Load 2012-25

A couple days ago I fucked this black guy who I’ve fucked a couple times before. The first time we fucked it was a little awkward – we started fucking on his couch and I couldn’t get the position right (eventually we moved to his bed and it was all good). The next time I fucked him I videotaped it actually. It was in my place while it was under construction. Problem was I just couldn’t cum.

This time he got here – hot as ever – tall, skinny & young – even already had a load in him. Problem was when I fucked him I never felt like I was completely hard. Usually I can start before I’m fully hard and the sensation of fucking gets me the rest of the way. This time the position never quite felt right and there were times I felt like I was about to slip out. At one point I pulled out and thought I saw shit on my PA, but I didn’t smell anything and wasn’t completely sure (I wasn’t wearing glasses) – so I just continued on. For a while I didn’t think I could even cum, but then, somehow, the feeling came and I was able to cum in his ass. And when I pulled out he did seem clean – so that was a false alarm.

Next time we fuck I owe him a good fuck. I’ll take a Cialis ahead of time, etc. And since he’s up for video – I’ll see if I can videotape it.

Load 2012-24

Yesterday there was this guy who was hitting me up saying he wanted to take my load – he said he was neg but poz friendly. He kept practically begging me to tell him my status, but I just wanted to mindfuck him and make him wonder so I told him I’d tell him after he got my load. In the meantime I planned on teasing him a bit while I was fucking him – asking him if he wanted a poz load in his ass and then when he said ‘yes’ I’d razz him for being a bug chaser. Then when I was done I’d tell him chances are I’m neg…  (Sorta due for a test, but I’d be really surprised if I test poz). I know it’s a bit callous, but honestly, if he’s taking poz loads, what’s the harm? It’s all about mindfucking him and getting him to face his fears – and even be turned on by his fears…

Anyway, as we talked he started to seem like he was the type who’d flake – there just seemed to be too much fantasy. It went over the top when he said he was into bondage and wanted to be tied up. At that point I just sorta wrote him off. Maybe he was for real, but it was looking less and less likely… I mean a neg guy wanting to get tied up and fucked by a potentially poz top? IF he showed up, chances are he was going to start wigging out in the middle of sex. But he did come back online in the evening when he said he would – problem was when I asked if he was cleaned out and ready to go, he said he couldn’t douche where he was. Not only that, but he didn’t really say how he was going to clean out. I just told him I hated dirty bottoms – and ignored him.

So that meant I needed a hole to fuck. There were a couple options on BBRT, but I didn’t feel like traveling, so I went with this black guy who lived a few blocks away. He’d been hitting me up pretty intensely since I moved to Harlem. He said he was cleaned out and could be over in 20 minutes. He gave me his number and told me to text him. I texted him my address, and he came over right away.

When he got here he looked older than the age on his profile. I’m not sure if he was older, or if he’s the PNP type (drugs age you pretty quickly), or if that’s just his genetics… Even though he looked older it wasn’t a big deal to me – he was still pretty hot.

How he was dressed was actually really nice – simultaneously really casual but refined – it’s a look I always want to achieve and never manage to pull off.  But even though he was dressed well, when he took off his clothes he got even hotter. He was skinny as a rail, but still had definition and muscle (washboard abs, etc.), and while he didn’t have an ounce of fat on his body, he had a HUGE fat dick. Literally the only place on his body that had any fat was his dick – it was soft and looked like it would be a third leg if it got hard.

Anyway… Getting to the sex… He dropped to his knees pretty much immediately and started sucking on my cock. I had a curved barbell in my Prince Albert – not a full ring. I could feel the metal hit his teeth a couple times, but he got the hang of it pretty quickly. Usually I don’t get hard all that quickly when a guy sucks my dick (that’s why I rim their ass almost immediately). On top of that it was well over a week since I’d taken a Cialis in over a week. But despite all that I could feel my cock slowly begin to grow. He managed to get me hard – which hasn’t happened so easily with a blowjob in a long time.

I then have him get on all fours so I can rim him. When he gets up on the bed his big dick is swinging between his legs – it’s sorta hot – but I ignore it ’cause I want his hole, not his dick. I go to rim him and he’s pre-lubed. The taste of the lube was a little distracting so I didn’t spend too long down there or get into it too much.

Then when I stood up to fuck he curls up in a way to sorta make his body compact and just be a hole. It’s hard to describe but I hadn’t seen a bottom do that before. Or maybe it was just that because he was so skinny he was able to get into a position other guys aren’t able to do.

I went to push in and it seemed like his hole was really tight, but then I stated wondering if I was just messing up somehow with my PA and it was getting in the way. I don’t remember fucking with the curved barbell before. I think it may have been sticking out from the underside of my dick or something. But I did finally work it out. It didn’t go in easily, but I did finally get inside him. The sensation on my dick was a little uncomfortable. It didn’t feel like the ball on the underside of my dick ever made it past his sphincter.

I stood behind him and fucked him like that for a little bit and then pushed him forward onto his belly. His body and hole felt SO good that way… It’s hard to describe exactly, but it everything was just in the right place and our positioning seemed absolutely perfect. And yeah, didn’t take long for me to unload, but before I did I gave him a decent pounding (I’m never sure how much a new trick can take).

When I was done he did a motion that made it clear he wanted me to lay on top of him, which I did – but I did it in a way that didn’t put all my weight on him. Then, after a little of that, with my dick still in him, I rolled him onto his side.

What was cool was when he looked around at me he had this HUGE grin on his face. It was like he was a little kid who just got the bike he wanted for Christmas – and the grin didn’t go away. It was sorta sweet. I don’t know if he grins like that a lot or he was just really happy to get my load. He did say “I’ve been wanting that load for a long time” – and said it twice. And later he said “do you still blog?” – so it’s not like he’s just seen me online for a while – he knew I was rawTOP. Either way, he was a really good fuck – he liked it and so did I… Since he’s so close, hopefully we’ll fuck on a regular basis.

Load 2012-23

Saturday morning I woke up a bit hung over. I got on BBRT to check emails – I wasn’t really looking to fuck, but this guy contacted me and wanted my load. He’d been so persistent in the past about asking me to hookup, I thought “what the hell…” I warned him that I was a bit hung over and might not be at my best – but he was game for it anyway. What I didn’t ell him was that I hadn’t taken a Cialis in a week and my dick was only sorta half into it…

It was pretty early in the morning and my bf hadn’t woken up yet. At one point he rolled over and looked like he might be half awake so I asked if he minded if I went and hooked up. He grunted – I didn’t quite know what that meant but took it as a ‘no problem’.

As I was leaving I couldn’t find my usual cock ring. Given that my dick was being temperamental, I was a little worried I needed something. I saw a little piece of rawhide string and took that instead.

I got to his place – it seemed like an old hotel that had been converted to small apartments. The “luxury apartments” sign outside was a bit optimistic – it was perfectly nice, but “luxury” was seriously stretching it…

He greeted me at the door in a leather vest and jockstrap. Actually neither was leather – they were that neoprene that looks like leather… He didn’t quite look like his pictures – but it wasn’t an issue – he was still good looking and fuckable. Pretty quickly after I arrived I noticed he was a bit chatty – but more on that later…

I started stripping down and he leaned over his desk to pick some music off his computer. I spread his ass cheeks and started rimming him. He asked me how I wanted him before I came over and my one request was “squeaky clean”, yet his ass was a bit musky. It didn’t seem unclean – I just didn’t know when the last time was that he douched. As a result I didn’t spend too long down there or go too deeply. Actually, my dick was surprisingly cooperative. The rawhide seemed to be working better than my regular leather cockring… It was almost working too well – it felt like it might be a little too tight – my dick felt veiny…  I didn’t change anything though – I figured I wasn’t going to complain – my dick was hard…

I stood up and he went to suck my dick but my PA was in and it’s fairly big. He said he was OK with getting fucked with a PA, but didn’t want to suck dick with it – I understood that (metal against teeth is no fun). So I asked for some lube, and when he pointed to something I didn’t have my glasses on and picked the wrong bottle at first, but got the right bottle on 2nd try. I lubed up and shoved in.

He was on his back and we were fucking in the missionary position. That was fine with me – I feel like I’ve gotten in a bit of a rut when the face-down on his belly routine I’ve gotten into. But then he suggested he get on his belly which makes me wonder if he reads the blog…

He rolled over and as usual it didn’t take long for me to cum. I didn’t want to draw it out ’cause for starters it was hot in there (which is odd – ’cause my A/C’s been out and a few days earlier he had said to come over ’cause he had A/C – I mean his A/C was on, but it wasn’t making things cold). And secondly – I didn’t know how long my dick would cooperate.

It had been 4 1/2 days since I’d cum – so he got a pretty good sized load. I then rolled him over and kept my dick in for a while while we laid there. He didn’t seem comfortable with silence so he talked about one thing and then another, and then another… He was a bit of a chatter box… I wasn’t saying much more than “Yeah…”, “Oh really?” “I see…” I heard about his sexual preferences (only likes guys 45+), his ex-boyfriend, a cruise he went on, etc…

Because of the heat I was a bit sweaty, and I hadn’t taken a shower before I came over, so when he offered that I could use his shower I took him up on it so I could rinse off. When I came out he was still just as talkative. I felt a little bad – he was doing so much talking and I was doing so little – I wondered if he thought I didn’t like him or something. Truth was that I was just hung over and not in the mood to talk.

When I came out he had taken off the vest and I could see more of his body. He looked hotter naked than he did with the vest on. Nice proportions to his body – sorta hairy in the right places, etc. Funny part was he was an otter – like a lot of the guys I’ve been fucking lately – not sure what’s up with that.

When I left I noticed my bf had texted me and asked if I wanted to go to Callen-Lorde’s Saturday STD clinic to get checked out. We’re both sorta overdue for HIV tests – I had suggested we do it a few days before. But it was a bit early, he was still waking up and I hadn’t showered and didn’t have any underwear on… So we put it off until next week.

Load 2012-22

Yesterday there was a little window to fuck early in the evening – right after 5… I got on BBRT and there was this guy who looked pretty hot and muscley who was available. It had to be a pump-n-dump since he had to leave his place by 6:30. I left as soon as we confirmed and got down to Chelsea in about 35 minutes.

When I got to his place he wasn’t as good in person as he looked in his pictures, his toenails were painted, and when he opened his mouth his purse sorta fell out. It’s not that he was a flaming queen, but he definitely wasn’t butch. Eh, whatever… It was a pump-n-dump, and even though he wasn’t as hot as his pics, he was still reasonably attractive. Plus, I was there just for his hole…

I’ve been wearing my PA since Saturday, and he wanted me to take it out. No problem… Then he got on the floor and started sucking my cock. Blowjobs just aren’t doing it for me these days and I find it a little embarrassing to get sucked when I’m soft. That, plus the fact that we needed to get things over with quickly… I told him I wanted to rim him.

I should stop and say we were in the living room, not a bedroom… He got on all fours on the ottoman and rimmed him. His hole looked like it had seen some substantial use over the years, but again – perfectly fuckable…

When I got hard I spit on my dick, stood up and slid in. Getting him on his belly just wasn’t an option since we weren’t fucking on a bed. I’ve tried to get guys on their bellies on couches before and it never works all that well.

So I stand behind him and fuck him doggy style. It’s been a little while since I’ve nutted that way. Given the time constraints and the position, I was a little worried I wouldn’t be able to cum, but pretty soon I started to get the sensations that told me I would blow my load. Problem was the sensations kept going an going and I didn’t actually feel the load building up in my balls. It was actually a bit weird – I felt like I’d cum any second, but it just went on and on…

It didn’t help that he kept moving a bit. Just as I would feel like I was about to cum he’d move a little and I’d have to work to get just the right sensation again. His hole was pretty loose, but at one point he tried to grip my dick a bit and that did help…

Eventually I did cum. I pulled out my dick after I finished and there was shit on it. HATE that, but on the plus side at least it didn’t stop me from cumming. When I realize a bottom in dirty in the middle of sex that usually kills it for me.

I went to the bathroom and cleaned off my dick, and as I was getting dressed he started asking about my old neighborhood. I told him how to get to the cruisey park, etc. Those questions and his California phone number makes me think he was a tourist.

The moral of the story is a lot of guys might just write him off for being an aging, muscle queen with a loose hole, but actually there’s nothing wrong with that… He had a good hole on him that got me off – even in a position I don’t usually cum in.

2012-21

Saturday morning I was supposed to hook up with this pain pig off Recon. He had been really pushy to have a whipping session with me the week before and mildly upset when I canceled. So we scheduled it in advance for a week later. He somewhat sensibly wanted it early in the weekend so he had time to recover before Monday morning. We chatted the night before online and then I texted him in the morning to confirm and he said he was still coming so I gave him my address. It’s been a while since I had done a proper S/M session and I had to get set up. That took a while and got me all sweaty and finally the time came and I sat down and waited for him to show up. And I waited and waited. Finally after 30 minutes I realized I’d been stood up. I text him and message him on Recon and give up. [He never did get in contact with me and explain himself.]

At that point I needed to find a hole. One guy nearby indicated he was up for it, but needed to clean out. I waited 45 minutes and finally gave up on him too (it only takes 30 min to clean out). While I had been waiting for that guy another guy had contacted me who had been messaging me a fair amount lately. When I gave up on the other guy I contacted him and asked if he was cleaned out and ready to go. He was, but then he asked if I could help with subway fare. I told him no problem.

Thinking about it, every time I take the subway to a trick’s place it’s $2.25 each way – so fucks cost me (or the trick) $4.50. I see that as pretty cost effective, though of course a trick I that’s within walking distance is better yet… So as I got ready for the guy to come over I took out a $5 bill and threw it on the bed.

He arrives and he’s pretty cute – late 20s, skinny, a bit hairy – basically a cute little otter (though not over the top hairy). We stripped down – he had underwear over a jockstrap, so I had him keep the jockstrap on.

Honestly, I’m a little hazy on the details – I don’t think he sucked my cock first, but he might have. Anyway, I tell him to get on the bed on all fours and I start eating out his hole. Given that I had taken a Cialis that morning it didn’t take long to get hard – I was sporting a hardon most of the morning… As I lube my dick and start to shove in I’m thinking about how prevalent completely anonymous sex is these days. I mean yet again here’s a bottom bending over and taking my dick with zero conversation. Maybe it’s just me, but it feels like more and more bottoms will take raw dick and loads literally with no questions asked.

Given how hard and thick I was I knew it wouldn’t take long to cum. He felt good. I put his legs together and rode him like a log. It was one of my favorite ways to fuck back when I was just starting out many moons ago… It’s especially hot with thin guys…

As I said, it didn’t take long to cum and since I had just taken a pill I stayed hard after cumming so I fucked him a little bit afterwards and then rolled him over on his side and kept pumping in and out of his ass. When I do that I tend to lightly touch the bottom – sorta caressing him… Bottoms who like intimacy love it, but this guy seemed uncertain how to respond. He tried to reciprocate, but it was awkward…

We talked a bit after I got soft and my dick popped out of his ass. Nice guy – seems like he’s still finding himself, which is completely OK at his age…

As he left, he grabbed the $5 bill… It did feel a bit like he was a cheap hooker, but nothing wrong with that 🙂

Load: 2012-20

There’s a guy I’ve emailed back and forth with a few times and a few days ago we finally hooked up. I was in one of those moods where I was horny, but sorta not horny. I knew going into it that the hookup could be problematic – not because of him, but because of me. It’s just a sexual energy thing – I had a latent sorta sexual energy going – not a full hardon sort of energy…

He was in an awkward place to get to – sorta close, but too far too walk, not easy to get to by subway, etc. Finally I figured out I could take a bus from here to there and that worked really well – I had to run a little to get the bus, but it got me over there really quickly, which was good, ’cause it was raining a bit…

I get there and he answers the door in just a towel. He’s this thin, sorta hairy, but not too hairy guy… Pretty much the textbook definition of an otter (though most otters have a little more hair on them). We go into his bedroom and he picks some porn to watch while I take off my clothes. We play around with each other a little bit, and (like usual lately) I feel like I need to rim him to get completely hard. He had the A/C on, but it didn’t seem to be cooling much of anything. I was worried with the heat I’d overheat and be useless. That combined with where my head was at… Well, you get the picture…

So I manage to get him on all fours and I start eating out his ass. I get hard pretty quickly which puts me back in the game. When I get up I really want to fuck, but he’s not ready for that yet. OK… He has me lay down and he starts going over my body. I’m a bit sweaty, which he really likes. He starts licking the sweat off my body. I raise my arm and there’s a bit of musky pit smell. I’ve always liked the smell of my pits and so did he… He sniffed them and licked them, and then went back to licking sweat off other parts of my body…

Finally he gets to my dick – which he sucks pretty well. I’m just laying there being fairly passive. There are a few guys who have gotten me completely hard while being laid back and passive – when it works it usually qualifies as some of the best sex of my life, but this guy was good – but not that good. My dick starts going to half mast. Ugh…

I finally rim him a bit more, but this time my dick isn’t responding so well (the heat’s not helping), but I get hard enough to fuck him so I push in. He wants to be fucked missionary style, but I gradually get him rolled over onto his side and then onto his belly. But by that time I’m just not quite hard enough for a good fuck. I mean, I fuck him, but it was far from my best performance and I never really feel like I’m even close to cumming.

After a while I sorta just give up. I’m a sweaty mess by this point. I’m afraid if I roll over onto his bed he’ll have a huge wet spot when I get up. But at the same time he liked me sweaty, so (at his suggestion) I lay on top of him, which he liked. We took it slow for a while and when I cooled down a little I roll over. I still managed to make a sweaty wet spot on the bed, but it wasn’t quite as bad as it would have been 5 minutes earlier.

We play with each other for a while and finally I feel like I’ve cooled down a bit, so I went back to rimming his ass. This time my dick responds, and by now he’s gotten the idea that I want to fuck him on his belly. I can tell it’s not his favorite position – too impersonally and anonymous – he likes connected sex (eye contact, etc.), I like anonymous sex, but he goes along with it…

This time it’s FAR better – his hole is massaging my dick just right. I start feeling the sensations that tell me a load will come. He’s just a piece of meat to me in that moment – a hole to fuck. That’s how I like my bottoms… Everything was working at that moment and he got my load…

In the end it was largely a conflict between his desire for connected sex and my desire for anonymous sex. Had he just rolled over on his belly initially he would have gotten my load quickly.

While it didn’t go all that smoothly, he did eventually get my load and all’s well that ends well.

BTW, I’m still doing my “no jacking off, all loads go inside guys’ asses” thing that I started back on the first of May. So far it’s going really well. I’d say it actually really helps me sexually since I don’t waste sexual energy… Though when I work on porn sometimes I feel like I need to blow a load to see it as just work… But I resist the feeling and save the load for a bottom…