I wasn’t really planning on hooking up today. I knew I wasn’t at a 100%. When I got on BBRT & A4A I set my status to “Not Looking”. Despite that a Latino who’s been hitting me up a lot lately convinced me he should come over. I told him I might not be 100%, but he wanted to come.

He got here a bit late, ’cause he had sent a confirmation e-mail and I didn’t see it until just before he was supposed to be here and he didn’t leave until I responded. [That’s the sort of think I gave him the cell number for – but whatever…]

He gets here and he’s come from work and needed to clean out. I jacked my dick a bit and was a little concerned – “junior” wasn’t really responding.

He came out and wanted to suck my dick, and he did for a moment, but I knew the only way to get hard was to rim him. He wanted legs up, which was fine, but the problem was he didn’t seem 100% clean. I was rather “delicate” in my rimming. On any other day he would have been just fine, but today he wasn’t quite enough to get me going.

Well, he did get me just hard enough that I could fuck him, but I wasn’t completely hard. I wanted him to roll over on his belly, but when he pulled off my dick to do so I just wasn’t hard enough to go back in.

He sucked on my dick – which considering that I didn’t think his hole was perfectly clean was a bit daring – nothing like a little ATM where the dick isn’t quite clean… (yuck!)

Bottom line, we never really got back in the swing of things. At one point he was hard and I could see he was thinking of jacking off – but I think he was bugged by my not being hard. For god’s sake – I told him it was day #7 of being sick…

Another part of it was I haven’t taken Cialis in forever. When I feel better I’ll take one and fuck like a bunny for a few days 🙂

So my 9 day load is still in my balls. Tomorrow it’ll be a 10 day load. Maybe I’ll feel good enough to hookup tomorrow…

Load 2012-41

Sorry for writing this up a week late – I’m on my 5th day of being sick as a dog with viral gastroenteritis…

So last Saturday my “nigger” fuckbud came over. I know he’s versatile and always wants to top me. It’s not like I was going to let him, but I’ve hooked up with him enough I didn’t mind if he fantasized about it… 😉 So I tried to douche a bit – I wasn’t shooting for 100% clean, ’cause I had no intention of getting fucked – just clean enough that he rimmed me or something it wouldn’t be disgusting…

He gets here, we strip down, he asks how things are going and we actually get into a rather involved conversation about the problems white folks face in Harlem, but we eventually wrap that up and get down to playing… I rim him to get me hard, then let him suck my dick. Then while he’s sucking my dick we get into sort of a 69 position and I start rimming him some more. I spread my legs and make it clear he can play with my ass (I know from experience he wants to, but usually I don’t let him do anything down there).

All of a sudden something felt a little weird down there and he tells me I just expelled a bunch of dirty water all over the bed. UGH! I really am not made out to be a bottom! There was still a little water up inside me and it came out at the wrong moment. So I get up, pull the sheets off the bed, go into the bathroom and clean them a little bit, and then come back and we try to resume. It took me a little while to get back into the swing of things but we get there.

It’s just he always wants to cum when we hookup and I find it’s hotter for me if he cums before I do. I figured he could get off playing with my hole and thinking about fucking me… So I lift my legs, show him my hole, and he jacked off while I taunted him about how he’d like to cum inside me… He kept wanting to fuck me – said he didn’t care if I was a little dirty… He just wanted to be inside me. But getting fucked wasn’t something I was interested in. I mean while the idea of taking loads is hot, 1) I hate getting fucked, 2) he has a big black cock which would make me hate getting fucked even more, and 3) I was dirty and I hate shit. Instead I tweaked his nipples while he came about as close to fucking me as you can get without actually fucking – and that was enough to get him to cum.

I then put him on all fours and shoved my pierced dick in his ass. I may not get fucked, but he most certainly does. I fucked him briefly on all fours and then pushed him down on his belly. He really wanted to jack his dick, but that just wasn’t going to happen. He’s a pretty well built guy with a big hard meaty ass so finding the right position took a while, but I finally got there. I was telling him he was a good nigger hole – made for breeding, he told me to fuck him hard. Happy to take that queue I slammed in and out of his ass and pulled out longer on each stroke so the ball on the underside of my dick would tear up his hole a little each time I pulled out.

As I got close to cumming I changed things up a bit – “You really wanna poz me don’t you? You want your poz load deep in my neg ass, don’t you? I know you wanna be my poz daddy…” I knew he’d like talk like that but he responded even more strongly than I thought he would. I came a few seconds later and then he was so worked up from the poz talk he wanted to jack off again. I’d cum, so this time it wasn’t going to be about my hole. He just laid on the bed and jacked off and asked me to suck on one nipple while I played with the other. This was what I was trying to avoid by letting him play with my ass in the beginning, but he was a bit in a frenzy so I knew it wouldn’t take him long to cum, and it didn’t – he blew a decent sized load all over his belly a few moments later.

All in all it was a hot hookup… It’s fun to see a guy get so into it…

Load 2012-38 & 39

So with life settling back to normal I’ve wanted to be a little more experimental sexually. I saw an Oxballs cock sheath advertised and it looked cool – figured it would make my cock thicker so I could give bottoms a harder, rougher fuck. So I ordered it and it happened to get here yesterday – 4 days before they said it would – literally a few minutes before the black guy from the neighborhood arrived to get fucked, so I figured I’d try it out on him…

I was little worried I wouldn’t be hard enough to use it, but that wasn’t an issue… It fit right over my half hard cock and I had no problem pushing right in his ass.

I was actually a little disappointed – here my dick just got A LOT thicker and the bottom just took it like it was nothing – like it was my regular cock. I hadn’t told him I was going to use it on him or even shown it to him. You’d think he’d reach around to figure out what I was fucking him with – I mean that can’t feel like a normal dick.

I fucked him pretty rough (that is the point of toy like the cock sheath), and while I was fucking him I was calling him my “nigger boy”, etc. And just to be clear – this is a black bottom who is only into white guys and likes race play. But I gotta say the whole nigger/slave thing – just wasn’t fitting somehow… I mean it was fine, but it didn’t feel like the edge of the N word was doing it’s trick. I think part of the issue is that he wasn’t saying anything back that built on that theme… Even, “Yes Sir, thank you Sir” would have been good. Or better yet “Yes Massa”. But anyway…

I was thinking when I ordered the cock sheath that it would decrease my sensitivity and it would take longer to cum as a result. Wrong. I came just as quick. Yes, the sensitivity was less, but it was also a different sensitivity. The cock sheath really squeezes your dick – and that’s always helped when I used to jack off, etc. So so much for getting me to get the fuck to take longer.

Unlike the other cock extenders that Oxballs has, the whole point of this one is that it’s open at the end, so when you cum, the bottom gets your load. After I came I fucked slowly in and out a bit and then pulled out and took off the cock sheath. He never did ask about it. Go figure. Probably has to do with the fact that he was “a little high” when he stopped by.

This morning I figured I’d play with it a bit and take a few photos. What I realized is that it’s quite good with semi-hard cocks. I can see why the PNP crowd would probably like it. As you get soft your dick just recedes into the sheath a bit like this…

But because it holds your dick so tightly you actually stay pretty hard. I could actually see wearing it at a sex party ’cause you can fuck when you’re half-hard. It’s like your cock is inside a dildo and you’re fucking the bottom with a dildo. When you do finally get hard, you’re all there and you can dump your load in the bottom.

Today the same bottom texted me saying he just took a 2 week load, so while I try not to fuck the same guy twice in a row, I told him to come over. Unfortunately I couldn’t taste the load when I rimmed him, and his ass didn’t feel all that silky when I fucked him. 🙁

What’s sorta funny is this time I didn’t use the cock sheath and he had a problem taking my dick – took me a while to get in and the ball on the underside of my dick (from the curved barbell in my PA) was a bit of a problem. The day before he was a bit high and doing poppers – what a difference those two make!

Anyway, it was a 9 minute pump-n-dump including taking clothes off, chit chat and cleaning up, and then he was on his way… It is handy to have someone a few blocks away who is practically on-call when I need a hole.

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Unfortunately I haven’t been able to fuck much this week, and it will probably be like that next weekend too. Long story, but my bf is stressed and he doesn’t want me having fun while he’s crazy busy. Wish it weren’t like that, but it is. But finally he told me I could hook, but said he didn’t want it to take long – no problem… The black cumhole from the neighborhood said he’d come over, but then admitted a little later that he didn’t feel well – he’d been in bed all day. So I got on BBRT and couldn’t find anyone. Then I got on Adam4Adam and a little Latino from Washington Heights said he’d stop by on his way to work.

He got here exactly on time. We went to the bedroom, stripped down, I closed the blinds and took out my PA (it was still too sensitive since it had only gotten the big ring in it a day before). He went to suck my dick, but I told him to get on the bed – I wanted to rim him. He had a decent ass & hole – got me hard pretty quickly. I figured I’d let him suck a little, so I got up on the bed, but while he was giving me a blowjob I reached over and got the lube and started lubing up his hole. When he was lubed he stopped sucking and got on his back with his legs up.

I’ve been sorta boring about fucking lately – always push the bottom down on his belly, but this time I figured I’d try something different and fuck him missionary style. I shoved in and could feel the head of my dick get past his 2nd sphincter (I love little guys exactly for that reason). He was in pain, which I sorta liked, but he wasn’t so fond of. He asked for more lube, which I supplied and kept fucking him. I could get in nice and deep in this position and it felt good. Usually I associate missionary with kissing, but he wasn’t the kind of bottom I wanted to kiss. He was a hole that was there so I could finally cum after 7 days of holding it in. On the plus side he didn’t seem to want me to kiss him – so it was all good…

He jacked his dick as he was getting fucked. I’m wondering whether he reads the blog and knows I cum quickly ’cause it wasn’t long before I was blowing my big, 7 day load up his hole and he came at the same exact time (more exciting for him than me). He didn’t cum much – it was sorta watery and clear – but some of it nearly got up to his nipple.

We laid next to each other on the bed for a little while afterwards. I was hoping he’d clean off my cock, but he didn’t. Usually after a fuck I’m pretty tender with the bottoms, but it was awkwardly not that way with him. Maybe I should have shoved my dick back in his cummy hole or something (hindsight is 20/20). Finally it sorta just became apparent it was time to go. I had told him I just wanted a quickie and he needed to get to work, so it wasn’t awkward or anything.

Then he asked to use my bathroom. I went in with him – I wanted to wash off my dick. That’s when he sat on the toilet and shit my cum out. Dude… You’re supposed to keep them in there. Having my load leak out of your ass while you’re at work is half the fun. Or bring a butt plug…

Sigh. Oh well… I just hope it was a big enough load that he didn’t get it all out. I mentioned it on Twitter and someone reminded me – I should have felched the load as he was pushing it out… I’ll remember that next time…

Load 2012-34

Friday night I had just a little time to fuck before I needed to do something with my bf. Just at the right time an old fuckbud texted me saying he was in Harlem and asking if I wanted to fuck him. He was 20+ blocks away, but I said yes.

He got down here and looked really good. What he was wearing made him look sorta sporty & hot. Last time I had fucked him was December ’09 – so a long time ago. Last time was actually a video shoot where another top and I tag teamed his hole… Here he is getting fucked by the other top…

He comes in, we go to the bedroom and he immediately starts stripping naked – even before I had a chance to draw the blinds. Somehow standing there naked he looked better than I remembered – tighter, leaner, a bit more muscular.

Once I got my clothes off he sorta went to suck my cock, but I took control and positioned him so I could rim his ass. His hole is naturally hairless and it seemed squeaky clean – my favorite type of hole to rim. Needless to say, I enjoyed it, and it got me hard pretty quickly.

I lube up his hole and my dick and left my Prince Albert in (I was wearing a 2 gauge curved barbell). I slid in and the first thing I noticed was his ass was more muscular than before. Some guys have soft cushy asses. He had this hard muscular ass – again, not something I remembered before. Seems he’s been working out his ass (and not just by getting fucked).

He had put a pillow under him which I pulled out. I wanted him flat on his stomach. I tried a few different positions – legs together, legs spread, and finally a bit sideways before I found the way that felt “just right”. At one point I said “you gotta good poz hole there boy” in his ear. He didn’t hear me clearly and asked “What?”. When I first started fucking him years ago he said he was neg, then he was sorta proud he had turned poz. But when he said “What?” it was in a way that made it sound like he might be objecting to the whole poz reference, so when I repeated myself I left out that word, and just stayed pretty much silent from that point on…

He then said “fuck me harder!” and I figured the best way for me to give him a rough fuck was to make use of my PA. I did long strokes – making sure that the ball on the underside of my dick went into his sphincter on every stroke. I figured that would rough up his hole a bit. Then I’d slam back into him with as much force as I could (without overdoing it).

Riding his muscular ass felt really good, and before long I came in his ass. In hindsight I should have felched his hole. I mean is was a pretty excellent hole, but I didn’t. He sucked me clean and then wanted to take a shower. He seemed a little disconnected and scattered. I mean usually with someone like him who I’ve fucked before we’ll lay there for a little while, talk, and catch up. But he just seemed jittery. It was like the “got a load” checkbox was done and so it was time to leave. His wanting to take a shower, and the fact that he was dressed really nicely, and how he wanted to leave so quickly, made me wonder if he was going home to a boyfriend who didn’t know he was taking loads.

The next day he texted me and said he was high when he got here. That made things make sense – why he was so scattered, distracted and disconnected. He also said he got 3 more loads that night, and that his hole was still sore from me rough fucking him with my PA. Apparently the soreness lasted for quite a while. But it was what he asked for… [If you’re wondering, if I stay deep I don’t really cause much hurt – it’s only when I do long strokes and get the PA into the sphincter on the upstroke that it hurts so much.] But apparently it didn’t hurt so much that he couldn’t continue to get fucked. Or maybe he was just too high to notice the pain.

Anyway, now that I see how his body has improved, I gotta get in his ass on a regular basis – maybe next time I’ll be his 4th load rather than 1st of 4 and get to felch some loads out of his ass…

Load 2012-33

Went to a sex party last night. It started at 7pm. From (limited) experience I knew that the first hour at a sex party is pretty dead, so I didn’t rush to get there, but I got tied up with something else and didn’t get there until 8:45. The doors closed at 9. I had been there before and when there were 3 of us arriving at the same time I figured it would be busy. It wasn’t. I counted and there were just 9 guys there. It was sorta sad.

What was a little weird was the host and I had talked. In the past he knew I was rawTOP, but there was zero recognition this time. His only comment was “you’ve been here before, right?”

Anyway, this stocky Latino was eyeing me up, and even though I’m not generally into stocky guys, he was OK… We started feeling each other up. Even though I had taken a Cialis an hour and a half before, my dick wasn’t all that excited to be there. I had to spin him around and have him bend over so I could rim him. His asshole was really deep in his ass cheeks – I never was quite sure if I was hitting his hole with my tongue or not, but that got my dick hard 😉 and we were off and running. He sucked my dick a bit and then we fucked. He was a bit obsessed with lube – but it did make the fuck better.

When a spot opened up on the couch we moved over there. He bent over and I fucked him. Then he had me sit down and he rode my dick. While he was doing it he was saying stuff. At one point I could swear he said “Fuck me rawTOP”. It’s possible he recognized me. Then he turned around and rode my dick with his back to me. Then I had him get on his knees on the couch and I fucked him that way. That position was the best of all of them. The other positions felt like pretty weak fucks. I never could get the position quite right. His hole just wasn’t rubbing my cock the right way and I never did feel an orgasm coming. He asked if I was going to cum and I said not quite yet.

As soon as I pulled out of his ass this Asian who was sitting next to us started sucking on my dick (ATM). We had come in together and he was the guy there who I most wanted to fuck. I had seen him getting fucked by some black guys, but hadn’t been paying total attention. We changed to fucking pretty quickly. His hole felt great. I learned later that he had two loads in there by then. Multiple loads always make an ass fun to fuck. Anyway, before long I felt a HUGE load blasting into his guts.

The huge load worried me a bit. Last time I went to the party I blew smaller loads and managed to cum 3 times. I took a breather after cumming and stood around hoping to regain my wind for a 2nd round. This black guy wanted to suck my dick while he was fucking this white bottom. I let him for a while, but he was more concentrated on the fuck and sorta just held my dick in his mouth. Having just cum, my dick was pretty sensitive and even that was too much, so I pulled off him.

The stocky Latino wanted me to come up behind him and fuck him while he was fucking this little chub. But my dick wasn’t ready to fuck yet.

After I was ready to fuck I did briefly fuck this white guy on the futon (I think he was the one the black guy was fucking). But I just couldn’t get the position right, so I gave up.

Then stocky Latino left. He was the person I was hoping to give my second load to. No one else there was really even close to my type. I mean if my dick had been hard I could have fucked them, but it would have been an uninspired fuck.

After that my dick was just barely cooperating. I tried to fuck this other white guy. I rimmed him, but just never got hard enough. However, when I went back to rimming the Asian guy he pushed some cum out of his ass. The felching got my dick up enough to fuck. I fucked him for a bit, but my dick was more thick and spongey than hard. We fucked like that for a bit and then gave up.

At that point no one else was going to arrive. My dick wasn’t cooperating. And there wasn’t really anyone there I wanted to fuck, so I left. The Asian guy left at the same time. I should have asked for his number, but I didn’t. He clearly did like me…

So in hindsight I shouldn’t have gone. There was this black guy I fucked a while back who’d taken multiple loads that day who wanted me to fuck him again. In hindsight I could have fucked him and saved the $20. Not only that, but he would have been a fun fuck. Could have fucked him with my PA, called him nigger, restrained and gagged him, etc. Oh well… Lesson learned – I should just stick with 1-on-1s…