Load 2012-36

This morning started pretty well, I had nice morning wood (see pic to the left), but the last few days my sex drive has been low. I’ve been spending a lot of time on Tumblr – I feel like I’m almost oversexed – looking at porn literally all day. Bottom line is I haven’t getting getting good stiff hardons the last few days – just lazy semi-chubby ones. Case and point yesterday I was laying out tanning – the bulge in my underwear was nice, but it would have been a lot nicer if I had been at least semi-hard, but my dick wasn’t cooperating.

Anyway, this morning I was encouraged by my morning wood, so when a fuckbud from the neighborhood (the one I videotaped a few weeks ago) hit me up I asked how quickly he could be over for a pump-n-dump. About 40 minutes later he was at my place…

He wanted to be abused, degraded and fucked roughly, slapped around, etc. I took him down to the cellar in my building. There’s a dark storage room – it’s filthy dirty.

I had told him to wear shorts and no underwear. He had complied. I pulled down his shorts, bent him over and rimmed his hole. Usually that gets me hard pretty quickly. I got a bit of a chubby, but wasn’t getting fully hard. His hole tasted good – tasted like ass, but clean ass…

Long story short on the next bit – I keep trying to fuck the guy, but my dick just didn’t cooperate. I wasn’t getting hard enough to fuck properly. It was really frustrating. I’d pull out and finger his hole. He’s so loose I think he could get fisted. I’d shove two, sometimes three fingers in his hole and he could take it no problem. Thing was, there was just something about that day/environment/whatever that my dick wasn’t fully cooperating.

The only time things went sorta well was when I had him on all fours and I was fucking him doggy style. I wouldn’t say it was a good fuck – far from it, but it was a fuck. At one point I was jacking trying to get myself hard enough and I started feeling my orgasm building. Weird… Seemed like it was going to be one of those days when I cum without being fully hard… So I get him on all fours and fuck him semi-hard and managed to blow my load without a problem. Go figure. It was a decent, 5 day load.

We got up, cleaned off a bit, and left.

All in all it was a bad fuck, but totally my fault. The bottom was wonderful – he did his part and was even nice about it afterwards saying he enjoyed it (believe it or not) – that being put flat on his belly on a dark dirty cellar was hot and while it wasn’t the best fuck, he did get my load which tweakers (who can fuck for hours) often can’t achieve. That’s looking on the bright side of things I guess, but hey at least I gave him a load…

Load 2012-35

Unfortunately I haven’t been able to fuck much this week, and it will probably be like that next weekend too. Long story, but my bf is stressed and he doesn’t want me having fun while he’s crazy busy. Wish it weren’t like that, but it is. But finally he told me I could hook, but said he didn’t want it to take long – no problem… The black cumhole from the neighborhood said he’d come over, but then admitted a little later that he didn’t feel well – he’d been in bed all day. So I got on BBRT and couldn’t find anyone. Then I got on Adam4Adam and a little Latino from Washington Heights said he’d stop by on his way to work.

He got here exactly on time. We went to the bedroom, stripped down, I closed the blinds and took out my PA (it was still too sensitive since it had only gotten the big ring in it a day before). He went to suck my dick, but I told him to get on the bed – I wanted to rim him. He had a decent ass & hole – got me hard pretty quickly. I figured I’d let him suck a little, so I got up on the bed, but while he was giving me a blowjob I reached over and got the lube and started lubing up his hole. When he was lubed he stopped sucking and got on his back with his legs up.

I’ve been sorta boring about fucking lately – always push the bottom down on his belly, but this time I figured I’d try something different and fuck him missionary style. I shoved in and could feel the head of my dick get past his 2nd sphincter (I love little guys exactly for that reason). He was in pain, which I sorta liked, but he wasn’t so fond of. He asked for more lube, which I supplied and kept fucking him. I could get in nice and deep in this position and it felt good. Usually I associate missionary with kissing, but he wasn’t the kind of bottom I wanted to kiss. He was a hole that was there so I could finally cum after 7 days of holding it in. On the plus side he didn’t seem to want me to kiss him – so it was all good…

He jacked his dick as he was getting fucked. I’m wondering whether he reads the blog and knows I cum quickly ’cause it wasn’t long before I was blowing my big, 7 day load up his hole and he came at the same exact time (more exciting for him than me). He didn’t cum much – it was sorta watery and clear – but some of it nearly got up to his nipple.

We laid next to each other on the bed for a little while afterwards. I was hoping he’d clean off my cock, but he didn’t. Usually after a fuck I’m pretty tender with the bottoms, but it was awkwardly not that way with him. Maybe I should have shoved my dick back in his cummy hole or something (hindsight is 20/20). Finally it sorta just became apparent it was time to go. I had told him I just wanted a quickie and he needed to get to work, so it wasn’t awkward or anything.

Then he asked to use my bathroom. I went in with him – I wanted to wash off my dick. That’s when he sat on the toilet and shit my cum out. Dude… You’re supposed to keep them in there. Having my load leak out of your ass while you’re at work is half the fun. Or bring a butt plug…

Sigh. Oh well… I just hope it was a big enough load that he didn’t get it all out. I mentioned it on Twitter and someone reminded me – I should have felched the load as he was pushing it out… I’ll remember that next time…

Load 2012-34

Friday night I had just a little time to fuck before I needed to do something with my bf. Just at the right time an old fuckbud texted me saying he was in Harlem and asking if I wanted to fuck him. He was 20+ blocks away, but I said yes.

He got down here and looked really good. What he was wearing made him look sorta sporty & hot. Last time I had fucked him was December ’09 – so a long time ago. Last time was actually a video shoot where another top and I tag teamed his hole… Here he is getting fucked by the other top…

He comes in, we go to the bedroom and he immediately starts stripping naked – even before I had a chance to draw the blinds. Somehow standing there naked he looked better than I remembered – tighter, leaner, a bit more muscular.

Once I got my clothes off he sorta went to suck my cock, but I took control and positioned him so I could rim his ass. His hole is naturally hairless and it seemed squeaky clean – my favorite type of hole to rim. Needless to say, I enjoyed it, and it got me hard pretty quickly.

I lube up his hole and my dick and left my Prince Albert in (I was wearing a 2 gauge curved barbell). I slid in and the first thing I noticed was his ass was more muscular than before. Some guys have soft cushy asses. He had this hard muscular ass – again, not something I remembered before. Seems he’s been working out his ass (and not just by getting fucked).

He had put a pillow under him which I pulled out. I wanted him flat on his stomach. I tried a few different positions – legs together, legs spread, and finally a bit sideways before I found the way that felt “just right”. At one point I said “you gotta good poz hole there boy” in his ear. He didn’t hear me clearly and asked “What?”. When I first started fucking him years ago he said he was neg, then he was sorta proud he had turned poz. But when he said “What?” it was in a way that made it sound like he might be objecting to the whole poz reference, so when I repeated myself I left out that word, and just stayed pretty much silent from that point on…

He then said “fuck me harder!” and I figured the best way for me to give him a rough fuck was to make use of my PA. I did long strokes – making sure that the ball on the underside of my dick went into his sphincter on every stroke. I figured that would rough up his hole a bit. Then I’d slam back into him with as much force as I could (without overdoing it).

Riding his muscular ass felt really good, and before long I came in his ass. In hindsight I should have felched his hole. I mean is was a pretty excellent hole, but I didn’t. He sucked me clean and then wanted to take a shower. He seemed a little disconnected and scattered. I mean usually with someone like him who I’ve fucked before we’ll lay there for a little while, talk, and catch up. But he just seemed jittery. It was like the “got a load” checkbox was done and so it was time to leave. His wanting to take a shower, and the fact that he was dressed really nicely, and how he wanted to leave so quickly, made me wonder if he was going home to a boyfriend who didn’t know he was taking loads.

The next day he texted me and said he was high when he got here. That made things make sense – why he was so scattered, distracted and disconnected. He also said he got 3 more loads that night, and that his hole was still sore from me rough fucking him with my PA. Apparently the soreness lasted for quite a while. But it was what he asked for… [If you’re wondering, if I stay deep I don’t really cause much hurt – it’s only when I do long strokes and get the PA into the sphincter on the upstroke that it hurts so much.] But apparently it didn’t hurt so much that he couldn’t continue to get fucked. Or maybe he was just too high to notice the pain.

Anyway, now that I see how his body has improved, I gotta get in his ass on a regular basis – maybe next time I’ll be his 4th load rather than 1st of 4 and get to felch some loads out of his ass…

Load 2012-33

Went to a sex party last night. It started at 7pm. From (limited) experience I knew that the first hour at a sex party is pretty dead, so I didn’t rush to get there, but I got tied up with something else and didn’t get there until 8:45. The doors closed at 9. I had been there before and when there were 3 of us arriving at the same time I figured it would be busy. It wasn’t. I counted and there were just 9 guys there. It was sorta sad.

What was a little weird was the host and I had talked. In the past he knew I was rawTOP, but there was zero recognition this time. His only comment was “you’ve been here before, right?”

Anyway, this stocky Latino was eyeing me up, and even though I’m not generally into stocky guys, he was OK… We started feeling each other up. Even though I had taken a Cialis an hour and a half before, my dick wasn’t all that excited to be there. I had to spin him around and have him bend over so I could rim him. His asshole was really deep in his ass cheeks – I never was quite sure if I was hitting his hole with my tongue or not, but that got my dick hard 😉 and we were off and running. He sucked my dick a bit and then we fucked. He was a bit obsessed with lube – but it did make the fuck better.

When a spot opened up on the couch we moved over there. He bent over and I fucked him. Then he had me sit down and he rode my dick. While he was doing it he was saying stuff. At one point I could swear he said “Fuck me rawTOP”. It’s possible he recognized me. Then he turned around and rode my dick with his back to me. Then I had him get on his knees on the couch and I fucked him that way. That position was the best of all of them. The other positions felt like pretty weak fucks. I never could get the position quite right. His hole just wasn’t rubbing my cock the right way and I never did feel an orgasm coming. He asked if I was going to cum and I said not quite yet.

As soon as I pulled out of his ass this Asian who was sitting next to us started sucking on my dick (ATM). We had come in together and he was the guy there who I most wanted to fuck. I had seen him getting fucked by some black guys, but hadn’t been paying total attention. We changed to fucking pretty quickly. His hole felt great. I learned later that he had two loads in there by then. Multiple loads always make an ass fun to fuck. Anyway, before long I felt a HUGE load blasting into his guts.

The huge load worried me a bit. Last time I went to the party I blew smaller loads and managed to cum 3 times. I took a breather after cumming and stood around hoping to regain my wind for a 2nd round. This black guy wanted to suck my dick while he was fucking this white bottom. I let him for a while, but he was more concentrated on the fuck and sorta just held my dick in his mouth. Having just cum, my dick was pretty sensitive and even that was too much, so I pulled off him.

The stocky Latino wanted me to come up behind him and fuck him while he was fucking this little chub. But my dick wasn’t ready to fuck yet.

After I was ready to fuck I did briefly fuck this white guy on the futon (I think he was the one the black guy was fucking). But I just couldn’t get the position right, so I gave up.

Then stocky Latino left. He was the person I was hoping to give my second load to. No one else there was really even close to my type. I mean if my dick had been hard I could have fucked them, but it would have been an uninspired fuck.

After that my dick was just barely cooperating. I tried to fuck this other white guy. I rimmed him, but just never got hard enough. However, when I went back to rimming the Asian guy he pushed some cum out of his ass. The felching got my dick up enough to fuck. I fucked him for a bit, but my dick was more thick and spongey than hard. We fucked like that for a bit and then gave up.

At that point no one else was going to arrive. My dick wasn’t cooperating. And there wasn’t really anyone there I wanted to fuck, so I left. The Asian guy left at the same time. I should have asked for his number, but I didn’t. He clearly did like me…

So in hindsight I shouldn’t have gone. There was this black guy I fucked a while back who’d taken multiple loads that day who wanted me to fuck him again. In hindsight I could have fucked him and saved the $20. Not only that, but he would have been a fun fuck. Could have fucked him with my PA, called him nigger, restrained and gagged him, etc. Oh well… Lesson learned – I should just stick with 1-on-1s…

Load 2012-30

I’ve been meaning to get back into making videos of my fucks, but just been too busy to do it. A little over a week ago a guy who had flaked on me a month or so before finally came through. He said the reason why he had flaked was ’cause he heard I said some not-so-nice things about guys I fuck. If you think about it, that’s only a problem if you tell your friends I fucked you. If you don’t tell them, then how will they know the guy I’m talking about is you?

Doing this post with pics – I’ll give my standard disclaimer… Yeah, I’m a bear. Do I like my body? No. If you don’t like it, join the club. But there are plenty of guys who like it and even more who put up with it… So it is what it is…

Anyway… the guy shows up and he says he needs poppers. I know I have 3 or 4 bottles of them around here somewhere – but apparently they’re all in the same place and that wasn’t any of the places I looked. He apparently needed them so bad he had to run home to get a bottle. He did leave a bag, so I knew he was coming back. Not too long later he was back. We get everything ready, strip down, and he starts sucking my cock…

And yeah, as I mentioned, I know I’m heavy… Believe it or not that’s about 15 pounds off my peak – I was heavier. Actually, I’m losing weight pretty steadily these days. Hopefully I won’t be such a bear by the end of the year or this time next year.

Anyway, I digress… He did a good job with the PA – I don’t think I felt it hit teeth once. After sucking on my dick we moved onto the bed where he sucked my dick some more and licked my pits… Since I was filming it I let it go on for a while, but eventually I wanted to fuck. I rimmed him for a bit and then got him on all fours and shoved in.

As usual for me I pretty quickly pushed him down onto his belly…

He had one of the loosest holes I’ve fucked in a long time. In hindsight I have no clue why he needed poppers. Usually guys use poppers to loosen up, but he was SO loose it wasn’t funny. Not that I’ve ever fucked a woman, but I’m guessing fucking women feels something like his hole felt… And it did feel good… It wasn’t long before I was blowing a load in his ass…

We kept playing at that point. I wanted to flog him, and I did for a little while, but he was in pain (and not enjoying it with even my lightest strokes), so I ended that. Then he jerked off for a while. I let him lick my pits and I played with him a bit…

After he blew his load we chatted for a bit. He was a bit chatty and I learned a little more about him than I needed too…

So all in all a good fuck. Glad I could videotape it. Hopefully I can do another video with him soon… I’ve got some ideas for S/M sorta stuff that’s not as painful…

When I edit the video I’ll put it up…

Load 2012-31

A few days ago I had a little time in the morning and there was a bottom down in Hell’s Kitchen looking for loads. He mentioned that he was into anonymous sex so I told him it would be hot to do a quickie pump-n-dump with the door ajar and him on all fours on the bed.

I get down there and it was an older building that had been fixed up. The door wasn’t ajar, but he had buzzed me in and we talked about an anonymous scene, so I tested the knob and the door was unlocked. I walked in and it was a really nicely done apartment. That was the living room, so I made my way to the bedroom where the blinds were drawn and there was a bottom on all fours head down, ass up.

The bed linens hadn’t been pushed back and they were light colored and quite nice. I got the sense that he didn’t do this very much and worried there would be a stain on the duvet. On top of that there were two names on the door buzzer. Worse would be if his boyfriend didn’t know about his extra-curricular behavior and asked why there was a stain on the duvet. Given how immaculate the apartment was, I wondered if the pursuit of perfection extended into their relationship and the boyfriend wanted monogamy… A stain on the duvet could turn into a huge knock down, drag out fight…

But I digress. I pulled his legs to the edge of the bed and start rimming him. I wasn’t going to take off my clothes ’cause I wanted this to be a real quickie. His ass cheeks were smooth and meaty – sorta a bit soft. His hole was great and really clean so I got into really sucking on it.

I stood up, pushed in. There was no problem getting my PA in, and no complaints from him. His hole felt really great – sorta silky and smooth. His ass was sorta soft and pillowy. It all felt really good, and I felt my orgasm building pretty quickly. Problem was the orgasm came, but nothing came out (that I could tell). So I kept fucking him. Pretty quickly I had the feeling again, but again, no cum. UGH… I was starting to wonder… Then the feeling came again and this time I felt a HUGE load shoot out of my dick.

I should mention that while I was fucking him I noticed he had put on a blindfold. Maybe he had done this before…

As soon as I pulled out, I pushed his ass cheeks apart and buried my face in there and sucked up some of the cum I just deposited. It tasted sweet. He then swung around and sucked my dick clean. Since I hadn’t taken off my clothes I just stuffed my dick back in my jeans, zipped up and left.

As I left I estimated the whole thing took 6 minutes – including being buzzed into the apartment, etc. That’s packing a lot into 6 minutes – rimming, fucking, breeding, feltching and ATM.