Load 2013-14

Apologies for now blogging sooner. Black Party weekend was a bit of a bust. I went out Friday night and did go to a sex party (hosted by Tony Serrano) and did fuck three guys, but I paced myself and then couldn’t cum. Then I went over to the Eagle where I had to wait quite a while to get in. It was supposed to be blackout night, but the lighting seemed pretty normal to me. The place was packed and there was some guys sucking cock, but almost no one was fucking. I got my dick sucked a bit, and sucked a few other guys, but didn’t give or get any loads. I stayed out way later than usual for me that night and it sorta ruined the next day. Then I started feeling a little under the weather. There was one other guy I fucked that weekend, but I just couldn’t cum with him (he was pretty beefy – which is a type I’m hit or miss with).

Feeling a bit under the weather (or a lot under the weather) has been my story for too much of the year so far. If it’s not one thing, it’s another – usually a head cold, but then a couple weeks ago I got what we thought was food poisoning but as the days went by it was more like a gastro bug. Anyway, that cleared up just in time for me to go to a porn conference in Phoenix. One or two guys were a little flirty with me, but not enough that we wound up in bed, and security at the hotel was really tight so I couldn’t have anyone in and without a car I couldn’t travel. Plus, honestly, I still felt a little under the weather and didn’t feel like fucking.

That means it’s been almost 3 weeks since I gave someone a load – that’s not good… So I’m now trying to get back in the swing of things. I still cough a lot – guess I should go see a doc – and I feel a little run down, but trying to fuck at least a little.

Anyway… on to the fuck story… 😉

One of the things I love about anonymous sex is how surprisingly intimate it can be. Innocently85 posted a message on Breeding Zone saying he was neg in NYC looking for loads…

Just moved here and looking to be used by raw tops. Free any evenings and weekends. Total bottom, easy going, love being made into a pig and used hard. 27, 5’10, 150, blonde/blue. Live alone, love to play around or just put my ass out to be dumped in.

When I looked at his pics I remembered talking to him in the past. He was sort of a boy-next-door type. While he didn’t post in the bug chaser section, a post like that on Breeding Zone indicates at least that he doesn’t care if he gets pozzed. And his BBRT profile had “don’t care” for “your status”. While my last test was just over a month ago and it was neg, I gotta say I get turned on by the idea of pozzing someone. So it was a pretty big turn on to fuck him and think about knocking him up.

I don’t usually make plans to hookup, but I did with him. We confirmed the day before and then the day of. He was so accommodating. I told him I wanted it to be pretty anon – at least initially… I wanted him ass up on his bed in a darkish room. And that’s exactly what I found when I got there…

I stripped down – he had the window open and it was a bit cold, but I knew that would keep me from overheating. I rimmed him for a bit and then took some pics of his hole and my dick pushing in his ass…

I had taken a Cialis the night before and my dick was really hard. Plus, anonymous dark room scenes just turn me on – especially when it’s a neg bottom who is willing to give you pretty much anything you want. 😉

I got him onto his belly and started fucking him. His hole felt good. It had been a few days since I’d cum, my dick was hard as a rock and the hole felt good… I couldn’t ask for more… 😉  I almost expected to cum immediately, but it took a little while – though not long. But he definitely got my load.

After I came I just kept fucking him. It felt good and my dick almost refused to go soft. After a little bit I rolled on to our sides and continued to slowly fuck his hole as we spooned. That went on for a LONG time and he seemed to like it. I’d slowly caress him as I pumped his ass. It was a pretty intimate and connected moment. It’s sorta funny how you can have those moments with complete strangers. But I think it’s one of the healthier parts of bareback sex. Cumming in someone’s ass (or having someone cum in your ass) is such an intimate act – but it’s often done in rather sleazy settings. I mean the bottom in this case hadn’t even seen me yet, but he had my load in his ass and there I was caressing him as I continued to fuck him… There’s something about those moments that are really special.

The only negative in the whole hookup was that he had shaved at some point and was really stubbly all over – especially his chest which I had my arm wrapped around. Stubble is temporary, so it’s not a big deal. But my suggestion for guys like him is to buy a beard trimmer and trim your body with that if you don’t want to look so hairy. I mean – some of you are pretty hairy – just own that fact – but don’t try to be smooth – it’s just not who you are. Actually, knowing him and how submissive/passive he is – some top probably shaved him or told him to shave. So I don’t even blame him for the situation – and again… it’s distracting, but not a deal breaker…

Finally my dick got soft and came out of his ass and we laid there and cuddled for a bit. Then I tried felching him, but the only thing on the outside of his ass seemed to be lube – nothing tasted like cum. Which is fine – I’m glad my load was deep inside him absorbing into him.

Finally I told him I was going to go. At which point he asked “Can I see you?” He had intentionally not looked at me – knowing I wanted anonymous sex. He didn’t have to go that far, but he did… It was sorta cute and hot… I said sure and for a couple of minutes we were face to face looking at each other, then I got up and dressed and left.

Load 2013-13

Sorry for not posting, but I had a head cold for 2+ weeks. It really wasn’t that bad of a cold, the problem was that it zapped my energy big time. I just didn’t have the energy to fuck. Even jacking off was difficult. I was horny and came just about every day (often more than once a day), but it wasn’t easy to cum. I really had to work to get the load and half the time I wasn’t even all that hard while I was jacking off.

I still have a few small symptoms, but I’m feeling good enough to fuck – provided the bottom is “my type”. And my little muscular Latino fuck buddy is definitely my type. I love his ass. So I saw him online and hit him up and asked if he wanted to come over.

I had actually tried to hookup yesterday, but I didn’t have much time and the guy who said he’d come over was a no-show. In contrast my fuckbuddy is incredibly reliable. But today he was a bit late – when he got here he said there were problems with the subway.

It’s funny with him – we clearly really like each other, but the chemistry is always a bit distant. We stripped down as soon as we got into the bedroom – it was almost perfunctory. I went over to him and paid him a little attention and he nuzzled up to me and sucked on my nipple, etc. Usually he’s really submissive with me, but today he wasn’t quite so submissive. I even sucked his dick a little. His dick is beautiful but not very big. He’s a short guy and it’s proportional to the rest of him. His dick would actually be good to top a guy like me who’s got a really tight ass and can’t take big dicks… But I digress… I knew he cums really easily, so I didn’t suck him for too long ’cause I didn’t want him cumming.

I then got him over to the bed on all fours and rimmed him. I was already hard, so it didn’t need to go on for long. I then got up, grabbed the lube, got my dick ready and then pushed into his hole. He’s always nice and tight, but I take it slow at first. Then when he’s stretched a little I can fuck him properly. I fucked him a little in doggy position, but didn’t like that he was jacking his dick. And his hole feels so good when he’s on his belly – so I pushed him forward on the bed and then down flat. He never seems to want to get fucked that way, but he always complies.

It took a little while to cum (I’m still not at 100%), but not long later I was blowing up his ass. There were multiple volleys of cum. I could feel shoot after shoot after shoot… Seems I gave him a pretty big load 😉

We played around for a few minutes more and then he got up and got dressed. He’s like that – likes to keep it pretty anonymous and quick. In this case I think he was on his lunch hour and with the train problems he had to get back to work. Which raises another question – he always comes over at lunch or after work, but he’s always perfectly clean even though I’m hitting pretty deep inside him. It was like he’s built to bottom… Lucky guy that he’s naturally clean or can get clean so easily (at work)…

So this weekend I’m going to try out some of the sex parties since it’s Black Party weekend and my bf is out of town. Should be fun 😉  We’ll see what sort of trouble I can get into…

And if you’re wondering… I’ve sorta given up on giving 100 loads this year. My spreadsheet says if I keep things up at the same rate I’ll only give 60 loads this year. I think I can do better than that, but 100 isn’t realistic with this slow of a start. Still, I think it’s possible to beat my all time high of 67 loads given – maybe I should shoot for 75 loads for the year.

Where I’m doing well is in number of guys I’ve fucked since I’ve been to a number of sex parties this year where I fuck a bunch of guys, but only give one or two loads. My spreadsheet says I’ll fuck 129 guys this year. That’s probably going to go way up this weekend if I go to as many sex parties as I think I will.

Load 2013-12

My bf was out of town this past weekend so I figure I’d use the opportunity to slut around a little. I went to a sex party over in Queens that a fuckbuddy had told me about. I wouldn’t say it was over the top great, but it was definitely fun.

It was sort of a weird place – had vestiges of being an office, but there were beds scattered here and there and some booths were built into some of the rooms – some with glory holes. I kept my boots on and I was sorta glad I did – ’cause god knows what was all over the floors and there were times when I’d go into the dark area thinking I could see what was right in front of me and then bump into someone. I probably stepped on a few guys feet in the process and was sorta glad my boots protected me when other guys “returned the favor”.

When I got there I found a bed in the dark room with three guys ass up on it. It took me a while to feel around and figure out what was up. I fucked each of them and I’m pretty sure the third guy got me to blow my load – at least my dick acted like it had cum the rest of the night. It never got quite as hard, etc. But I did manage to fuck 5 more guys (some more than once).

One guy in particular was sorta weird – this hot little black guy (or dark skinned blatino – not sure which). Anyway, when I rimmed him there was a weird taste to his ass and the lube on my beard and lips felt weird. I think he might have had desensitizing cream on or something. I realize why he may want desensitizing cream, but it’s not very good for the tops. He was really hot – so fucked him anyway and then I tried to rinse the shit off my face and dick.

The only real problem with the place is that bottoms guard their place on that bed in the dark room. It’s really quite stupid. They’re not having sex and some poor bottom can’t get fucked properly ’cause he doesn’t have a spot on the bed. There were bottoms I’d encounter who were just bent over in the middle of the room – but that’s not a great position for the bottom or the top. They really should make a rule that if you’re not getting fucked you need to get off the bed. If I could have fucked more guys on the bed I probably could have cum more. Oh well. (They should add another bed or two in there). Still, it was a lot of fun.

I wanted to do more over the weekend but came down with a bad head cold. Just my luck. I’ll have another weekend to myself in a few weeks. So hopefully I can do a lot more then.

Load 2013-11

Looking at my spreadsheet it’s been 22 days since I gave a load. There were two other fucks in there – one the day after, and another a week ago, but I didn’t manage to cum either time.

The first one was with a guy I’ve been wanting to fuck for a while – very submissive. But it was sorta disappointing – first, I wasn’t able to cum. But then I tried flogging him, and he could take some pain, but he had a potential boyfriend coming into town a few days later and didn’t want obvious marks on his body – so I couldn’t really do all that much (’cause he said he bruises easily). And then third he was capable of getting fisted, but I hadn’t trimmed my fingernails, so that was a bad idea. I tried out my cocksheath on him – he could take that no problem, and then I tried out my Pig Hole on him – also no problem. BUT neither could get me to cum and the problem was that while he was clean enough to fuck, with the Pig Hole in he basically had a huge gaping hole into his ass and it didn’t smell so good. It was frustrating – ’cause he has potential, but things just didn’t work out.

And then a week ago I hooked up with a cumhole in the neighborhood. He hadn’t gotten back to me very quickly so I was really rushed on time. And he didn’t have a proper bed, so I couldn’t really get in a comfortable groove with him – so that didn’t work so well either.

Things have been slow for a number of reasons but one of the major ones was that I just wasn’t in the mood. It wasn’t winter blues or anything – I just was in a different mood. I’ve been programming a new site and when I program I sometimes get blinders on. I get really mellow and just focus on the task at hand. Bottom line I didn’t feel like interacting with people all that much – jacking off seemed more my mood than fucking.

It is interesting that full moons seem to get me in a sexual mood. I broke a 9 day dry spell a day before the last full moon and then proceeded to fuck 8 guys in 13 days. Now I’m breaking a dry spell the day after the full moon.

Anyway – the hookup… After so much of nothing, I wanted a good hookup to get back in the swing of things, so when my little muscular Latino fuckbuddy said yesterday that he was available tonight, I got online and pretty much ignored everyone waiting for him. His hole always feels incredible and I love his body.

His profile says he’s versatile and honestly, in my weird sexual mood, I contemplated having him fuck me. I even spent all sorts of time cleaning out. I mean he gets incredibly hard when he’s with me and he’s not huge (so I should be able to take him), and he’s really hot… He should be a good fuck, but when he actually got here I got my regular groove back and didn’t want anything other than to fuck him. The thought of him fucking me just seemed completely wrong.

It was a pretty standard fuck only he sucked my dick for a while before getting on all fours and presenting his ass to me. The blowjob went better than most. I was a little worried ’cause as he was undressing I was naked and wasn’t getting very hard very fast. But I was a bit more than half hard when he started sucking and the blowjob did its trick and I got completely hard as he was blowing me. It was actually sorta fun fucking his face.

The he got on the bed and I rimmed him for a little bit before lubing up my dick and fucking him. He seemed to want to jack his dick as I was fucking him, but I pushed him down on his belly and stopped that. His hole always feels incredible and it didn’t take long for me to cum. The funny part was my cum took a while to cum out. My orgasm started and nothing was coming out, then it sorta trickled out for a while.

I then laid on top of him and slow fucked him. Then turned him on his side and spoon fucked him while he jacked off. He came in like 30 seconds.

Some of the hookups with him are pretty quick. This one was only about 20 minutes, but it was more relaxed… I liked it 😉

After he left I realized I’ve fucked him a lot of times, but I have no clue what his name is or anything about him. It’s sorta funny – but I also sorta like it that way.

This weekend should be fun – I’ve got the place to myself so I’ll be exploring sex parties, bathhouses, etc. I’ve even got a slave coming in for the day on Sunday. Should be fun 😉

Load 2013-10

So after giving two loads to the bottom yesterday, I was pretty spent. There was an 18 y.o. who had said he wanted to hookup today, but didn’t hear from him (I’d given him my cell and told him to text me, and I saw him on A4A but he didn’t reply when I messaged him). So I moved on, but I wasn’t completely sure I was up to it. After some encouragement on Twitter to go for it, I took part of an herbal pill and when it started kicking in I looked for a bottom to fuck.

This one guy said he was up in Washington Heights. When I replied that I wasn’t really looking to travel he said he’d come down. Sounded good to me and his pics looked good. Soon he was on his way over.

When he got here he looked really familiar. By the time we were in the bedroom and taking off my clothes I remembered fucking him (it was almost a year ago now, but I didn’t write it up ’cause I was pretty busy back then). He had told me his location before coming over and I was like “oh, I remember walking over to his place when I used to live in Washington Heights.”

He was really submissive and not particularly assertive. I had a hardon ’cause I had been working on porn when he arrived and I was sort of hoping he’d get down and give me a blowjob. But he didn’t figure that out. I probably should have told him to suck me, but if he wasn’t into it then I didn’t really want to go there (he was there to get fucked, not give me a blowjob).

He was responding to my feeling up his hole, so I told him to get on the bed so I could rim him. He had a really nice muscular ass with a slightly hairy hole. He seemed pretty clean, so I gave him a pretty good rimming. But it didn’t last long ’cause I was already hard and figured I’d just move it along to fucking.

I lubed up my dick and stood up. His hole was like 3 or 4 inches above my cock ’cause I have pretty short legs and he had long legs. I push him down and stood on my tippy toes and shoved in. He seemed pretty tight, but also had no problem taking my dick – I love holes like that.

Given the contortions I had to do, that position wasn’t going to last long, so I pushed him forward onto his belly. Then he started bucking up and down a bit. Not too much, but enough to be a bit irritating. I didn’t really want to verbally tell him to stop, and I wondered whether he was doing it because he wanted to be more in contact with me, so I got down lower and put more weight on him. That slowed down the bucking of his torso, but he continued to push up his ass. Ugh. At one point I actually slipped out ’cause he was moving down when I was moving up. After that he seemed to get the idea that moving around so much might be a bad idea and things got much better.

His hole felt pretty good. There was this weird sensation though – it’s hard to describe but it sort of felt like the head of my cock had slipped into a fabric pocket that moved with my dick. Like a little fabric condom was covering just the tip of my dick. I didn’t pay too much attention to it ’cause I didn’t want it to distract me. By that time I could feel the beginning of my orgasm, so I focused on that.

I finally came – I seemed to give him a decent sized load, but since I’d cum twice the day before it wasn’t the biggest load. I then rolled us over and continued to slow fuck his ass. He seemed to really like that – like he didn’t want the fucking to end. After maybe 5 minutes of that my dick finally slipped out of his ass. Actually it was so sudden that it seemed to startle him and possibly hurt him just a little.

He then got up, and I started playing with my dick a little. I looked down and couldn’t see it completely clearly (since I didn’t have glasses or contacts on) but my dick looked a bit brown. Shit… So I got up and followed him to the bathroom and washed off my dick in the sink. I hate shit on my dick, but as they say, “shit happens”…

So a decent fuck except the ending…

Load 2013-8/9

Well, the hookup I just had helped catch me up a bit on my 100 load goal for the year – the guy got two loads from me – which is rare for me – so by definition a good hookup.

I wasn’t really all that sure I wanted to hookup. I was having a nice mellow day – getting stuff done on Tumblr & on my blogs. I’d occasionally look at BBRT & A4A – and oddly, A4A was far more active today. There were two black guys on A4A who both wanted to hookup and both were definitely my type. One was up for videotaping the hookup which is a good thing, but I have to be in the mood for it since it just takes more effort since you have to be “on” completely when the camera is rolling. The other thing going for the other guy was that he was close by. I sorta wanted to host – after all he said he’d be up for stuff like bondage and flogging, but he wanted to host. Since he was within walking distance I said I’d go over, but I knew that meant no BDSM – unless he had gear laid out when I got there, which I doubted with this guy.

It took me a little bit to get out the door ’cause I had gotten the 11mm ring in my PA and it was in there so tightly that I had trouble getting the ring out. But I did finally get it out. I headed over to his place. I think I know why he wanted to host – he was in one of those nice new buildings that are all over Harlem these days. For a 20-something to have his own place in a nice building and have it nicely furnished – he was clearly above average and it was his way of letting me know that.

And he was well above average in terms of looks too. He had a nice tight body. It wouldn’t surprise me if he were a model or something. He offered me a drink, which was cute, but I was there for sex. We played a little bit (awkwardly) in the main room and then I suggested we go into the bedroom. Once there I proceeded to strip down as did he. He had a pair of those assless underwear / jockstraps on that are so popular these days. (They’re not exactly jockstraps – what is the proper name for them?) He seemed a bit unsure of what to do and just stood there, so after fingering his ass while feeling up his body, I finally suggested he get on the bed so I could rim him.

I couldn’t quite tell if he was completely clean or not, so I went pretty gently on the rimming, but still gave it my all – I just didn’t get too deep (so to speak). That got me rock hard, but I took my time, stopped jacking my dick and just paid attention to his ass for a bit before finally getting up, lubing my dick and pushing into his hole.

I wouldn’t call his hole loose, but he took my rock hard cock pretty easily. I fucked him doggy style for a minute or two and then got him down on his belly. He was pretty thin which I like when I fuck a guy. His hole felt good, but didn’t grab my dick and really massage it like some holes do. But it was a good hole. It wasn’t long until I could feel my orgasm coming. Then a little bit later I felt a little spurt, but not much of anything. I kept fucking and felt a bit more, but it wasn’t exactly a major load. When I say that sometimes I can’t feel when I cum, this was borderline one of those cases – I barely felt it, but this time at least I knew for sure I was cumming at least a little bit.

As I slowed down he said “you’re incredible”, which was sweet… Clearly he was enjoying himself.

I actually think I came a fair amount. His hole had felt pretty silky before I came – almost to the point that I wondered if he didn’t already have some loads in him. But after I came it was really slick and silky. It felt really good. I got down lower on top of him so I wasn’t having to work so hard to support the weight of my body and I just pistoned in and out of his ass slowly. I wasn’t totally hard, but I was hard enough for a slow fuck.

I never really went soft. I just kept on slowly fucking him for what must have been 5 minutes or so. Then I rolled us onto our sides and still just kept slowly fucking him. That lasted another maybe 5 minutes and then I felt my dick grow and I knew I was getting my second wind. I rolled him onto his belly again. This time I was a little bit at an angle and that was enough for his ass to work my dick pretty much perfectly. I could slowly feel another orgasm building. I was thinking, “this is rare”, but just went with it.

I was fucking him to suit my needs, not his. It was about me getting off – in that moment he was just a hole and I honestly couldn’t have cared whether he was enjoying himself or not. I could hear him grunting and making sounds like he was in pain. When I could clearly see his face he was totally in pain. But he wasn’t telling me to stop or slow down. He was just laying there taking the abuse to his hole. Needless to say I wanted to cum a second time and I did what I needed to do to make that happen.

It took a while for the second orgasm to come (so his pain was pretty drawn out) but when it did come, it was major. I could feel my load totally flooding his hole.

At that point my dick did start to deflate pretty quickly. We spooned and I caressed him. He was quiet – so quiet I wondered whether he was falling asleep. Finally, I wanted to go so I stirred and he got up as well. He commented “that was intense – intense in a good way though”. Usually you think of black tops as being the ones who really can “turn out” a hole, but today that top was me and he got fucked really good and hard.

I’m not sure he was expecting a fuck like that. In the moment I think he may have been a little freaked out by it, but I think he’ll remember it as a hot fuck and I’m pretty sure he’ll be back for more.

Tomorrow an 18 y.o. is supposed to come over. Hopefully that works out. Last time I fucked an 18 y.o. he later told me he had only been 17 at the time. Luckily 17 is legal in NY. But one way or the other it’s always hot to breed a teen and help them learn to take semi-anonymous loads from complete strangers.