Load 2010-18

Today was a frustrating day that at least ended well…

I started looking for someone to hookup with fairly early this morning. The first three guys who said they’d come over happened to all say they were neg in their profiles. One canceled right after I gave him the directions on how to get here. Another canceled when I asked for his address. Another one said he was leaving and never showed up. And then a fourth bottom who’s status was listed as “don’t care” wouldn’t tell me when he was going to get here – he just kept saying “yeah, I’m definitely coming”.

As a result I’m the #1 most viewed profile on BarebackRT today – which is not something I really wanted to accomplish ’cause as soon as you’re on their most viewed list you start getting e-mails from all over the world. I don’t want e-mails from all over the world. I want bottoms who are local who want to get fucked. Oh well.

Anyway, FINALLY this bottom hits me up. He describes himself as “sleazy” and he doesn’t list his status (= poz). By that point I was so fucking sick of neg bottoms and their indecisiveness I was actually looking forward to a good poz bottom. I mean fucking neg hole is fuck, but getting it to show up and take the load is a pain in the ass sometimes (like today).

This guy’s pics were horribly obscure – I honestly had no clue who was going to show up at my door. Then, he was a half hour late. I was thinking he too was going to flake on me and then the buzzer rang. Thank god! What showed up a minute later at my door wasn’t at all what I was expecting, but he was still attractive so I didn’t really care. His profile said he was early 40s. I’m guessing that was 7 to 10 years off, if not more. He was this older Latino with sexy graying hair. It was sorta hot actually, but more of a short thin daddy vibe and the daddy part wasn’t what I was expecting.

We went to the bedroom, he got down on his knees pretty quickly and started sucking my dick, but I was completely soft. I’m a grower not a shower, so soft is small in my case. And for some reason blowjobs are doing next to nothing for me these days. He tried for a minute or so and I didn’t get hard at all. I stopped the blowjob, had him take off the rest of his clothes, and get on the bed on all fours. I got down and started rimming his ass.

The guy had a great hole. Let’s just say it was an “experienced” hole and he knew how to control it for maximum effect. He was pushing his a sphincter in and out to match me in my rimming. I knew it was going to be a good fuck – anyone who has that much control of his ass always is.

I rimmed him for a little bit and then grabbed for the lube. There was a big bottle of Gun Oil close to me, but nothing came out when I squeezed it. Then I remembered I really wanted to use Wet Platinum ’cause every time I’ve used it I’ve had an easy time of cumming, so I grabbed the Wet Platinum and squeezed some in my hand. Too much came out so by the time I was done my dick was really slick with lube.

I stood up behind him with him on all fours on the bed. I really just needed to fuck and unload in a hole. It had been 6 days since I last fucked anyone and I’d been good and hadn’t cum the entire time. With this fuck and the one before I’m finding it’s really easy to fuck doggy style standing up. Sometimes the hole doesn’t feel right, but lately it’s been feeling great. I just kept this steady, sorta insistent pace – pretty steady. I think some guys think it’s a little boring ’cause it’s so consistent, but it was working for me.

I could tell I was going to cum fairly quickly. I didn’t cum right away – it took a while to build, but when I came it was like last time – it was an ENORMOUS load that just kept cumming and cumming. I wish I could have been inside his ass watching it come out. It felt like I dumped a gallon of cum in him. I had been silent the whole time I was fucking him, but was groaning as I came. When I was finally done he curled his feet around my legs and tried to hold me inside him. I fucked him a little, very slowly and finally pulled out. He jumped down off the bed and cleaned off my dick.

I thought about felching him, but then didn’t really feel like it when the time came.

The thing about doggy style is that it’s a lot less intimate. When I fuck with the bottom on his belly I wind up collapsed on top of him when I’m done. With doggy I never even get on the bed. It’s much more “slam, bam, thank you ‘mam” and when you’re done I’m standing up, refreshed (since it takes a lot less effort).

I knew this bottom wouldn’t have a problem with a pump-and-dump, so I sorta just ended it there. I mentioned that he got a HUGE load, he thanked me, we got dressed and he left.  The total hookup was 15 minutes, if not less. Hell, I’ve done 7 minute pump-and-dumps before – this felt pretty close to that only we took the time to take off our clothes. My bf was a little surprised that it ended so quickly and wasn’t a bad hookup. He asked if the bottom was OK with leaving so soon and asked if the bottom had cum. I was pretty sure the bottom was fine. He got what he was looking for and left with an ass that was flooded with cum.

I’m liking not cumming between fucks. It really lets me give the bottoms much bigger loads. Gotta go put my PA back in to make sure I don’t cum tonight… 😉

Load 2010-17

Well, wearing a PA to avoid cumming worked – possibly too well. About 3 days after the hookup with the black fuck bud I tried to hookup, but had “some problems” making it happen, then life got busy, and then at about day 6 or 7 I sorta felt run down and not up for fucking (which is weird ’cause I had similar symptoms about 2 weeks after fucking the black guy last time). I wasn’t totally run down – just sorta.

I felt good enough to give it a shot and on day 7 had my Brazilian fuck bud over. He sucked my cock with my PA in, which was probably a mistake since it was sorta distracting when I wasn’t feeling 100%. I tried to make fucking happen, but it just wasn’t happening, so we both gave up.

Two days later I had a huge 9 day load in me and needed to unload. This “Asian / Pacific Islander” hit me up on Adam4Adam. He didn’t have a face pic, had a fuzzy torso shot, but had a nice butt pic (but even it was a little on the beefy side). I just had to cum so I said yes even though I really didn’t know who was going to show up at my door.

Before he got here he said he was looking for an anonymous hookup. I told him there’d be no taking then and I asked him if he’d be up for a hood or blindfold, he said yes, so I got my leather blindfold ready. His profile said he was neg, but didn’t say anything one way or the other about safe sex, and he asked no questions. I didn’t really know what to make of that – sorta guessed he was poz, but not public about it…

When he was a block away he texted saying he wanted a hood, so I scrambled and pulled out a hood for him, though I really wanted him blindfolded. He showed up and 1) he was a lot cuter than I thought he’d be, and 2) he was a lot heavier than I thought he’d be. I wanted to put the hood on him at the door and lead him back to the bedroom, but he made it clear he wanted to see his surroundings first.

When we got to the bedroom he got naked and honestly I wasn’t sure how the hookup would go. He was ADORABLE, but his body was really beefy. Imagine a stereotypical Samoan warrior (he’s not Samoan, but he looks like he could be), take away 99% of the tattoos, take 10 years off what you’re thinking, and you’ve pretty much got him. So he looks like a cute Pacific Islander muscle cub – which is not typically a type I do well with, but he was there and I had a 9 day load in my balls that needed release.

I went to put on the hood and realized I picked one with eye holes which was sorta dumb if it was supposed to be anonymous (but it was a last minute choice). I didn’t want to mess up the vibe by looking for another one, so I just went with it. It took a little work to get it over his head, but I finally managed.

I then told him to get on all fours on the bed. If it was going to be anonymous, I didn’t need a blowjob – we’d go right to anal. I pulled his ass cheeks apart and started rimming him. As soon as my mouth touched his ass I knew I was in luck. His whole body was silky smooth and his hole was just as smooth. I took my time eating his ass, though I don’t think he enjoyed it as much as I did – he just sorta laid there and didn’t react one way or the other.

I was jacking my dick the whole time I was rimming him. I had taken my PA out before he got there ’cause I didn’t want it to interfere this time. His hole was so good I had no problem getting rock hard.

Then I stood up and shoved in. Oh. My. God… His hole was incredible – it was silky and literally gripped my dick. I was either the best hole I’d ever been in or the 2nd best (the other being the Peruvian guy I fucked last year – who I still need to fuck again soon)… Usually doggy position isn’t a great position for me, but I knew I shouldn’t mess with perfection in this case – there was just something about his ass in this particular position. It also had the advantage of being a position that didn’t require a lot of physical exertion on my part. Part of my problems with other hookups is that my favorite position is with the bottom flat on his belly. In that position I have to repeatedly lift my entire body up and down (all 240 pounds of it) – that gets tiring pretty quickly, but in doggy there’s almost no physical exertion – which was good ’cause it was a border-line hot day and the fan in the window was barely cutting it – it would have been really easy to overheat.

As you can imagine – 9 day load + an incredible hole meant it wasn’t long before I was cumming in his ass. The orgasm was incredible. First I could feel the cum start leaking out pretty rapidly. It was like a bucket that was too full and sloshing it’s contents all over the place. That lasted so long I started wondering if I was going to cum for real, but I realized even if it stopped there I would have given him a nice size load. Then the full orgasm came and I started really blowing cum in his ass. That went on and on… It felt like I was giving him a gallon of cum up there – spurt after spurt after spurt. Finally it subsided.

I hadn’t said a word the entire time I was cumming. I was a little embarrassed how quickly I had cum and didn’t want it to end… The pace changed after that – I fucked him a bit more slowly, but I just kept fucking him and fucking him. His hole felt wonderfully wet. At one point I stopped and went to felch him, but while he was clean, he wasn’t squeaky clean, so I gave that up immediately and went back to fucking his cummy hole.

After a while he went from being on all fours (with his head down) to dropping upper torso down onto the bed. When he did that his hole changed completely and it felt just like a loose cavity – the incredible feeling pretty much stopped. So I figured it was time to change position, so I pushed him on his belly, but like so many cubs/bears that position just didn’t work at all, so I start winding up the fucking by whispering in his ear how big of a load he had taken and how wet his hole felt.

I pulled out and went around to the other side of the bed and had him clean off my dick with a little ATM. As he was sucking me I started feeling up his smooth body and sorta petting his head. When he stopped sucking me (since I was getting soft), he just buried his head in my crotch and never looked up at me. It reminded me a lot of playing with the puppy at MAL – I liked it a lot – it showed that anonymous sex can actually be very tender and intimate.

I pet him for quite a while and then laid down next to him at which point he started caressing me as I was caressing him. I’m not sure what he was going through in his head, but it seemed he needed both to be fucked like a cumdump and held tenderly – all without even talking to me. It was a really wonderful mix I don’t get very often – complete submission but tenderness too. I liked that.

Eventually we started talking a little bit. I asked if he liked puppy play and wound up having to explain it to him, and we talked about where he was from, his job, stuff like that…

Then, after a while I got hard again. This time he climbed on top of me and rode my cock. Once again, it felt incredible. It was like he was using my dick to give himself a prostate massage and was loving every minute of it. Besides rubbing my dick perfectly his hole just felt wet with all the cum.

When that was over we talked and caressed a bit more. If I didn’t have a boyfriend in the next room I would have kept him there longer and I know he wouldn’t have left. But I was hungry and needed to pay some attention to my bf, so I gradually wrapped things up and he left…

This is one of the few cases his having crappy profile pics was a good thing. If I had seen an accurate pic of his body I probably would have passed and missed a really good fuck.

OMG… I had a blast last night. I don’t think I’ve ever been that drunk in my life. It’s 10am and I still feel a bit drunk…

I had to go down to Callen-Lorde to get some blood drawn (a very hot, young, Middle Eastern bear did the blood draw). So since I was downtown I figured I’d go out drinking. I had brought a bunch of happy hour drink tokens with me that I had from before – 3 for Gym Bar and one for Boxers. Since Gym Bar was right around the corner from Callen Lorde, I started there.

While I was waiting for my boyfriend to arrive I was checking out this hot Asian guy. He was there with his boyfriend, so presumably not available, but he was fun to look at nonetheless.

When my bf got there we were trying to figure out what we were doing for the rest of the evening. My bf and I texted friends to see if they wanted to come out but no one was available. I sorta felt like just drinking a shitload of beer and getting drunk. I texted PortaUrinal to see what he was up for since I really didn’t feel like wasting my piss. He was stuck at work so unfortunately I finally had to just give in and take a whiz in the bathroom.

3 pints of Stella later we left and headed over to Boxers. I was twittering and saw SmithSeeks tweet that he’d be up for meeting and having a beer. I had no clue who he was – his Twitter avatar is just a jockstrap – but I figured, what the hell, so I told him to come over. Then when I was starting pint number 5 PortaUrinal said he was done with work and on his way over (thank god).

PortaUrinal got there first and I took him into the bathroom immediately ’cause I had to unload. I had given him a load of piss at IML a year ago but honestly didn’t remember what he looked like since he just came into a dark hotel room, got on his knees, drank my piss and left. Last time my piss was the worst he’d ever tasted (which is saying quite a bit given that he’s a dedicated piss pig), but this time I’d had enough beer that he said it tasted great. It’s weird though, when you’ve got your dick in someone’s mouth it’s hard to tell exactly how much your pissing…

Then SmithSeeks showed up. Considering I hadn’t seen a pic I really lucked out – he was this HOT, lean, tall black guy. And the best part was he got along really well with my bf – he seemed as much into him as he was into me (we’re such different types people are usually just into one or the other of us). Right after SmithSeeks got there I had to take another leak, so I found PortaUrinal and took care of business.

PortaUrinal started by sorta hanging back and just always being available. When SmithSeeks needed to take a piss he took care of him, etc. but as the night wore on it seemed like I was using going down into the basement with him over and over again, and eventually he just joined in our conversation and then would follow people to the bathroom whenever they needed to relieve themselves. He didn’t want it to end – he was getting load after load of tasty piss, so after a while he started buying beers for us to keep us at the bar and pissing down his throat.

SmithSeeks was a lot of fun too. We made out a bit and I kept feeling up his body while we sat in the smoking area and chatted. His body felt incredible (and not just because I was drunk). He liked me enough to tweet “Not a bottom, but would def think about it for @rawTOP”. I just hope if he ever gets in the mood to take dick that he gives me a shout… 🙂  Oh yeah – he’s got a nice dick too. Sucked on it a bit in the bathroom at one point.

When it was all said and done PortaUrinal got 14 loads of piss – it was a good night for him. I completely lost count of how much beer I had – I’m guessing around 8 pints. The only thing I had to eat was this little pizza that my bf and I split at Boxers, so I wound up completely wasted. But it was a fun evening..

Grrrr… I just got stood up by a sub bottom and it’s not the first time he’s done shit like this… When I was first trying to hookup with him he’d cancel at the last minute, but he hasn’t done that in quite a while. He hasn’t been as eager as I’d like, but he hasn’t told me one thing and done another in quite a while.

The bottom is actually the bottom I fucked a couple of years ago with my PA. He was getting gangbanged and I think I sorta tore him up inside and he couldn’t really take dick after that. Then one of the tops told him he wasn’t really neg – that he was poz (making the fact that I tore him up a little more significant)… There was a lot of drama and the bottom didn’t really like the things I said when I wrote up the encounter. For a while he didn’t want anything to do with me, but then he finally came back for more – deep down he needed it.

Anyway, that fuck was one I videotaped – here it is…

And here’s an earlier video I did of him…

So here’s how it went down this time… He hits me up on BBRT and wishes me Happy Pride. I ask him if he’s looking and can host, he says ‘probably’ and asks if I’ve pissed yet (he likes to get pissed on). I tell him I can come over pretty much right away (he’s within easy walking distance). And he says “thats up to u SIR. [Whether I drink a bunch so I can piss on him.] or u can just come over and dump a quick load in me SIR. u tested recently?” I avoid the question about my status (just to sorta play a head game with him), and say “give me your address and i’ll come over now”. There’s a bit of a delay and he finally says “sorry SIR – could u answer my question SIR? have u been tested recently SIR?” Since he pushes the issue I answer – “last test was january. it was neg.” He comes back with “understood SIR. thank u for answering SIR. XXX west XXXrd street SIR. #XX. hole will be lubed for you SIR. no pa, right?” I tell him I’ll take the PA out to fuck him. He thanks me and says he wishes he got my 6 day load. I tell him he’ll be getting a 3 day load and it’ll be plenty big and thick. I get dressed and head over.

When I get to his place I press the buzzer. No response. I press again. No response. Then I call him and it goes to voicemail. I leave a rather terse message. Then I ring the buzzer a few more times. Then I text him. Finally I login to BBRT and see he’s left me a message… “actually SIR – just found a load a little closer and ready now. so gonna cancel on u – im sorry!” The little shit… I know it’s a lie – that he’s in his apartment listening to me ringing his bell and calling him. But there’s no point waiting, so I leave.

He finally responds to my text and among other things says “i have no good excuse but i really do apologize SIR.” He’s obviously a Catholic and doesn’t realize he’s dealing with a Protestant. Protestants only care about actions – apologies that aren’t accompanied with action are meaningless and sorta insulting. I give him an earful and tell him I’m just 4 blocks away – I can come back. I mean it’s one thing to get cold feet and that was his chance to redeem himself. He apologizes some more but doesn’t take me up on my offer to redeem himself. I tell him he should be a better sub than that and that next time he’s getting fucked with the PA as punishment. I know he doesn’t like it, but he can endure it… Seems like a good way to get back at him. He then gets back to me with more of an explanation…

i don’t have a good explanation SIR, like i said. i am actually in formal training with a master now to be a better slave SIR, and for the first time i just dug in my heels and disobeyed a direct order from him SIR. he has already told me i will be punished quite severely SIR. i am truly sorry to have let both of u down. i don’t know why i did it SIR. i am sure that he will correct the matter and you will have full access to my hole any time you need it in the future SIR. in spite of my behavior today, he is an excellent master SIR and has been training me well.

I’d love to be there when he gets punished. I don’t think he’s all that much into pain, but it would be sorta fun to take a whip to him and then fuck him in with the PA and dump a big load in his abused hole.

At the root of the problem is the fact that he’s a submissive cumdump who wants to stay neg. I think his misgivings about tops is what makes him disobey. Honestly, I think his life would make a lot more sense if he were poz. Being poz just sorta fits with where his head is at sexually. But it’s the conflict between the two that’s at the root of all of this. He wants to submit, but he’s concerned about the implications.

We’ll see what happens next…

Load 2010-16

A day after my last fuck I still hadn’t cum and now had a 6 day load churning in my balls needing release. I wanted a sure fire fuck – one where I knew I’d blow my load. When I saw my black fuck bud online and found out he was available, I knew I’d finally get to cum – after all, I’ve come absolutely every time I’ve fucked him.

The fuck was actually sorta uneventful – ’cause it was just like the last few. The only really interesting part was that his boyfriend came home just as he was about to leave and asked where he was going. lol – he said he was going to the gym. That delayed him a bit and I wanted him to come over while my bf was out. My bf doesn’t mind, but I just think it’s a bit more polite to not have him come home and find me fucking someone.

So, just like the last time I fucked him, we had him cum first, and then I fucked him. He’s got this big cushy black butt – not fat, sorta muscles with padding over them. It’s a sweet ass.. And it just feels good being inside his hole… Needless to say, since I hadn’t cum in 6 days and his hole feels really good, it didn’t take long to give him my big thick creamy load.

Thank god for dependable cumholes…

It’s always been a goal of mine to only cum when I’m fucking someone and not cum in between. It keeps me needing to fuck and focused on what I should be doing. Thing is, that’s easier said than done when you work on porn most of the day. You get hard, you jack off, and even if you don’t mean to cum, it happens. I’m not 18 years old – if I cum, it’s not like I can cum again in 5 minutes.

For some reason I’ve felt like wearing my prince albert lately. So I put it in a little over a week ago, and I was pleasantly surprised to find that having my PA in accomplished the goal… Jacking off with a PA just doesn’t feel as good and even if I do it, I don’t even get close to cumming. So if I wear my PA I don’t cum between fucks. Perfect!

[And those of you who were asking about my foreskin – well, you can see it in the pic. I haven’t pulled it down as much as I could, but as you can see, the doctor who circumcised me was a little sloppy and it sometimes covers part of the head of my cock. I’ve actually had guys think I’m uncut.]

Earlier this week I had a 5 day load built up and wanted to unload. There was this guy on Adam4Adam – my age, a little shorter, and fairly thin. He looked nice in his pics so I told him to come over. Just before he came over I clicked on his face pic and noticed his face had “a bit more character” to it than I could see in the smaller pic. Whatever… I like faces, but a pretty face isn’t mandatory…

He shows up, we go to the bedroom, and we strip down. It was one of those really hot days and he got here early. I had only turned the A/C on in the bedroom maybe 20 minutes before and it didn’t feel all that cool yet, so I took off everything as well (usually I’ll leave a shirt on, but I didn’t want to over heat).

His body wasn’t exactly what I was expecting or hoping for. He was really skinny, but sorta had a little belly too. His profile had said “neg, safe sex only” though he hadn’t asked any of the follow-up questions you get from guys who are worried neg bottoms. When he was on his way over I was envisioning a hookup with a guy who was a bit more “innocent” (it’s hard to find the right word). But as he sucked my dick and I started fucking him that image just didn’t really fit and it threw me off a bit. For one, his hole had seen a lot of use – that’s not a bad thing at all – it just didn’t fit the image of what I thought I’d be fucking that day.

Then I realized what his “type” was… He reminded me of the skinny guys you encounter in dark rooms. Attractive enough, decent bodies but not great bodies – they’re literally just holes who will take dick from anyone. I’m not saying that’s his scene – it’s just the image that came to me as I was fucking him.

I was reasonably hard as he was sucking my dick and then as I was fucking him, but something about it just wasn’t working. The heat in the bedroom wasn’t helping. If I had jut been laying on the bed it would have been fine, but as I exerted myself it got pretty hot. Usually it’s pretty easy to find a position that works with skinny guys, but with him nothing seemed to work.

Finally I just pulled out ’cause I wasn’t hard enough. He tried to get me hard – sucked my dick, etc. and after a while I did get hard enough to fuck again. This time the thoughts in my mind were completely different – I saw myself using some slutty hole who spends his nights in dark backrooms taking cock after cock. But even with that fantasy going through my head I could just tell I wasn’t going to cum. Which is sorta surprising ’cause I hadn’t cum in 5 days. So I just gave up.

We laid there, he jacked his dick. I sucked it for a while. It’s sorta funny his dick pic made him look like he had a little dick, but he actually had a very nice one (it was the one thing about him that was better than his pics). But my blowjob wasn’t getting him to cum (I’m hardly an expert cocksucker), so I pulled off, and he jacked his dick. Just as he was cumming I tried to go back down on him but he made it difficult, but I persisted and got his load. I find it really weird that he wouldn’t want me to swallow his load. I know some poz guys are like that with neg guys even though it’s pretty safe. Maybe he wasn’t so ‘neg’ after all and maybe my fantasy of him spending time in some dark room taking cock wasn’t so far from the truth… Who knows?