This weekend I fucked two black guys, the Craigslist Cumhole I’d fucked before and another guy from Brooklyn… I videotaped both of them, but didn’t manage to cum either time, which was sorta disappointing… In both cases we fucked in this building that’s under construction – it’s sorta a cool place to shoot – very raw, but the problem is I don’t tend to cum when I’m standing up. If I could have gotten them on their stomachs I could have cum but I didn’t bring a towel and they would have gotten filthy dirty without one. The other issue was that it was pretty hot both days and I kept overheating – which also makes it near impossible for me to cum. But the one thing about not cumming is that I fuck and fuck and fuck… When I cum I tend to cum quickly, but when I don’t cum I’m able to fuck for a fairly long time. In each case I think it was close to a half hour of solid fucking.

Saturday was the Craigslist Cumhole… Nice guy with a sorta tall lanky athletic build. Like last time his hole was sorta loose. I had cum a couple times the day before, which is always a bad idea for me. So that and his loose hole and the fact that I was standing up meant I couldn’t cum. It was sorta sweet rimming him though. He had put “Devil’s Dick” (frozen cum) up his ass before he came over so his ass tasted like cum. Too bad I couldn’t add my load to the mix. Given the sweet taste of his ass I’d fuck for a while, then rim him some more, then fuck, then rim… I’d keep pulling out more of the cum that was in his ass – it tasted good. (It helped that he was perfectly clean). When I started with him he was in a jockstrap and I just had my fly open. But then I started overheating so I took off my shirt and then finally took off my pants and my hood. Didn’t cool me down enough though (damn summer heat).

Sunday was a guy from Brooklyn. He had a more muscular body than the Craigslist guy. It was hot seeing this little black muscle boy bent over wanting my load. I gotta say some “racial dominance” thoughts went through my head, but they were just “play/fetish” and I didn’t verbalize them since I didn’t know how he’d take them. It’s not like it was really about race for me – I like thinking of the guys I fuck as inferior while I’m fucking them. It’s just part of being a dom top for me… There are some guys who are into it (in fact I’m making plans with another black guy to specifically get into calling him names and degrading him while I fuck him). Thing is, you don’t start verbally degrading a guy while you’re fucking him unless you know he’s into it.

Initially he put on a mask, but when I took mine off he took his off. That’s the problem with hoods – when the guys take them off you realize they actually pretty cute… He had this adorable face… His ass was tighter than the guy the day before and given that I hadn’t cum in two days there was one point where I almost came with him. But I was overheating (even with my clothes off) and the position was less than optimal for me. He was in some weird positions trying to get his hole at just the right height. The positions that were best for me were the most uncomfortable for him. The one time I almost came he shifted positions right before I came and it threw me off. So we just fucked and fucked…

Usually when I don’t cum I’m horny immediately afterwards, but that wasn’t the case. Even though I didn’t cum I had had my fill of sex for the day.

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Several of you have posted comments here on the blog wondering where I went… Well, I’m still around but I can sorta tell sex just isn’t going to be a priority this year. Those of you who know me know there’s a big personal project I’m working on. I feel like I’m burning the candle at 3 ends and I’m usually just too busy for sex. (Just to illustrate the change in focus – I’ve done 22 blog posts in the past two months on my personal, non-sexual blog many about the project). Yeah, I get horny, but if I don’t jack off my horniness hurts my productivity – so I just jack off.

Simply put there are times in ones life when sex just isn’t all that important – and this is one of those times for me. I’m sure there will be some negative feedback for saying that – whatever – it probably comes from people who haven’t achieved much in their lives. Anyone who’s pushed to achieve something knows what I’m talking about.

From the looks of it the project will be over at the end of the year or early next year – so there is light at the end of the tunnel 🙂  And it’s something I really want to accomplish – so it will all be worth it.

Since I last blogged I’ve had just 3 hookups…

First Hookup (almost 4 weeks ago)

The first one was with a guy I fucked a few times in the past – the last time was nearly 3 years ago. I had sorta forgotten the details of how the previous times had gone, but they came back pretty quickly as I was fucking him..

The guy had moved. He used to be in a slightly rough walk-up building in Hell’s Kitchen – now he’s in one of those new fancy doorman buildings in Chelsea. The funny part was the two apartments had similar layouts. While I felt good that he’s (apparently) doing better financially, I worried that he may have given up a rent stabilized apartment to get one that’s market rate – where the rent can go up very quickly. (A doorman studio in Chelsea goes for about $2650/mo compared to $1900/mo on average for a non-doorman studio in Hell’s Kitchen).

Anyway, that’s a digression… I get there and he wants to suck my dick right inside his front door (like before). He sucks and sucks and sucks, but I want to fuck. I start bending over to feel his ass, but he doesn’t get the hint. Finally I tell him (several times) that I want to fuck.

When I finally slide into him, his ass feels great – very smooth and sorta silky. But he’s not a very good bottom – I want him to arch his back differently so, with him bent over, I push on the small of his back, but he doesn’t change his position. The position is sorta awkward for me, so I tell him I want to fuck him on his bed.

We move to the bed and it continues to be déjà vu… There I am waddling over to his bed (my pants are around my ankles), and I have to figure out whether it’s worth the trouble to take my boots off so I can get my pants off and fuck him properly. I’m supposed to meet friends at Rawhide soon so I opt for keeping my pants on.

Once on the bed, the fuck is OK, but still not quite right… At one point I pull out and smell shit, so that’s the end of that. I go into the bathroom and wash the crap off my dick, text the buddy I’m meeting for drinks (he texted me in the middle of fucking), and tell the guy I have to leave.

I’m not sure why, but he feels guilty about fucking – says “we shouldn’t have done that”… But he always lets me do it. Problem is he never prepares properly – this wasn’t the first time he was dirty.

Second Hookup (the next day)

So I was horny the next day ’cause I hadn’t cum the night before. There’s a guy who moved into my general neighborhood who I fucked years ago. My spreadsheet of fucks goes back to 2006 and it was before that – not sure exactly when it was, but I do remember fucking him (he remembered and said “so it’s been ___ years”). When I saw him we both had changed since our first hookup (me probably more than him with all the weight I put on).

Anyway, it was a pretty straightforward pump-and-dump. He was a good fuck. Didn’t last too long and as he was leaving he said something like “quick and nasty – just like I like it”… He got what he came for a load in his ass he could take to work. Bet he had a big grin on his face that day as he dealt with his customers as cum was leaking out of his ass… 🙂

Third Hookup (almost 2 weeks ago)

I had a few options that day. The guy from the second hookup was one option, but I didn’t want to fuck the same guy two times in a row. I probably should have gone with him though. Anyway, I had to stop in Harlem for something and then the plan was to stop by the Upper West Side to fuck a cumhole I’ve fucked many times over the past 7 years. I texted him from Harlem to confirm and he had double booked and canceled on me.

So I went down to the Rawhide and where I was going to meet a friend. I was early (’cause I hadn’t stopped to fuck) and he was running late, so as I drank my beer I checked on BBRT for ass in the neighborhood. Usually I strike out with that, but this was my lucky day – a hot guy nearby was up for a quickie pump-n-dump.

I walked over to his place, and he had left the door ajar and was on his bed with his ass propped up on two pillows. Hot body and sweet ass! His hole even felt good as I was fucking it. usually I don’t like pillows under a bottom, so I took out one and then the next, but in his case at least one pillow was a good idea.

He had a great hole, but I didn’t manage to cum in his ass. It was a combination of things – 1) I had had a pint of beer and usually I’m no good sexually when I’ve got alcohol in me – though I didn’t think 1 pint would make a difference, and 2) I was sorta rushed – I needed to get back to Rawhide to meet my friend, and lastly I just sorta wore our before I was able to cum.

I stopped at one point. Caressed him very briefly. Got up and zipped up my pants and left. As I was leaving he said “that was hot”.  I never let on that I hadn’t cum. Not sure if he figured it out or not…

So that’s the extent of my sex life lately – not really much to report… Gotta work on improving that a bit… Hopefully the project will stop being so stressful and I’ll relax enough that I want to fuck.

Sorry I’m just now getting to the write up of Mid-Atlantic Leather (MAL)… Over the weekend I was either incredibly busy or really tired, then when I came back I had to spend a day dealing with some legal shit. Then I had a busy/frustrating day, etc… You get the idea.

So I drove down to DC with @rjinny and @nycivyfreak this past Friday and we got in at 1:30. First thing I learned is that the diehard guys get in on Thursday… Note to self – go down on Thursday next year… I had actually made plans to fuck and film two guys in the afternoon, but I got busy with other stuff and let the plans fell through (my fault).

I should backup and say it had been almost a month and a half (43 days) since I’d last fucked anyone. I just hadn’t really been in the mood. Life was busy and stressful, and then just before I went to MAL I came down with a small cold that only cleared a day or so before I left. One of my goals for the weekend was to just relax and take it easy. It wasn’t really bothering me all that much that I wasn’t busy fucking guys. I just needed down time. Friday turned out to be the mellow day…

@PortaUrinal stopped by with a CASE of beer for me… I had invited him to be the urinal at the gangbangs I had planned and he wanted to be well stocked. The thing with piss bottoms is they may buy you beer, but they want it back when you’re done with it 🙂

The two of us went downstairs to the leather mart where I looked for a few things… First blindfolds for the gangbangs, and second a better flogger. I knew Janette Heartwood would be there. Her floggers are incredible and I wanted to pick one out while she still had the best selection. I have a soft, thuddy moose flogger I got from here a while back as well as a cowhide one from Master André in Montréal. I’ve always liked Janette’s slightly better and a friend had told me many years ago that hers were the best you could buy. Anyway, bottoms had been complaining that my floggers weren’t painful enough, so my goal was to buy a more painful one so I bought a oil tanned flogger from her (she only had one – it’s good I got there early). It’s a nice addition to my collection and it’s a bit longer, which adds even more punch when it hits the bottom…

While we were standing there a guy saw me getting flogged by Janette and started talking to PortaUrinal. The guy was this skinny guy and he was hoping I was a bottom and could take his 10+ inch dick. lol

We also looked at puppy tails but I wasn’t up for spending $90 for a puppy tail when I didn’t have a puppy to use it on…  🙁

I then went back to my room and Jayson Park came over. By this point I was really mellow and relaxed. I wasn’t really up for a proper fuck, but having Jayson in the room, it was impossible not to fuck him. So we did a little fucking but nothing too serious (and I didn’t cum).

PortaUrinal then came over to drain my bladder (my piss was pretty bad that day, but he managed). Then he talked me into going downstairs to the bar to have more beer. I was trying to hurry to get ready to go downstairs and in the process managed to catch my dick in my zipper (ouch!) and I actually drew blood in the process. So that meant I wasn’t going to be fucking anyone for the rest of the night (not that I was in the mood to do it anyway).

While we were down there we ran into SFVersCumBoy. I sorta recognized his beard and stopped him and asked if he was from San Francisco. When he was, I introduced myself. We spent the rest of the night talking. PortaUrinal was plying us with beer and getting our piss loads in return.

When the bar closed up at 2am we went up to the room with SFVersCumBoy, his boyfriend and some of his friends. They left the door open and at one point this guy wandered in and after a bit pulled out his cock. He was uncut with a lot of foreskin. SFVersCumBoy said he preferred less foreskin. I was drunk so I pulled out my dick and showed him my sloppy circumcision that sometimes looks like it’s uncut. Of course he started sucking my dick (in front of everyone). Thing was, I was wasted so I didn’t even get hard.

I had had 5 cans of beer and 3 pints… I blame the excess on PortaUrinal, he blames it on me… Truth was that we both enabled each other. My mellow mood meant my guard was down and I wasn’t policing myself like I should have (and I paid for it the next day).

Eventually enough was enough so PortaUrinal and I stumbled back to our rooms and tried to sleep it off…

I’ve started getting “are you OK?” e-mails and I’m way behind in posting… Life’s been busy – very busy… For the most part it’s all good, but sometimes it’s all a bit much and I just sorta check out. I try to get the things done that have to get done, and then when I just can’t do any more I just collapse in front of the TV or maybe go out and have a drink…

BTW, one thing I realized this morning was all those times I didn’t think I came – I probably actually came. I was jacking off this morning. Actually, as a kid I never jacked off like other guys – I’d pretty much hump the bed – which is what I was doing this morning (sorta frottage without the other person). Anyway, I was having difficulty cumming and finally it felt like I was having a dry orgasm. I didn’t think I came, but then I checked and I had cum – not a huge load, but a decent amount. So all those times I didn’t think I came – I probably did cum in a fair number of them… Go figure.

Anyway, here’s a run down of my fucks lately. Usually I do one fuck per post, but I need to catch up so I’ll just give basic details…

The messy sub…

The first fuck I skipped and didn’t write up was a 3way that we videotaped with his messy submissive bottom. I have mixed feelings about him. The best way to describe him is “inferior”. But he was so eager to please and I think in many ways he knew his place. He liked being abused by superior men. He wanted it to hurt. He actually wanted to get fucked so hard that he’d bleed. The problem was he wasn’t very well trained. He tried so hard, but he fucked up in a major way. He was cheating on his boyfriend on top of everything else, so he skipped out of work early and came over. He actually brought alcohol and mix, but he hadn’t cleaned out and the enemas he brought didn’t do the trick. I hooded him, and flogged him. He didn’t want me to leave marks ’cause he was afraid his boyfriend would see the marks, but his skin was so sensitive I wound up leaving them by accident. I stopped as soon as I realized, but it was too late. Then I went to fuck him I sorta tore him up a bit ’cause I had my PA in. When I stopped to let another (poz) top have a go at his ass you could see blood. I told the other top that’s what he wanted and so he went ahead with the fuck. But then he got dirty pretty quickly so everything stopped. He went into the bathroom and I had him use my showershot but after about 10 minutes he was still having this reddish brown stream come out of his ass. By that point the moment had been lost, so I told him it was time to leave – and he left (with a bleeding ass).

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Honestly, this was one of the best sexual experiences I’ve had in a long time. It was the day after the messy sub and once again I had a bottom who was willing to do whatever I wanted. My bf videotaped it. I flogged him, and then fucked him. He was hotter than the guy the day before. What got on video was pretty routine, but after videotaping had stopped and my boyfriend had left I just lay on the bed and he started massaging me and softly playing with my dick. It was tender and loving and submissive. He was clearly there to serve – anything I wanted he would do. I just laid back and enjoyed the experience. It was pretty incredible. I fucked him a bit more at one point, but I just really liked the peaceful nature of the whole thing. I’ve been wanting to hookup with him again, but it hasn’t happened (yet).

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About a week later I had another hookup with Ian Cody (the Samoan-looking guy). It was a good fuck, then his roommate came home. Then I learned his roommate was his jealous ex-boyfriend and I had to sneak out of the apartment… Sorta funny…

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Then a couple weeks later there was the hookup with the little Latino in the hot apartment with no A/C (and the other top with the HUGE dick)…

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The day after fucking the little Latino I fucked Jayson Park. He came over and we alternately fucked and talked about a project he was working on. We stayed in bed so long and my position in bed was a little weird and I wound up fucking up my back somehow.

The neg bottom…

Then a couple weeks later (when my back stopped hurting) I fucked up with the neg guy who asked my status after I fucked him. At the time I didn’t think I came in him, but now I’m thinking I did. Other than not feeling the cum, otherwise it felt totally like an orgasm.

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Then a week later I fucked the hot, tattooed, 20-something Latino I’ve fucked before. He was rushed for time ’cause his brother was coming over to go out for dinner. Thanks to subway problems I was late getting there. I think the whole thing took less than 5 minutes. For a while I didn’t think I could cum, but he did get my load. Then I had to rush out ’cause his brother would be there in a couple minutes.

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Two and a half weeks later I was in California for a conference. I was thinking I’d fuck a lot while I was there, but it didn’t work out that way. I only  managed to get two fucks in before the conference started. The first was the night before the conference. He was a nice guy, but there wasn’t much in the way of real chemistry. He was a hungry hole. I needed a hole and he was hungry for the load.

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The next morning I woke up early (I was still on east coast time). Turns out there was this Asian guy in the hotel next to mine who was looking for a load. He reminded me a lot of Ian Cody (the Samoan-looking guy). He was sorta an interesting fuck. He was a civilian who was working for the military. The military guy he worked for was in the next room and there were paper thin walls. He was pretty sure his boss had left by then, but as I got to the elevator there were uniformed military guys around. Hope he didn’t get in trouble for the fuck. He’s technically covered by non-discrimination policies, but his bosses have made it clear that they’ll fire anyone they find out is gay.

I did have a rather interesting conversation with a gay guy I knew at the conference. He went into all sorts of details about how he’s now in a 3 way relationship. He’s a top with his “husband” (they’re married). But he’s a VERY submissive BDSM bottom for his “master” (who also has a boyfriend). The other day he texted me pics of the whipping marks from their latest play session… 🙂

That was almost two weeks ago now. Haven’t had sex since then in part because right after I got back from California I had a cold for a bit over a week. I’m just now starting to feel like I’m getting back to my normal self. Now I’ve got a crazy amount of work to catch up on. And on top of everything else we got notice that a contractor who worked for us 5+ years ago is suing us. His lawsuit is a joke, but it’s just one more thing I have to deal with…

Going forward, I’ll try to post right after I hookup, but no promises…

Last Thursday I was supposed to hookup with this hot bottom who was in from out of town. He was staying at a hotel in midtown, so the plan was to go fuck him and then head over to the poz party at Vlada a few blocks away. But I didn’t know (or forgot) that he could only hookup early in the evening. When I pushed the hookup to 8pm so it would be easy to just go over to Vlada for the party, he didn’t get back to me until 7 and by then I just couldn’t get down there before he had to leave to go see his play.

So then I was scrambling to find another bottom to fuck. This guy hit me up on A4A and my notes on him just said that when we talked before he had reiterated that he was neg. This time there were zero questions about status. The emails were short, sweet and to the point. By his 3rd email to me he had given me his address and said come over.

The issue was that he wasn’t anywhere near Hell’s Kitchen and the poz party… I had to do a transfer to get to him. I headed out, and tried to transfer at Times Square to another train to get to him. I waited and waited and noticed there were a lot of people on the platform waiting. When one of the trains on the other tracks turned around and went back the way it was coming from I knew something was up. I was already late, so I figured I’d take a cab the rest of the way. Problem was it was raining lightly and there were no cabs available. So I wound up walking 20+ blocks in light rain to get to him.

By the time I got there I was hot, sweaty and wet. I’m sure I looked like a complete mess. He lived in a VERY nice building and had a great apartment. When he offered a drink I took it ’cause I sorta just needed a short break to get in a different frame of mind. We chatted briefly and then headed to the bedroom.

I should stop and say the guy wasn’t completely my type, but there was something about him I really liked. He seemed a bit awkward and innocent and it was appealing… When we stripped down and kissed a little he liked what he saw and he got very compliant basically telling me he’d do whatever I wanted. I told him to suck my dick and he gave me a great blowjob – felt really good. But what I really wanted was his neg ass…

After the blowjob I told him to get on the bed and give me his ass. He got on his back and threw his legs up.  This is when I saw what I really liked… He had this wonderfully smooth ass. There was just something incredibly fuckable about it. I rimmed him for a while and got it all wet, then I spit on my dick and tried to get in him.

He needed lube and handed me some. I noticed there were condoms next to the lube. I didn’t take one, he didn’t ask me to use one. I lubed up, and pushed in. I had to take it slow and couldn’t go very deep at first. After a while I wanted to change positions so I started rolling him over trying to ease him into being on his belly (thought it might be a bit too anonymous for him).

When I got him on his belly he started bucking around and then wanted to do doggy. It was a little frustrating. I came close to cumming, but never could. He was squirming around too much and I was getting overheated (it was warm and humid in the apartment and I was sweating like a pig).

There came this point where he asked if I liked him well enough to cum. I said ‘yes’ (since that was my intention). We fucked a bit more and when I slowed down (’cause I was wearing out), he thought I’d cum in his ass and pulled off my dick. Then I saw that he wasn’t all that clean and headed off to the bathroom to clean up. I knew that was sorta the end of it for me – I don’t do well when bottoms’ aren’t clean.

When I went back to the bedroom he seemed nervous. He said something like “Wow, that was the longest and most intense sex I’ve ever had. It was a first for me on many levels.” I was a little surprised. For starters we had only been having sex for 20 minutes at most. I figured it may have been the first time he was barebacked and possibly the first time (he thought) he took a load. Then he paused a second and hesitantly asked something like “So the question is… Well, you’re neg, right?” I told him what he wanted to hear and didn’t give details (like my last test was over 8 months ago).

After that he was surprised I wasn’t getting dressed and leaving, so I took the hint, dressed and left…

My goal now is to give him what he thought he got – a load deep in his ass… Hopefully I’ll hook up with him again this week. I really want to get him addicted to taking loads… 😉

It’s always been a goal of mine to only cum when I’m fucking someone and not cum in between. It keeps me needing to fuck and focused on what I should be doing. Thing is, that’s easier said than done when you work on porn most of the day. You get hard, you jack off, and even if you don’t mean to cum, it happens. I’m not 18 years old – if I cum, it’s not like I can cum again in 5 minutes.

For some reason I’ve felt like wearing my prince albert lately. So I put it in a little over a week ago, and I was pleasantly surprised to find that having my PA in accomplished the goal… Jacking off with a PA just doesn’t feel as good and even if I do it, I don’t even get close to cumming. So if I wear my PA I don’t cum between fucks. Perfect!

[And those of you who were asking about my foreskin – well, you can see it in the pic. I haven’t pulled it down as much as I could, but as you can see, the doctor who circumcised me was a little sloppy and it sometimes covers part of the head of my cock. I’ve actually had guys think I’m uncut.]

Earlier this week I had a 5 day load built up and wanted to unload. There was this guy on Adam4Adam – my age, a little shorter, and fairly thin. He looked nice in his pics so I told him to come over. Just before he came over I clicked on his face pic and noticed his face had “a bit more character” to it than I could see in the smaller pic. Whatever… I like faces, but a pretty face isn’t mandatory…

He shows up, we go to the bedroom, and we strip down. It was one of those really hot days and he got here early. I had only turned the A/C on in the bedroom maybe 20 minutes before and it didn’t feel all that cool yet, so I took off everything as well (usually I’ll leave a shirt on, but I didn’t want to over heat).

His body wasn’t exactly what I was expecting or hoping for. He was really skinny, but sorta had a little belly too. His profile had said “neg, safe sex only” though he hadn’t asked any of the follow-up questions you get from guys who are worried neg bottoms. When he was on his way over I was envisioning a hookup with a guy who was a bit more “innocent” (it’s hard to find the right word). But as he sucked my dick and I started fucking him that image just didn’t really fit and it threw me off a bit. For one, his hole had seen a lot of use – that’s not a bad thing at all – it just didn’t fit the image of what I thought I’d be fucking that day.

Then I realized what his “type” was… He reminded me of the skinny guys you encounter in dark rooms. Attractive enough, decent bodies but not great bodies – they’re literally just holes who will take dick from anyone. I’m not saying that’s his scene – it’s just the image that came to me as I was fucking him.

I was reasonably hard as he was sucking my dick and then as I was fucking him, but something about it just wasn’t working. The heat in the bedroom wasn’t helping. If I had jut been laying on the bed it would have been fine, but as I exerted myself it got pretty hot. Usually it’s pretty easy to find a position that works with skinny guys, but with him nothing seemed to work.

Finally I just pulled out ’cause I wasn’t hard enough. He tried to get me hard – sucked my dick, etc. and after a while I did get hard enough to fuck again. This time the thoughts in my mind were completely different – I saw myself using some slutty hole who spends his nights in dark backrooms taking cock after cock. But even with that fantasy going through my head I could just tell I wasn’t going to cum. Which is sorta surprising ’cause I hadn’t cum in 5 days. So I just gave up.

We laid there, he jacked his dick. I sucked it for a while. It’s sorta funny his dick pic made him look like he had a little dick, but he actually had a very nice one (it was the one thing about him that was better than his pics). But my blowjob wasn’t getting him to cum (I’m hardly an expert cocksucker), so I pulled off, and he jacked his dick. Just as he was cumming I tried to go back down on him but he made it difficult, but I persisted and got his load. I find it really weird that he wouldn’t want me to swallow his load. I know some poz guys are like that with neg guys even though it’s pretty safe. Maybe he wasn’t so ‘neg’ after all and maybe my fantasy of him spending time in some dark room taking cock wasn’t so far from the truth… Who knows?