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I think I’ve figured out why I don’t feel my cumshot sometimes – but more on that in a moment. Today I wanted to fuck, so I took a Cialis and it kicked in quicker than I was expecting (see pic). Problem was I then had problems finding a bottom who I wanted to fuck. New Yorkers work a lot and looking for hole in the middle of the day is a lot harder than nights and weekends – especially when you want to host and you’re not in a gay neighborhood or in a neighborhood with a lot of office workers.

This one guy kept hitting me up. I knew I wasn’t all that into him but he was so persistent and no one else was biting, so finally after saying ‘no’ I gave in and said yes. Then he started having second thoughts since he was traveling and I just wanted a quickie, but then when I said “let’s forget it” he said he was out the door and on his way.

He shows up and he looks older than I was expecting. His profile said he was 2 years older than me. He looked 10 years older. He knew he was just a hole to me. He comes in strips down. He had talked about being hooded so I gave him a hood to put on.

I started by having him suck my dick. I’m not sure he really liked sucking with the Prince Albert in – he only seemed to do a so-so job but it was enough to get me hard (thanks to the Cialis).

He said it was OK to take pics or whatever I wanted. So I pulled out my phone and snapped a couple pics of his sucking and then put it in video mode. I didn’t shoot much video and it was just with the iPhone, but I’ve put it up on Raunchy Fuckers if you want to have a look.

Then I lubed up and went fucked him. I shot a little video of the beginning of the fuck and then put down the phone and concentrated on the fuck. Since I didn’t really like him and he knew he was just a hole I wasn’t particularly gentle fucking him. I did long strokes which, with the PA, means the ball on the bottom of my dick was going in and out of his ass. He was pretty loose and didn’t seem to have much trouble taking it – though I think it was intense enough that he felt it. He made some comment about it being the first time he’d gotten fucked with a PA.

He was pretty verbal at first, but then asked if I liked him being verbal – I said “whatever – you’re just a hole to me” – at which point he got quiet.

I could feel my orgasm building and I was about to cum then I didn’t feel the cumshot. Ugh. Right about that time the bottom pushed his ass up a bit which was really bad timing. I figured I hadn’t cum and so I continued fucking him. Shortly after I wanted to remove the PA as a possible reason why I didn’t cum, so I took it out. Thanks to the Cialis I was able to keep going, but I did start getting softer.

I was a little frustrated thinking I hadn’t cum. I was sweating like a motherfucker – I mean sweat was literally pouring off me. So here I was overheated, hadn’t cum and my dick was starting to go a bit soft. It wasn’t good.

I pulled out and told the bottom to suck my dick, but he refused saying he doesn’t suck dick once it’s been in his ass. Whatever (it seemed pretty clean to me). So I started playing with his ass. He was loose so I put more and more fingers up him until I had about 4 fingers in him. If I had smaller hands I could have fisted him – I was getting pretty deep inside him as it was.

I then went back to fucking him, but wasn’t all that hard. Since he was loose I figured I’d put on my cock sheath and fuck him with that. That didn’t go as well as I had hoped. I didn’t really feel much of anything and I wasn’t all that hard. The sexual energy was sorta dying, so I finally gave up and ended things.

Once again my dick was acting like it had cum, so that usually means I did indeed cum. Then it struck me – the common factor in the fucks when I haven’t felt my cumshot lately – it’s my PA – in particular the curved barbell. I’m thinking PA takes up so much space in my urethra that the cum can’t shoot out – it has to trickle out. I’ve noticed this with pissing – I piss more slowly with the PA in.

I like fucking with the PA, but it seems like it’s a choice between that and feeling my cumshot. Hmmmm –  not sure which to choose…

Load 2013-26

I know some of you may be sensitive to me using the word nigger. Get over it. To me it’s just race play – and a form of domination and submission. Or to put it more simply – it’s role play. And the bottom in this case really gets into it.

One of my more regular guys from the neighborhood I’ve talked about a lot on here. He’s close enough with a flexible schedule so he’s often my fall-back when other guys flake. But he’s actually a good fuck – he pretty much always gets me to cum. Usually I ignore his dick since he’s just a cumhole bottom, but he’s got an enormous dick…

He does top on occasion – though not with me, but he’s mostly a bottom. And his fantasy is to get raped by a bunch of white tops. So as you read this – if you’re a white top and wanna join me in fucking him, just let me know – especially if you’re up for videotaping it.

He wanted to bring another top over  – a young Latino with a thick 9.5″ dick, but wasn’t sure if the top would be up for video, and I wasn’t really in the mood to explain the scene to my boyfriend or deal with the complications of making someone else happy – so I told him to keep it 1-on-1.

We started off with him sucking me, which soon turned to a 69 position with me sucking on his hole while he sucked on my dick.

But given the size of my PA, that’s never fun for the bottom since it hits their dental work. After a while he just started sucking my balls and jacking my dick. I was happy sucking on his hole, so it was all good with me.

Since I was hard I wanted to fuck, so soon he was legs up on the edge of the bed…

Usually I try to guide my PA in first and then push in with my dick. For some reason that wasn’t working with him so I just let my PA flop to one side and pushed in. I know that’s harder for the bottom since the PA adds to the thickness of my dick, but he put up with it.

I fucked a bit like that, but my feet were slipping on the floor and my body was blocking the light from the windows, so we repositioned. When I pulled out he was a little dirty, but didn’t seem to be too bad, so I just ignored it and carried on.

I got him on his belly and pushed in. Again I let the ring go to the side which hurt him a bit as I went in.

When I had him pinned down under me is when I started pulling out the stops with all the race play stuff. I was calling him a nigger cumdump. Asking him if he liked taking loads from white men. Telling him that niggers are meant to be cumdumps for white men and that he would have made a good slave and made his master very happy.… etc. I like degrading bottoms when I’m fucking them – it’s part of chemistry of the scene. Often if I’m not sure they’d be into it I do it quietly in my mind – it’s just what turns me on.

I wasn’t particularly gentle with my fuck. My PA was hurting just a little so I wasn’t overly rough either. But I think he got roughed up pretty good. It wasn’t long before I blew a load up his hole. At that point I just sort of collapsed on top of him. It’s sort of a cuddle, sort of almost smothering him, surrounding him…

We laid like that for a little bit, when I rolled the two of us over and started caressing him and paying attention to his body. These after sex sessions are where I bond with the bottom – most of them seem to like it. They just went through being violated, now they get the tender side. With him I played with his big black cock and sucked on his nipples a bit…

I didn’t actually go so far that he came – I’m actually fine with bottoms going away not having cum. Hookups are about me cumming – not them cumming. Maybe it’ll keep them horny and they’ll go looking to get fucked some more 😉

After a bit of that we just laid there having some some sensual quiet time…

That was about it. Since he’s a regular I think I’ll try to film most of our hookups going forward. He’ll help keep me in the practice of videotaping my fucks.

And again, if you’re a white top in NYC and want to fuck him, let me know – especially if you’re up for being videotaped.

Load 2013-25

There’s a sub bottom who’s been hitting me up for a while now. Finally yesterday things worked out and we were able to fuck. What put a smile on my face was he asked if I was going to videotape it. I figured “what the hell… I really should be videotaping more of my fucks”, so I said yes and got things ready.

He had hit me up via text, so I hadn’t gotten a chance to study his profile before he got here. All I remembered was that he was really sub and he’d be up for S/M. He did mention that he wanted to be hooded for the video, so I got out a hood for him and for me as well as puppy mitts for him.

I put a hood him while he was stripping down and then put mine on and turned on the camera. He started by sniffing my pits, and licking me a bit. I had sweat when I did a little tanning before he got there, so I was probably a bit musky – but in a good way (I think). He seemed to get into it.

My intention was to lay back and let him suck me and get me hard, etc. I had gone out to jockstrap night at the Eagle the night before and was still a bit hung over. I really wasn’t sure how I was going to perform. But when I told him to get on the bed he got on all fours with his ass up. That always gets me going, so instead of him sucking on my dick, I sucked on his hole.

And of course once I had his hole lubed up with spit the next logical thing was fucking him. I was just shooting with natural daylight so I had to reposition a bit. And I probably should have used some lube, but I just went with spit. There were all these things I wasn’t doing as planned, but it felt right in the moment.

One thing I did know was that he was neg as of a test a couple months ago. So I was pretty verbal with him about raw fucking his neg hole. At one point I even said “You want my dirty load up your neg hole boy?” And he came back with “Yes SIR” – like a good sub should always answer. Even though I’m neg it’s always hot breeding neg guys. I love the risk they take getting fucked raw. (But more on him being neg in a bit…)

Even though I’ve been wearing my big Prince Albert lately I took it out to fuck. Guys were tugging on it all night at the Eagle the night before and it was rather sore. And as it turned out it was good I did take it out. Typical for me I came pretty quickly and he got a HUGE 5 or 6 day load. But then when I pulled out I figured out he was dirty. UGH! For being dirty it wasn’t too bad – didn’t get on the sheets or anything. But just imagine if I had been wearing my PA – it would have been covered in shit right then. To complicate matters I had to get the puppy mitts and hood off him while standing there with shit on my dick. Needless to say I did it as quickly as possible.

Don’t get me wrong – “shit happens” – I wasn’t upset with him or anything. It was just a complication. We went to the bathroom and I washed off my dick and gave him a portable douching bulb which he used to clean out some more. Meanwhile I went back to the bed, laid down and jacked my dick a bit.

When he came back I hooded us again, turned the camera back on and we got back down to business. While it was a bit backwards it was at this point we did some foreplay. (Is it still foreplay if it happens after you cum?) He sucked my dick a bit, and licked my pits, etc. As he was licking my pits his cock was rock hard and pushing at my hole. He wasn’t getting in my hole, but he did manage to make it clear that, if SIR wanted to get fucked, it was an option.

Then I moved him around into a 69 position to rim him. Usually guys suck on my dick in this position – and he did a little, but what we was mostly interested in was rimming my ass…

For a sub bottom he had a rather big top streak in him 😉

After a while I got a bit of a second wind and I put him on his belly and fucked him a bit more. Thing was I had already cum, so it wasn’t the most intense of fucks and I didn’t cum – it was more of a play fuck.

You can tell in that pic (and one I posted on Twitter) that, while I’ve got a ways to go to be “in shape”, I’m in way better shape than I was a year+ ago. I’ve been a little frustrated since I haven’t lost weight since Thanksgiving, but I do want to get back to the gym in a few weeks with the goal of being a lot closer to “in shape” by MAL in January.

Anyway, getting back to the hookup… We then cuddled a little bit, then finally turned off the camera, took off our hoods and laid there a little more talking, etc. At one point I got hard again and fucked him a bit more (off camera). While I had my dick in him that last time I asked “So I see in your profile you’re neg, but you’re taking raw dick…” He said I was the first guy to cum in his ass in a long time (years) and prior to that he had only gotten bred by boyfriends. There was only one regular fuck buddy he’s been seeing for years that fucks him raw and the guy pulls out when he cums. I was a little shocked – usually I think of barebacking as a one-way street – once you do a bit of it you want more, and then a little more, and a little more, etc. But here was someone who didn’t do that. He said he trusted me because he’s been reading my blog for years and I seem honest – and I’m on PrEP so he was pretty sure I really was neg.

Still, he’s a sub bottom who pokes his rock hard cock at your hole. And he’s a bareback bottom who’s managed to say ‘no’ to more barebacking (at least taking loads). And he’s in a really femmy profession but not femmy himself. He’s definitely got some unexpected elements to him.

Since he’s up for video hopefully we’ll hookup pretty regularly. When I get a chance I’ll edit the video and put the full version on rawTOP.tv and a shorter clip on RaunchyFuckers.com.

Oh yeah – there’s one hookup (with another neg bottom) that I haven’t written up yet. I think there’s going to be a part 2 to that hookup, so I’ll write it up then.

Load 2013-1

The gangbangs at MAL were a mixed lot this year. I didn’t have time to write them up while I was there, so I’ll go through them now and give some highlights…

The first two gangbangs were centered around this twink who was supposed to be my boy for the weekend. He was a mid-20s, tall, sk8r twink. He had bottomed at one of my gangbangs 2 years ago, and at that gangbang he got freaked out and left early (after getting 7 loads in his ass). This past fall he mentioned to me that he wished he had gone through with the entire gangbang, so I figured he was now in a mindset to do it again and I offered that he could stay with me for the weekend and we’d see how many loads we could get in his ass.

Well, Thursday I left NYC 2 hours later than I had wanted to, which meant I got into DC later than I wanted to – just a couple hours before the gangbang. As I was arriving I texted the twink and asked what his ETA was. He said he got off work at 5pm. I knew it took him over an hour to get there, and then he’d need time to clean out. Problem was, the gangbang started at 5:30. And the second problem was he was the only bottom I had scheduled. Over 140 tops had signed up for the gangbang, so at 1/3rd show up rate – that meant up to 50 tops were arriving and there I was 2 hours before with basically no bottoms for them to fuck.

So I sent out the room number to the invited tops, but given that it was only 2 hours before the gangbang I knew that meant I’d have some drop off on attendance. Then I scrambled to find bottoms. One bottom said he could come, but had to leave early – that was fine with me – I just needed coverage. Then two other bottoms agreed to come.

The bottom who had to leave early showed up first, and I fucked him before the gangbang started. His hole felt really good and I blew my load in him. It helped that he was very much my type – shorter, thin, Latino…

I started the gangbang with him and then the other two bottoms showed up. They were both pretty good, but since I’d cum, I couldn’t give them the best fuck or a load. One of them drank my piss, which was cool. @PortaUrinal had the adjoining room and helped immensely with all the gangbangs over the weekend. But, despite his experience he gave up on that first night trying to drink my piss – saying it’s some of the strongest piss he’s ever had… So it’s saying something that the bottom drank it down without hesitation… 😉

The sk8r twink did finally show up, and then it took him a while to clean out. When he finally came out it was almost funny to watch – I think most of the tops knew he was the neg bottom in the room and they circled him like sharks going in for a kill. Like a good dutiful bottom he put on a blindfold and was taking anonymous cock at both ends. One top in particular was this poz muscular ex-Marine Latino – he loved fucking the twink. During the gangbang I actually got my dick up the ex-Marine briefly… I figured it was my gangbang and I could fuck who I wanted to fuck.

Then all of a sudden it was announced that the twink wasn’t quite clean he needed to clean out some more. Unfortunately he had taken a couple loads and they got washed out in the process. After re-cleaning the twink said he was actually clean – he thinks what they saw was blood, not scat. He then went back to bottoming, but the thrill of the chase was gone for the tops. I think he got one more load and that was it. But a bigger problem cropped up – he tightened up and couldn’t really take dick. I tried several times to get in him and he’d resist and not let me fuck him. I knew then that he probably wasn’t going to last the weekend.

When all was said and done only 27 tops showed up (not including me), and only 11 loads were given (including mine). That’s a pretty lame tops-to-loads ratio. The early bird got the worm – the hot Latino who I gave my load to got 5 loads. One of the other bottoms got 1, the other got 2, and the twink got 3, but at least two of those got washed out when he did his re-cleaning.

So a decent gangbang for the Latino who got 5 loads, but overall not the best gangbang.

PortaUrinal, the twink and I then went out to a bar that was doing free drinks. The ex-Marine top had told us about it. The twink dressed in his sk8r ware and was really cute. We talked a bit at the bar – bottom line he still just wasn’t ready. He had lied about how much sex he’d been having – he hadn’t gotten fucked in months when he said he was taking loads all the time. And on top of that he was scared of becoming poz. He lives in a rural area where people aren’t cool with guys being poz. A guy he has the hots for just dumped a guy for being poz… When I heard all that, all I could say was “well, you need to decide whether you want to go through with this or not…”

The twink stayed the night and there was a gangbang the next morning. There are only some of us who like morning sex, 7 guys showed up, and 6 loads were given (a much better ratio of tops to loads). There were two bottoms – the sk8r twink and a beefy muscle cub. The twink basically shut down and didn’t get fucked. Which meant the cub got all 6 loads. Before the gangbang was over the sk8r twink dressed and left. There was no point in him staying if he wasn’t going to get fucked – that was sort of the deal.

So between fucking the little muscular Latino those two times there were two weeks when I either couldn’t have sex or just wasn’t really in the mood to have sex. NYC got hit with  hurricane and we had a bunch of people from “SoPo” (South of Power) staying with us. Between that and the subways not running most of that time, hooking up was pretty much impossible. Then there was a week where I didn’t really feel like fucking.

Anyway, about a week ago I did a hookup. First one guy wanted to come over – someone I’ve seen online for years and thought would be a good fuck. But then this vers guy from the neighborhood wanted to come over too. The guy from the neighborhood was beefy and I wasn’t sure whether I was really in the mood for beefy… Actually, I hadn’t taken a pill of any sort, and was only sorta in the mood to hookup. But it had been 10 days since I’d fucked anyone and I felt like that was too long and I should fuck someone. Long story short I told both of them to come over. I figured me and the beefy guy would fuck the other guy.

The beefy guy arrived first. We started playing around, and one thing lead to another and then I was rimming him, and then fucking him… He was actually a pretty good fuck – much better than I had anticipated. Then the other guy texted saying he was off the subway and close by, so I stopped fucking the beefy guy and prepared for the other guy.

The second guy wanted an anonymous scene where he was blindfolded. So I put a leather “sleeping mask” sort of thing on the door knob just inside the front door. When he rang I buzzed him in and then watched him discreetly as he put on the blindfold. When he had it on I guided him (carefully) to the bedroom.

I should mention that the blindfolded bottom didn’t exactly look like his pictures. I should have expected as much – the pics he was using were the ones he used years ago. Honestly, he just wasn’t what I was hoping for / expecting. I fucked the blindfolded bottom, the beefy guy fucked him. But the chemistry was lacking. It wound up with me wanting to fuck the beefy guy but there was another bottom laying there expecting attention. The beefy guy was having “performance issues”. I could tell from the look in his eyes he didn’t really want the blindfolded bottom there – he (also) wanted a 1-on-1 with me.

After a while I just sorta lost it and couldn’t get hard enough to fuck, and the beefy guy got the same way. We tried, but it just wasn’t working. Even with his blindfold on, the other bottom got the picture, so he took the blindfold off and we wrapped things up, got dressed and they went on their way.

As they were leaving I started feeling weird. I felt “foggy” – like I couldn’t remember everything I should be able to remember and just a little disoriented. If I focused on something (like the situation at hand), I could get through it, but I just didn’t feel “sharp” and alert – at all. There are a few possibilities… Maybe one of them gave themselves a booty bump and I ingested some of what they had up their butt. When I googled the symptoms I came up with a “Transient Ischemic Attack”. I have high blood pressure and heart-related things are an issue (long term), but that didn’t quite seem right either. Then I realized I hadn’t eaten much of anything. After eating some food I felt better an hour or two later. So who knows what the issue was – but it was a very weird and memorable ending to a not-so-great hookup.

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Monday MascMountainMan hit me up on Breeding Zone saying he was going to be in town, did I want to go out for a beer? He’s someone I’d chatted with and he had seemed like a decent guy. He’s versatile, but not my type – he’s taller than me and stocky. But I figured he might want to tag a bottom with me. The black bottom from the neighborhood who I fuck pretty regularly likes white guys, so and when he’s in town he’ll come just about anytime you text him, so I set things up to have  3way with the two of them.

The black guy got here first and went into the bathroom to clean up or something. I gave him a thick spandex hood with a mouth opening and no eyes. I just wanted him to be a piece of meat that the two of us shared. I didn’t want the bottom’s personality to come into play. The visitor got here a few minutes later – while the black cumhole was still in the bathroom. It was a little awkward meeting him for the first time and jumping right into sex, but that’s exactly what we did…

I guided the black guy out of the bathroom with his hood on (he didn’t need to see who was fucking him). And the two of us stripped down. The visitor was sporting a thick boner, so he went first. He had the bottom on the edge of the bed and was fucking him pretty rough. It was actually causing the bed to slide across the room.

He took a break and I took my turn. I had my big 9mm PA ring in (bigger than 0 gauge, smaller than 00). I tried to push the ring in, but it was really hard. Finally I got it in, but it was causing me a fair amount of pain since I haven’t been wearing that ring enough for my piercing to quite get used to it yet. I wasn’t comfortable with the pain, so I pulled out, took out the ring and pushed back in.

I know myself well enough that when I can cum I do. So I just fucked the bottom for a few minutes and dumped my load. I figured the other top would like using my cum for lube. I didn’t dump the load very deep – when I came I had him on his belly with his legs together so his sphincter was massaging the head of my dick. But the load didn’t spill out – so that was good…

I think I was the visitor’s type, and the bottom-du-jour just didn’t do it for him. He tried to get hard enough to fuck again, but it just wasn’t working for him. Later in the evening he told me how he gets into guys with beards, and I think he mentioned that he likes guys who are a little stocky (I was drunk when he said it, so don’t remember exactly what he said – but I remember thinking, ‘So, I’m your type…’) And it sorta fit with how things were going for him in the minute.

What he seemed to like most was watching the bottom suck my dick – he liked that more than having the bottom suck his dick. I think I was what turned him on (though not enough to get hard enough to fuck the bottom). And in his defense he had to get up at 3am that morning – so he was dead tired. I know I can’t perform very well when I’m tired…

Anyway, we finally wound things up with the bottom. Before he left the bottom came out to see the other top and be seen by the top. Turns out the bottom had lived in the same city as the visitor currently lives so they had a bit in common.

Then I spent the rest of the evening eating and drinking with the visitor. He was a great guy. I got totally sloshed and the visitor had even more to drink than I did, but it was fun.