Load 2010-38

I didn’t sleep all that well last night (long story), but when I woke up I was horny. I got onto BBRT and A4A sorta looking but not expecting to find anything, but to my pleasant surprise the little Latino muscle boy I fucked a month ago wanted to come over. A half hour later he was at my door.

He is so fucking hot… Short, really muscular, very little body fat, tattooed and a bit scruffy – pretty much perfect. I have no clue why he’s into big bears like me, but I don’t care – I’m just glad he is…

After getting naked we started off with me sucking his cock. I’m not generally all that big on sucking cock, but felt like it this morning. He had a nice dick – uncut, a little on the thin side, but a “pretty” dick. I could tell he was horny – his balls were pulled up tight he was making sounds like he was about to cum, so I stopped and he sucked my dick. He did a better (more enthusiastic) job sucking me than I did sucking him, but then again he’s the bottom – you’d expect that. I had taken out my PA, which helped since it didn’t get in the way…

After he had his fill of blowing me he got on the bed on all fours and presented his ass to me. I got on my knees and ate his ass. It was one of the time when I pretty much just sucked on his hole. He was clean so it safe to do that (I don’t always actually suck butt).

While I was eating his hole I was lubing up my dick. Then I stood up, put some lube on his hole and pushed in. He felt so good… I love a little muscle boy on all fours at the edge of the bed. Hanging onto their tight little muscle bodies just feels incredible.

His hole felt good, but wasn’t quite massaging my dick quite right so I pushed him onto his belly. After a few minutes of that I had no problem cumming. After I came I continued to slowly pump his hole. It was all cummy and felt pretty incredible. I wish there had been another top there who could have enjoyed how it felt and added another load… 🙂

I then rolled him over so we were on our sides with my dick still in his ass. He did about 5 or 10 jacks on his dick and came on his belly. The guy was definitely enjoying himself. We made out a little more but then got up, put on our clothes and got on with our day…

Great start… Hopefully he’ll come over for morning fucks on a regular basis…

Load 2010-37

While it’s hot to fuck a muscle boy with zero body fat, the fact of the matter is that average guys (even below average guys) can be incredibly hot fucks too… That was the case the day after Thanksgiving. A guy I fucked a few months ago came back over. Honestly, I was a bit wiped from drinking for 9 hours straight the day before (even though I paced myself). I was horny, but didn’t want anything too involved. I was mostly looking for something in the neighborhood, but I knew this particular guy was submissive enough that he’d travel and be happy even if it was just a quickie pump and dump, so I told him to come up.

Long story short he was an hour late getting here, but he did finally get here. As I sorta implied he’s sorta ‘average’… His profile says he’s the same age as me, but he seemed a bit older. I’m pretty sure he’s poz – he sorta looks like he might have been poz for a while (though I know that’s not something you can ever say for sure)…

Anyway, before he came he said he’d be up for drinking my piss. When he confirmed I really had to piss right then. I tried to hold off, but just couldn’t, so I took a piss and drank a bunch more iced tea. But then he was an hour late. I kept running to the bathroom to piss just a little bit and relieve the pressure, but finally I just had to take a serious piss. So then I drank a bunch more iced tea, but this time I saved a bunch and gulped it down when he rang my bell.

So first thing he did was get on his knees and take my soft cock in his mouth and drink my piss. I was wearing my PA, so it wasn’t quite as uneventful as it sounds. Since I had already been pissing it took a while to get much out. He’d pull off briefly and a little would spill on his t-shirt. But eventually he got a fair amount of piss.

He then sucked me briefly, but I wasn’t really looking for a blowjob – with the PA in they’re awkward anyway. He finished taking off his clothes (left his shirt on) and I had him get on all fours on the bed and I started eating out his ass. You could tell he’s been fucked A LOT. It was an “experienced” hole. He could push it out a bit which was sorta cool cause it gave me something to eat. It’s very different than an inexperienced bottom where everything is flush with his ass…

After rimming him for a while (and jacking my cock), I lubed up my dick with Wet Platinum and pushed in. For an experienced ass he was a lot tighter than I thought he would be. It actually took a few attempts before I could get the PA in. I could tell it was painful for him, but he pushed through it (like a good sub bottom).

Once I was in his hole felt good. I loved the fact that I just knew he’d let me do anything I wanted to him. He’s a real sub bottom who’s mission in life is to serve tops. It wasn’t a quick fuck, but it wasn’t a long fuck either. Eventually I did cum in him. It felt like a big load, but who knows… It’s not like I actually saw it…

Afterwards I rolled over and held him and caressed him. He caressed me back. That went on for a while and there was zero conversation. I was tired and I just liked how relaxing it was. I had to catch myself a couple times ’cause I nearly fell asleep on him. After probably 20 minutes he moved down and started sucking my dick and paying attention to other parts of my body. He was there to serve and was doing a great job of it. All I had to do was lay back and enjoy it. At one point I tried fucking him some more, but that didn’t really work – I was spent. So he went back to caressing me.

All in all that part probably went on for 45 minutes and there was almost no conversation the entire time… It was just nice and relaxing. I don’t think he wanted it to end. Every time I’d make a move to end it he’d want me to lay on top of him, or lay down next to him or something. He may be a cumhole who would be happy with a pump and dump, but I could tell he wanted so much more. It’s sorta interesting to me how anonymous bottoms sometimes crave more meaningful encounters.

At one point during that time I got on top of him and pissed an incredible amount of piss down his throat. It was literally gulp after gulp after gulp. He had gotten me so relaxed I was finally able to piss easily and the huge amount of tea I had had during the day finally came out. After that he had some pretty serious piss breath. That’s the one bad thing about being a piss top, but it’s not something I can fault him for. I like bottoms drinking my piss, and piss breath just comes with the territory.

After a bit more quiet time it was eventually time for it to end. I got up and he put on his clothes and left. Good fuck though – pretty much exactly what I needed.

Load 2010-36

Fantasy-wise it’s hot to breed neg bottoms, but honestly I’m starting to think poz bottoms are just better bottoms. A little over 2 weeks ago the neg bottom who last time asked my status after I fucked him said he wanted me to come over and fuck him again. Needless to say I wanted to complete my mission and actually get a load up his ass, so I said yes…

I show up at his place, we chat a little. I was a little earlier than he was expecting so he jumped into the shower after I got there. He seemed a little hesitant to just walk around in a towel after showering (he’s seriously inhibited), but I convinced him it was no big deal. After chatting a little more we moved into the bedroom. He sucked my dick and did a horrible job of it. He was going a million miles an hour on my dick when a nice slow, relaxed blowjob would have been so much more erotic.

I really wasn’t interested in his dick so went straight for his ass… He seemed a little shocked by my getting right to the point – I think he wanted it to be slower and more romantic or something… But he still liked being rimmed… 🙂

Eventually (after doing some kissing to get him “ready”) I lubed up and got into him. He kept wanting to change positions and when I’d start getting in a groove he’d start squirming. It was really frustrating and at one point I had to tell him to stop squirming. Not squirming seemed like a revelation to him… Later he said he wasn’t a very good bottom because in the past he’d mostly topped. But honestly if he’d topped enough he’d know what turns a top on – and he’d know that squirming is counter productive. And for god’s sake I even wonder how many blowjobs he’s gotten in the past – I mean he doesn’t even understand the basics of sucking dick.

There was one time when I felt like I was about to cum but then didn’t feel the squirt. Thing is, all of a sudden his ass felt all wet and some fluid spurted out of his hole. Then I realized that I had cum and he had finally gotten my load – but I wasn’t quite sure. I was also disappointed that I didn’t actually feel the ejaculation. Still, it made me wonder how many other bottoms I’ve cum in where I thought I hadn’t cum… Maybe my batting average is better than I think. After “cumming” I kept fucking him. But eventually my dick sorta just ran out of steam (like it would if I had cum – which reinforced the fact that I had cum).

So we laid there and chatted a little and he’d suck on my dick a little every now and then, etc. I asked him what he meant last time by “that was a first for me in many ways”. He said it was the first time he got barebacked, but he sorta alluded to the fact that it might have been the first time he got fucked. He tried to pass it off that he had been a top in the past, but I just don’t believe him. I think the guy is pretty new to gay sex. Maybe he’s sucked a few dicks or something, but that’s about all… He once again asked if I was negative, etc. I told him the truth (again) but went into as little detail as possible.

I wasn’t 100% sure I had cum, so I went back to fucking him when I got my second wind. He did better (didn’t squirm too much), but I still wouldn’t call him a good bottom. Once again I didn’t feel an ejaculation, but who knows… Maybe I gave him another load… Eventually I was done so I wrapped things up an left.

A day later I get a text message from him…

I freaked out today and got myself tested… Thank God it’s Negative.

My Dr is asking me to do this 28 day medical program which has a lot of side effects… Can I speak with U?

I responded…

It’s called PEP. Personally I don’t recommend it. But it’s up to you. I haven’t used a condom in 6 years and only used them occasionally before that. It would be crazy for me to run to the doctor in a panic every time I have sex. I’m OK with the risk I take. Only you can say what’s right for you.

Then he responded…

I appreciate your response… I was at emergency for 3 hrs… I really like you and thought that I can have this conv with you.. Hope u understand.

OMG… That is just totally fucked up… I mean he knew what I was about and he invited me back to get fucked raw and take a load, then he can’t deal with it and spends 3 hours in an emergency room?That’s just too much drama. A poz bottom would just take the load and want you to come back and give him another load.

I never got back to him so I don’t know how it all turned out. Hopefully he’ll get over his inhibitions and just enjoy sex. But I have a feeling that’s not going to happen any time soon – he’s going to have this tortured sex life until he becomes poz… Maybe then he’ll relax and enjoy getting fucked.

Thank god for poz bottoms!

Load 2010-35

OMG! I just fucked the hottest little Latino muscle guy… Short, compact, and all muscle… PERFECT body. And shockingly, really into me… Usually guys that hot want other “hot” guys…

Anyway, I saw him on Adam4Adam and he wasn’t far away. His stats and public pic were good. When he unlocked his private pic didn’t match his public pic, but his private pic was hotter, so no huge deal there… When I was looking at his profile I honestly didn’t notice how little he was… I did notice his profile said “neg / safe sex only”. I asked whether he was OK with bb and he just avoided (or forgot to answer) the question… (I don’t ask twice)…

So long story short, we go back and forth and it works out that he can come over tonight. He was a little late, but not much. The poor guy had walked and didn’t dress properly and was freezing when he got here. He was a lot shorter than I was expecting – but that’s a very good thing in my book – the smaller the better… And he was HOT – his private pic was totally accurate.

We get undressed. With muscle guys I’m never sure whether they’re into guys with builds like mine or whether they just want my dick. I left my shirt on, but he started pulling it off, so I knew it was all good. He then started devouring my body – kissing / licking me all over. Feeling my body… He was really into body contact – in a major way.

He sucked my dick for a while, then I sucked his briefly then I spun him around and started eating his ass. He had this perfect slightly hairy muscle butt. He was pretty clean – just a little musk. He liked having his hole eaten… When I finished I grabbed the lube and was about to fuck him, but he wanted to suck my dick some more… He had me sit on the edge of the bed and gave me a good blowjob. Then he had me lay back. I was hoping he was going to sit on my cock, but he got into 69 position and offered me his hole while he sucked my dick. So I laid there for 10 minutes or so and just ate his ass while he slobbered all over my cock. He especially liked trying to get my dick down his throat.

I was starting to wonder if he was mostly oral and trying to get me to cum to avoid getting fucked. After all, his profile did say “neg / safe sex only”… But he finally got tired of sucking my dick and got into position to get fucked. But then he jumped up and started rifling through his pants. I was thinking – shit, what am I going to do if he pulls out a condom. I’d say no of course, but how?  But he came back with a bottle of poppers, so we were all good…

He got on all fours on the edge of the bed and I fucked him for a bit. Felt good, but the angle wasn’t quite right – his ass was a little too high and he wasn’t getting my hints to lower his ass. So I pushed him forward onto his belly. At first he thought I wanted him on all fours, but I finally got him how I wanted him.

I was able to get deep into him in this position and it felt INCREDIBLE. There was friction on the head of my dick (nirvana for me). As far as I could tell I was fucking his 2nd sphincter. I only get that deep on little guys – it’s why I love fucking them so much – fucking little guys just feels better (sometimes) – and this was definitely one of those times.

Needless to say it didn’t take long for me to blow in his ass. He might have been a little disappointed I came so quickly, but there was no way I could have lasted longer. After I came I slowly fucked his cummy ass, then rolled the two of us over onto our sides and continued to fuck him while we played with each other…

There was more body contact, etc. And he was hard the whole time. I wasn’t sure whether I should get  him off or not. It’s not really my thing and he didn’t seem to need me to, so I didn’t. Eventually I was totally soft and he took that as a cue to leave.

Unlike most of the bottoms I fuck there really wasn’t any conversation – it was just very physical sex – fine with me, just different.

He’s not far away – hopefully I’ll get to fuck him pretty regularly…

Last Thursday I was supposed to hookup with this hot bottom who was in from out of town. He was staying at a hotel in midtown, so the plan was to go fuck him and then head over to the poz party at Vlada a few blocks away. But I didn’t know (or forgot) that he could only hookup early in the evening. When I pushed the hookup to 8pm so it would be easy to just go over to Vlada for the party, he didn’t get back to me until 7 and by then I just couldn’t get down there before he had to leave to go see his play.

So then I was scrambling to find another bottom to fuck. This guy hit me up on A4A and my notes on him just said that when we talked before he had reiterated that he was neg. This time there were zero questions about status. The emails were short, sweet and to the point. By his 3rd email to me he had given me his address and said come over.

The issue was that he wasn’t anywhere near Hell’s Kitchen and the poz party… I had to do a transfer to get to him. I headed out, and tried to transfer at Times Square to another train to get to him. I waited and waited and noticed there were a lot of people on the platform waiting. When one of the trains on the other tracks turned around and went back the way it was coming from I knew something was up. I was already late, so I figured I’d take a cab the rest of the way. Problem was it was raining lightly and there were no cabs available. So I wound up walking 20+ blocks in light rain to get to him.

By the time I got there I was hot, sweaty and wet. I’m sure I looked like a complete mess. He lived in a VERY nice building and had a great apartment. When he offered a drink I took it ’cause I sorta just needed a short break to get in a different frame of mind. We chatted briefly and then headed to the bedroom.

I should stop and say the guy wasn’t completely my type, but there was something about him I really liked. He seemed a bit awkward and innocent and it was appealing… When we stripped down and kissed a little he liked what he saw and he got very compliant basically telling me he’d do whatever I wanted. I told him to suck my dick and he gave me a great blowjob – felt really good. But what I really wanted was his neg ass…

After the blowjob I told him to get on the bed and give me his ass. He got on his back and threw his legs up.  This is when I saw what I really liked… He had this wonderfully smooth ass. There was just something incredibly fuckable about it. I rimmed him for a while and got it all wet, then I spit on my dick and tried to get in him.

He needed lube and handed me some. I noticed there were condoms next to the lube. I didn’t take one, he didn’t ask me to use one. I lubed up, and pushed in. I had to take it slow and couldn’t go very deep at first. After a while I wanted to change positions so I started rolling him over trying to ease him into being on his belly (thought it might be a bit too anonymous for him).

When I got him on his belly he started bucking around and then wanted to do doggy. It was a little frustrating. I came close to cumming, but never could. He was squirming around too much and I was getting overheated (it was warm and humid in the apartment and I was sweating like a pig).

There came this point where he asked if I liked him well enough to cum. I said ‘yes’ (since that was my intention). We fucked a bit more and when I slowed down (’cause I was wearing out), he thought I’d cum in his ass and pulled off my dick. Then I saw that he wasn’t all that clean and headed off to the bathroom to clean up. I knew that was sorta the end of it for me – I don’t do well when bottoms’ aren’t clean.

When I went back to the bedroom he seemed nervous. He said something like “Wow, that was the longest and most intense sex I’ve ever had. It was a first for me on many levels.” I was a little surprised. For starters we had only been having sex for 20 minutes at most. I figured it may have been the first time he was barebacked and possibly the first time (he thought) he took a load. Then he paused a second and hesitantly asked something like “So the question is… Well, you’re neg, right?” I told him what he wanted to hear and didn’t give details (like my last test was over 8 months ago).

After that he was surprised I wasn’t getting dressed and leaving, so I took the hint, dressed and left…

My goal now is to give him what he thought he got – a load deep in his ass… Hopefully I’ll hook up with him again this week. I really want to get him addicted to taking loads… 😉

I wrote  a while back about the hot young jock who was coming to NYC and wanted to be my live-in boy (after a trial period where he had his own place). Then a couple weeks before he was supposed to be here, he dropped off the face of the earth – never heard from him again.

Well, the latest installment of “too good to be true” was a rich, young plastic surgeon who was coming to town for a conference and wanted to hookup with me… From the beginning things just didn’t add up… For starters he said he was interested in videotaping the fuck and didn’t mind having his face show. That raised serious question marks. What successful doctor would want the reputation of being in a bareback gay porn video (taking loads)?

Then he started asking if I wanted to do 3ways and groups with some of his friends. Generally I’m OK with that, but I wondered what sorta scenario he was looking for. Then he asked “do you like to party with other Tops or just Bottoms?” And I thought, “oh god – this is the PNP crowd” – too much money and lots of drugs. I quizzed him on it and he swore he didn’t do drugs. But there was just this overtone to what he said that was totally party boy / playboyish – I didn’t believe him a bit when he said he didn’t PNP. I was starting to see that he fit a certain type – and I’m not really all that into that type. The A-type personality rich boys and me never get along all that well – I’m way more mellow and “real”

He was supposed to be here a couple days ago, but I didn’t hear from him. Then he said he was delayed because there was some big accident and a bunch of people needed plastic surgery. Then I got these IMs and one of them had his full name and title. I googled him and looked on the hospital’s website and couldn’t find any trace of a doctor by that name (or a variation of that name). Add to that, he said his last name was Vanderbilt. I was now really suspicious – things just weren’t adding up.

He kept pushing his persona – saying he could have his driver pick me up, that he was staying at the Ritz Carlton on Park Avenue South (after telling me earlier he was staying at the Mandarin). But that didn’t make sense either… What doctor (attending a conference) needs a driver in NY? Use cabs for god’s sake. You only need a driver if you’re going from place to place and have packages.  I know enough doctors to know they just don’t live like that. One of the doctors I know is a brain surgeon at a world-renown hospital with at least 10 more years experience than this guy (who’s in his early 30s). The brain surgeon is LOADED and spends his money, but he’d never spend it like this guy… Even with the Nip/Tuck stereotype lifestyle built in, it didn’t add up…

Then when we were actually supposed to hookup he starts asking about whether I’d be into particular other guys… He sent me a bunch of pics and asked which one I wanted to hookup with…

Of course all those guys are hot. When he asked me “Which guy do you like better”? My response was “whichever one is most into bears”. I then mentioned groups are a bit of a chemistry thing. He didn’t get it. I was sitting there thinking the last thing I wanted was to be a 3rd wheel in group of jocks who were only into other jocks.

We chatted a bit more, while he said he read the blog, he seemed to think I looked like I did when I was in Dawson’s 20 Load Weekend. I told him that was 6 years ago – I didn’t look like that any more. I sent him a pic showing I now have a belly. He was still pressing on who I wanted to hookup with and not understanding when I said I wanted to hookup with guys who were into bears.

Then he started asking me weird questions like do I fuck with my clothes on all the time (no), would I take out my PA (of course), and was I planning on wearing a hood (not unless we’re doing video)? Then he told me the hood was scary. I told him that was sorta the point of it – it’s an executioner’s hood. Then he got all defensive and said “I know what it is, I have 3 doctorate degrees”. I just laughed at that comment – exactly what doctoral program had a class on executioner’s hoods? Plus, who gets 3 doctoral degrees?  I know a lot of people who are academic overachievers – he didn’t strike me as the type. And none of the academic overachievers I know have 3 Ph.D.’s (and Ph.D’s are pretty common in my family).

At that point I knew the guy was total bullshit. I mean things just didn’t add up –  1) flawless jock, 2) party boy, 3) crazy rich, 4) total playboy, 5) sexually obsessed, 6) lots of hot jock friends, 7) 3 doctoral degrees by his early 30s, and 8) a great job. I’m sorry, but too many of those things are contradictory. I didn’t know what he was, but I was convinced by that point 1) he wasn’t into guys like me, and 2) he was a huge liar.

Then he kept going on…

I can’t help we are all into the way our bodies look
It is not because we are Plastic and Recon Surgeons either, I for one only treat tauma patients
We are all very educated with great personalities, none of us are superficial
Maybe you are more into twink looking guys? I don;t know, if that is true, that is ok, no offense will be taken
…
I kinda think you are placing me into a category just because I have a great body

(Oh yeah, all his hot jock friends were also rich plastic surgeons… right…)

Then as I was responding he logged off (nice). My response was…

no, i’m placing you in a category because all the other guys you’re into have great bodies…
if there was more diversity in who you were into i’d be a hell of a lot more comfortable.
if i were a muscle bear, i’d fit in pretty well…
but i’ve been around the block enough to know what situations work and what don’t. this one feels all wrong.

He connected long enough to see my response, then disconnected. A little while later he sent me an e-mail…

I am sorry I e-mailed you, I should have known you were going to be scared to meet someone that looked like me.

I just shook my head and wrote the following response…

You’re not understanding me… I am not scared – at all… I’ve had great 1-on-1 sex with guys just as hot as you. There are guys like you who are into “real men” and bears, but you don’t seem to be one of them – all your fuck buddies are body beautiful types. This isn’t about what you look like. It’s about who you (and your friends) are attracted to.

I had a full week of work last week, worked all weekend, ran around the city with a relative yesterday, and worked hard today. I’m exhausted. Dealing with a group of body conscious pretty boys is the last think I feel like doing tonight. My idea of the perfect fuck right now is a sub who gives up his hole, gets me to blow my load, and then slowly pampers me and gets me to relax. You guys are too high maintenance.

I understand the whole muscle worship thing and know some guys will do anything to get with someone like you. I’m not one of them. In my experience average guys are often better fucks. When everything else is equal I prefer a lean to muscular bottom, but there are a lot of factors that are more important to me than the guy’s body. It’s those other factors that make me not want to hookup with you.

The e-mail was returned saying the e-mail address didn’t exist. I tried his other e-mail address – same thing. He had deleted both of his e-mail addresses. Only total fakers use throw-away e-mail addresses – I’m sure he never intended to hookup with me…

So, after having out of town pretty boys fuck with me twice lately, next time I’m requiring a video chat. I’m also thinking I’ll verify their location by making them hit a page that tells me their IP address and then I’ll look it up on the services that say where IP addresses are located. Otherwise they can contact me when they get in town and give me a hotel address and get a quick anonymous fuck like everyone else…