimmed him, but just never got hard enough. However, when I went back to rimming the Asian guy he pushed some cum out of his ass. The felching got my dick up enough to fuck. I fucked him for a bit, but my dick was more thick and spongey than hard. We fucked like that for a bit and then gave up.

At that point no one else was going to arrive. My dick wasn’t cooperating. And there wasn’t really anyone there I wanted to fuck, so I left. The Asian guy left at the same time. I should have asked for his number, but I didn’t. He clearly did like me…

So in hindsight I shouldn’t have gone. There was this black guy I fucked a while back who’d taken multiple loads that day who wanted me to fuck him again. In hindsight I could have fucked him and saved the $20. Not only that, but he would have been a fun fuck. Could have fucked him with my PA, called him nigger, restrained and gagged him, etc. Oh well… Lesson learned – I should just stick with 1-on-1s…

Load 2012-27

Today’s been a weird day. There was a really stressful meeting around lunchtime and then I had a beer and sorta crashed. When I got up I looked online for someone to fuck. The stress of the meeting put me in the mood to inflict some pain, so I got on Recon. A guy hit me up there. He just wanted a simple fuck and in hindsight I should have fucked him. But my emotions were all over the place and when I got distracted with something mid-way through talking to him my sexual energy went to zero, so I bailed. He was on a tight schedule so by the time I was in the mood again he wasn’t available.

So I got on BBRT but it was one of those days when everyone is out-of-town (even though their profile says they’re 1 mile away), or they just didn’t answer. I felt like my emails were going into a void. At one point I looked at my sent emails and of the 15 on the first page only one had been read. And I was sending to guys who were “online”.

Whatever. So when the reliable Latino cumhole who I’ve been fucking for years hit me up, I went for it even though I really wanted to seed a new hole.

Within a half hour I was over at his place. On the way I picked up a pack of peanut M&Ms – which proved to be a bit of a bad idea… I got there, and he unlocked the door and assumed the position on his bed. I got undressed (thankfully he had the A/C on and it was cold). I fumbled around a bit getting my rawhide string tied around my cock for a cockring, but eventually got it in place.

When I was ready I pulled him back to the edge of the bed and started eating out his hole. He had two loads in him already and at one point he pushed out some cum. Problem was it mixed with the taste of the M&Ms – so it was like chocolate cum – very odd…

I lubed up my cock and pushed in. Learning from last time I pushed the ball (of my PA) on the underside of my dick up so it didn’t protrude and cause a problem – everything went in without a problem. He was on all fours – so I fucked him like that for a bit – it felt good, but then I pushed him down onto his belly.

OMG – on his belly with his legs together his hole was PERFECT. The two loads made everything silky smooth, and it just felt incredible. I came pretty quickly. Since I had taken a Cialis the day before I stayed hard and kept pumping him – and it still felt so good…

Then I rolled him over on his side and kept pumping in and out of his hole. He got in this weird position – like he was getting up, but stopped half way – but he just stayed there with his ass in position as I fucked him. In that position I felt him and he felt “thicker” (to use a polite term) than he had in the past. But honestly, with the sensations his hole was giving my dick – I couldn’t care less.

Eventually I pulled out, he looked down and was surprised to see my PA. “How long have you had that?” Remember – I’ve been fucking him since about 2004/2005… I told him I’d had it for years, but usually didn’t have it in. I could swear I remember him asking me to take it out in the past – I’m sure he’s seen it at some point, but he forgot. Anyway, he was surprised he had just been fucked with a PA… Maybe that will make him more receptive to it in the future.

On the way home I ran to get onto a 3 train that was just entering the station. It was the tail end of rush hour and the train was packed to the gills. As luck would have it I had to stand incredibly close to this young black guy who had his shirt open – showing off his washboard stomach. He was so hot – maybe 5’7″, 120 pounds. And next to him was this thuggy 20-something Latin guy who was a little muscle cub. He had taken off his work shirt and just had on a wife beater… Yum! And then I turned around later and there was this muscley black guy in work clothes… It was like everywhere I looked there were hot guys on that train…

Not a bad ending to a stressful day… 🙂

Load 2012-14

Well, it seems I’m on a bit of a roll. This fuck makes 7 fucks and 6 loads in 14 days – I’m averaging one every two days…

So this sub boy contacted me on Adam4Adam, his profile said “safe sex only” but I asked if he was OK with getting fucked raw. He said he’d done it before and was OK with it. But (long story short), he stood me up. He said he was leaving his place – it should have been a half hour for him to get here and an hour later he wasn’t here.

While I was waiting for a message or something from him I got on A4A Radar (their iPhone app) and this other guy contacted me asking for my load. He was a young Latin cub – not exactly my type, but when he said he was 2 blocks and an avenue away and was cleaned out and ready to go, I sent a message to the first guy and said yes to the 2nd guy.

10 min or so later he was at my place. We stripped down and he sucked my dick for a while. He was a good cocksucker, but if you’ve been reading this for a while you’ll know oral doesn’t quite do it for me. It wasn’t until I started feeling his hole that I got completely hard. He sucked my dick some more and then we got to fucking.

He asked for poppers. I had no clue where mine were so I couldn’t give him any. He seemed unusually sensitive and inhibited as I was pushing in. He kept pulling away and pretending like he couldn’t take it. I’ve fucked enough bottoms to know once my dick is in a certain amount, I can go the rest of the way without any trouble – I don’t have a tapered dick or anything. But he kept pulling off.

FINALLY I got him on his belly and got all the way into him. I’m really hit or miss with cubs and I tried a few positions and just couldn’t find one that worked right. The whole time he was being verbal and telling me how he wanted my load. Finally I was overheated and could feel my dick deflating, so I pulled out and laid beside him. He was wondering if anything was wrong, but accepted it when I said I just needed a breather. He said he really hoped he could get my load.

As I was laying there I thought there was a pretty slim chance of cumming with him, but after about 5 minutes I got a 2nd wind and when my dick was semi-hard and hard enough to fuck I pushed back in. This time I had him on his belly, legs spread and finally got that feeling on the head of my dick that meant there was a good chance I’d cum.

Given that I was already overheated, I came as quickly as I could. Since I had cum the night before it wasn’t the biggest load, but he still got it nice and deep.

We laid there for a couple minutes and then got up and he went to the bathroom where he stayed FOREVER. I made the bed, folded some towels that had come out of the laundry, got mostly dressed and finally had to ask if everything was OK, at which point he came out of the bathroom. I’m thinking he was trying to shit the cum out of his ass. Later I looked at his profile on the web version of A4A and it said “neg, safe sex only”… I’m guessing he got freaked out being a cumdump for a complete stranger.