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Just looking over my stats for the year… Surprisingly this year is turning out better than last year. If things continue as they’ve gone so far I’ll give 41 loads this year (plus the ones where I can’t quite tell if I came). Last year I only gave 31 loads, so that’s good. And last year 16 of the loads went to guys who had never gotten my cum before. This year it looks like I’ll give my load to 28 new guys… Mind you that’s still down substantially from 2008 and way below where I’d ideally like to be. I think next year will be like this year – so maybe 2012 will be the year when I really get back into the swing of things…

Anyway, in an effort to get these posts up quickly I just got back from a good fuck…

There’s this poz muscle guy guy in Harlem who I’ve been wanting to fuck for a while now. I think he was out of town or something this summer, and I’ve been busy/traveling/sick since he got back. Well, tonight was the night… I really should have hooked up earlier in the day. I was so horny today I didn’t get much of the work done that I needed to get done. I should have just fucked and gotten it over with. It’s actually a bit of a long story featuring an extremely hesitant neg bottom who I kept trying to talk into hooking up…

So tonight I saw the muscle guy online and he was looking to hookup. I really just needed to get off. He wasn’t convenient to get to (transfer to a local train + a long walk), but I needed to fuck someone so I told him I’d come over.

After a little confusion getting into his building I ring his doorbell and hear a voice say “come in”. I open the door and he’s bent over a bench just inside the door. The pig wanted an anonymous pump-n-dump, which was great by me… But I saw a bit of a problem – he had long legs. I have fairly short legs and so it was going to be a bit of a challenge to fuck him when he’s just bent over a stool.

I got down on my knees and started eating out his ass. His ass had a bit of hair on it, but wasn’t overly hairy or anything. For a while I didn’t even touch him other than eating out his hole. Then I started feeling up his legs and really liked how tight and muscular he was…

I stood up and went to fuck him – had to push his ass down a bit to avoid being on my tippy toes… He sorta got the hint and instead of bending over his stool he laid on it, which put him at a better height. But it took him a while to do that… Then at one point he asked if I wanted to eat his ass again and I said sure. When I pulled out this spurt of liquid came out with my cock. I wondered if he had other loads in him (but learned later he didn’t). Then after eating him some more I went back to fucking him. Then he asked if he could suck me, so he did that for a while (he was clearly into ATM – liked cleaning his ass juices off my cock) – and then we went back to fucking.

I should back up a bit and say I had taken a pill in the morning and had been rock hard and thick all day long so fucking him was no problem. But I had noticed during the day that even though I was horny and hard I never really got all that close to cumming when I jacked my dick during the day. I knew it was going to be easy for me to fuck and stay hard, but might be hard to actually cum. Standing up just wasn’t doing it for me – I needed to get him on his belly. I asked if there was a bed we could use and he led me into his bedroom and threw a sheet on the bed…

He got on all fours and I just pulled back his feet to get him flat on his belly. It felt better this way than it did standing up. I still wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to cum, but finally I thought I might be able to. It took forever but finally I felt the first spurt, so I stopped and let the others come… It had been so long since I’d fucked I really needed it…

I pulled out and tried to felch him, but I had cum too deep – didn’t taste any cum. He then turned around quickly and cleaned off my dick (the guy really likes ass-to-mouth). I took a few more strokes in his hole and then pulled out, zipped up and left…

I gotta say after spending way too much time trying to talk a neg bottom (who really wants my load, but is hesitant) into letting me fuck him – it’s nice to fuck a poz bottom. They “get” what it’s about – just bend over and take the load – no questions asked…

I’ve started getting “are you OK?” e-mails and I’m way behind in posting… Life’s been busy – very busy… For the most part it’s all good, but sometimes it’s all a bit much and I just sorta check out. I try to get the things done that have to get done, and then when I just can’t do any more I just collapse in front of the TV or maybe go out and have a drink…

BTW, one thing I realized this morning was all those times I didn’t think I came – I probably actually came. I was jacking off this morning. Actually, as a kid I never jacked off like other guys – I’d pretty much hump the bed – which is what I was doing this morning (sorta frottage without the other person). Anyway, I was having difficulty cumming and finally it felt like I was having a dry orgasm. I didn’t think I came, but then I checked and I had cum – not a huge load, but a decent amount. So all those times I didn’t think I came – I probably did cum in a fair number of them… Go figure.

Anyway, here’s a run down of my fucks lately. Usually I do one fuck per post, but I need to catch up so I’ll just give basic details…

The messy sub…

The first fuck I skipped and didn’t write up was a 3way that we videotaped with his messy submissive bottom. I have mixed feelings about him. The best way to describe him is “inferior”. But he was so eager to please and I think in many ways he knew his place. He liked being abused by superior men. He wanted it to hurt. He actually wanted to get fucked so hard that he’d bleed. The problem was he wasn’t very well trained. He tried so hard, but he fucked up in a major way. He was cheating on his boyfriend on top of everything else, so he skipped out of work early and came over. He actually brought alcohol and mix, but he hadn’t cleaned out and the enemas he brought didn’t do the trick. I hooded him, and flogged him. He didn’t want me to leave marks ’cause he was afraid his boyfriend would see the marks, but his skin was so sensitive I wound up leaving them by accident. I stopped as soon as I realized, but it was too late. Then I went to fuck him I sorta tore him up a bit ’cause I had my PA in. When I stopped to let another (poz) top have a go at his ass you could see blood. I told the other top that’s what he wanted and so he went ahead with the fuck. But then he got dirty pretty quickly so everything stopped. He went into the bathroom and I had him use my showershot but after about 10 minutes he was still having this reddish brown stream come out of his ass. By that point the moment had been lost, so I told him it was time to leave – and he left (with a bleeding ass).

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Honestly, this was one of the best sexual experiences I’ve had in a long time. It was the day after the messy sub and once again I had a bottom who was willing to do whatever I wanted. My bf videotaped it. I flogged him, and then fucked him. He was hotter than the guy the day before. What got on video was pretty routine, but after videotaping had stopped and my boyfriend had left I just lay on the bed and he started massaging me and softly playing with my dick. It was tender and loving and submissive. He was clearly there to serve – anything I wanted he would do. I just laid back and enjoyed the experience. It was pretty incredible. I fucked him a bit more at one point, but I just really liked the peaceful nature of the whole thing. I’ve been wanting to hookup with him again, but it hasn’t happened (yet).

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About a week later I had another hookup with Ian Cody (the Samoan-looking guy). It was a good fuck, then his roommate came home. Then I learned his roommate was his jealous ex-boyfriend and I had to sneak out of the apartment… Sorta funny…

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Then a couple weeks later there was the hookup with the little Latino in the hot apartment with no A/C (and the other top with the HUGE dick)…

Load 2010-30

The day after fucking the little Latino I fucked Jayson Park. He came over and we alternately fucked and talked about a project he was working on. We stayed in bed so long and my position in bed was a little weird and I wound up fucking up my back somehow.

The neg bottom…

Then a couple weeks later (when my back stopped hurting) I fucked up with the neg guy who asked my status after I fucked him. At the time I didn’t think I came in him, but now I’m thinking I did. Other than not feeling the cum, otherwise it felt totally like an orgasm.

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Then a week later I fucked the hot, tattooed, 20-something Latino I’ve fucked before. He was rushed for time ’cause his brother was coming over to go out for dinner. Thanks to subway problems I was late getting there. I think the whole thing took less than 5 minutes. For a while I didn’t think I could cum, but he did get my load. Then I had to rush out ’cause his brother would be there in a couple minutes.

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Two and a half weeks later I was in California for a conference. I was thinking I’d fuck a lot while I was there, but it didn’t work out that way. I only  managed to get two fucks in before the conference started. The first was the night before the conference. He was a nice guy, but there wasn’t much in the way of real chemistry. He was a hungry hole. I needed a hole and he was hungry for the load.

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The next morning I woke up early (I was still on east coast time). Turns out there was this Asian guy in the hotel next to mine who was looking for a load. He reminded me a lot of Ian Cody (the Samoan-looking guy). He was sorta an interesting fuck. He was a civilian who was working for the military. The military guy he worked for was in the next room and there were paper thin walls. He was pretty sure his boss had left by then, but as I got to the elevator there were uniformed military guys around. Hope he didn’t get in trouble for the fuck. He’s technically covered by non-discrimination policies, but his bosses have made it clear that they’ll fire anyone they find out is gay.

I did have a rather interesting conversation with a gay guy I knew at the conference. He went into all sorts of details about how he’s now in a 3 way relationship. He’s a top with his “husband” (they’re married). But he’s a VERY submissive BDSM bottom for his “master” (who also has a boyfriend). The other day he texted me pics of the whipping marks from their latest play session… 🙂

That was almost two weeks ago now. Haven’t had sex since then in part because right after I got back from California I had a cold for a bit over a week. I’m just now starting to feel like I’m getting back to my normal self. Now I’ve got a crazy amount of work to catch up on. And on top of everything else we got notice that a contractor who worked for us 5+ years ago is suing us. His lawsuit is a joke, but it’s just one more thing I have to deal with…

Going forward, I’ll try to post right after I hookup, but no promises…

Last Thursday I was supposed to hookup with this hot bottom who was in from out of town. He was staying at a hotel in midtown, so the plan was to go fuck him and then head over to the poz party at Vlada a few blocks away. But I didn’t know (or forgot) that he could only hookup early in the evening. When I pushed the hookup to 8pm so it would be easy to just go over to Vlada for the party, he didn’t get back to me until 7 and by then I just couldn’t get down there before he had to leave to go see his play.

So then I was scrambling to find another bottom to fuck. This guy hit me up on A4A and my notes on him just said that when we talked before he had reiterated that he was neg. This time there were zero questions about status. The emails were short, sweet and to the point. By his 3rd email to me he had given me his address and said come over.

The issue was that he wasn’t anywhere near Hell’s Kitchen and the poz party… I had to do a transfer to get to him. I headed out, and tried to transfer at Times Square to another train to get to him. I waited and waited and noticed there were a lot of people on the platform waiting. When one of the trains on the other tracks turned around and went back the way it was coming from I knew something was up. I was already late, so I figured I’d take a cab the rest of the way. Problem was it was raining lightly and there were no cabs available. So I wound up walking 20+ blocks in light rain to get to him.

By the time I got there I was hot, sweaty and wet. I’m sure I looked like a complete mess. He lived in a VERY nice building and had a great apartment. When he offered a drink I took it ’cause I sorta just needed a short break to get in a different frame of mind. We chatted briefly and then headed to the bedroom.

I should stop and say the guy wasn’t completely my type, but there was something about him I really liked. He seemed a bit awkward and innocent and it was appealing… When we stripped down and kissed a little he liked what he saw and he got very compliant basically telling me he’d do whatever I wanted. I told him to suck my dick and he gave me a great blowjob – felt really good. But what I really wanted was his neg ass…

After the blowjob I told him to get on the bed and give me his ass. He got on his back and threw his legs up.  This is when I saw what I really liked… He had this wonderfully smooth ass. There was just something incredibly fuckable about it. I rimmed him for a while and got it all wet, then I spit on my dick and tried to get in him.

He needed lube and handed me some. I noticed there were condoms next to the lube. I didn’t take one, he didn’t ask me to use one. I lubed up, and pushed in. I had to take it slow and couldn’t go very deep at first. After a while I wanted to change positions so I started rolling him over trying to ease him into being on his belly (thought it might be a bit too anonymous for him).

When I got him on his belly he started bucking around and then wanted to do doggy. It was a little frustrating. I came close to cumming, but never could. He was squirming around too much and I was getting overheated (it was warm and humid in the apartment and I was sweating like a pig).

There came this point where he asked if I liked him well enough to cum. I said ‘yes’ (since that was my intention). We fucked a bit more and when I slowed down (’cause I was wearing out), he thought I’d cum in his ass and pulled off my dick. Then I saw that he wasn’t all that clean and headed off to the bathroom to clean up. I knew that was sorta the end of it for me – I don’t do well when bottoms’ aren’t clean.

When I went back to the bedroom he seemed nervous. He said something like “Wow, that was the longest and most intense sex I’ve ever had. It was a first for me on many levels.” I was a little surprised. For starters we had only been having sex for 20 minutes at most. I figured it may have been the first time he was barebacked and possibly the first time (he thought) he took a load. Then he paused a second and hesitantly asked something like “So the question is… Well, you’re neg, right?” I told him what he wanted to hear and didn’t give details (like my last test was over 8 months ago).

After that he was surprised I wasn’t getting dressed and leaving, so I took the hint, dressed and left…

My goal now is to give him what he thought he got – a load deep in his ass… Hopefully I’ll hook up with him again this week. I really want to get him addicted to taking loads… 😉

Sorry I’ve been so lame about updating the blog. There are 4 guys I’ve fucked and haven’t written up and I’m planning on fucking another guy tonight… I promise I’ll get to them soon…

Anyway, a guy hit me up (for the second time) asking me to tell you guys abut the poz party that’s held every Thursday from 8 to midnight at Vlada (2nd floor) in Hells Kitchen (here in NYC – 331 West 51st Street between 8th and 9th Avenues).

Vlada is actually one of my favorite bars. It’s really nicely designed, sorta cozy – a great place to go with friends and chat. My bf and I go there pretty frequently.

I should be clear – this is not a sex party… But there are bunch of presumably horny poz guys and obviously if an organizer is asking me to promote them, they’re bareback friendly (though officially they have no stance on the issue other than you should make informed choices – lol).

This is really close to the guy I was going to fuck tonight. I think I’ll drop my load and head over. And just to be clear – it’s not just poz guys, but also guys who are “poz friendly” (friends, supporters, “etc.”)

So head over there and find a hot poz guy to have sex with tonight…

UPDATE:

So I went… Nice crowd. Some really hot guys there, and others who were quite good for their type…

Like many bar crowds it’s a little cliquey, but the host works hard to make up for that. I showed up by myself. I’m not really a people person and I’ve never done all that well in bars. I’m just not very assertive in crowds. I saw the host when I came in, he said ‘hi’ and then after I had gotten a drink he came over and talked. People tended to congregate around him and he was good about introducing me to other people. I actually met the blogger “Hot Pig”, but he had no clue who I was and clearly had zero interest in me (whatever), but other guys were nicer and more engaging.

I did feel a little awkward / self-conscious about the fact that I was a neg guy at a poz party. No one actually asked me if I was poz – guess they just assumed I was. That may have been a factor in why I didn’t converse all that easily with the guys there – they probably felt my uneasiness. My boyfriend had been busy with something else and knew where I was, but didn’t know the nature of the party. He decided to join me and I had to quickly explain where he was when he showed up. He seemed pretty fine with it. At the end of the evening I asked the host “so, were the two of us the only neg guys here?” He said “no… yes…” pointing at me and my bf respectively. There was this really awkward pause and then he followed up with something like “well, you shouldn’t be with everything you do”. It was a weird thing to say, but given his perspective on being poz he probably thinks of it as a compliment.

So all in all, if you’re socially outgoing, you’ll love it. If you’re pretty reserved, like me, then go with a friend.

I wrote  a while back about the hot young jock who was coming to NYC and wanted to be my live-in boy (after a trial period where he had his own place). Then a couple weeks before he was supposed to be here, he dropped off the face of the earth – never heard from him again.

Well, the latest installment of “too good to be true” was a rich, young plastic surgeon who was coming to town for a conference and wanted to hookup with me… From the beginning things just didn’t add up… For starters he said he was interested in videotaping the fuck and didn’t mind having his face show. That raised serious question marks. What successful doctor would want the reputation of being in a bareback gay porn video (taking loads)?

Then he started asking if I wanted to do 3ways and groups with some of his friends. Generally I’m OK with that, but I wondered what sorta scenario he was looking for. Then he asked “do you like to party with other Tops or just Bottoms?” And I thought, “oh god – this is the PNP crowd” – too much money and lots of drugs. I quizzed him on it and he swore he didn’t do drugs. But there was just this overtone to what he said that was totally party boy / playboyish – I didn’t believe him a bit when he said he didn’t PNP. I was starting to see that he fit a certain type – and I’m not really all that into that type. The A-type personality rich boys and me never get along all that well – I’m way more mellow and “real”

He was supposed to be here a couple days ago, but I didn’t hear from him. Then he said he was delayed because there was some big accident and a bunch of people needed plastic surgery. Then I got these IMs and one of them had his full name and title. I googled him and looked on the hospital’s website and couldn’t find any trace of a doctor by that name (or a variation of that name). Add to that, he said his last name was Vanderbilt. I was now really suspicious – things just weren’t adding up.

He kept pushing his persona – saying he could have his driver pick me up, that he was staying at the Ritz Carlton on Park Avenue South (after telling me earlier he was staying at the Mandarin). But that didn’t make sense either… What doctor (attending a conference) needs a driver in NY? Use cabs for god’s sake. You only need a driver if you’re going from place to place and have packages.  I know enough doctors to know they just don’t live like that. One of the doctors I know is a brain surgeon at a world-renown hospital with at least 10 more years experience than this guy (who’s in his early 30s). The brain surgeon is LOADED and spends his money, but he’d never spend it like this guy… Even with the Nip/Tuck stereotype lifestyle built in, it didn’t add up…

Then when we were actually supposed to hookup he starts asking about whether I’d be into particular other guys… He sent me a bunch of pics and asked which one I wanted to hookup with…

Of course all those guys are hot. When he asked me “Which guy do you like better”? My response was “whichever one is most into bears”. I then mentioned groups are a bit of a chemistry thing. He didn’t get it. I was sitting there thinking the last thing I wanted was to be a 3rd wheel in group of jocks who were only into other jocks.

We chatted a bit more, while he said he read the blog, he seemed to think I looked like I did when I was in Dawson’s 20 Load Weekend. I told him that was 6 years ago – I didn’t look like that any more. I sent him a pic showing I now have a belly. He was still pressing on who I wanted to hookup with and not understanding when I said I wanted to hookup with guys who were into bears.

Then he started asking me weird questions like do I fuck with my clothes on all the time (no), would I take out my PA (of course), and was I planning on wearing a hood (not unless we’re doing video)? Then he told me the hood was scary. I told him that was sorta the point of it – it’s an executioner’s hood. Then he got all defensive and said “I know what it is, I have 3 doctorate degrees”. I just laughed at that comment – exactly what doctoral program had a class on executioner’s hoods? Plus, who gets 3 doctoral degrees?  I know a lot of people who are academic overachievers – he didn’t strike me as the type. And none of the academic overachievers I know have 3 Ph.D.’s (and Ph.D’s are pretty common in my family).

At that point I knew the guy was total bullshit. I mean things just didn’t add up –  1) flawless jock, 2) party boy, 3) crazy rich, 4) total playboy, 5) sexually obsessed, 6) lots of hot jock friends, 7) 3 doctoral degrees by his early 30s, and 8) a great job. I’m sorry, but too many of those things are contradictory. I didn’t know what he was, but I was convinced by that point 1) he wasn’t into guys like me, and 2) he was a huge liar.

Then he kept going on…

I can’t help we are all into the way our bodies look
It is not because we are Plastic and Recon Surgeons either, I for one only treat tauma patients
We are all very educated with great personalities, none of us are superficial
Maybe you are more into twink looking guys? I don;t know, if that is true, that is ok, no offense will be taken
…
I kinda think you are placing me into a category just because I have a great body

(Oh yeah, all his hot jock friends were also rich plastic surgeons… right…)

Then as I was responding he logged off (nice). My response was…

no, i’m placing you in a category because all the other guys you’re into have great bodies…
if there was more diversity in who you were into i’d be a hell of a lot more comfortable.
if i were a muscle bear, i’d fit in pretty well…
but i’ve been around the block enough to know what situations work and what don’t. this one feels all wrong.

He connected long enough to see my response, then disconnected. A little while later he sent me an e-mail…

I am sorry I e-mailed you, I should have known you were going to be scared to meet someone that looked like me.

I just shook my head and wrote the following response…

You’re not understanding me… I am not scared – at all… I’ve had great 1-on-1 sex with guys just as hot as you. There are guys like you who are into “real men” and bears, but you don’t seem to be one of them – all your fuck buddies are body beautiful types. This isn’t about what you look like. It’s about who you (and your friends) are attracted to.

I had a full week of work last week, worked all weekend, ran around the city with a relative yesterday, and worked hard today. I’m exhausted. Dealing with a group of body conscious pretty boys is the last think I feel like doing tonight. My idea of the perfect fuck right now is a sub who gives up his hole, gets me to blow my load, and then slowly pampers me and gets me to relax. You guys are too high maintenance.

I understand the whole muscle worship thing and know some guys will do anything to get with someone like you. I’m not one of them. In my experience average guys are often better fucks. When everything else is equal I prefer a lean to muscular bottom, but there are a lot of factors that are more important to me than the guy’s body. It’s those other factors that make me not want to hookup with you.

The e-mail was returned saying the e-mail address didn’t exist. I tried his other e-mail address – same thing. He had deleted both of his e-mail addresses. Only total fakers use throw-away e-mail addresses – I’m sure he never intended to hookup with me…

So, after having out of town pretty boys fuck with me twice lately, next time I’m requiring a video chat. I’m also thinking I’ll verify their location by making them hit a page that tells me their IP address and then I’ll look it up on the services that say where IP addresses are located. Otherwise they can contact me when they get in town and give me a hotel address and get a quick anonymous fuck like everyone else…

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[There are 3 other hookups I have happened that I need to write up… But here’s the latest hookup…]

I think I just shot the biggest load I’ve ever shot up a guy’s ass…

There’s a guy I’ve seen online lately taking loads in the middle of the day. I’ve hooked up with him and his boyfriend before – boyfriend has a BIG dick and fucks hard (I saw him in action). Anyway, the bottom in the relationship has been home taking loads during the day lately. I don’t know the story I’m just imagining he’s out of work and likes to have a cummy hole for his boyfriend when his boyfriend comes home from work. I know if I were his boyfriend I’d be happy coming home to a boyfriend with a cummy hole 🙂

Anyway, there were two guys who wanted to hookup when I got online. First was the guy who I fucked, but then he didn’t respond and I didn’t know what happened. Then there was this other guy who wanted to come over, I gave him directions how to get here, he read the message and then never responded. (I hate flakes). I didn’t understand why the first guy hadn’t responded – it wasn’t like him. Then he finally responded saying he’d been in the bathroom cleaning out (an acceptable response). But then he said he had a local buddy coming over, could I come a little later. I said OK, then he got back to me a a few minutes later saying “come over”… I scarfed down lunch and headed over.

His place was a bit of a hike from my subway and it was hot out. I’m a bit sweaty when I get there. He comes down to get me and says his fuck buddy is still there – do I mind? I said no, and we head up to his place. Then he tells me he doesn’t have A/C. It was 95 degrees out, and he was on the top floor, southern exposure – with no air conditioning. Great… If he had told me that I would have told him to come to my place. I start worrying I’ll overheat. There was no way I was keeping any clothes on – it would just make the situation worse.

The other guy is in bed with boxers on. The bottom and I start stripping down and then the bottom starts sucking my dick. The other guy takes off his boxers and I see this flacid dick that is insanely thick… I can see what the bottom likes about him… The bottom switches from my dick to the huge dick and sits down to suck the guy’s dick. I was sorta hoping he’d stand up so I could rim his ass. Then the other top asks if I want to fuck him while he sucks his dick… That was s dumb question… Of course I did…

I felt his ass and it seemed cummy (or really well lubed), so I just put some spit on the end of my dick and shoved in. Now, it had been 12 days since the last time I had fucked and I think 9 days since I had cum. His hole felt good, the position I was fucking in was ‘adequate’ and I came pretty quickly. When I came I was amazed at the volume of what came out. Not that I could see it, but I could tell there was a crazy amount of cum cumming out of my cock. They were big thick powerful spurts that kept cumming and cumming… I literally flooded the guy’s ass.

This is the point at which I made a mistake. He started pulling off, but I was still milking the cum out of my cock, so held onto his ass for a few seconds. At that point I should have had him stay where he was and felched the load out of his ass. I mean it would have been a lot of cum and should have tasted really good. But he quickly cupped his hand beneath his ass and ran to the bathroom to deal with his flooded ass. Too bad.

When he came back he asked if I wanted to clean up. The implication was that it was time for me to go. When I said I was fine I started getting my clothes and putting them on. He then followed up with “if you wanna stay that’s OK too…” but I had already started going to get my clothes to put them on and honestly it was crazy hot in there… So I just put on my stuff and left.

When I was leaving his building I looked at the time – it had been about 10 minutes – including taking my clothes off and putting them back on.

Hopefully his boyfriend will enjoy the cummy hole when he gets home. Gotta seed the boyfriend sometime too (he’s a versatile top).