Load 2013-26

I know some of you may be sensitive to me using the word nigger. Get over it. To me it’s just race play – and a form of domination and submission. Or to put it more simply – it’s role play. And the bottom in this case really gets into it.

One of my more regular guys from the neighborhood I’ve talked about a lot on here. He’s close enough with a flexible schedule so he’s often my fall-back when other guys flake. But he’s actually a good fuck – he pretty much always gets me to cum. Usually I ignore his dick since he’s just a cumhole bottom, but he’s got an enormous dick…

He does top on occasion – though not with me, but he’s mostly a bottom. And his fantasy is to get raped by a bunch of white tops. So as you read this – if you’re a white top and wanna join me in fucking him, just let me know – especially if you’re up for videotaping it.

He wanted to bring another top over  – a young Latino with a thick 9.5″ dick, but wasn’t sure if the top would be up for video, and I wasn’t really in the mood to explain the scene to my boyfriend or deal with the complications of making someone else happy – so I told him to keep it 1-on-1.

We started off with him sucking me, which soon turned to a 69 position with me sucking on his hole while he sucked on my dick.

But given the size of my PA, that’s never fun for the bottom since it hits their dental work. After a while he just started sucking my balls and jacking my dick. I was happy sucking on his hole, so it was all good with me.

Since I was hard I wanted to fuck, so soon he was legs up on the edge of the bed…

Usually I try to guide my PA in first and then push in with my dick. For some reason that wasn’t working with him so I just let my PA flop to one side and pushed in. I know that’s harder for the bottom since the PA adds to the thickness of my dick, but he put up with it.

I fucked a bit like that, but my feet were slipping on the floor and my body was blocking the light from the windows, so we repositioned. When I pulled out he was a little dirty, but didn’t seem to be too bad, so I just ignored it and carried on.

I got him on his belly and pushed in. Again I let the ring go to the side which hurt him a bit as I went in.

When I had him pinned down under me is when I started pulling out the stops with all the race play stuff. I was calling him a nigger cumdump. Asking him if he liked taking loads from white men. Telling him that niggers are meant to be cumdumps for white men and that he would have made a good slave and made his master very happy.… etc. I like degrading bottoms when I’m fucking them – it’s part of chemistry of the scene. Often if I’m not sure they’d be into it I do it quietly in my mind – it’s just what turns me on.

I wasn’t particularly gentle with my fuck. My PA was hurting just a little so I wasn’t overly rough either. But I think he got roughed up pretty good. It wasn’t long before I blew a load up his hole. At that point I just sort of collapsed on top of him. It’s sort of a cuddle, sort of almost smothering him, surrounding him…

We laid like that for a little bit, when I rolled the two of us over and started caressing him and paying attention to his body. These after sex sessions are where I bond with the bottom – most of them seem to like it. They just went through being violated, now they get the tender side. With him I played with his big black cock and sucked on his nipples a bit…

I didn’t actually go so far that he came – I’m actually fine with bottoms going away not having cum. Hookups are about me cumming – not them cumming. Maybe it’ll keep them horny and they’ll go looking to get fucked some more 😉

After a bit of that we just laid there having some some sensual quiet time…

That was about it. Since he’s a regular I think I’ll try to film most of our hookups going forward. He’ll help keep me in the practice of videotaping my fucks.

And again, if you’re a white top in NYC and want to fuck him, let me know – especially if you’re up for being videotaped.

Load 2013-27

I’ve fucked 18 guys in the last 4 days. I need to catch up on my blogging. So starting with the latest…

Today I needed to go down to get blood drawn in the morning. I posted a quick connect saying if anyone in Chelsea can host contact me with your location. A guy in a hotel on Lafayette hit me up. I’ll give him the benefit of the doubt and say he was a tourist who didn’t know that NoHo isn’t anywhere near Chelsea.

I had to wait for another train at Columbus Circle so I checked my messages and a guy hit me up and said he was at the Chelsea Savoy. I vaguely remembered that it was on 23rd street but couldn’t remember where, so I sent a quick message back asking if he could do now and the exact address. Then I had to make a quick decision – a B train and an A train arrived at the same time. I would normally take the A, but jumped on the B train thinking it was a local and would stop at 23. WRONG. All of a sudden I was at West 4. So much for my subway knowledge. So I jumped on an E train.

At 14 I got cell service again so I checked my messages. I was going to just go to Callen-Lorde and fuck after I had blood drawn, but when I saw he had given a room number I jumped back on the train and went one more stop to 23rd. When I got out I sent a message saying I’d be there in 5 minutes.

I got to the hotel and went up to the room and knocked. He had said he’d have the door ajar waiting ass up, but I don’t think he’d gotten my last message that said when I’d get there. He was busy in the bathroom, so he told me to get comfortable – that he’d be out in a minute. It was sort of funny being told to wait since his profile name is LoadingPleaseWait.

It was a pretty miserable, weird little hotel room. Later I found out it was their $99 special. Honestly it would have made a better closet than a hotel room, but this is New York. I turned off the lights, stripped off my shorts and shirt, took out my Prince Albert (what I had would have ripped him badly if I fucked with it in), and then started jacking my dick.

He came out right about when I got hard enough to fuck. He just go on all fours and lubed his hole. He knew what I was there for. I spit and lubed the head of my dick with it and shoved in. I fucked him doggy position for a bit and then pushed him on his belly with his legs together which felt pretty good – I liked his hole. For someone who was presumably a cumdump his hole wasn’t too loose and sloppy. Not that loose and sloppy is a bad thing – but a reasonably tight hole is hot – especially when it can put pressure on  a good part of your dick all at once.

I had cum less than 24 hours before so I wasn’t 100% sure if I could cum, but it wasn’t too long before I could feel my orgasm coming. But then the time came and nothing really came out. I kept fucking hoping it would come and finally a bit did come out – at least I’m 95% sure he got a load. From my perspective it was a little disappointing that way. But that’s not his fault – if he weren’t as good of a bottom I probably wouldn’t have been able to cum at all.

When I was done he complimented me on how I fucked and I returned the favor telling him he had a nice hole. Then I wiped off my dick on a towel, put on my shorts and shirt, took off my cockring and walked out the door.

Slam, bam, thank you ma’am 😉  Just how I like it…

Load 2013-25

There’s a sub bottom who’s been hitting me up for a while now. Finally yesterday things worked out and we were able to fuck. What put a smile on my face was he asked if I was going to videotape it. I figured “what the hell… I really should be videotaping more of my fucks”, so I said yes and got things ready.

He had hit me up via text, so I hadn’t gotten a chance to study his profile before he got here. All I remembered was that he was really sub and he’d be up for S/M. He did mention that he wanted to be hooded for the video, so I got out a hood for him and for me as well as puppy mitts for him.

I put a hood him while he was stripping down and then put mine on and turned on the camera. He started by sniffing my pits, and licking me a bit. I had sweat when I did a little tanning before he got there, so I was probably a bit musky – but in a good way (I think). He seemed to get into it.

My intention was to lay back and let him suck me and get me hard, etc. I had gone out to jockstrap night at the Eagle the night before and was still a bit hung over. I really wasn’t sure how I was going to perform. But when I told him to get on the bed he got on all fours with his ass up. That always gets me going, so instead of him sucking on my dick, I sucked on his hole.

And of course once I had his hole lubed up with spit the next logical thing was fucking him. I was just shooting with natural daylight so I had to reposition a bit. And I probably should have used some lube, but I just went with spit. There were all these things I wasn’t doing as planned, but it felt right in the moment.

One thing I did know was that he was neg as of a test a couple months ago. So I was pretty verbal with him about raw fucking his neg hole. At one point I even said “You want my dirty load up your neg hole boy?” And he came back with “Yes SIR” – like a good sub should always answer. Even though I’m neg it’s always hot breeding neg guys. I love the risk they take getting fucked raw. (But more on him being neg in a bit…)

Even though I’ve been wearing my big Prince Albert lately I took it out to fuck. Guys were tugging on it all night at the Eagle the night before and it was rather sore. And as it turned out it was good I did take it out. Typical for me I came pretty quickly and he got a HUGE 5 or 6 day load. But then when I pulled out I figured out he was dirty. UGH! For being dirty it wasn’t too bad – didn’t get on the sheets or anything. But just imagine if I had been wearing my PA – it would have been covered in shit right then. To complicate matters I had to get the puppy mitts and hood off him while standing there with shit on my dick. Needless to say I did it as quickly as possible.

Don’t get me wrong – “shit happens” – I wasn’t upset with him or anything. It was just a complication. We went to the bathroom and I washed off my dick and gave him a portable douching bulb which he used to clean out some more. Meanwhile I went back to the bed, laid down and jacked my dick a bit.

When he came back I hooded us again, turned the camera back on and we got back down to business. While it was a bit backwards it was at this point we did some foreplay. (Is it still foreplay if it happens after you cum?) He sucked my dick a bit, and licked my pits, etc. As he was licking my pits his cock was rock hard and pushing at my hole. He wasn’t getting in my hole, but he did manage to make it clear that, if SIR wanted to get fucked, it was an option.

Then I moved him around into a 69 position to rim him. Usually guys suck on my dick in this position – and he did a little, but what we was mostly interested in was rimming my ass…

For a sub bottom he had a rather big top streak in him 😉

After a while I got a bit of a second wind and I put him on his belly and fucked him a bit more. Thing was I had already cum, so it wasn’t the most intense of fucks and I didn’t cum – it was more of a play fuck.

You can tell in that pic (and one I posted on Twitter) that, while I’ve got a ways to go to be “in shape”, I’m in way better shape than I was a year+ ago. I’ve been a little frustrated since I haven’t lost weight since Thanksgiving, but I do want to get back to the gym in a few weeks with the goal of being a lot closer to “in shape” by MAL in January.

Anyway, getting back to the hookup… We then cuddled a little bit, then finally turned off the camera, took off our hoods and laid there a little more talking, etc. At one point I got hard again and fucked him a bit more (off camera). While I had my dick in him that last time I asked “So I see in your profile you’re neg, but you’re taking raw dick…” He said I was the first guy to cum in his ass in a long time (years) and prior to that he had only gotten bred by boyfriends. There was only one regular fuck buddy he’s been seeing for years that fucks him raw and the guy pulls out when he cums. I was a little shocked – usually I think of barebacking as a one-way street – once you do a bit of it you want more, and then a little more, and a little more, etc. But here was someone who didn’t do that. He said he trusted me because he’s been reading my blog for years and I seem honest – and I’m on PrEP so he was pretty sure I really was neg.

Still, he’s a sub bottom who pokes his rock hard cock at your hole. And he’s a bareback bottom who’s managed to say ‘no’ to more barebacking (at least taking loads). And he’s in a really femmy profession but not femmy himself. He’s definitely got some unexpected elements to him.

Since he’s up for video hopefully we’ll hookup pretty regularly. When I get a chance I’ll edit the video and put the full version on rawTOP.tv and a shorter clip on RaunchyFuckers.com.

Oh yeah – there’s one hookup (with another neg bottom) that I haven’t written up yet. I think there’s going to be a part 2 to that hookup, so I’ll write it up then.

Load 2013-23

Only 23 loads given this year… Yeah, I know that’s a bit sad… But it is what it is. On the plus side since I’ve been going to sex parties I’ve been getting my dick in a lot of new holes. If I keep that up I should fuck more guys than I’ve fucked in years past.

Monday I was debating about going to the JOC party, but then my bf and friends wanted to go out to the Eagle – so Eagle it was. Anyway, that’s not the story I’m trying to tell. Point is I took a Cialis in anticipation of the evening’s events but then the evening turned out to be sexless. So woke up Tuesday with a big hardon and needed a hole to unload in.

I logged into BBRT and A4A. Absolutely nothing was happening on A4A – there was like one pending message when I logged in (usually there are a half dozen or so). BBRT was pretty quiet too. There were a couple nibbles, but I started to give up. But then this one bottom hit me up and said he already had 2 loads in him and wanted more. I told him where I was and asked if he was up for traveling. He came back with asking me where I was located. Ummm… I just answered that question, so I repeated my answer and sort of wrote him off. But then he came back and seemed serious, so I gave him my full address and he was out the door on his way here pretty much immediately. The bed was covered in clean laundry that needed to be folded. I folded a bunch of it and then just put the rest aside and got ready for him.

He texted me when he got out of the subway and then took 10 minutes to walk what’s usually a 6 min walk, which was a bit odd, but he did finally get here. He was pretty cute for a cumdump 😉 I sorta envied him. I blow my load and I’m done for the day. He can go from top to top taking load after load. Here it was just before noon and he was about to get his third load. How many was he going to get before he went to bed? 10? 15? 20? Do bottoms have more fun?

He had to take a piss so I stripped down while he was in the bathroom. I had gotten my big PA in the day before, but it was pretty sore after walking around a lot yesterday with it tugging on my dick. He looked down at my dick and I could tell he didn’t quite know what to do with it – or he wasn’t very enthusiastic about sucking dick when it had such a big ring in it. That I understand completely – the metal knocks your teeth and hurts like hell.

So I just told him to get on the bed that I wanted to rim him. As he was turning around I asked him how recently he got the other two loads. If it had been a while it could have been a bit of a funky mess – luckily he had gotten them just before coming to me.

The first few licks were more like felching than rimming. His ass tasted like cum. It was pretty hot. Then I started sucking on his hole, but he didn’t really get the hint and push out more cum. No matter – his cummy ass made me rock hard. I got up, grabbed the lube – put a little on his hole (not that it needed it), and a bunch on my dick and ring and then shoved the ring and my dick into his hole.

I fucked him a little with the PA, but it was hurting too much to give him a proper fuck. So I pulled out, took off the ring, and went back to fucking him. Not sure what he thought, but I think I gave him a pretty good fuck. I was doing these long strokes and pounding away at his hole. The only thing was that I didn’t last all that long. His ass felt incredible thanks to the two loads that were already inside him. There’s just something about a cummy hole that you can never achieve with a lot of lube. Cum really is the best lube.

I actually held out a little longer than I thought I would. I felt my orgasm coming but then it didn’t cum. Took quite a few strokes and then I felt it – a full body orgasm – my whole body tingled all over as I shot a nice big load up his already cummy hole.

When I was done I thought briefly about felching him some more but it seemed a little funky down there, so I stopped pretty quickly. I was out of breath anyway – and from experience I don’t like felching when I’m breathing really hard. We got up and then he got down on his knees and cleaned off my dick. The head of my dick and the hole for my piercing were really sensitive so I told him to go easy on my dick. He gently sucked all the cum and ass juice off my cock. He started jacking his dick and asked me if he could cum. I said “sure if you want”, but honestly I didn’t really care if he came. I fucked his face a little and then we stopped.

He was dressed and ready to leave before I could get my PA ring back in my dick. So I threw on a pair of shorts and walked him out as I was putting on my t-shirt. It was a total pump-n-dump – all that happened in under 10 minutes. Later my bf asked me why it was a such a short hookup. All I could say was because he got me to cum quickly. Later I regretted saying that – I felt like fucking again. If I had implied that it wasn’t a great hookup I might have gotten a second hookup in for the day. 😉 But honestly, it was a pretty incredible hookup. Loved having a full-body orgasm.

Load 2013-22

I just had the most incredible hookup that I’m not allowed to tell you about – the guy begged me not to write it up. So all I’m going to mention is that 1) we’ve hooked up before, and 2) he’s totally my type.

The thing that struck me about the encounter was that I saw him very differently… With most of the other bottoms I see them as fuck holes / pieces of meat / objects to be used. With this guy I felt total infatuation. The word that was going through my head as I fucked him was “love” though I’m not stupid enough to actually elevate it to that level – it was a heat of the moment thing – a heavy dose of eros with a bit of fake agape mixed in. (See the 3 types of love for more info on what I’m referring to).

With most guys I fantasize about semi-abusive situations while I fuck them – where they have to put up with being cumdumps or they’re worthless pieces of meat whose only value is being a cumdump. For example, with one of my black fuckbuds I fantasize about going back in time and having a bunch of house slaves who would service me and my guests sexually. But with this guy I fantasized about having him as a cumdump boyfriend – someone who wasn’t an object for me to use, but someone who I was head over heals infatuated with. I fantasized that he loved getting bred by groups of guys and so I’d organize a couple gangbangs a week for him – not to be abusive, but because he loved it, and because the only way he could get more perfect was if his ass was overflowing with cum.

I know all that sounds like a really complicated fantasy – it’s actually much more complicated to describe than it is when the complete, fully-formed thought pops into my head. But what I’m getting at is that for once there was this warmth and tenderness toward the guy I was fucking – and it was really nice to experience. And it got me to shoot an enormous load up his ass 😉

Load 2013-21

This weekend a friend asked my boyfriend to spend the day with him which left me to my own devices. I knew there was a sex party in the afternoon and it seemed like good timing. So I check with my bf to make sure he was OK with me going and then cleaned up and headed over to the sex party. They had a deal where you got reduced admission if you showed up early. I got there right after they opened since I didn’t have anything better to do.

Because they had the special a few guys did show up right when it started. So it wasn’t like I was the only one there. A couple of them were pretty hot, but they were being body snobs and completely ignoring anyone who wasn’t as hot as they were. The other guys were OK, but at that point didn’t really inspire me to want to fuck. So things got off to a slow start – but that’s sort of expected when you go so early.

Eventually things did pick up. One of the bottoms was this short hairy guy with a big dick. I had sucked his dick a little earlier when he was standing against a wall. I hadn’t really pursued fucking him at that point, but later he climbed into the sling and I got down on my knees and ate out his hole. There are some asses that when you suck on them they get all puckered and the ass lips start protruding out – like a small prolapse. At that point you can actually start sucking on the prolapsed bit – it’s rather hard and feels a bit like a small dick – it’s sort of cool. Anyway he had one of those asses, so I played around with it a bit but didn’t take it too far. Then I got up and shoved into him slowly. He started complaining saying take it easy – which is rather funny ’cause I saw him nearly split a bottom in two with his dick earlier by not being gentle with his first few strokes.

Right about at that time they announced that someone had left their black t-shirt in the dressing area and they needed to claim it immediately. I had been wearing a black t-shirt, and was pretty sure it wasn’t mind, but I pulled out and went to check. That was a bit of a mistake, ’cause he wasn’t in the sling when I went back. Later on I did fuck him a little more, but never did get a good fuck with him.

The biggest problem with the party was that the really hot bottoms weren’t very friendly with “average” guys like me. There were some older bottoms who were willing to let me fuck them raw and I did fuck a couple of them, but they didn’t inspire me enough to want to cum with them.

There was a reasonably hot guy who was totally into me, but he stopped me after a few strokes, so that didn’t go anywhere.

Finally one of the hot young guys was standing around and I started playing with him. He didn’t seem to mind. He was playing with this other guy when I walked up, but when the other guy left to get a condom I moved in and before the other guy got back I had the young Latino bent over with my raw dick up his ass. He was pretty hot – nice body, fairly short, completely smooth all over (very much my type). His ass felt good on my cock. We fucked with him bent over and me standing for a while, but I really wanted to cum with him and I wasn’t able to do it standing up. So I took him over to a small cushioned thing (wasn’t really a bed) and got him flat on his stomach and started fucking him. That felt a lot better and there were a couple times when I felt so close. In fact I’d think I was cumming, but then couldn’t feel anything come out.

Finally after trying and trying my dick started going down, so I stopped and apologized for not giving him a load. Thing is, in hindsight I’m pretty confident I did give him a load. There are times when I don’t feel it, but based on how my dick reacts after I’m pretty sure I did actually cum.

After that my dick was pretty useless – which is how I figured out I came. I took off my cockring and put it around my wrist and walked around for a while. I continued to amuse myself here and there by sucking some dick (as I’d been doing the entire time), but when guys would grab my head and start really face fucking me that was too much and I’d stop it.

Finally with my dick not cooperating and no more willing bottoms who really inspired me, I left. I may not have fucked a lot of guys but I still had fun. I’m liking going out to highly sexual environments where I can fool around. Wish there were more of them in NYC.