Load 2013-1

The gangbangs at MAL were a mixed lot this year. I didn’t have time to write them up while I was there, so I’ll go through them now and give some highlights…

The first two gangbangs were centered around this twink who was supposed to be my boy for the weekend. He was a mid-20s, tall, sk8r twink. He had bottomed at one of my gangbangs 2 years ago, and at that gangbang he got freaked out and left early (after getting 7 loads in his ass). This past fall he mentioned to me that he wished he had gone through with the entire gangbang, so I figured he was now in a mindset to do it again and I offered that he could stay with me for the weekend and we’d see how many loads we could get in his ass.

Well, Thursday I left NYC 2 hours later than I had wanted to, which meant I got into DC later than I wanted to – just a couple hours before the gangbang. As I was arriving I texted the twink and asked what his ETA was. He said he got off work at 5pm. I knew it took him over an hour to get there, and then he’d need time to clean out. Problem was, the gangbang started at 5:30. And the second problem was he was the only bottom I had scheduled. Over 140 tops had signed up for the gangbang, so at 1/3rd show up rate – that meant up to 50 tops were arriving and there I was 2 hours before with basically no bottoms for them to fuck.

So I sent out the room number to the invited tops, but given that it was only 2 hours before the gangbang I knew that meant I’d have some drop off on attendance. Then I scrambled to find bottoms. One bottom said he could come, but had to leave early – that was fine with me – I just needed coverage. Then two other bottoms agreed to come.

The bottom who had to leave early showed up first, and I fucked him before the gangbang started. His hole felt really good and I blew my load in him. It helped that he was very much my type – shorter, thin, Latino…

I started the gangbang with him and then the other two bottoms showed up. They were both pretty good, but since I’d cum, I couldn’t give them the best fuck or a load. One of them drank my piss, which was cool. @PortaUrinal had the adjoining room and helped immensely with all the gangbangs over the weekend. But, despite his experience he gave up on that first night trying to drink my piss – saying it’s some of the strongest piss he’s ever had… So it’s saying something that the bottom drank it down without hesitation… 😉

The sk8r twink did finally show up, and then it took him a while to clean out. When he finally came out it was almost funny to watch – I think most of the tops knew he was the neg bottom in the room and they circled him like sharks going in for a kill. Like a good dutiful bottom he put on a blindfold and was taking anonymous cock at both ends. One top in particular was this poz muscular ex-Marine Latino – he loved fucking the twink. During the gangbang I actually got my dick up the ex-Marine briefly… I figured it was my gangbang and I could fuck who I wanted to fuck.

Then all of a sudden it was announced that the twink wasn’t quite clean he needed to clean out some more. Unfortunately he had taken a couple loads and they got washed out in the process. After re-cleaning the twink said he was actually clean – he thinks what they saw was blood, not scat. He then went back to bottoming, but the thrill of the chase was gone for the tops. I think he got one more load and that was it. But a bigger problem cropped up – he tightened up and couldn’t really take dick. I tried several times to get in him and he’d resist and not let me fuck him. I knew then that he probably wasn’t going to last the weekend.

When all was said and done only 27 tops showed up (not including me), and only 11 loads were given (including mine). That’s a pretty lame tops-to-loads ratio. The early bird got the worm – the hot Latino who I gave my load to got 5 loads. One of the other bottoms got 1, the other got 2, and the twink got 3, but at least two of those got washed out when he did his re-cleaning.

So a decent gangbang for the Latino who got 5 loads, but overall not the best gangbang.

PortaUrinal, the twink and I then went out to a bar that was doing free drinks. The ex-Marine top had told us about it. The twink dressed in his sk8r ware and was really cute. We talked a bit at the bar – bottom line he still just wasn’t ready. He had lied about how much sex he’d been having – he hadn’t gotten fucked in months when he said he was taking loads all the time. And on top of that he was scared of becoming poz. He lives in a rural area where people aren’t cool with guys being poz. A guy he has the hots for just dumped a guy for being poz… When I heard all that, all I could say was “well, you need to decide whether you want to go through with this or not…”

The twink stayed the night and there was a gangbang the next morning. There are only some of us who like morning sex, 7 guys showed up, and 6 loads were given (a much better ratio of tops to loads). There were two bottoms – the sk8r twink and a beefy muscle cub. The twink basically shut down and didn’t get fucked. Which meant the cub got all 6 loads. Before the gangbang was over the sk8r twink dressed and left. There was no point in him staying if he wasn’t going to get fucked – that was sort of the deal.

Loads 2012-54 & 55

I’m way behind on my blogging, so I’ll attempt to catch up today. I’ve had 8 hookups since the last blog post – so there’s a lot to talk about… Two of the hookups were with this little muscular Latino who I’ve fucked before on a few occasions – years ago. Honestly I’d forgotten how good his hole was.

The first hookup with him was 2 weeks ago. I was in a rush and only had a little time, but he said he could make it. Thing was, when he got here he was a little late, so we only had about 15 minutes before I had to be cleaned up and out the door. So it was a bit of a rush. We skipped the pleasantries of oral, etc. and I just went straight to rimming. I only did that long enough to get hard, and then I lubed up and started fucking him.

That’s when I realized I was hitting his 2nd sphincter. While his profile says he’s taller, I’d say he’s about 5’3″ – so he’s a little guy – but this is exactly why I like little guys – everything is a bit smaller on them so it lets me get to their 2nd sphincter and damn that feels good on my dick. My head is my most sensitive part of my cock, and if a bottom’s hole doesn’t rub it the right way, then I have problems cumming. That’s clearly not a problem when I can get to the 2nd sphincter.

Just to be anatomically correct in my description – there isn’t actually such a thing as a “2nd sphincter”, but as you can see in the diagram right inside your ass there’s a little chamber called the anal canal. At the other end of that (at the “transition zone”) there’s essentially another opening that can close up to keep “stuff” in place. Since when you get shit into your anal canal is when you feel like you have to go immediately.

Also – when bottoms learn how to clean out properly – one of the tricks is to not get the water too high up. You really only need to clean out your anal canal – maybe a your rectum as well if the top has a big dick. If you’re unlucky enough to get douching water up into your large intestine (marked ‘large bowel’ in the diagram) – you’re sorta fucked – since that water will take it’s time coming out and will create a huge mess invariably at just the wrong time.

So those flaps at the transition zone are what were massaging the head of my dick. And as you might guess I didn’t last long at all. I mean literally I didn’t last more than about 10 strokes once I could feel the head of my dick hitting his 2nd sphincter. Mind you, we were in a rush – so that worked in our favor.

As soon as I came we got dressed and he left. I looked at my watch and I still had 10 minutes before I had to go. It was a total quickie pump-n-dump.

Luckily he liked it as much as I did and he came back last night for another hookup. We took a little longer this time. He sucked my dick for a little while. I had a curved barbell in my PA and it kept hitting his teeth, but he didn’t seem to mind. Then he got on the bed on all fours and I rimmed him for a little bit. But I was rock hard pretty quickly, so I didn’t take too long at rimming.

When I went to fuck him I left my PA in. The problem was with a curved barbell and my dick hitting his 2nd sphincter that meant the ball at the end of the barbell kept getting pushed up into my urethra – which was painful. So after I figured out what was happening, I pulled out and took my PA out and continued on.

I tried not to cum to quickly, but with his ass massaging my dick perfectly, it was sort of impossible to keep it going very long. And then when I was done I tried to keep pumping in and out of his ass, but the head of my dick kept hitting his 2nd sphincter and the sensation was a bit too much, so I put him on his side and pumped in an out for a bit while I spooned with him.

When we fucked years ago I remember laying and chatting with him. But last night he just wanted to go. He wasn’t upset or anything – in fact he was telling me “any time you want to fuck me, just let me know”. Maybe he thought I like it quick (since the prior time I needed it to be quick). Anyway, quick or long – he’s one of my favorite fuckbuds right now.

Load 2012-50

So I’m pretty sure the guy who gave me gonorrhea was the little thin twink – the last guy I fucked before noticing discharge. The bottom I tag teamed and gave a load to just bfore that tested clean. Well, the little twink texted me looking for another load. I usually don’t like to fuck the same guy twice in a row, but honestly, despite the gonorrhea, he’s very much my type – it’s hard to say know when someone like him wants you to fuck him. Plus, he had gone out and gotten treated the day after I told him – a day before I got treated. I mean STDs happen, what’s important is to take them seriously which is what he had demonstrated – which is a very good quality in a fuck buddy.

He told me he had “party favs” so I figured he might be pretty loose and I figured I’d try the cock sheath on him. I’d only fucked with it once and wanted to give it another go. I actually was jacking my dick a bit before he got here and put it on along with my PA that has the big heavy ball on a curved barbell. As I got a bit soft it all drew up into the cock sheath with just the big ball hanging out a bit at the end. I threw a pair of boxers and jeans over it to answer the door when he arrived – and needless to say it created a pretty big bulge. But he didn’t notice the bulge.

We went up to the bedroom and he had to use the bathroom. I’m guessing he was in there to do a bump or something. While he was in there I put some lube into the cock sheath and jacked my dick, trying to get hard. It’s not the same sensation jacking when you can’t actually touch your dick. It took a little work, but I did manage to get a bit harder (though not fully hard). When he came out I was naked with the cock sheath on and he still didn’t notice the cock sheath. Mind you, it’s clear, the room was pretty dark, and I wasn’t really making a point of showing it to him, but still – he wasn’t being all that observant or attentive.

He bends over the bed for me to rim him but I could rim him better if he’s on all fours on the bed, so we reposition him. I start rimming him and then finger his hole to see how tight/loose he is and discover he’s tight as a vice grip. There was just no way the big PA or the cock sheath was going up that tight hole, so as I’m rimming him I start taking everything off my dick.

What stood out as I was rimming him was how bony his ass was. He really has like zero percent body fat and he’s got a tiny waist. It was sorta hot, though I think absolute perfection would have been just a little more “meat” down there – but still – I’m not complaining at all…

When I get fully hard, I stood up, put a little lube on his hole (there was still plenty on my dick), and I tried to push in. I say tried because he was so tight it was almost impossible to get in. I like it when a guy is able to tighten his hole once I’m in him, but it’s a little frustrating to try to get into a hole that’s clenched tight. Needless to say he had some pain and then he tried to pull off my dick. That’s never a good idea. I’ve fucked plenty of tight holes and know it’s not a good idea to go backwards – always go forward (after you stop and let the bottom adjust). So I grabbed his hips and wouldn’t let him pull off.

I’m not sure why but having problems getting into hole always makes me a little soft. That make it easier on one level – my dick isn’t as big – but it complicates things on another level since it’s hard to get a dick into a tight hole unless it’s rock hard. I grab the base of my dick to make the end hard and finally manage to get into him.

We fuck briefly with him on all fours but then I push him onto his belly. That almost always works, but for some reason it wasn’t working this time. My dick still hadn’t gotten completely hard and his hole wasn’t rubbing things the right way. Usually I hate it when a bottom puts a pillow under his hips, but that seemed to be what was needed so I shoved one under him and things got better.

Thing was, I just couldn’t get into my groove. Then I started overheating… So I stopped for a bit, went over and opened the windows a little to let in some cold air, and then went back to him and rimmed him. Since my dick had come out clean I knew he was clean enough for a more “enthusiastic” rimming. So I started sucking his hole, biting it a bit, etc. It was not a gentle rimming. Meanwhile I was jacking my cock and when I was fully hard we went back to fucking.

This time I was fully hard, and had the pillow under him, and just pounded him hard. I’m not sure how much he enjoyed it – it was sorta hard to tell and honestly I didn’t really care that much (provided he wasn’t having a miserable time). Last time he told me he likes verbal tops so I start getting into telling him he’s just a fuckhole to me – that getting fucked and taking loads is his purpose in life – what he’s good at. I asked him the most loads he’s taken in a night and he said 4. I told him he needs to work on upping that number substantially. Basically I was making it clear to him that I saw him just as a hole and that was his role in life as far as I was concerned. [At least while I was fucking him.]

Last time I fucked him I came after a few strokes. This time it seemed like it was taking forever for me to cum. I was fucking him pretty hard and it didn’t seem all that enjoyable for him. But he was putting up with it and I was getting close. Finally I dumped a load in his hole. Unfortunately it probably wasn’t the biggest load. While I was out of commission from the gonorrhea I had formed the bad habit of jacking off. I told myself my last jack off would be Monday so I’d have a 3 day load when I was ready to fuck on Thursday. But then I jacked off on Tuesday and Wednesday – so he only got a 1 day load. Oh well – at least he got the load.

We then laid there for a little while talking. He told me he’s gone back to supplementing his income with dealing meth, which concerned me a bit. He’s such a sweet kid and generally seems to have his act together. He says his best friend can’t really control his meth use, and even he’s had a bad time with it in the past. I mean meth kills… Couldn’t he pick another drug or something? And why is it that so many of the guys I fuck do meth? It’s sorta sad.

Load 2012-49

It’s been interesting lately – seems I barely need to be online to get sex. That’s not a bad thing – not at all. I’ve given my cell number out to a few guys and they’ve been texting me when they’re looking. I’ve had guys e-mail me, and hit me up on Breeding Zone.

Today I had two tourists want to hookup with me – one from Breeding Zone, another off BBRT. I went round and round with the one off BBRT – he had a million questions about my sexual history and when my last test was, etc. He openly said he was hesitant. He told me what hotel he was in but wouldn’t tell me the room number. When he told me to come down and text him when I got there and he’d give me the room number then I just gave up. Then he got all pissy. I told him history told me it wasn’t going to go well. Quick and easy is usually what works best. He tried to justify all the questions saying he had to make sure I was neg. I told him that was absurd – he’s letting a complete stranger fuck him and cum in his ass. Risk reduction is a joke in that particular case.

The one from Breeding Zone didn’t want to hookup until 6pm. I was just about ready to confirm with him when a guy hit me up who I’ve been wanting to fuck for a while. A mid-20s blatino guy (just my type). He’s almost been too eager. The other day when I had the failure, he was texting me and calling me while I was fucking the other guy. In hindsight I should have hooked up with him then, but honestly I’ve been in a pretty mellow, somewhat non-sexual mood lately (while being simultaneously horny – it’s a weird mindset I’m in) – so god knows how it would have gone if I had hooked up with him then.

Anyway, using my “bird in the hand is better than 2 in the bush” motto I said yes to the young blatino guy and “sorry” to the tourist off Breeding Zone.

The kid showed up and he wasn’t quite what I was expecting – he was a lot skinnier – as in skinny as a rail. He looked like he weighed 100 lbs, and if he had been 5’4″ he probably would have been but he was taller. Still he was really really tiny. He probably had a 26 or 27″ waist. I love little guys, and young guys, and blatino guys, so I was sorta in heaven.

I had been working on posts for my Tumblr blog (watching a movie), so I was hard when he showed up. I was able to stay fairly hard even after running down and letting him in the building. He dropped to his knees to suck me and it was OK – I mean I was pretty hard, but that’s not what I wanted right then.

I managed to change things up and get him bent over the bed so I could rim his hole. His ass was skinny and sorta boney. But he had a nice hole. I was a little worried about him being clean – he said he had cleaned out in the morning but it was now hours later, but he seemed pretty clean – so I went to town and sucked on his hole.

It didn’t take long for me to get hard, at which point I got up, put some lube on my dick and pushed in. He had a little problem taking my dick – maybe I needed more lube, maybe his hole was sore, or maybe I should just change back to Wet Platinum which always did a good job for me – who knows… One way or the other he tried to pull off me, but I insisted he keep it in and I just went really slow at first until he was OK. Even after he could take my dick he seemed like he was in a bit of pain. Good thing I didn’t have my PA in 🙂

The problem was that I had gotten so aroused before fucking him that I started cumming after a few strokes. There was no point in holding it back, so I dumped in him and tried to keep fucking. But it had been a few days since I took a Cialis, so my dick sorta decided it was done a little while after it came. I rolled him on his side and continued to pump his ass until my dick popped out.

Then I got down and rimmed him again – cleaning the cum off the outside of his ass – I love the taste of a cummy hole…

We then laid around and talked for while.  He’s a sweet kid. As he was laying there I thought he looked like he was 10 years younger and possibly jail bait, but then he started talking about his life and his job and I was reassured he was the age he said he was. Still, it’s hot that he looks so young…

He texted me afterwards and says he wants to fuck again soon. I’m hoping I’ll get to breed him on a regular basis.

Load 2012-46

So Wednesday I was looking to hookup. Guests had been in town and I hadn’t had a chance to fuck. In fact I had a 6 day load in my balls. This guy hits me up and says he wants to make a video. His profile said he was 20, and “Neg, Safe Sex Only”. I wasn’t really planning on videotaping a fuck, but figured “why not?” Thing was I wanted it to go well, so needed to take a Cialis. But Cialis takes hours to kick in, so I put him off until late afternoon / early evening.

There was just something about his responses that told me he was going to flake on me. They were positive, but sorta non-committal. Thing was he lived really close to me, and I wanted him to become a regular fuckbud, so I went along with it…

I confirmed an hour before and gave him the address. But the time came and he didn’t show up. He’s SO close there’s no reason to be late. So I texted him and he was so late in responding that I had already given up and started looking for other guys. Then he says “leaving now”, so I give him another chance. He should have been at my place a few minutes later, but he wasn’t. So I gave up again and started the process of making plans with other guys. I was in the middle of setting up hookups with another guy (and possibly one other if that one fell through) when the doorbell rang. Turns out the guy finally showed up.

When I saw him he didn’t look 20 – looked more upper 20s. He came in the bedroom, took off his pants and sat on the bed. He was a bit non-communicative. He didn’t want to suck my dick, didn’t want to do much of anything. At one point I asked him “are you OK?” He sorta nodded he was fine.

Well, if he wasn’t going to do anything, I’d take the lead. I told him I wanted to rim him. I got his legs in the air and started rimming him. Usually bottoms make some sort of indication that they like being rimmed. He just laid there.

When I got hard enough to fuck I stood up, lubed my dick and his hole and started shoving in (he was still on his back with his legs up). Just about the time I got my head in he pushes me off him and says it hurts. I ask “so you don’t want to get fucked?” He didn’t.

In hindsight I think he went from wanting me to videotape him to not wanting anything because he was PNPing and when we finally hooked up he was coming down. This just reinforces my belief that guys who PNP are lousy lays.

Needless to say I wrapped things up with him and got him out the door fairly quickly. I wasn’t rude or anything – I did ask him again if he was OK…

So after he was gone I got back to the guys I was making plans with. There had been a 10 min delay for the wasted guy, but they were still interested. There was one guy in the Bronx and one that was a 20 minute walk. I picked the guy I could walk to, which sorta pissed off the guy in the Bronx (“I’m only 3 stops away…”)

I walk over to the guy’s place – he said he had wanted a quickie. I was wondering if that meant an anonymous pump-n-dump, but he answered the door and showed me to his bedroom. When I was taking off my clothes I noticed the size of his shoes – they were huge. I wear size 12. He must have been at least a couple sizes bigger than that. (Big feet, big meat, right?)

He had gone to do something in the bathroom and when he got back I was naked. I usually don’t take clothes off for a quickie, but since he was off doing something in the bathroom, I figured I would. When he got back I offered to take out my PA when he looked at it weird. Then we got down to business…

I had him get on all fours so I could rim him. He was a big guy – pretty muscular, sorta beefy and solid. I rimmed him, got hard, and then lubed my dick and started fucking him. I got him on his belly pretty quickly. I knew he wanted a quickie, so there was no point in drawing things out and I came in him pretty fast.

Thing was I couldn’t tell when I was fucking him whether I was in his hole or my dick was just between his legs. (I had him legs together on his belly). Back in the day I used to do a lot of frottage with my boyfriends – especially the one who was poz (before ARVs). Fake fucking between a guy’s legs can actually feel really good. And if you pop out of a guy’s hole it can be hard to tell if you’re in or not. When he got up I checked for cum on the bed – there wasn’t any. With a big 6 day load there would have been if I hadn’t been inside him when I came. Phew… Would have hated to waste the load…

We got dressed and then talked very briefly about living in Harlem as he walked me out (he hasn’t had near the number of problems I’ve had – then again he looks like a big, straight, muscular Latino).

Total time from entering the front door to leaving the front door was 12 minutes… Nice and quick, just like he wanted.

Load 2012-44

I had one of those nights tonight that would be funny if so much didn’t go wrong…

First I had this hot young bottom who’s been texting me a fair amount wanting to get fucked. I really want to fuck him, but he lives in Brooklyn or Queens or something and it’s not terribly convenient to hookup. So today he was running errands in Manhattan so he thought he’d come over. But then he told me he hadn’t cleaned out… I really didn’t feel like dealing with that, so I said “another time”.

So I get online and there’s a guy on the Lower East Side that wants to come over. He just had to do a little cleaning out and he said he’ll be right over. Last I heard from him he was going to do a little more cleaning and then leave. I didn’t know if he actually left or not. I didn’t know if he’d show up, so I waited. After an hour and 15 min I give up.

Meanwhile there’s this hot black guy who wants to come over and isn’t far away. Great. But then as we’re confirming he also goes missing.

Then there’s this 23 year old neg guy who’s a bit new to barebacking who wants to come over. But he wants to clean out here – he doesn’t have any equipment to clean out. I’m a top, I’m not exactly set up for it either so I just blow him off…

Then there’s a guy in a hotel on Times Square who’s in from San Francisco who goes round and round. He sorta says he could host or travel, but then he starts saying “well, I just got in and have an early flight tomorrow”. What’s that have to do with anything other than you don’t want a long hookup. Bottom line he didn’t have equipment to clean out either. Again? Seriously? I was even willing to deal with that and let him clean out here. Then he said he wanted assurances he’d get fucked rough and I’d cum multiple times. That just was too much (I almost never cum more than once, and I’ll fuck however I feel like it) so I blew him off.

There were actually a few more in there. Guys who on a normal day I would have hooked up with, but as the saga was going on and on I just didn’t have the patience for.

So I tell myself I’ll hookup with the guy on the Upper West Side who I’ve been fucking for years now. He’s a dependable bottom. Not a whole lot of excitement – I’d rather try out new hole, but at this point dependable was looking good. He said he had three loads in him. Then on the way over he said the first top probably didn’t cum – still 2 loads should be better than none.

I get over there and I’m rimming him and he goes to push out some of the cum in his ass and it’s dirty and I get some in my mouth. YUCK! I run to the bathroom and wash my mouth out as best I could. Luckily I didn’t swallow.

I go back and barely get hard enough to fuck him (I wasn’t rimming him again). But then my dick gets hard and I’m able to fuck. But I can smell a little shit. That’s usually a huge turn off, but I just want to cum so I push through it. It was far from my best fuck – sorta a lame fuck actually. But I do manage to cum and give him a proper 3rd load.

The chemistry was all off, so I wound up washing off my dick, getting dressed and leaving pretty quickly.

It actually gets worse… As I was riding the subway home I realize my shirt is inside out. It was one of those shirts where they print the inside and it bleeds through to the outside to give it a faded look. So I had this bold lettering that was completely backwards. I didn’t want to be seen by someone I knew with my shirt on backwards, so when we got to 125 I waited as people left the platform and then when there weren’t too many people around I took off my shirt and put it on properly.

What a miserable evening… Oh well… Win some, lose some, right? I mean it’s just a law of averages. If you’re not having bad sex you probably aren’t having good sex either. Still, I could do without nights like tonight.