I woke up earlier than I wanted to on Sunday, but then tried to stay in bed and rest. When I did finally get up my bottom and I went to breakfast. It was better than the day before – the eggs weren’t runny and the hot food was actually hot (and it was free for me since I had bought the weekend pass).

When we got back to the room I thought it was odd that tops would come to the door hoping to fuck the bottom and he’d answer the door and say he wasn’t up for being fucked. His rib was still hurting from the rough fuck at the gangbang the prior day, but I got the sense that it was more than that.

Then he mentioned that the hot vers top jock who was at the gangbang wanted to come and “hang out” with us. He then mentioned that he had stayed up late IMing him and had been IMing in the morning as well. I could tell he was infatuated with him. Honestly, I think it’s great if a cumdump finds a gangbang top and falls in love. It’s sorta the perfect combination. Far better than meeting someone socially who’s going to freak out when they find out you like being an anonymous bareback gangbang bottom.

I said yes to the guy coming over, but I was apprehensive. There were a number of scenarios where it could work out great, and a few that would be a problem. It would have worked if he had come over, thrown the bottom on the bed, fucked him, and then spent the afternoon hunting for more tops to fuck the bottom. Or since he’s vers, maybe he’d spend the afternoon taking loads with my bottom – that would have been cool too… But there was something in the bottom’s eyes that worried me – love.

The guy came over and I was busy writing up the first blog post about Friday night. They laid on the bed and talked and sometimes would involve me in the discussion, but then things got more intense between them. They were kissing and cuddling and making out… Frankly, it was just the wrong time and place for that. I got to the end of my blog post and wondered what in the fuck I was supposed to do. It wasn’t comfortable sitting in the chair and I really wanted to be doing some filming – that was one of my primary objectives for the weekend and I hadn’t done any of it yet.

There was an older bottom online who wanted to come over and was up for being videotaped. I pushed him off a bit thinking I’d give the two love birds time to finish what they started, but when the bottom showed up they were taking things so slow they had just gotten naked and were getting ready to fuck. The trick took off his clothes and the two of them on the bed suddenly realized that it wasn’t just about the two of them any more. “My bottom” (I’m using those words loosely) asked “Should we leave” and I just said “Yeah”. I was fuming by this point because things had gotten so awkward. They got their clothes on while I got the camera and lights ready and then they left.

I had an interesting hookup with the trick in which I fisted him. It was my first time fisting and I got totally boned doing it – but I’ll save that for a separate blog post.

When the trick was gone I texted “my bottom” and told him I wanted to talk face to face. He was eating and got there like 30 minutes later. We had what I thought was a really good, honest talk. A lot of issues came out and I thought everything was back on track by the end of it.

A little after we were done talking this young sub texted me. He’d been wanting to hookup for a while and it just hadn’t happened, and he was interested in having sex with both me and “my bottom” even though he swore he was neg and he knew “my bottom” was a cum dump.

“My bottom” started cleaning up a bit (said it was in preparation for the gangbang), and then the young sub bottom showed up. He liked being a puppy and started nuzzling his head on my belly and getting me to pet him. He was really sweet and while he wasn’t very verbal, he did a fair amount of non-verbal communication (“my bottom” could have learned a lot from the kid). The young sub started sucking my dick and I got “my bottom” to come over and the puppy seemed really excited to service him.

I got behind the puppy and he pulled down his pants and exposed his hole for me. Then he took off his pants and shoes completely as it got more serious. I fucked him a bit, but the position was a little awkward. I knew the perfect position would be doggy style (how appropriate) with the puppy on all fours, one of us behind and one of us on his knees in front. So I got up and figured I’d switch with “my bottom”. I got on my knees and got the puppy on all fours and “my bottom” started to fuck him. It seemed like just a minute or two later when “my bottom” announced he was really close and about to blow his load. I just asked “so you’re going to lube his hole for me?”, and then he blew his load up the puppy’s ass. [The sub bottom knew it was happening, knew he was about to take a load from a cumhole bottom and didn’t do anything to say or indicate ‘no’.]

Then “my bottom” went back to cleaning up the room as I fucked the puppy’s now cummy hole. At least that’s what I thought he was doing.

I was having a great time with the puppy – I loved how submissive he was. I had put a collar on him early on, and then he picked a hood and put that on (he LOVED hoods). I fucked him for quite a while but never did cum. The odd part was that he seemed a little hesitant to take my (neg) load, even though he had been fine taking “my bottom’s” poz load. When I had him on his back he’d stiffen his legs which made it difficult to really fuck him. It’s not like that’s puppy play – if you’ve ever seen a dog roll on his back and be submissive their legs are never straight.

We had a good session that was really tender and intimate. I loved how tactile he was to the point where I’d really love to do more puppy play (hint, hint to any of you in the NY area who identify as puppies).

I tried to get “my bottom” to get back into the play, but he resisted. I suggested having the puppy rim his hole (dogs like ass, right?), but he wasn’t even willing to do that.

As we were winding up “my bottom” left and said he was going downstairs for a drink or something. I was still concentrating on the puppy and didn’t really think twice about it. I asked him to do final approvals for the gangbang and send out the final e-mail with details, which he did before he left.

The puppy took off his hood which was his non-verbal signal that he was done. I took off his collar releasing him and he got ready and went. He had told me that the load he got from “my bottom” was his first one at MAL. I asked him how MAL was going for him and he said something like “it’s going great now” and then rubbed his head in my lap. I was seriously falling for the pup… He said he’d try to come to the gangbang. He’d mentioned hed’ be up for it previously as long as he was hooded since he didn’t want anyone to recognize him.

Then he left and I went and had dinner and a beer with Jayson Park. (Actually, he didn’t have dinner – just drank a beer while he watched me eat).

Then I went back up to the room to prep for the gangbang and “my bottom” wasn’t back and he hadn’t responded to a couple of text messages I had sent. Then about 30 minutes before the gangbang was supposed to start I noticed that his stuff was missing. While I had been fucking the puppy he had packed up and left. How he could sit there and do the final approvals and sent out the confirmation for the gangbang when he knew he was leaving is beyond me.

Later I found he had sent me an e-mail after he left…

On my way back to NYC via train. I just needed to leave…

Thanks for letting me join you this weekend.  Had a blast.

That e-mail sorta sums up his contradictions. He had a great time, but he had to leave without saying anything.

There’s so much I could say about him, but it would all be conjecture. I really don’t feel like I understand him much at all. I know deep down he’s a good guy, but he seems horribly conflicted. I’ve seen his personal Facebook page and in his profile pic he’s this completely normal, happy regular gay guy. But then he likes to get gangbanged, but then he also seems to have issues with getting gangbanged. He seems like he’s got a lot to work out, and I hope for his sake he gets to the bottom of it all.

With everything that had already happened that day I wasn’t really looking forward to the gangbang anyway. I knew Jayson was headed off drinking for the evening so after sending out a cancellation notice on BBRT, I called him up and we went out to the Eagle and then to the Reaction dance party later that night (but that’s another blog post).

And a couple postscripts to this post…

First, when it was done the day was actually a good day. I fisted someone for the first time, and found I really love playing with puppies, and Jayson and I had fun when we went out and a good fuck when we got back. So yeah, there was drama, but the sum total of the day was really good.

Second, the sub bottom texted me later and asked what “my bottom’s” HIV status was. Silly boy. I reiterated what I told him before – that the guy had taken 15 loads so far during the weekend and then later told him the load was “undetectable” but that if he was concerned he should be more careful and tell his limits to his tops. Personally, I think the sub bottom is doing a weird form of bug chasing where he puts himself in situations where he will take poz cum, but he does it in a way which is completely submissive so it’s done to him rather than him actively doing it – which sorta fits with his submissiveness. From my perspective I knew “my bottom” was on meds so there was almost a zero chance the sub bottom would get pozzed.

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So I was sitting here this afternoon writing up those hookups I just posted and it got me boned. I hadn’t really thought about hooking up today. I jacked off 3 times yesterday and didn’t know if I could even cum today. In fact I had tried to jack off earlier in the day and couldn’t cum. And if you had asked me earlier in the day if I’d be up for hooking up I would have said ‘no’. I was recovering from having 5 rather strong margaritas last night and not particularly horny. But still when I got boned I figured I’d see what was out there.

And what do you know – when I looked in the new member list there was a guy that showed he was 0 miles from me. He had about 20 views of his profile and he was online, so I said ‘hi’ and one thing led to another and he wanted me to come over for a blindfolded hookup. His pics weren’t all that great, but anonymous holes always get me going so I decided to head over.

I delayed it a little ’cause I had just taken part of a pill and wanted it to kick in. Also, my boyfriend had a trick in the bedroom so I couldn’t get in there to change my clothes. I waited and waited but my boyfriend never came out of the bedroom (he spent over 3 hours with the guy). I looked like hell. I’m way overdue for a haircut and look messy. On top of that I had thrown this a t-shirt from Uniqlo that I literally put on ’cause it was Saturday and I didn’t think I needed to look good ’cause I wasn’t going anywhere. And I didn’t have any socks and didn’t have a cockring. But I went anyway ’cause I figured the guy would be blindfold and never see me anyway – so what I looked like really didn’t matter.

He was just a few blocks away. I head over and the door is open and I just push in. It’s an alcove studio and he’s on the bed on all fours with his hole in the air. Sweet. He was naked except for running shoes and a blindfold. For some reason I kick off my shoes but otherwise stay dressed. I pull my dick out and get on my knees and eat out his hole. Nice hole. He just lays there and moans contentedly.

I get him lubed with spit and stand up and start to fuck him, but he wants a little more lube, so I oblige. All I could see is his back ass and legs. I’m not quite sure the best words to describe it, but he just looked like a sweet piece of meat – a great piggy hole.

Curiously, it didn’t take long at all to cum in his ass. It’s weird. I sorta expected problems, but didn’t have any. Since I had taken a pill I stayed hard after I came. I just slowly fucked his hole. He liked it when I’d pull almost completely out and push back in. That felt pretty great as well – it was like he had folds in his ass that would flop one way and then the other and massage my dick in the process.

He liked it when I’d put all my weight on him. I was just thinking it would be a quick pump-and-dump but it was turning into more than that. When we rolled over on our sides and I continued to fuck him I noticed that he had these wonderful hairy runners legs. I also really liked his little hands – they were small but masculine. Given his little hands I was expecting a little dick, but that wasn’t the case at all. He wasn’t hard but it was clear he had this big meaty uncut cock… Beyond that he has this tough piggy look to him. He had a closely clipped head. He was balding, but it worked on him. His face was pot marked from acne, but somehow it was hot on him (like the guy in Connecticut I used to fuck)… All in all he reminded me of the guys from Bareback That Hole – they’re regular guys with plenty of “imperfections” but somehow those imperfections just make them hotter and piggier.

He also wanted me to piss in his ass, but I just couldn’t manage it. And I could tell he wanted me to hang around a bit, and I did for a little while. We kept stopping and he’d give me awesome blowjobs. But finally I had sorta had enough and didn’t want to draw it out to the point where a great hookup became unpleasant, so I ate his well fucked ass a little and then headed out.

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[I’m really behind on writing things up. I’ll try to catch up over the next couple days…]

There’s a guy who has bee hitting me up on Adam4Adam for over a year – probably closer to two years. It was mostly a scheduling thing, but I also just didn’t get a clear vibe off his pics and profile and while I thought he’d probably be a good hole, I wasn’t sure if he was someone who was worth going out of my way for…

Well, we finally hooked up Saturday afternoon and I should have gone out of my way a long time ago… 😉  Initial impressions were that he was attractive, thin, and sorta preppy. We got undressed he had a great body – better than his pics. He got down and sucked my cock briefly, then I bent him over and rimmed his smooth hairless hole. He had the type of hole that looked like it was “experienced” but well maintained, if you know what I mean. He was perfectly clean and it was fun to eat out his hole…

Then he made it clear that he was up for more than just fucking. I forget exactly how he said it, but I remember him mentioning hoods and a few other things. That wasn’t what I was expecting, so I sorta had to scramble a bit. Went over to the chest by the side of the bed where I had my “toys” (the ones that aren’t in storage). He was laying on his belly on the bed and I just pulled things out and put them on him… collar, wrist restraints (locked together with a heavy lock), ankle restraints, a spreader bar between his legs, and a spandex hood over his face.

Even though he was all hooded and bound I wanted to start with just fucking him. I haven’t used my spreader bar in a long time. The thing I like about it is that I can have the bottom’s legs up in position that is easy to manage. I can either hold the bar with one hand or if I lean forward I can control it with my shoulders. Honestly I feel like I’ve become a one trick pony lately in that I always cum with the bottom on his belly. I was surprised how good it felt using the spreader bar. I mean the guy had a great hole, but it was rubbing my dick better than it usually does when the bottom has his legs in the air. I think part of it is that I can control the height of the guy’s hole by controlling his legs.

Anyway, felt good, but finally I flipped him over, legs still spread with the spreader bar, and fucked him. Given that he had a hood on it was pretty impersonal – like he was just a piece of meat. But I like it like that. One thing I have gotten into is fucking a guy from an angle. It feels different and on some guys it feels really great. It wasn’t all that long before I blew my load up his hole.

After I came he told me he wanted to clean off my dick, which is exactly what I had in mind… Then he wanted me to use my finger to get cum out of his ass and feed it to him, but I had been thinking before he got there that my finger nails needed trimming, so I didn’t really want to try that. I felched his hole a bit and then stuck my finger in but gave up quickly – afraid I was going to rip his ass with my fingernail.

So in terms of fucking I was sorta done, but I had a hot guy in restraints ass up on my bed so I couldn’t just stop there. I went over to the toy chest and pulled out a butt plug, spit on it and shoved it up his cummy ass. I then pulled out a small rubber paddle and a small wood paddle and tried them on him. But I could tell by the way he was reacting to them that it wasn’t pleasant for him. I don’t know what made me think he’d like flogging if he didn’t like paddling, but I figured I’d try. I think part of it was just me being insistent. So I got my softest flogger (made of deer skin) and started trying to flog him.

Flogging him was a little tricky given his position on the bed. I was having a hard time with my aim. Then when I figured out the aim part the flogger started sticking to the sweat on my back, so I had to grab my t-shirt and put it back on. Then I was able to get in a groove and did pretty well with landing the flogger where it was supposed to go.

At first he was pretty quiet and didn’t really react one way or the other. Flogging is partly about endurance. The experience changes as time goes on. I kept checking in with him and he seemed to be fine with it. Then there was a point at which I could tell he was more than “fine” with it – he was actually enjoying it. I was hitting him harder and harder with the flogger and if anything his reaction became more and more positive. Finally I was hitting him about as hard as I could with that flogger so I asked him if he wanted to step up to a different flogger that might hurt more. He seemed game for it, so I started light with that one.

As I hit harder and harder he just got more and more into it. At one point he said “I’m afraid to say this, but I’m actually really loving the pain”. That’s just what I wanted to hear. I love inflicting pain (if the bottom likes it as well), so I hit him harder. 😉  That got me sorta hard, so I pulled out the butt plug to fuck him. As I did this squirt of cum flew out of his ass and landed on my fingers. Of course, I licked it off my fingers – couldn’t let it go to waste! But when I went to fuck him I wasn’t really ready to fuck, so I stopped pretty quickly and went back to flogging.

I figured if he liked getting his ass flogged he’d like getting his back flogged. So I removed the spreader bar, took some art off the wall and had him stand up and lean against the wall. But he didn’t really like having his back flogged. Said he was very anally oriented and just wanted his ass flogged, so I put him back on the bed with his ass up on the edge of the bed. It was a pretty sight seeing his puckered fuck hole exposed like that. Later he told me he liked having the butt plug in ’cause every time the flogger it the butt plug would send the force deeper in his hole. But personally I liked seeing his hole winking at me.

I could tell he was really getting into it so I was hitting pretty much as hard as I could and making the sets longer and longer. The harder I hit him and the longer it went on the more he seemed to like it. After a while though I knew that if I kept going I’d stop enjoying it, so I wound it down and laid down beside him. We talked a bit and I could tell he was hungry for more, but I was sorta at my limit, so we talked.

At one point he was telling me how his ex used to fist him all weekend long – to the point that his hole would get sore and he couldn’t take anymore at which point his boyfriend was frustrated and wanted more, so they’d have guys over and sometimes his boyfriend would get fucked  – which is one of the messages I remember getting from him last year – wanting me to come over and fuck both of them… He asked me if I was into fisting and I said I’d never gotten into it ’cause I have really big hands. He didn’t seem to think that would be a problem and said his hole is really good about guiding a top’s fist… So maybe next time I’ll get to fist someone for the first time!

That discussion got me hard and so I lifted up his legs and just started fucking him again. It went on for a little while, but then that also wound down. We talked a little more and then I sorta wrapped things up. I could tell he could have gone on and on, but my bf was out in the living room and it had gone on pretty long (for me).

Oh, and next time I think he’ll be up for me videotaping it. Should be fun!

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Yesterday afternoon was the perfect moment in my IML experience. While I have issues with how IML is run, it’s moments like this that will get me back here next year.

For starters the guys who were taking over my blackout party wanted to come by to talk to me (NotSoInnocent and BountyHunter from BarebackRT). Then while I was waiting for them a hot black bottom from LA contacts me and wants to come over. While I was chatting with him the straight married lawyer who I played around with last year called me and was in the hotel and wanted to stop by.

First the guys who were doing the party got here. One was in leather the other in street clothes. Nice guys. We chatted a bit and then there was a knock at the door – it was the straight lawyer. He came in and was curious that I had other guys in the room who were potential bottoms… After doing his forceful dominance thing with one of the guys – basically sitting on him like he was a horse or a dog or something, he saw that my gear was out on the desk from the session the day before and he picked through it and started putting a collar on one of the guys. Then he got one of the floggers and started using it on the guy’s ass…

The other guy decided he wanted to get into his leather and come back, so he left. It wasn’t long before the remaining guy was tied up and the lawyer and I were using him. I let the lawyer lead – he has this subtle but persistent energy to him where he forces you firmly but gently to do what he wants.

After a while he had the bottom on the bed pushing the bottom down with his legs as laid back on the bed. I was flogging the backside of the guy’s legs. (BTW, the “bottom” is usually a top.) After a bit I took some rope and some restraints and basically did a loose version of a hog tie with the guy on his belly and his ankles tied to his collar.

Then there was another knock on the door. I was expecting the other guy doing the party to come back, but it was the black guy. I had told him the straight guy was coming over so he asked if he was still there, and I brought him into the room… He’s not big on S/M and just wanted to get fucked. He stripped down and presented his ass to me. I ate out his ass for a while as the straight guy continued to play with the guy who was all tied up.

I started fucked the black guy with him in a doggy position, then I pushed him into the middle of the bed where he was right next to the guy tied up and the straight guy started forcing him down on the bed with his legs. That lasted for a bit but the black guy was a bit nervous and didn’t like being forced down so he pushed himself back up a bit.

The straight guy had already started feeling the scene was changing and I could tell he wasn’t 100% into what was going on. He’s about dominance and control. He seems more interested in the fact that he could fuck you if he wanted to than actually fucking. He’s simply not motivated to fuck at all – it’s all about dominance to him. When the black guy pushed himself back up that was sorta the end of his attention span. Plus the bottom who was tied up was getting to his limit as well.

The straight guy got up, we untied the bottom to the point he could get himself out of the rest of what he had on, and I went back to fucking the black guy. The straight guy then asked if he could take the whip he had left with me the year before – he wanted to go walk around the hotel. I figured that was the last I was going to see of him and the whip, and he left. Then the bottom got himself untied and he left too – wondering why his friend hadn’t come back…

At last the black guy and I were alone, which was a good thing. I can fuck when I’m around other people, but I’m better when I’m 1-on-1… Being watched makes me a bit nervous. He had a bubbly full ass (and a lean body). His ass felt good, but it was a bit of a challenge getting just the right part of my dick rubbed the right way. I was starting to think I wasn’t going to be able to cum when I had him change a bit and I fucked him on his belly with one leg bent – so I was sorta coming at his ass from an angle. That was better, but I still wondered if I could cum. Finally he was almost falling off the bed (supporting himself with his arms touching the floor) and I found the goove and knew I’d get my nut. A couple minutes later he got my 2 day load up his butt.

We talked for a bit and then he was on his way. One of the things he mentioned was that I needed new pics – that my pictures didn’t do me justice. So I pulled out the camera and had him take a few. The first couple didn’t come out very well (see pic to the right – lol) – I was backlit so the initial pics were completely useless. I tried to get the flash to work, but finally gave up and took a picture in a different location in the room.

I then laid down for a bit and thought that was a cool ending to the last afternoon at IML. But then there was a knock on the door – the guy who was hosting the party had come back in leather. I told him I had just come, but if he wanted to play with flogging or something I was up for that. He had never been flogged and was a versatile top, but was willing to give it a try.

I knew I had to be pretty gentle on him since it was his first time. He pulled out a video camera and a blindfold and so we recorded his flogging. Hopefully he’ll put it up on a tube site so I can embed it here.

It was a good session. Couldn’t go all that hard on him, but he took more than he thought he could and actually got off on the pain, which wasn’t something he was expecting. Eventually my wrist was getting tired and he was starting to reach his limit, so we stopped.

All in all, pretty much the perfect IML afternoon…

I’ve been bugging my boyfriend to buy a better video camera. Actually we’ve been wanting a better still camera (the 21 megapixel Cannon EOS 5D Mk2), but I convinced him it would make more sense to buy a better video camera since we can make money shooting porn with the video camera, where a new still camera can’t really make us more money. (Of course, it’ll be a while before we actually see a return off the porn and we’ll have to put money up to may models in the meantime, but…) Anyway, I had picked out one I thought would be good and while it was more expensive than the still camera it wasn’t completely crazy expensive. Finally he came around, and decided right before I left for IML that we should get a camera. I spent a day trying to figure out which camera was really best and chose a different one than I had initially though. When I had him review it he wanted the professional version of the camera which was even more expensive. Long story short, we got the video camera he wanted, so we’re on our way to being able to shoot HD porn…

We literally got the camera the night before I left for IML. I spent the plane flight reading the manual and I was hoping I could videotape a few people while I was at IML. But since I hadn’t made any plans, that was easier said than done. However, one guy did say he was up for it, so I had him over. He said he was up for more than fucking and when I told him I was into stuff like flogging, he seemed fine with it.

He arrives and while he wasn’t like his pics (he was bigger and beefier) he was still pretty hot – like a big piece of man meat. He had this big grin on his face which just wouldn’t go away. Since I was videotaping it, I figured I’d do a variety of things and start with stripping him down, restraining him a bit, and having him walk down the hall to get some ice. So there he is lumbering down the hall in a jockstrap and boots with his wrist bound together and it strikes me – OH SHIT – my wallet with the key card is in the room. I’ve just locked us out of the room! There was nothing I could do about it right at that moment, so I wait to tell him until we’re almost all the way back to the room. HotBttmTO had the room next door and we had exchanged key cards, so I knock on his door hoping he’s in, but he’s not. There was nothing I could do at that point except leave the bottom in the hallway and run down to the front desk. Luckily we were on a pretty private side hallway, so it wasn’t much of a spectacle.

At the front desk they tell me they’ll send security up to unlock the door since I didn’t have photo ID on me. When I get up to the room HotBttmTO had just arrived and he let me in (thank god – didn’t really want to deal with security on that one). Luckily the bottom was still all smiles and while that was a hiccup, nothing bad happened.

We get into the room and I hood the bottom and put him against the wall to flog him. We had talked briefly about limits and he said his limit was “no extreme pain”. He had also mentioned that he was a regional title holder for Mr. Drummer some years back, so I figured he had the same definition that I did for “extreme pain”.

I start flogging him (had to use the two floggers I had bought the previous day). Started with the soft thuddy moose one, and then worked up to the cowhide one that’s sorta a low to moderate pain flogger (depending on how you use it). His back was getting nice and red, but he started having problems taking it. A few times he indicated that he was about at his pain limit. I hadn’t even broken out the wire flogger/whip I had used on the bottom last year. That’s painful, but even that’s not quite “extreme pain”. Clearly this guy had a different definition of “extreme pain” than I did.

Since he had pretty much had his limit, I wound that down and put him on the bed. Now I should mention he had a 000 gauge ring in his dick (a Prince Albert). That’s absolutely huge. A 00 gauge ring is the thickest gauge that will fit in my urethra – so he was bigger than that. In addition, he had a big thick copper cockring on – the type that goes down and pushes on your perineum. His dick was all shriveled, which I discovered is his reaction to any type of hitting (flogging, cock and ball whip, etc.)

I play with his body a bit and then his hole and I’m hard so I shove my pierced dick up his hole (I had the curved barbell in my PA). I’m not usually all that into big beefy types, but his hole felt good. He had lubed up and it was all wet and slick. After a little fucking I noticed he wasn’t totally clean, but it wasn’t so bad that I was going to stop. But as I fucked him more it became more of an issue, so I stopped.

I figured I’d videotape him douching. He was still hooded, so I led him into the bathroom, got him situated in the tub and used the shower shot on him. Thing was, I could tell I was putting more water up there than was coming out, so after a while it sorta seemed counter productive.

We went back to the bed and fucked a little more, but like I expected it was now an even sloppier mess up there. My dick goes soft when shit is an issue and all of that sorta put my dick out of commission and stopped the fucking. [And for thoe of you who are critics – no that doesn’t make me a bad top.]

So since I had this big beefy guy tied up on the bed I figured I’d have some fun with him and started playing with his dick and balls. My goal was to edge him and see how much he could take. So I licked his balls and his dick. Didn’t suck his dick – just licked it. He definitely responded and got totally hard. I licked and licked and licked. Looking at the time code on the video I think it went on for about 20 minutes. He was in agony ’cause he wanted to cum, but couldn’t. I gave him permission to cum, but he really needed to be sucked not licked to cum, but what was cool to me about videotaping it was the size of his PA. I tried very briefly to put it in my mouth, but that just wasn’t going to work and I had zero interest in giving him a regular blowjob.

Finally I just gave up getting him to cum and we wound down the scene. When I took off the hood he was in a very different mood than when I had put the hood on. He wasn’t smiling, he was withdrawn and was difficult to read. I kept pushing him to talk and explain what was going on, but he was just shut down. The more I pushed the worse things got. He did mention something about being upset about not being able to cum.

He did show me photo ID and I took a photo of it, but he was reluctant to sign the model release. He took a copy with him “to look at it”. He also said he was a cop and people didn’t know he was into fetish. So frankly I don’t think he’ll ever get it back to me. Lesson learned – have them sign before you start. The weird part was he said it was OK when he started…

After he left I sent him a message. I realized I may have pushed him past his limits and there could have been a point at which the scene started going bad for him. If that was the case, I apologized. He wrote back saying I didn’t do anything wrong. I have two theories of what happened… First, he felt like he failed – between not being able to cum and having a dirty ass maybe he felt like he disappointed me. Second, it’s possible he was high and the drugs wore off. It was such a huge change in mood I sorta suspect that was the case. Or maybe I did do something wrong and he’s just being polite… Who knows? It’s too bad it ended that way though…

Woke up Saturday morning a bit boned, wanted to fuck, but I wasn’t sure whether I was going to be able to cum. I was just one of those feelings… Anyway, the fact that the poz guy I fucked the other night had fucked Christian (from Treasure Island), and just a couple weeks before Johnny Miles from Horndawgz had fucked him, I was feeling a little left out. There was a point in time when Christian had shown some brief interest in hooking up with me, but ever after that he sorta ignored me. I figured IML was my chance to get in his hole. I saw him online and asked if he was looking and he said sure, but he wanted a blindfolded pump-and-dump (as if that would be a problem for me).

Bottom line I showered and was at his room about 15 minutes later. I gotta say, he’s totally my type – short, thin, skinny waist, hot ass… He sucked me a bit, but my dick wasn’t really in the mood for a blowjob, so I had him get on the bed on all fours and I rimmed his ass. His ass tasted a little funny, and before I even asked he said he had put a booty bump up there and I might taste it. I usually don’t like fucking guys who are PNPing, but he didn’t seem all that high. But I didn’t eat out his ass as vigorously as I usually do ’cause I didn’t really want anything in my system. Nice hole though…

When I went to fuck him he asked me to take out the curved barbell I had in my dick ’cause he was filming later that day and needed to be in good form. He mentioned he liked PAs, had one himself, but just couldn’t take jewelry up his ass right then. First I fucked him on all fours and then on his belly. I gotta say it was one of the most wonderful holes I’ve ever fucked… Imagine a thick silky muscular ring – that’s his sphincter. Maybe he had just lubed really well, I don’t know, but it felt like putting your dick in a silky bag that was tight at the top and then just a big chamber.

Thing was, I’ve come to the conclusion that what gets me to cum is when the underside of the head of my dick is rubbing against something when I fuck. It’s why fucking a guy on his belly is usually what gets me off. Thing was the only point of pressure in Christian’s hole is the first part of the sphincter. It may feel incredible, but for me at least it wasn’t rubbing the right bits of my dick. I know some of you will say I’m a lame top, but it’s just how my body is built. On top of all that I hadn’t eaten a meal in 24 hours – just Ensure and some small granola bars, so my energy level wasn’t where it should have been.

Bottom line, I didn’t cum with him (like I didn’t cum with Jarod Steel at last year’s IML), but it was still a good fuck.